Day 90: International Crime Research: Mass Murderers Part 4: The Physical Reaction of Mass Murderers

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Day 89: International Crime Research: Mass Murderers Part 3: Reaction of Mass Murderers


Physical Dimension:


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself, once I have fuelled my thoughts and imagination on how I will seek revenge on the other, to now allow myself to exist so far in my mind where I am walking equal and one to these thoughts and imaginations, that I do not notice that I am busy restricting my breathing, tensing my muscles and changing my physicality,

from there;

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to now as I participate in programming myself physically by repeatedly thinking the thoughts and allowing the imaginations of revenge, to - together with the mind dimensions, to also now program my physical with specific reactions/behaviours, linked to the mind experiences -walked in the previous blogs, for example

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to first program into my physical the physical tightness of my shoulders, the hunching of my back, the tightening and changing of my breathing, to the clenching of my fists,

then

as these basic physical reactions are programmed together with the backchat, fears and imaginations and pictures of how I will seek revenge within my mind -now as time progresses I start reacting more severely physically, due to the energy I have compounded over time, by participating extensively, consistently in the mental aspects/dimensions of my plans for revenge/retaliation,

therefore;

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to program into the physical layered energetic reactions, which then become physically compounded reactions such as lashing out in anger by striking at children, animals, objects - whereby my mind will rationalise the outburst in terms of something that cannot protect itself or speak up for itself.

within this;

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compound this energy build up through participating in the mind dimensions, further in time as I create all kinds of scenarios in my mind of how I have been 'hurt, cheated, done in', and as time progresses the physical possession takes place at an energy level - after which I now am no longer only thinking about reacting/acting out -but become possessed by this pre-programed system - that I designed over years/months/weeks or days.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself then to eventually become physically possessed as my physical reaction aligns within the amount of thinking I have been doing in relation to seeking revenge, whereby I physically seek ways to harm myself or others, as this physical 'lashing out' allows for the release of the energy that I have compounded through participating in the mental dimensions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to then further become possessed by the power and sense of release of being able to finally express by grief/anger/annoyance - as I now physically for the first time experience a relive that was not there before,

therefore;

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to now want to directly lash out at the individual/group/object that I am blaming for my own internal conflict I have compounded for myself through the use of Ego

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to now lash out by using physical measures which could range from picking up a stick, hitting with my fists, even to the extent of using deadly force such as shooting, strangling or the use of bombs etc...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use this deadly force to mass murder any individual or group, I perceive annoys me or stand in my way of getting what I want - not for a moment considering the consequences of creating a world, where instead of living the solution of breath, by stopping reactions based on protecting the Ego, but instead the individual seeking self gratification at the expense of others, which as we see today in the news - has created a world where mass mind possession is occurring now at all times, as people compound the mental energy of revenge, ego into physical possessions.

I commit myself, when and as I find myself compounding any energy through thinking about a scenario using any imagination or opinion or fair/unfair instead of simply looking at my self responsibility in creating the outcome that is best for all, to stop, breathe, relax myself physically, letting go of any built-up thought designs, and walking the physical steps of self correction.

I commit myself within the walking of the steps of self correction, to always look at how the other person/group perceive their perspective within this situation, to also take responsibility for the creation point from their perspective, as the energy we build up during such experience of 'feeling done in/deceived' is always coming from various participatory points/parties - therefore;

I commit myself to always place myself 'in the shoes' of all parties, and align myself through observing the starting point of each, to assist and support myself in self forgiving the point, correcting it as myself to no longer accept and allow deception, no matter from which starting point/ past experience it happens.

Day 89: International Crime Research: Mass Murderers Part 3: Reactions of Mass Murderers

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Reaction Dimension 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use emotions and feelings as the driving force - as energetic reaction - from which I will allow myself to become possessed into reactions towards another

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the building-up of dimensions within me - where I allow myself to see, hear or perceive something within my world, which will then be based on specific value systems, I have attached to it, triggering emotion and feeling energetic responses - instead of me realising that it is not me responding and directing myself within my world, but an automated energy system, linked to information of how I perceive myself , others and the world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing this energy system as emotions and feelings to then become the highlight of my life - meaning where instead of realising that I have placed coping mechanisms to my world and people - I become obsessed with 'serving' these energy systems, as if they are real and as if they are the reason why i exist - thus further looking for arguments/debates and fights to protect my rights to experience the polarity cycles between feelings and emotions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing these energy systems to then become the directive principle of me, whereby I will give names to these reactions, based on the values behind them, and will protect, justify and defend 'my emotions and feelings' - regardless of the reality of why and how these reactions exist as program language to automate me in my world, towards what I perceive are safe or acceptable ways to exist in a world that requires of me to outsmart and out manipulate others, so that I may succeed and perceive myself to be 'safe and happy'

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to program these energy reactions from childhood such as anger, sadness, joy etc - and throughout my life place conditions and trigger points around these systems, living my life to serve a system of survival.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive my world and others through these energy systems, where I will judge others who are different emotionally from me as either good or bad - and I will make life decisions based on my emotion/feeling reactions to things/people - regardless of the fact that I am therefore a programmable program reacting to other programs with programs - and this I call Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to design characters and personalities according to my emotion/feeling reaction systems, whereby I will surround myself with things and people that allow me through perceptions to initiate and trigger my energy systems of happy/sad, good/bad, beautiful/ugly, special/nothingness etc

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fuel these energy systems - with other adaptive/evolved/responsive/backup energy systems - therefore tying myself into a infinity loop of energy reactions, dependent on more systems to keep me going, which is why addictions are so difficult to over come, as the energy systems are self sustaining and always takes the person back to the same energy patterns, just with different words, places, ideas or experiences -for example:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use anger as a manipulation to change myself or others, to allow me to trigger the experience of happiness within me - this being an example of how I would manipulate life on this planet, to surround myself with people and things that allow ME, to avoid that which is unpleasant and seek that which gives me pleasure - not seeing and realising that the physical reality, literally takes the brunt, the fall and the abuse within a world system that uses the physical as consumerism to bring the human, 'joy and pleasure', to avoid negative energetic experiences.

And in the case of a 'mass murdering mind set'; I forgive myself for then accepting and allowing myself to first trigger a picture of me being harmed or harming another who I perceived harmed me, into an internal conversation of how I will 'stand up to this person', which then chemically-energetically triggers certain emotions/feelings - that I have already pre-programmed to drive me into action through emotions such as anger, resentment, conflict etc - to ultimately experience my own contentment, joy, safety - instead of creating a world within and as me, that stand for stopping these energy based reaction os resentment and conflict - which includes and starts with self honesty as self - and only from there will each one stand as the principle of equality and oneness living, when we stop deceiving each others out of fear of getting hurt.

Day 88: International Crime Research: Mass Murderers Part 2: Mass murder by individuals

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Day 87: International Crime Research: Mass Murderers Part 1


Taken from Wikipedia:

Mass murderers may fall into any of a number of categories, including killers of family, of coworkers, of students, and of random strangers. Their motives for murder vary. A notable motivation for mass murder is revenge, but many other motivations are possible, including the need for attention or fame.Examples of mass murderers include James Eagan Holmes, Adam Lanza, William Unek, Campo Elías Delgado, Jeff Weise, Woo Bum-kon, Martin Bryant, Ahmed Ibragimov, Baruch Goldstein, Robert Bales, Omar Thornton, Nidal Malik Hasan and Charles Whitman.

Revenge: Thought (picture)

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto a picture of what I believe is the wrong doing of another, to me or something I value,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing when and after holding onto this picture as a memory of what I perceive was done to me by another, to use the picture as a way of feeding existing fears, angers and resentments I have developed throughout my life, in relation to similar points.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing this picture as an animated thought to 'pop' into my mind from time to time, after which I will start negotiating inner reactions towards this memory as picture - whereby I am now slowly starting to create an energetic charge in relation to this picture

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to charge this picture energetically (negatively) due to pre-programmed likes and dislikes, which are now creating conflict within me as I battle between my ego, which wants me to win, to succeed, to be right over others and therefore this internal battle is created from the vantage point of how do I win in the future over others using the past, as memories from which I will plot my next step.

Backchat/Inner conversations:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to now start having internal conversations with myself based on this picture that pops into my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use the picture, to now create scenarios based on the what ifs, the ways I should have or could have dealt with the past, which is basically me not looking at the fear reaction I experiences in relation to the past memory, but instead now conjuring up ways of fighting in the future to be the winner - therefore becoming the one that harms others in self-interest.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to CONvince myself in my mind that others are at fault, not allowing myself to realize that the actual experience within me is one of an emotion reaction of doubt, fear, annoyance, embarrassment.

Myyy PRECIOUSSS!!

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use inner conversations to plan how to in the future act in a way that will allow me to win over the other person, instead of realizing that my emotional reaction is fear based, the fear of losing face, of looking bad and of losing out in life - wherein I am not willing to realize that the war/fight/stance I plan in my head to be spiteful or get back at another - is actually only as a result of my fear towards what I perceive others are doing or are able to do 'to' me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing this inner dialogue to become 'the how' I deal with people and situations, not realising that I am now more and more distancing myself from this actual reality, from the conversations required between myself and others to practically find solutions, instead of rash, final actions and harsh words where I 'deal the final blow' as reaction - to 'be the winner'.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to now create internal conversations around the idea of getting revenge on another, in my beLIEve that this will correct the past and allow me to 'feel better about what happened, without me considering the practical implications of such an act, in that it only serves to exacerbate the emotion/feeling energy systems, and has no practical purpose for this reality - as it only creates further cycles of anger and revenge.