Day 199: I want my Demon!

Thus far I have been writing a blog series on How to write blogs, but I wanted to just quickly insert this blog, because it is a point that I have been noticing lately and have been wanting to do a blog on - so here goes.

This subject is specifically about the paranormal community - or what I have come to see as a community of people who are not interested in the truth of any particular subject, but who seek entertainment through creating Mental Disorders within themselves. Let look at the general definition of Para-normal which is: derived from the Latin use of the prefix para meaning "outside or beyond" what is considered normal. It is interesting because one definition of para is also abnormal - which ties in with my experience I have been having lately towards and in relation to the Paranormal community. Don’t get me wrong - I use to be obsessed with demons and ghosts myself, and if you had told me 10 years ago that ghosts no longer exist or that I am creating my own feelings of 'being followed by a ghost/demon' in my mind and in my body and that I was creating my own demon possession I would have also laughed in your face and yelled 'I want my Demon'. But what I have noticed lately is that the Paranormal community are not interested much in any form of truth. They want to feel Special through experiencing Abnormal mental states - I will walk an example with you in a minute:

Creating the Abnormal is obviously not limited to the Paranormal community - as this is a human trend -something that through our behaviour and addiction to media and social networks - has become who we are as the way we talk, behave and the things we as humans give value to in general. I mean if you look at the things that people get up to and the things that are out there on social networks through which people get attention from others and how this is just getting more preposterous and desperate; - it definitely shows that in time the 'Abnormal Behaviour' section under 'Psychology' will either have to be expanded on in the DSM classification of Mental Disorders  OR we will have to remove classifications of Mental disorder and call everything 'Normal'.


My definition though of normal is different from what society classifies as normal. The things that abuse Life on this planet in various forms, has become 'normal' ways of 'being' - this is what we call 'being human'. From my perspective to be this is abnormal behaviour if I consider that we as humanity have greater potential that what we are currently living and most certainly what we are heading towards. Therefore to me 'normal behaviour' such as self honesty, self correction, self responsibility and self awareness is normal if I consider what principles I want to live by as a human, based on what potential I see exists for us, instead of accepting the Principles we currently live by as 'Humanity/Society'.

Ok - back to the Paranormal community. A few years back we started the Desteni group and along side that we decided to launch a Demonology website, to share our findings on demonology and the Afterlife. We created a forum and invited people to come and work through what they perceive to be demon/ghost possession/influence and get to the core of the Consciousness connection between 'Paranormal experiences' and the Mind of the 'experiencer'. At the time I was wondering how we will be able to handle the influx of people who are desperate to sort out their demon/paranormal experiences. Alas this did not happen and in fact the opposite happened - the paranormal community ran far far away.

For example - every now and again somebody will come to the Demonology website or forum and ask about a ghost or demon that they think is following them or trying to or is possessing them.

I walk them through a basic explanation that ghosts/demons no longer exist - other than what experiences are created within the Mind of the individual which always has a starting point in some past event/memory - and how the person is dealing with their live and environment. Thus the paranormal becomes the explanation as to why we are having dark thoughts, fantasies, illusions, fits of violence, the constant feeling like something wants to hurt us, depression, possession, the desire to escape their lives/minds, the desire to be special, to avoid real trauma and place the emphasis on trauma caused by a 'dark force' etc…

I then suggest reading/viewing material to further explain my point, and ask the person to come back to the forum when they are ready to start exploring their 'Paranormal' experience. This is where something truly paranormal does happen - the person disappears lol. Never to be seen again. Not sure if it is some vortex, triangle or enveloping shadow, but the person simply vanished. Odd.

Anyway - so in time I realised that the reason why I found it so strange that people did not want to come and learn the tools to become stronger and get to know their minds and how they created internal experiences, is because for a moment I forgot that I too once thought I was very special and unique when I was being followed by a demon. Looking back now of course I realize that in my past I was rather silly about these kinds of things and that my entire desire to interact with demons was an energy thrill that I was seeking, which gave me something to do - but also made me feel mysterious and different. I mean you could create quite a list of why we do the things we do, bit what I have found primarily is that people get a compete rush off of the strange, the exiting, that which gives us a kick - because it entertains the mind which has become more and more addicted to energy - vastly more so over the last 10-20 years.

So what I have found is that the Paranormal community create their experiences as a form of entertainment and in most cases it becomes about drawing an experience out for as long as you can. Therefore obviously it would be rather boring if a person had to admit that they are not demon possessed, but are actually possessing themselves - it is just not the same!

Unfortunately as I indicated above this is not only in the Paranormal community that we do this - it exists in many forms within Society - it is just that in the Paranormal community you can basically create anything you want and because everyone is doing it, people are not really going to question each others motives or evidence. In the paranormal experience you can believe in faeries, or UFO's or shadow men or vortexes etc… the list goes on. In the end what I found is that if one stops the addiction to the energy, then you will find that your mind - should I say 'you' will use your imagination less and less, because this is where the imagination comes in - it creates an image of something which you have read about or are aware of as being 'dangerous' or strange' and produces visions/flashes/pictures in relation to this imaginary 'danger' - and 'viola' from there your mind starts producing reactions and responses physically and mentally to this 'threat/problem'. And obviously if a paranormal event/issue' is caused by repressed emotions and repressed memories - then the mind will project its reactions onto this 'danger' that exist 'outside' of the person. Thus the mind gets to experience the emotions and reactions in relation to the danger, which for most also becomes part of an energy addictive pattern, but without facing the core problem. This mostly happens, because we have never been taught to look 'inside', but that our problems and reactions are due to other people or events. Therefore for the paranormal enthusiast - we are automatically trained to look outside ourselves for an inkling of a strange occurrence which could be responsible for our internal experiences...

Day 134: The Paranormal Series Part 4 - A Psychic’s Gate Keeper (part 1)

          Day 131: The Paranormal Series - Ghosts and Demons Part 1

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-131-paranormal-series-ghosts-and.html

Day 132: The Paranormal Series – Ghosts and Demons Part 2

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-132-paranormal-seriesghosts-and.html

Day 133: The Paranormal Series – Ghosts and Demons Part 3 

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-131-paranormal-series-ghosts-and_19.html

I will be starting this Blog Series, by walking through the ‘Journey’s into the Afterlife’ Interview Series – which follows  examples and explanations of what heaven use to exist as, the design thereof and the truth of why heaven existed in its multi-faceted nature. We will hear about guides, masters, gate keepers, one atom gods, higher selves etc – all giving their perspective on how and why they existed within the greater design of ‘the Afterlife’ and the Human ‘Soul Construct’. From there I will move onto the Series about Demons and walk through the interviews done by the Demons, to better understand the greater picture of what Demons did, what was not understood about demons and how demons relate to the human experience. From there I will take a look at the quantum mechanics of how paranormal events occur now and how the Human Mind as the Quantum Mind is designed and creates Paranormal-Mind experiences.

“We had to make sure the knowledge and information in the minds of human beings of what heaven is remains in tact – and that if we did bring a being to actually communicate, that the being communicate in line with the heaven existence and how it existed and that they would not distribute any information about the heaven existence, other than what the being had been instructed to say, or speak, or do. So if one have a look at the messages through psychics, loved ones and things like that, the messages would always only be in the context of the personal relationship that the being that had passed over had with the being that was still on this physical earth; there was never any knowledge and information extended about exactly where they were within the heaven existence or what they were doing in the heaven existence exactly… I mean it was really very easy to manipulate the knowledge and information that was being channelled or communicated through from the heaven existence to humans in this physical reality.”
                                                                           - Interview with:  a Psychic’s Gate Keeper

For the full context on which I base my self forgiveness please listen to the following interview:
Journeys into the Afterlife - A Psychic's Gate-Keeper

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have to protect ‘heaven’

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to question why heaven would require protecting, as this indicates to me a problem between the reality of what is ‘out there’ as the truth and who beings really are and what is behind the ‘gates of heaven’ that require protection.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realise or question that if heaven has be be separated from the truth or from reality – then this is not heaven, because heaven in essence should be the place where all beings are able to come to rest and if they are not in a position to fit in with heaven as a place of rest, then I would ask the question, why heaven separates itself from those they are unable to assist, and then why this is still called heaven if it exists in separation from the truth of who beings are when they die.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to question the existence of heaven if as noted above, heaven is unable to assist all to be a part of heaven, thus removing itself from the needs of the afterlife, thus indicating that the real purpose of heaven is not about the ‘everlasting rest’ of ourselves when we cross over and thus;

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the story behind what heaven is, and this is not just from what comes through this information source as the Portal, there are many references in many religious and spiritual books that refer to this separation between for example heaven and the demons/ghosts.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be the gate keeper that ‘keeps beings in line with what heaven is about’ and to not allow them to sway from the prescribed information about what really goes on in heaven.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be this gate keeper that enforces a lie about heaven, upon earth, and in doing so not really addressing the hidden problems about what heaven really is while also allowing the continued separation between the ‘heavenly beings’ and those who are unable to find eternal rest, as heaven indicates its purpose to be.

I forgive myself therefore for accepting and allowing the same problem to exist on earth in essence, where the homeless, the criminals, the insane are all rejected, pushed aside and separated from society, without truly creating safe spaces for those who are for example elderly, or disabled or insane, but instead leave them to rot and be abused in government run facilities by staff that are underpaid and not monitored and for criminals and homeless people to not be understood as a product of our money system and societal value systems around rich vs. poor etc.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be the facilitator of a persons pre-programmed life designs and to never in my role question why this pre programming would be necessary – and to never question what is it about existence and human life that require pre-designs?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become depressed at the idea of dying

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto a  belief that if I die I will not experience a life that I always desired to live

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear death, because death would imply the end of me as the mind and myself as a personality, which I have defined as who I am as the living expression of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear death, as I have become accustomed to existing inside a personality structure that lives for and as thinking and surviving.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to avoid the fear of death, by participating more in entertainment and energy and thinking – so that through my activity and keeping busy as the mind – I am able to forget that my mind will one day no longer exist, and through this cycle I am obviously feeding my own belief in who I am as this mind system that requires to ‘live’ and thus I keep this cycle of fearing its end going, by perpetually choosing the avoidance and entertainment of myself to forget, instead of realizing myself here in my body and utilising the life in this body to live to the fullest and to use the opportunity to change the fear systems for all people based on lack and survival to that of fully living, so that we may get to a point of satisfaction with our one life, which will allow all to stop fearing life and stop fearing death as the endless cycles of struggling within our minds and physical.

Day 131: The Paranormal Series - Ghosts and Demons Part 1

For those who have watched or read my experience with Demon possession, with know that I have a long history with exploring the unexplained, ghosts/demons, the paranormal and I have dabbled with Wiccanism and Paganism. If you have not read/viewed my history – you are able to find my documentation here:

• 2008 I was a wiccan - Andrea 1 and My experience with Wiccanism and Magic

• For the rest of the series: Andrea's Journey with Demons

• What are Demons - Part 1

My process from there to understanding myself, my possession and demons:

 

1. Interviews from the Farm 22: Talking Andrea and Portal Authentication with Jack

2. http://forum.desteni.org/viewtopic.php?f=1&t=20

3. http://andrearossouw1.blogspot.com/2013/01/changing-my-thoughts-will-change-me.html

4. http://andrearossouw1.blogspot.com/2012/02/self-forgiveness-and-writing.html

5. Ghost hunting

6. Demons, Demon Possession and Entities part 1

7. Demons, Demon Possession and Entities part 2

8. Demons, Demon Possession and Entities part 3

9. Demons, Demon Possession and Entities part 4

More information on the ‘Portal’ and the History of ‘Desteni’

 

1. The History of Desteni Session 1

2. The History of Desteni Session 2 - Discovering Heaven

3. About the Demonology Website

4. Demon Possession in Modern Times

 

So the reason why I wanted to walk this blog series is as follow: I have always been a great fan of ghost hunting/paranormal investigation stories/movies/documentaries. Like any ghost hunting enthusiast – I would experience an absolute thrill each time I could sit and watch a documentary on youtube or watch some scary movie about ghost hunters exploring/investigating haunted location – or some movie about demonic possession - where my heart would beat a little bit faster as I would wait in anticipation for some proof of life beyond death or to get a glimpse into the activities of some invisible force. I had an insatiable thirst to see or experience ghostly phenomena and I was absolutely fascinated by the intricacies of the mere existence of a thing like a ghost – ‘who are they, what are they experiencing and what are they capable of?’ Now these are the questions we ask ourselves, as ghost hunting enthusiasts, but what we are really experiencing is thrill seeking and the desire to understand more about life after death. For myself, I not only viewed the documentary/scene/video that I was watching from a thrill seeking perspective, but I always wanted to understand who or what do we become when we cross over – for us to become demons/ghosts bound to a person, location or object.

My fascination started after my father’s death – where I realized that I could actually sense and at times see an outline of him in my home. This I initially connected to a simple fascination with my father and the questions that were left unanswered after he died. Therefore I was not really sure if I was really seeing/sensing him or if my underlying fears and desires were the cause of my experiences. I felt lost without him and I also felt guilty for him dying – because I connected his heart attack to him having to much stress which caused him to have the heart attack. This burden I carried with me for many years until I discovered Desteni and was supported to let go of the guilt, the fear, the dependency , the inherent desire to be with my father and to slowly learn to give myself back to me and live my life.

To be continued…