Day 197: Writing a blog part 7

Day 191: Writing a Blog Part 1

Day 192: Writing a Blog part 2

Day 193: Writing a Blog part 3

Day 194: Writing a Blog part 4

Day 195: Writing a Blog part 5

Day 196: Writing a Blog part 6

"The reason why I shared my time line of experiences to how my interest in Criminology developed was to show that sometimes one has experience in a subject, from which the interest grows, but sometimes you only have a small interest in a subject which comes from for example an awareness or from reading articles on the internet. Either way from here if ones decides to pursue the subject - it takes a bit of research to familiarise oneself with the subject - therefore 'Research is the key'."

Working in the South African Police force and studying Criminology, obviously left me with a very black and white view to Criminal Behaviour - where a criminal is bad and the police catch criminals. Thanks to the work that I have been doing for the last few years I was able to start bridging the gap more between the understanding that currently exist in Criminology of 'what makes a criminal' to the grey areas that nobody in society really wants to talk about - such as if people steal because they don’t have an income - why are we creating and supporting a money system that excludes certain people from receiving their basic living requirements? Therefore you could say I became interested in the 'fringe psychology' within criminology where unfortunately Capitalism has very much set the precedent for how criminology exists. I mean from my perspective you could say that Criminology as all studies in the world is 'in the pocket of the Capitalists' - therefore how can you really study Criminology if you are never allowed to really look at and speak about the real causes of Criminal behaviour.

Things that society rely upon such as the current money system which is based on inequality and abuse and a consumerist system based on Psychological system such as addiction to energy - if we never address these problems we don’t sort out the reason why people commit crimes. But because the entire human idea of existence relies on the value systems within the mind which ties in with consumerism - you will find that most Criminalists will stick to the main stream acceptable discussions and fields of study about Crime - but never dig deeper. For example everyone learns about for example 'crimes being committed because the person was poor or could not feed themselves or desires wealth' and then BAM the information literally stops there. So I have made it my field of interest to continue looking underneath the surface stuff. It was a few years ago that in conjunction with the work that I do with Life Coaching and the Living Income Guaranteed proposal - that myself and others who do the same thing decided to study Psychology to develop an understanding of how the more acceptable 'system' definitions and studies into the Human Mind works to see where we can improve on the acceptable understandings oh the Human Psyche. In this I selected Criminology as my Minor. So from this my blogs have been a focal point on looking underneath the 'surface' stuff where normal Psychology and Criminology stops.

Therefore in relation to the discussion of writing blogs - this is the first point I want to bring across for those interested in Blog Writing - whether it is about the World System and its Problems or about Self and Self Change - either way we are writing blogs in such a way to 'lift the veil' so to speak on 'what is out there' and 'what exist within' from what one understands about any given topic based on what has been published on the internet/books/research material. As I mentioned before, in a consumerist/capitalist based Psychology - most fields of study are linked into how the Mind is 'perceived to work' and from this perception we must understand that how we have been taught things work is not necessarily how they work. So in blog writing - we address the real way in which things work where you learn how to start questioning the information that is 'out there' and how this information works in the bigger picture -meaning developing the understanding that the information itself is part of a bigger design in essentially - yes I am going to say it - the controlling of the human being to exist within specific behaviours and allowances which serve specific groups to achieve specific goals. Be it from the Consumerist system to Politics to general control of the pollution - all of these 'domains' - which are seemingly invisible to the trusting populous - you will find if you do some research and start questioning the information behind the information - will reveal to you the Design of the World System…

Therefore, for me an interest opened up while doing policing and observing the effects of Crime on Society - at that stage I had a sympathy for some criminals, as I could see with limited insight that they came from tough lives and therefore in some cases I felt out right uncomfortable stopping and searching people or acting like a big tough cop and questioning people about their whereabouts, Especially considering that in the South African police force there are still many racist white policeman who enjoy the power trip of while wearing the uniform and gun, to use this as an opportunity to bully people from other colours.

Through the years doing policing I was on the one side also investigating spirituality, and therefore I started becoming more sensitive so to speak to the experiences of both the criminal and the victim. But at that stage I did not yet have the skills to 'lift the veil' on how crime works beyond what I had come to accept from what is 'accepted' by society- I remember just feeling really uneasy around certain policing procedures. It was only years later joining Bernard here at Desteni that he assisted me in seeing more of how the system worked and most importantly how to use tools such as research and common sense to assess that which exist in the world. Therefore, that is what blog writing is about - it is not just about placing information you are already aware of onto paper, but a platform to practise tools of expansion within the topic you are interested in. That is why our DesteniIProcess courses are developed to slowly expand a person's self awareness - and the blogs we write about 'world problems' becomes a personal platform from which ones learns about common sense and investigating what exist as the current accepted systems of the world.

Day 178: Crime - Asking the Hard Questions

Day 158: The Paranormal Series part 19 - Demons vs. Angels part 6

This blog is a continuation from: 

Day 149: The Paranormal Series Part 13 – Demons vs. Angels part 1

Day 152: The Paranormal Series Part 14 – Demons vs. Angels part 2

Day 153: The Paranormal Series part 16 - Demons vs. Angels part 3

Day 156: The Paranormal Series part 17 - Demons vs. Angels part 4

Day 157: The Paranormal Series part 18 - Demons vs. Angels part 5

"Only years later (which is where my involvement wit Desteni comes in) did I start to see and understand that there were even deeper truths, which in my younger years I would not have been able or willing to listen to and this was mostly due to the fact that my 'intrigue' as I mentioned earlier had turned into an energy which I had become accustomed to and therefore, this was the start of my interests into all things new age and paranormal - where my life choices from there on were mostly shaped by my desire to follow this energy of 'mystery and intrigue..." 

For more information on my 'discoveries' into the Paranormal:

Ghost/haunting experiences of the past:

http://demons.desteni.org/2014/02/the-q ... he-series/

Experiencing ghost/ghosts demons and the relationship to the Mind (now):

http://demons.desteni.org/2013/11/seein ... he-series/

https://eqafe.com/p/demons-in-the-afterlife-part-9

https://eqafe.com/p/demons-in-the-afterlife-part-18-19

https://eqafe.com/p/demon-in-the-afterlife-part-21

https://eqafe.com/p/demons-in-the-afterlife-part-23

https://eqafe.com/p/demons-in-the-afterlife-part-24

https://eqafe.com/p/demons-in-the-afterlife-part-10

http://demons.desteni.org/2013/12/i-pos ... ife-review

http://demons.desteni.org/2012/06/demon ... -entities/

http://demons.desteni.org/2014/03/after ... ch-part-1/

http://demons.desteni.org/2014/03/after ... on-part-2/

http://demons.desteni.org/2014/03/after ... on-part-3/

http://demons.desteni.org/2014/03/after ... on-part-4/

http://demons.desteni.org/2011/08/demons-of-the-new-age/

The history of Desteni and Demons:

http://demons.desteni.org/2011/01/the-history-of-demons-and-desteni/

Sunette Spies - creating a Ghost

https://eqafe.com/i/arosouw-sunette-spies-creating-a-ghost

So following on from my developing curiosity in school - or shall I say developing my positive and negative energy personalities:  after high school I studied horses and found a job managing a horse farm. In that time I was very lonely as the farm was quite isolated and I did not have a car to go to town. In that time I visited a Kinesiologist and this peaked my interest so much that then and there, I decided to one day, if the opportunity presented itself, I would study Kinesiology myself.  I did not have access to the internet on the farm, so the only way I could research alterative therapies is of someone loaned or gave me a book on the subject. I was pretty miserable in that job, because the work was quite labour intensive for very little pay. I continued to 'hope' that one day I would be able to study Kinesiology and/or other forms of alternative therapy.

Due to a pre-existent hip problem, the work that I was doing started to take its toll on my body. One weekend I was visiting friends and found it difficult to get up out of a chair. This raised a red flag for me, so I decided to go and see the orthopedic surgeon who previously operated on my hip (broke my hip when I was eleven). He said that the x-rays showed that my hip, due to all of the horse riding and physical work was starting to die and that if I did not change jobs I would soon have to have a hip replacement. This obviously came as a shock for all the obvious reasons, but mostly because I did not know what else I would do for a job. It has taken me years to find this job and therefore I knew that going back to unemployment was not going to be easy for me. The reason for this was the fact that in the year that I finished high school the new ANC government implemented the new law that X amount of black people have to be employed over a white person (affirmative action) which meant that from then on basically a white child who left school could not find work. I eventually walked the streets and each building that I went into told me 'sorry we are not allowed to employ white people'. So, an hour after the doctor gave me the news - I was in tears, because I knew that I was in for yet again a very difficult time. I went back to work and told my boss and basically gave her my one month resignation. I felt a numbness setting in, I did not know what to do and this was the start of a very long depression which stayed with me for many years, especially as I faced the following situations.

About 3 weeks after 'the news' a friend of mine who worked on a farm next to the farm that I managed suggested that we go out clubbing. This was not usually something that we did, but he wanted to get closer to me because he had a romantic interest in me. It was about week before I would leave my job, so we decided to go and have some fun together - him hoping for 'looove' and me just wanting to get out and forget about what I was facing. I mean on the one hand I was relieved, because I was quite fed up with being in a low wage job day in and day out with obviously no real future in sight. So one part of me was glad that I would be leaving, but obviously I knew that this new sense of freedom would require of me to hopefully find a job, so that I will maybe earn a better salary. I hoped that there might be a better future for me - just like everyone else does.

That night I met a guy and basically to cut a long story short - we ended up getting closer  and he helped me to move out and move back in with my mom. From there this relationship developed into mental, physical and emotional abuse - but I did not leave because I did not know where else to go. For many years I stayed in this relationship and endured. What developed in me over those years was the split in positive/negative personalities that I referred to in my previous blog, where I delved deeper and deeper into spirituality, the Ouija board and communicating with demons. This was in a way the only way that I could distance myself from my life, from the fear that I was in, while at the same time channeling my anger.

At the same time 'the boyfriend' made it possible for me to study Kinesiology. This was another factor that caused me to not leave him. I simply kept reminding myself that if I left him, I would have to give up my studies. Therefore - as I mentioned in my previous 2 blogs -I developed a 'new age' light worker type of personality, focusing on helping others, as I more and more related to a life of misery, suppression and compromise. On the other hand I developed a 'darker side (Fear is the path to the dark side…fear leads to anger…anger leads to hate…hate leads to suffering - Yoda) - a coping mechanism to not really have to collapse in a heap, where I could vent and be angry and hate.

More on my path with spirituality and polarity in my next blog...

Day 130: The Sex industry and ‘Supply and Demand’

This is a follow up in the Pornography Series from:

Day 129: Crimes against Life: Forced to keep working in the Sex Industry

I watched a documentary called: ‘Date my Porn Star’ – and in this documentary – the emphasis is the experiences of 3 guys who are porn addicts – who get the opportunity to go to LA to meet their favourite porn stars and are taken to various Porn Sets to watch how porn movies are made. Part of the emphasis of the documentary is to show how these men experience the behind the scenes information about how the woman within the porn industry really experience themselves.
The first few sets are ‘normal’ as in the porn stars have sex with other porn stars while they film porn movies. The 3 guys are observed and filmed and asked throughout how they experience themselves. Obviously being porn addicts it basically comes down to them ‘feeling horny’ all the time and being envious of the porn stars.

The last set they go to is slightly different. In this scenario the porn stars have to have endless sex for hours with men who win a competition – in which the winner gets to have sex with a porn star. So these are ‘normal’ members of the public who entered a competition to get to have sex with porn starts – however again with the emphasis being placed on the crude and disgusting – the porn starts don't have sex with only 1 or 2 men  - they have to go on for about 2 hours with various men. This is apparently part of the attraction for those watching it on TV. The one girls was so tired that she collapsed and was only given 2 minutes to go behind scenes and ‘recollect herself’ because they could not stop for her because this charade was being filmed ‘live’. So just like cattle being fed to the slaughterhouse these girls were not even considered. Of course what did I expect from an industry that sells human dignity for profit. I supposed considering the context of it being ‘the porn industry’ of course I was not really shocked to see this. To top it all off, once ‘filming stopped’ the ‘boss’ and the director and the managers all got to ‘have a go at the girls’ so the girls had to continue having sex long after filming stop – simply to of course remain in the business.

The documentary film crew who were filming the 3 men – asked each of them what they thought of this particular scenario. Now the expressions on their faces were a little different because they had witnessed how these woman were being abused for their and millions of other men’s entertainment. No mercy was shown and of course that was deliberate, as the Porn industry specifically exists because people want to experience the energetic charge from seeing the nasty, ugly, rape side of sex. Let’s be honest the porn industry stopped being about sex a veeeery long time ago and now merely exists to trigger the secret mind fantasies in people – whereby the user/viewer gets the highest sexual energetic experience. So the user is directly responsible for the porn industry existing as it does today.

The one man, when asked what he thought of all of this, looked a little less sure of himself than he did on the previous sets. However, you could see the cogs in his brain turning and the addiction personality taking over and finding excuses why he should not have to give up this drug addiction. So he answers ‘well there is a supply and a demand for this stuff you know – it’s basic commers’. So basically to the addict any person, child or animal may be abused because of supply and demand. People of course, obviously do not realise that as long as we have a money system where these woman have to have money to survive, obviously (as discussed in previous blogs) they are going to have to work and secondly why earn minimum wages working at Wal-Mart or MacDonald if you can earn 5 times that doing one porn movie. Obviously – the obvious aspect of it all is that these woman actually do understand that they are selling themselves, allowing themselves to be abused physically and mentally for the this point of survival. Remove that point of survival and most of these woman would not arrive for work. The ones that do arrive for work  (as discussed in a previous blog) – you will be able to trace the time line of their life experiences and their pre-programmed designs to get a better understanding on how a man or woman grows up to love sex so much that they want to degrade themselves physically and mentally for the profit of others – simply to be seen as beautiful or desired and the emphasis that is placed with society and femininity towards ‘sexiness’ and being sexually ‘free’ .

Towards the end of the documentary the man who made the comment about ‘supply and demand’ looked at how these woman were faking their enjoying and battling through pain and fatigue – and said ‘these woman are really not enjoying themselves- maybe this is just a meat grinder for young woman’ . Later at the end of the documentary they interview the man again and ask him if this whole experience has given him some insights and he replied that he realized something's about himself (did not say what it was) and that there are some things about himself that he needs to now look at some more. Interesting – seeing first hand the reality of what these people go through. Unfortunately, this indicates that the tendency exists for people to believe what they are told – believe unconditionally what ones sees on television without questioning, to never observe the abuse that happens in the world from how one participates but rather to continue supporting abuse as long as it fuels the money system.

What I have realised myself within how I started questioning what I accepted in this reality – was that most of what is presented is the lie – what happens behind the scenes is a very different story because everyone is simply trying to survive and within  this capitalism functions according to the consumer. The consumer is a unit of biological mind systems that require energy through what we experience. Experiences come from what we participate in and all of that is provided for through capitalism, therefore the consumer is always the key to the Money System as it is now and as it evolves. Capitalists always monitor and study trends and trends develop according to the human psyche which as I mentioned previously, exists according to energetic experiences such as addictions which are fuelled constantly through what we see, touch and experience. So as the man mentioned in the documentary – he realized something about himself in relation to the abuse he witnessed – this is a pretty cool step for an addict – because one has to realize that an addict is consumed and possessed- hence the term addicted. So for an addict to have a moment of clarity where you come face to face with the consequences of your choices and participation – is  effective in this case however unfortunate  -as we have designed it so that we only start considering change once we face our consequences. This means (and this you are able to see for yourself) that we have created a world with immense suffering to ourselves, each other, the animals, nature and children –and currently not much is done to stop the suffering. This I have experienced myself on many levels – where I too would not change unless I was forced to, unless the pain or discomfort got to much etc. With the tool of self honesty what I have realized is that one can start considering what is best for all – where one has already done it once or twice and realize we are more than our self interest – and that it is possible to create a better world through self change.