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Sunday, November 30, 2014

"In relation to how the demons would utilise these fear programs - is obviously back to the original point I made above about why demons grunted and groaned and screamed and flopped about and bulged their eyes etc etc. The demon is accessing the exact sounds and pictures the baby/infant programmed into themselves and therefore by the demon 'accessing' these exact 'trigger points' they would push the being into their fear - which would result in a massive charge of energy - which is the pure raw energy that the demon would then feed off of. That is why in so many demon possession movies, we have to scratch out heads at how the demon carried on - perceiving that it is the demon that is crazy, tormented, lost - but in fact the demon itself is quite fine and aware of what it is accessing (triggering within the human)."

*Firstly please note that when I refer to 'demon possession movies' I am not saying that what happens in Demon Possession style movies is factual - most of what happens in demon possession movies is Hollywood over exaggeration- however some of what appears in these films are based on historical facts. Obviously for those interested in demonology - you can Google historical events of demon possession - to stick 'to the facts'.

Therefore you will notice in demon possessed cases that the demon will a) make specific sounds b) contort the body c) speak in weird languages or d) swear and cuss and insult people.

Also they did not only, as we all know trigger the fear of the person they were possessing - they were also triggering the subconscious fears of the people in the room. So here the demon would for example pick up on morality issues around sex and society and religion etc. Thus by observing the subjects belief systems - the demon would know how to best trigger their fears - by bringing to the surface all the hidden dimensions of how this individual has been programmed.

That is why the demon will trigger for example fears, suppressed anxiety or anger about sexuality -which is why one would see so many religious people being triggered by demons. Here of course various religions would argue that the reason why demons attack them is because of their true faith in God, and therefore the demon is trying to spite god etc etc. No, the demons were merely accessing the individuals fear systems, which come through strongly in the religious. Consider the following: The split that happens inside a young person when they are taught about religion - is where the person creates a mental connection to some higher being and thus in the mind splits themselves (to explain this loosely) where 'who they are' as 'Self' does not exist - because they are taught to exist as part of a connection to a higher being or force. Therefore instead of remaining as one complete being (which is what we are) the mind of the being places parts of itself separate into and towards this 'cosmic/godly' belief system - therefore in essence we separate ourselves from ourselves with regards to many parts of ourselves.

This is all created by the parent or religious institution teaching the young person to fear large parts of themselves, life and 'the world' - and therefore to place their trust and love, self direction and self decision making into the 'god' part of their mind - which obviously is perceived as an actual 'god/cosmic force' in the sky, but it is really just a construct placement in the mind. The parent/religious institution then teaches the child all the words and pictures and feelings through which to create this separate construct in the mind -which again is perceived as being something separate, out there, in the sky type of thing - but if you slow down the mind you will notice even though it feels like it is going out a bit and searching or reaching 'outward' towards some force, it is still inside itself - obviously or else one would actually experience yourself leaving your body and moving away from your body - which would not happen as the being/body would then die as the mind extracts itself from the body. There are people that would then claim they are in fact able to astral travel or move from their body - I suggest listen to the following interviews for more contextual info:

Seeing Dark Shapes/Figures (Part 1)

Seeing Dark Shapes/Figures (Part 2)

Also more on voices in the Mind:

When the Voices Trap you in your own Mind (Part 1)

When the Voices Trap in your own Mind (Part 2)

So, back to the point I was referring to above about the Fear that resonates in one from childhood. This was an interesting point, because I can definitely relate to this. Have you ever noticed yourself walking into a room and seeing an object in the room, or a colour, and you start feeling an anxiety or uncomfortability slowly coming up from your solar plexus? Have you ever met someone and as they start speaking, or you see a specific facial expression or behaviour or a change of tonality and you start feeling a slight anxiety around the person? We would come to a conclusion - which is again the mind protecting itself - where we would 'decide' as a 'thought' that comes up that there is something about that person, or room that is off, or that you felt uncomfortable around the person or uncomfortable going to that friends house or to that party etc. From here we make conclusions that it is the house or the venue or the place or the person that is 'off' - and one will even find reasons to say this by pulling on things that happened that one could use as justification.

Ghost hunters are especially good at this - where the specific personality design of a ghost hunter' will pick the hobby of ghost hunting to go and experience their hidden fears - by 'feeling for ghosts' and feeling for 'energies'.

Friday, September 19, 2014

Day 157: The Paranormal Series part 18 - Demons vs. Angels part 5

Todays blog is a continuation from:

Day 149: The Paranormal Series Part 13 – Demons vs. Angels part 1

Day 152: The Paranormal Series Part 14 – Demons vs. Angels part 2

Day 153: The Paranormal Series part 16 - Demons vs. Angels part 3

Day 156: The Paranormal Series part 17 - Demons vs. Angels part 4

"Children are not born believing that an Allah or a Jesus or a Satan sits somewhere above (or below) them watching their every move, punishing them at random times if their bad (or good?) behaviour and removes all responsibility fro them just because 'they worship' and thus allows them to participate in a world where cause and effect is the law, but because of 'beLIEve', cause and effect apparently does not touch the religious . Children are not born believing that animals are there for us (created by the invisible dude in the sky) to do with as we please. I could keep going with examples, but I think you get what I am saying…"

So getting back to my filters. I remember reading books on the paranormal and being completely perplexed and dumfounded that such things could exist. Now this is where I bring in my above mentioned point about religion and brainwashing. Maybe, just maybe, if my parents has not been brainwashed to fear god and to fear ghosts, but to embrace the reality of the situation - which is that there is no real proof of god - therefore you don’t have to lie about who you are in this life, and to not fear questioning why would god leave spirits to roam the earth in confusion - because questioning 'god' is a taboo topic - then maybe I would have had the confidence to ask the questions relevant to understanding the paranormal. But instead I had to buy books in town and read alone, pondering to myself what all of this could mean. You did not ask adults, because by golly - you just don’t ask those kinds of questions and if you do -you get very short answers such as 'ghosts don’t exist', or 'it is gods will(?), or 'don’t ask me ask your father', or 'don’t speak about that', 'it is of the devil'…. LOL I remember once in school either myself or another child took out some book about devil worship from the library. A few days later another child also took out a book about the occult and this put up a red flag for the school and all books on the occult/devil worship were duly removed. Children were being influenced by the devil! So obviously, I was aware that such topics were frowned upon and leaned towards developing quiet ways of buying books and reading by myself.

So the point I am getting at is that I like most children, never really dealt with the actuality of the truth behind the paranormal, because not even my parents, siblings or other adults I came into contact with had a clue about the paranormal and why it existed, and thus my interest turned into an ENERGY - a weird dark -as I called it before 'macabre' energy that sat in my chest and in my belly it transformed into a ball of anxiety as excitement as I was faced with this strange, ultimately unclear 'realm'. Even into my early adulthood I held onto this energy and by then it transformed into a 'look at what I am into' energy as I become a bit of a rebel against society and wore my 'paranormal' interest like a badge and ultimately a shield - which protected me from increased paranoia about boys and peer pressures and the increased pressure to do well in school. I believed that I was special and cool because I did not have a religion and dared to lift the covers and look at what was underneath the bed. Obviously I did not really see what was under the covers because I did not have a frame of reference at that stage of what could possibly be going on. In my mind, I too (like the adults) had mere frames of reference and unfortunately they were pretty much also based around 'demons are bad', and angels are good.

Only years later (which is where my involvement wit Desteni comes in) do I start to see and understand that there were even deeper truths, which in my younger years I would not have been able or willing to listen to and this was mostly due to the fact that my 'intrigue' as I mentioned earlier had turned into an energy which I had become accustomed to and therefore, this was the start of my interests into all things new age and paranormal - where my life choices from there on were mostly shaped by my desire to follow this energy of 'mystery and intrigue.' More in my next blog…

Day 156: The Paranormal Series part 17 - Demons vs. Angels part 4

Today's blog is a continuation from:

Day 149: The Paranormal Series Part 13 – Demons vs. Angels part 1

Day 152: The Paranormal Series Part 14 – Demons vs. Angels part 2

Day 153: The Paranormal Series part 16 - Demons vs. Angels part 3

"In the next part I would like to also address personal experience with regards to what Mykey mentions when he speaks about 'people following the energy' which is why we have 'spirituality' because this definitely related to me as well as the point he speaks about when he says that demons could change their vibrations so that of the same energy as beings that came from 'heaven' - I have an interesting story to share there as well."

So in the previous blog I mentioned that I would like to share my own experiences around 'following the energy' -and by this I am not only referring to the positive 'light worker' type energy, but also the dark demonic energies.

As I have mentioned in previous blogs, I always moved around and within polarities when it came to spirituality - depending on my mind set and what my current economic situation allowed. For example if I was in a stage/state in my life where I was trying to make a life for myself, I would go after the positive energy (which I will speak about more further down). Then as things would crash and I would find myself yet again bored with my life or afraid or angry then I would swing towards the negative. Heck - looking back now - I remember finding a balance between the 2 points and living both - lol. Yes, I would play around on the Ouija Board talking to demons about how bad life is and how everything sucked - while my profession was a Kinesiologist and 'healer'. This obviously happened, as I have come to realize because I was (as most are) in conflict about who I was and how I was living versus what I wanted to be.

So I am now going to take a look back at how I designed these 2 different energy-polarity personalities. My earliest memories of starting an interest in the Paranormal was probably already around the age of 8/9. It started with me watching tv shows like 'Sightings' and 'Ripley's believe it or not' which peaked my interest in the unknown, the bizarre and the unbelievable. From there I started buying books on ghosts and the paranormal and definitely developed a fascination leaning more towards ghosts/poltergeists/demons than UFO's and the rest. I remember the feeling now - it was always in the centre of my chest - this energy which if I could describe it was 'macabre', 'anxious' and 'mysterious'. The anxious energy specifically related to 'the unknown', in dealing with or coming into contact with things 'out there' that were invisible and I did not know when or how it could interact with me. I supposed one could say that those were typical childhood interests in anything that peaked an interest and stimulated the imagination.

I also recognise the energy as being that of 'curiosity' and 'intrigue' - where as a young person my mind was obviously being trained by my parents, society, teachers and my religion to not have and develop common sense or to even really ever know or stand within the truth of things - but to be an observer in life or 'that which gives life meaning' - meaning have you noticed how we as humanity value that which supports the lies we hold onto and therefore if anything is being faced - the mind will have difficulty grasping the straight truth, as it will filter what is happening through how we are programmed to deal with reality? For example (for those of you thinking huh?); as children our parents think we are pretty dam stupid. They tell us bald faced lies about god and money and love and how the system works and about fake human values etc… As a child we often question these values and norms - because as they say 'the mind of a child is innocent' -which essentially means the child has initially not been trained to bring up bulshit filters to filter the truth of situations -and therefore will directly ask questions. The parent/caretaker/adult will mould the perceptual abilities of a child and in some religions and cultures even abuse children verbally, physically and emotionally - until the child beLIEves the same mumbo jumbo as the parent.

This is Brainwashing ladies and gentle man - at its best. And here we tend to vilify groups - where we call them 'cults who brainwash people' - but this is exactly what happens to children in almost every house hold. The child is not born believing in invisible gods and worshiping money over all life - they are taught this by the parents and society. Literally the parent takes a child's fresh, clean, blank mind and washes through it with knowledge and information that have absolutely nothing to do with this physical reality and which harm the physical reality extensively. To give you an example: a child is not born beLIEving that little blond girls are prettier than girls with brown hair - this is brainwashed into children to prepare them, as the adult had to do to become brood-stock to be picked by the strongest man with the most stable income to provide for her so she can make babies (sounds crude but hey when the shoe fits…).

Children are not born believing that an Allah or a Jesus or a Satan sits somewhere above (or below) them watching their every move, punishing them at random times if their bad (or good?) behaviour and removes all responsibility fro them just because 'they worship' and thus allows them to participate in a world where cause and effect is the law, but because of 'beLIEve', cause and effect apparently does not touch the religious . Children are not born believing that animals are there for us (created by the invisible dude in the sky) to do with as we please. I could keep going with examples, but I think you get what I am saying...

Thursday, July 3, 2014

Day 146: The Paranormal Series Part 13 – Demons in the Afterlife part 4

Demons in the Afterlife - Part 4
'A Demon Perspective of Why the World didn’t Change.’

“in this interview an interesting point, is with regards to why it is that with most demons seeing what was going on in existence, the reality of it all, that we could possess humans minds and that we did not come through and communicate anything substantially. For example coming through and sharing our experience, as demons, in terms of how we came to the demon dimension, why are we in the demon dimension, how did we become demons, what is it like to be a demon and within that the real processes that were existent within human civilisation, in humanity, in essentially only being slaves to consciousness to the heaven existence as energy production machines and systems. So within this there are multi-dimensional points with regards to why we did not communicate or channel through human beings, even though we had direct access and the resources and ability to do so. lets have a look at the points I mentioned first:
One is that us demons who were more aware of our existence, realized that through trying to communicate to human consciousness, in terms of the reality of its own existence in its relationship to physical body and so for the heaven existence it would be futile, because we could see no point of any forms of awareness that would develop if we would share what was really going on.
Secondly that we had from there developed a particular relationship of revenge towards the ‘gods’, the ‘creators’ within the heaven existence in terms of realizing that the only impact we would have, is through creating a direct personal relationship to the gods, to the creators, in terms of intervening and influencing their creations as the human mind…”

What the demon above said, reminds me of your stereotypical demon possession movies – that depict for a moment how a demon would spew insults and ‘truths’ about god, heaven and our human civilisation. If you observe how these movies direct our perception – it always comes down to us forming an idea that demons are merely raving lunatics, crazy beings, bent on destruction. We only see the pain and suffering that the demon causes his/her human ‘subject’, and through this create our opinions that demons are bad/evil, and therefore what they say, even thought sometimes hinting towards truth, is not to be trusted and that in the end we all wish and hope for the girl/person possessed to be saved from their demon.

Movies of course have a big impact on how people perceive this reality. In the movies – we see a combination of sex, drama, violence and the usual elements which stimulate energy reactions within ourselves. Therefore as far as entertainment goes, people most of the time are not interested therefore in really hearing the deeper meanings/insights present in the movie, due to movies existing firstly to entertain. Furthermore we are obviously facing a situation globally all across the board where we are unresponsive to the truth about ourselves and this reality and only want to see or hear that which sparks feelings and emotions and that which does not question our reality. I remember when I use to talk to demons on the Ouija Board, I would be fascinated by the usual demonic rants that most people would consider ‘something from a demon possession movie’. I enjoyed the unconventional way in which demons would simply talk about this reality, about religion, god and humans.

My experience with demons:

The book: What are Demons - Part 1
Shortened version on Video: Andrea's Journey with Demons

Obviously even for me, there were some aspects of my own existence which I would not have changed even if it came from the demons, so understandably I am able to relate to the fact that humans don't respond to what demons say through their human hosts. I myself clung to my own fears and beliefs in and about my life, believing that I was different from the rest of humanity, somehow blessed and special and different. I was really no different from the rest of humanity, because years later when I was in fact faced with a dimensional being speaking to me about the fears I had to let go of, my mind also reacted very strongly and when I had to face the decision of letting go of my own limitation I too chose for my limitation to remain with me.
So, getting back to what the demon mentions in the interview above, in my experience communicating with demons, I could sit for hours simply listening to these sad souls telling their stories about their lives when they were in human forms and how they dwelled in the demon dimension and that this was not life they would wish for anyone. They would explain to me that they did not want to be in heaven because heaven was a lie, they did not want to be stuck on earth either as they were limited to having to use the energy of humans to exist, and therefore as you can imagine if you were to place yourself in their shows, they chose the same entertainment that we as humans choose daily, to not have to face our reality – they too made life liveable for themselves and would do what they did best, be it possessions, quija board communications or influencing people without possession. To a demon obviously, there was no morality. Once you die and in most cases with the demons it would be excruciating or anguished deaths – it changed them. They stood on the other side of death lost, afraid, in shock – just as you would imagine yourself if you had been through a traumatic event such as being raped, blown up, beaten, attacked, victimised.

How I became a demon – Patric

We tend to separate ourselves from demons – even in the ‘paranormal societies’ where we as ‘ghost hunters’ tend to follow ghosts/demons around to understand their existence and why they haunt people/locations, but ultimately we don't really care about why they are in a situation firstly, where they are now demonic’. The question is never asked by ghost hunter/parapsychology how a being in their life time, ended up so traumatised at death that they would end up ‘demonic’. For some beings (and I will add the link here) they did not cross over as ‘demons’ – meaning they did not die in such a way that delved them into a traumatised experience of themselves. Some beings in the old heaven use to choose to become a demon as they communicated with other demons and realised why demons utilised human energy for survival. Some became demonic over time, as they crossed over and realized that everything they were taught on earth was basically a lie – that religion was a lie, there there was no special heaven waiting for them and if in their mind-set up at the time, there was a ‘perfect heaven’ programmed for them (according to the old heaven) if they stood back and saw the heaven bubbles that existed for all belief systems for themselves, thus realizing heaven was just a holding space for souls – this realization of seeing how the dimensions really worked, often caused beings to rebel, in the sense that they would become outcasts themselves from the white light dimensions, where to exist one would have to accept the ideologies of yourself within the context of heaven and ‘god’.

The Creation of Demons – Jack

Aleister Crowley and the Demon Dimensions

ELVIS PRESLEY from AFTERLIFE- a DEMON asking QUESTIONS

Afterlife Experiences and Demonology – Anton LaVey

For more context of the experience of Desteni and Demons and the Portal through which the Dimensional beings in the Interview communicate:

The History of Desteni and Demons

More on the History of Demons/ghost and the current Mind creation of Demons:

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

Day 134: The Paranormal Series Part 4 - A Psychic’s Gate Keeper (part 1)

Day 131: The Paranormal Series - Ghosts and Demons Part 1

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-131-paranormal-series-ghosts-and.html

Day 132: The Paranormal Series – Ghosts and Demons Part 2

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-132-paranormal-seriesghosts-and.html

Day 133: The Paranormal Series – Ghosts and Demons Part 3

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-131-paranormal-series-ghosts-and_19.html

I will be starting this Blog Series, by walking through the ‘Journey’s into the Afterlife’ Interview Series – which follows examples and explanations of what heaven use to exist as, the design thereof and the truth of why heaven existed in its multi-faceted nature. We will hear about guides, masters, gate keepers, one atom gods, higher selves etc – all giving their perspective on how and why they existed within the greater design of ‘the Afterlife’ and the Human ‘Soul Construct’. From there I will move onto the Series about Demons and walk through the interviews done by the Demons, to better understand the greater picture of what Demons did, what was not understood about demons and how demons relate to the human experience. From there I will take a look at the quantum mechanics of how paranormal events occur now and how the Human Mind as the Quantum Mind is designed and creates Paranormal-Mind experiences.

“We had to make sure the knowledge and information in the minds of human beings of what heaven is remains in tact – and that if we did bring a being to actually communicate, that the being communicate in line with the heaven existence and how it existed and that they would not distribute any information about the heaven existence, other than what the being had been instructed to say, or speak, or do. So if one have a look at the messages through psychics, loved ones and things like that, the messages would always only be in the context of the personal relationship that the being that had passed over had with the being that was still on this physical earth; there was never any knowledge and information extended about exactly where they were within the heaven existence or what they were doing in the heaven existence exactly… I mean it was really very easy to manipulate the knowledge and information that was being channelled or communicated through from the heaven existence to humans in this physical reality.”
- Interview with: a Psychic’s Gate Keeper

For the full context on which I base my self forgiveness please listen to the following interview:
Journeys into the Afterlife - A Psychic's Gate-Keeper

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have to protect ‘heaven’

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to question why heaven would require protecting, as this indicates to me a problem between the reality of what is ‘out there’ as the truth and who beings really are and what is behind the ‘gates of heaven’ that require protection.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realise or question that if heaven has be be separated from the truth or from reality – then this is not heaven, because heaven in essence should be the place where all beings are able to come to rest and if they are not in a position to fit in with heaven as a place of rest, then I would ask the question, why heaven separates itself from those they are unable to assist, and then why this is still called heaven if it exists in separation from the truth of who beings are when they die.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to question the existence of heaven if as noted above, heaven is unable to assist all to be a part of heaven, thus removing itself from the needs of the afterlife, thus indicating that the real purpose of heaven is not about the ‘everlasting rest’ of ourselves when we cross over and thus;

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the story behind what heaven is, and this is not just from what comes through this information source as the Portal, there are many references in many religious and spiritual books that refer to this separation between for example heaven and the demons/ghosts.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be the gate keeper that ‘keeps beings in line with what heaven is about’ and to not allow them to sway from the prescribed information about what really goes on in heaven.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be this gate keeper that enforces a lie about heaven, upon earth, and in doing so not really addressing the hidden problems about what heaven really is while also allowing the continued separation between the ‘heavenly beings’ and those who are unable to find eternal rest, as heaven indicates its purpose to be.

I forgive myself therefore for accepting and allowing the same problem to exist on earth in essence, where the homeless, the criminals, the insane are all rejected, pushed aside and separated from society, without truly creating safe spaces for those who are for example elderly, or disabled or insane, but instead leave them to rot and be abused in government run facilities by staff that are underpaid and not monitored and for criminals and homeless people to not be understood as a product of our money system and societal value systems around rich vs. poor etc.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be the facilitator of a persons pre-programmed life designs and to never in my role question why this pre programming would be necessary – and to never question what is it about existence and human life that require pre-designs?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become depressed at the idea of dying

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto a belief that if I die I will not experience a life that I always desired to live

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear death, because death would imply the end of me as the mind and myself as a personality, which I have defined as who I am as the living expression of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear death, as I have become accustomed to existing inside a personality structure that lives for and as thinking and surviving.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to avoid the fear of death, by participating more in entertainment and energy and thinking – so that through my activity and keeping busy as the mind – I am able to forget that my mind will one day no longer exist, and through this cycle I am obviously feeding my own belief in who I am as this mind system that requires to ‘live’ and thus I keep this cycle of fearing its end going, by perpetually choosing the avoidance and entertainment of myself to forget, instead of realizing myself here in my body and utilising the life in this body to live to the fullest and to use the opportunity to change the fear systems for all people based on lack and survival to that of fully living, so that we may get to a point of satisfaction with our one life, which will allow all to stop fearing life and stop fearing death as the endless cycles of struggling within our minds and physical.

Monday, March 10, 2014

Day 132: The Paranormal Series – Ghosts and Demons Part 2

This blog is a follow up from:
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-131-paranormal-series-ghosts-and.html

“My fascination started after my father’s death – where I realized that I could actually sense and at times see an outline of him in my home. This I initially connected to a simple fascination with my father and the questions that were left unanswered after he died. Therefore I was not really sure if I was really seeing/sensing him or if my underlying fears and desires were the cause of my experiences. I felt lost without him and I also felt guilty for him dying – because I connected his heart attack to him having to much stress which caused him to have the heart attack. This burden I carried with me for many years until I discovered Desteni and was supported to let go of the guilt, the fear, the dependency , the inherent desire to be with my father and to slowly learn to give myself back to me and live my life…”

What opened up for me though from about the age of 17 onwards was a peculiar ability to continue to sense and see spirits. Therefore from being able to sense and at times see my father – I developed an ability to also detect other ghosts and demonic beings. This peaked my interest in the paranormal even more and it was then that I started dabbling with Wiccanism and then Paganism and the Ouija Board – where I had an insatiable desire to communicate not only with my farther but with ‘dead people’ in general. Years later, I could explain that my fascination with ‘the dead’ largely had something to do with the fact that I really did not enjoy being around the living lol. I found conversations with the living to be very tiring and this I realized was due to the fact that I had depression due to how I was not dealing with my fathers death and the strained relationship I had with him before he died. So all in all – my 'fear of being without a father’, which is an inherent programmed design in all people and my guilt at my father dying drove me to wanting to in a way punish myself for my fathers depression that he had all of his adult life, which ended in him making a decision to provide for his family in spite of his painful childhood – after which he died from worrying about money to take care of his family.

All of this weighed so heavily on my shoulder and I delved deeper and deeper into adult depression – which caused me to have an uncanny/strange kind of character - where I would be the odd, gothic looking girl in the back – who would cringe at the sight of humans at a party – and look forward to the time that I could go home to talk on the ouija board with ghosts lol. So my fascination with the supernatural around the age of 17 led me to reading ample books – which of course when my grandmother found out, caused her to have a fit and confront my mother about these un-godly satanic books that she was allowing her daughter to bring into the house. Funnily enough, my mother was so sick of her mothers tyrannical rants that she stood up to her and said ‘man leave her alone, she can read what she wants’.

After this I met a Wiccan at a party and soon after that we not only became friends but I joined him in his religion which kind of transmuted from Wicca to Paganism as we explored more and more ‘the darker side of things’. Anyway, I speak about my Wicca/Paganism/Ouija board adventures enough in all of the articles and videos referred to above – so I will skip to the next part.

Around the age of 24 I started studying Kinesiology because my second passion became about alternative therapies and assisting people. In my spare time i decided to study parapsychology – because this was what i really wanted to do but obviously career wise, in South Africa this does not give one an option for a paying career, so I simply did it because it was my ‘passion’. I joined an online course which was based with a paranormal Research group in Manchester, England. I only studied the first year of Parapsychology after which I was invited to come and live with the people who I am currently working and living with. More information on Desteni and the Portal above.

So you might be asking ‘why are you doing a blog series on the paranormal if your blog is about ‘Crime’s Journey to Life’. You see an interesting point that I touched on in my blog, which I referred to above, called: Ghost hunting – is where I realized one day that I was essentially using the distress of another being, caught on this earthly plane due to whichever distressful situation they experienced during death – to entertain myself with. It was the same as having a room full of hungry, distraught, sick, frightened, disorientated children and watching their distress and lostness to experience a thrill. Therefore what I am doing to myself and in essence to another being, even if it is a ‘ghost’ is using their distress and fear and confusion and vulnerability for my entertainment and from my perspective this is saying about me that I abuse others vulnerabilities and obviously will allow the same to be done to me for the entertainment of others – and this is a Crime against Life. Just like people who justify that animal abuse is ok because they ‘beLIEve’ animals don't have ‘souls’ thus don't deserve equal life rights or that the animal kingdom is there to ‘serve man;’ – the same applies here – we are as ‘ghost hunters’ admitting that we believe or ‘know’ that ghosts exist as the disembodied essence or ‘soul’ (and the apparent value we give to a thing called a ‘soul’") of human beings –and yet at the drop of hat we will use their situation for our own entertainment value. Therefore you will note that as soon as a human or other life form on this plant is in a vulnerable position where it cannot defend itself – then within Capitalism as the ‘need for humans to survive’ or within the drive for human self-interest (as in this case for entertainment) we will find excuses to abuse/exploit that life form.

Now, this is where I know most ghost enthusiasts will kick up a stink and complain to me that many ghost hunters will actually attempt to assist the ‘ghost/demon’ to ‘go to the light’ so to speak. But you know what? This is like saying to the room full of children – ‘its ok, don't be scared, go through that door over there, I have read in an old book written and rewritten by humans who are known for fabricating stories and inventing ‘knowledge’ to control people or to drive/impulse/manipulate the human for profit - that what is behind that door is ‘nice’. The fact is many ghost hauntings and possession cases re-occur and that the exorcist and demon hunters don't ACTUALLY know ‘what is behind the door’ (the white light) but are trusting sources from books – where they themselves have never actually been able to look behind the door …. So would you do that to a child? So for example when I had my ‘aha’ moment where I experienced shock and shame at my antics – what I realized was that firstly ‘why would a God allow beings who at the moment of a traumatic/confusing/angry death clinging to their bodies or homes or objects –why would such a God punish them by saying ‘well you wanted to stay there so weh…’

In the next blog I will expand on this point with another example.

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Day 131: The Paranormal Series - Ghosts and Demons Part 1

For those who have watched or read my experience with Demon possession, with know that I have a long history with exploring the unexplained, ghosts/demons, the paranormal and I have dabbled with Wiccanism and Paganism. If you have not read/viewed my history – you are able to find my documentation here:

2008 I was a wiccan - Andrea 1 and My experience with Wiccanism and Magic
For the rest of the series: Andrea's Journey with Demons
What are Demons - Part 1

My process from there to understanding myself, my possession and demons:

More information on the ‘Portal’ and the History of ‘Desteni’

So the reason why I wanted to walk this blog series is as follow: I have always been a great fan of ghost hunting/paranormal investigation stories/movies/documentaries. Like any ghost hunting enthusiast – I would experience an absolute thrill each time I could sit and watch a documentary on youtube or watch some scary movie about ghost hunters exploring/investigating haunted location – or some movie about demonic possession - where my heart would beat a little bit faster as I would wait in anticipation for some proof of life beyond death or to get a glimpse into the activities of some invisible force. I had an insatiable thirst to see or experience ghostly phenomena and I was absolutely fascinated by the intricacies of the mere existence of a thing like a ghost – ‘who are they, what are they experiencing and what are they capable of?’ Now these are the questions we ask ourselves, as ghost hunting enthusiasts, but what we are really experiencing is thrill seeking and the desire to understand more about life after death. For myself, I not only viewed the documentary/scene/video that I was watching from a thrill seeking perspective, but I always wanted to understand who or what do we become when we cross over – for us to become demons/ghosts bound to a person, location or object.

My fascination started after my father’s death – where I realized that I could actually sense and at times see an outline of him in my home. This I initially connected to a simple fascination with my father and the questions that were left unanswered after he died. Therefore I was not really sure if I was really seeing/sensing him or if my underlying fears and desires were the cause of my experiences. I felt lost without him and I also felt guilty for him dying – because I connected his heart attack to him having to much stress which caused him to have the heart attack. This burden I carried with me for many years until I discovered Desteni and was supported to let go of the guilt, the fear, the dependency , the inherent desire to be with my father and to slowly learn to give myself back to me and live my life.

To be continued…

Sunday, November 30, 2014

Day 180: The Paranormal Series part 36 - How Demon Possession works part 2

Friday, September 19, 2014

Day 157: The Paranormal Series part 18 - Demons vs. Angels part 5

Day 156: The Paranormal Series part 17 - Demons vs. Angels part 4

Thursday, July 3, 2014

Day 146: The Paranormal Series Part 13 – Demons in the Afterlife part 4

How I became a demon – Patric

The Creation of Demons – Jack

Aleister Crowley and the Demon Dimensions

ELVIS PRESLEY from AFTERLIFE- a DEMON asking QUESTIONS

Afterlife Experiences and Demonology – Anton LaVey

The History of Desteni and Demons

More on the History of Demons/ghost and the current Mind creation of Demons:

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

Day 134: The Paranormal Series Part 4 - A Psychic’s Gate Keeper (part 1)

Monday, March 10, 2014

Day 132: The Paranormal Series – Ghosts and Demons Part 2

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Day 131: The Paranormal Series - Ghosts and Demons Part 1

2008 I was a wiccan - Andrea 1 and My experience with Wiccanism and Magic

For the rest of the series: Andrea's Journey with Demons

What are Demons - Part 1

My process from there to understanding myself, my possession and demons:

Interviews from the Farm 22: Talking Andrea and Portal Authentication with Jack

http://forum.desteni.org/viewtopic.php?f=1&t=20

http://andrearossouw1.blogspot.com/2013/01/changing-my-thoughts-will-change-me.html

http://andrearossouw1.blogspot.com/2012/02/self-forgiveness-and-writing.html

Ghost hunting

Demons, Demon Possession and Entities part 1

Demons, Demon Possession and Entities part 2

Demons, Demon Possession and Entities part 3

Demons, Demon Possession and Entities part 4

More information on the ‘Portal’ and the History of ‘Desteni’

The History of Desteni Session 1

The History of Desteni Session 2 - Discovering Heaven

About the Demonology Website

Demon Possession in Modern Times

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