Day 104: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Drug use Part 8

This blog is a continuation from:


Day 96: International Crime Research: Drug use Part 1

Day 97: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Drug use Part 2

Day 99: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Drug use Part 3

Day 100: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Drug use Part 4

Day 101: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Drug use Part 5

Day 102: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Drug use Part 6

Day 103: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Drug use Part 7


Backchat Dimension of the drug user within Social-situations:

"Internal Conversations/Backchat/Voices in the Head:
This is where one would have conversations with oneself as a Personality in the Mind. Thus, Internal Conversations/Backchats would come up/manifest as words, sentences, short statements that can vary in length/intensity. It is within the internal conversation/backchat domain that one would start activating the reactions of emotions/feelings together with the words that one speak in one’s Mind – as, when we’ll continue walking the creation of Backchat/Internal Conversations within and as Main Characters/Personalities, one will see, realise and understand how the Mind substantiate words with ENERGY, so that there’s always an energy experience and definition to words. This is one of the primary relationships the Mind use to ensure the human being never LIVE words, and so words, their definitions and experiences becomes components the Mind use to attach to Personality Systems that define one’s behaviour, instead of self LIVING in the physical in self-aware directive-principle of who one is one’s living/behaviour in the Physical.
Thus, to identify the internal conversations/backchat of a Personality, one can within and during one’s writing have a look at what words, sentences, statements manifested in one’s Mind as the ‘voice of the Personality’ speaking to oneself, essentially talking oneself out of/convincing oneself as a Personality from/of taking responsibility for self here in/as the Physical."

Source: http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/09/character-dimensions-introduction-day.html



The backchat dimension (in relation to the drug user) would be the internal conversations existent within an individual, whom due to such internal conversations, rather uses drugs to amplify or suppress these internal conversations - to allow the individual to participate in social situations:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the internal/backchat conversation of "I am not good enough/good looking enough/intelligent enough/special' to be part of this party/conversation - and therefore I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that using a drug will support me in feeling as if I am good enough and to forget about my true experience of not thinking I am good enough in appearance or intellect to be part of this social situation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing any and all underlying thought patterns which have become my character wherein I invest time, disregarding and abusing myself within internal gossip, where I speak harsh words to myself until I believe I am 'not good enough' - simply by allowing myself to form opinions about myself based on the images I am impulsed with through media and the advertisements of the corporations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be anything more or less than what I am here as a physical-bodied-being - where I change who I am as a physical-bodied-being into a less than or more than 'beingness' based simply on the amount of energy I put into the thought pattern, until I believe myself to be this thought pattern within my mind - not realising that at death or even while sick or in a comma all thoughts stop - proving that thoughts have to be maintained through attention a participation and 'design' and always have a starting point in one observing or listening to other people or media forms- after which one accepts what you hear and then develop opinions/perspectives which then became ones automated thought patterns. This one then believes to be 'I think therefore I am' and that 'the physical is not real - consciousness is what is real' - however at any given time one is able to show/reveal that thoughts are designed after hearing the information contained within the thought, from somewhere else and accepting it as real - even though most thoughts have been proven to only serve abusive tendencies of self interest such as 'I am ugly', 'I am white therefore I am better than that black person' etc,' 'if people are poor it is because they are lazy ad dont deserve anything in life'... Thus one could ask why would we design and allow thoughts to exist if they are harmful and do not serve us as life. Most do not even question thoughts and their origin and simply take thoughts at 'face value' believing that the human mind is pure in intention and cannot be wrong - however most thoughts one can walk as a time-line to show how one accepted and created the thought - right through to the purpose and functionality of such thoughts within oneself and the world as a 'global mind'. Therefore we are able to prove that any value system we give 'being human' only exists in the mind- as what is currently shown to be 'human-thinking'. For example, all value systems that place one person/being above or below another shows how we use knowledge created in the mind based on impracticality to falsify the human existence into pockets of knowledge which only exists to support the minority that benefit from inequality and human Suffering. Question is why do we accept that the Mind and human thought processes are 'all that there is' when clearly the state of the human with most in depression and going into states of Mind possession - shows us that all is not ok with how and why we participate in 'internal conversations'.

Therefore, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive my physical existence according to the thought patterns I have designed and given permission to in my mind - which through my permission has more value in life than the physical.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe in what other think of me, therefore in 'backchat/internal conversations I am constantly bombarding myself with abusive thoughts towards myself, which I know I think about others, and therefore fear them thinking the same about me,

therefore

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing these internal conversations where I judge others and myself, instead of realising that to allow thoughts about others and ourselves, where we in essence abuse ourselves through internal gossip - does not support anybody and eventually leads to the use of a chemical to suppress the fears and judgments within the mind towards self and the judgements of others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to develop this internal conversation about who I think I should be in social situations and therefore become so disillusioned about the reality of myself that I then use drugs to ensure that I act or appear to myself to be able to act according to the social situations I believe I should fit into.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to develop social values within my mind purely based on my ego, where I compete with other people in society based on accepted values such as beauty/ugly, rich/poor, appearances etc - where in my mind I am always competing with how others look, speak and behave and compare them to societal values that have been given to how one 'should look, speak, behave' - and thus this 'rate-race' of competition is always milling in my mind where I chase myself to appear and act according to acceptable norms,


therefore

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be the one that perpetually feeds these cycles of abusing life, as I have given life the value of competing in the mind, based on pictures and images and superficial value systems such as money and status - not realising that I have created this system of abuse and now I am the one that has to use chemicals to suppress or enhance those aspects within me which I have separated myself from as the physical...



Reaction Dimension continues...





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Day 16: International Crime Research- Bipolar Disorder and Violent Crimes: Self-Commitment Statements

The Self-Commitment Statements based are based on all the Blogs below:




Bipolar Disorder and Violent Crime – Part 1: Overview



Day 9: Bi-Polar Disorder and Violent Crimes Part 2: Population-Based Longitudinal Studies and Systematic Review



Day 10: Bipolar Disorder and Violent Crimes Part 3: Bipolar Disorder and ‘Expansiveness’.



Day 11: Bipolar Disorder and Violent Crimes Part 4: Bipolar Disorder and Irritability



Day 12: Bipolar Disorder and Violent Crimes Part 5: Bipolar Disorder and Hyperactivity



Day 13: Bi-Polar Disorder and Violent Crimes Part 6: Bipolar Disorder and Depression



Day 14: Bi-Polar Disorder and Violent Crimes Part 7: Bipolar Disorder and Substance Abuse



Day 15: Bi-Polar Disorder and Violent Crimes Part 8: Bipolar Disorder and Family.



I commit myself to expand myself not due to pictures, expectations and fear of survival within the system, but based on common sense and self will, within the context of self-enjoyment, whilst supporting Life here as what is best for all, as myself.


I commit myself to evaluate how I value expansion within myself and to not accept and allow fear based expansion to move within me as my starting point of who I am and what I live.


I commit myself to establishing a new economic system, which will allow all beings to truly expand themselves here within physical self expression and not as it exists currently where all are merely developing themselves within ‘skill sets’ required of us to survive in the current money system.


I commit myself to grounding myself using the breath, to no longer accept and allow myself to move myself within irritation towards myself.


I commit myself to stopping judgments towards myself and others, as I realize that all judgments are separation of myself towards myself and others. I also realize that to use the mind to judge others indicates a cycle of self-abuse, because in judging others for who they are or how they do things one is eventually judging Self as one judges simply to judge – and judgment has no practical purpose.


I commit myself to look at each person and individual within their process and I direct myself according to the situation, according to what is best for all – not according to judgments.


I commit myself to stop all energy patterns, behavior and addictions within myself, to stop the cycle of hyperactivity versus laziness as a pattern which I realize serves no purpose and in the end still requires my self willed self direction.


I commit myself to no longer participate in any world system design that encourage me to act out in hyperactivity by stimulating me through pictures, words, desires as I realize that being stimulated by an outside source not only indicates that I am subject to another, but also subjects me to abuse and the allowance of people abusing each other for profit and personal self interest.


I commit myself to establish a new economic system that will end all abuse which currently only exists because people are addicted to energy, simply because we have come to accept ourselves as machines that move according to the will of others. Therefore by changing the money system so that beings are no longer trapped in survival, I will also be removing our inherent tendencies to allow ourselves to be manipulated through the system and those with money – to stand up within ourselves and finally grasp what it means to Live and me Life.



I commit myself to no longer accept myself to try and manipulate people’s energy levels when in their company by raising my voice, using specific tonalities and trying to get people exited or to laugh – all of this being used to get people to find me amusing or interesting – based on a desire for self appreciation through the appreciation of others. This game of self versus others through the mind, where we use each other for personal gain is how and why people develop the symptoms of Bipolar Disorder as we attempt to either suppress or express that which we believe others want from us either within family, societal, religious, cultural or economic situations.


I commit myself to no longer allow myself o treat children within the current world understanding where we terrain children in every moment to become specific personalities that serve the purpose of the family and the economic system.



I commit myself to support all beings equally within the context of ‘family’ as ‘those whom I share this planet with’ – to no longer condone within myself the abuse of beings due to the desire for profit and personal self-interest.



I commit myself to redefine the family, within the context of equality and to establish effective communication and to no longer allow mind games to be the directive principle within how one communicates with the members of the family.



I commit myself to stop subjecting my hidden desires, wants and fears on others beings, especially in the context of ‘family’ as the beings you share your space with and are responsible for – as I realize that to do so I am abusing them as life under the guise of ‘family’ -to serve me as my slaves.



I commit myself to no longer accept and allow science as the authority on the human mind, and instead I commit myself to the effective education and research of the human, to clear the clutter of what we have become as the human survival system – to return to the physical existence where all are equal and have equal rights.



I commit myself to present solutions through which I will be able to assist beings in to stop the use and abuse of substances as a way of suppression of apparent ‘living’ our ones hidden personalities – to bring about self honesty by supporting all within the process of self realization.


I commit myself to stop mood swings as mood disorders within myself, as this exists merely as a means of manipulation within the current societal value systems.


I commit myself to reveal family and societal deception and how it directly influences the experience of beings within this world as the outflow and consequence of what we allow depicted as Bipolar Disorder.



I commit myself to change my inner reality, where I accept and allow depression, irritability, elated moods, hyperactivity – to align myself here in consistency as the Physical – to no longer be subject to the mind and its dimensions within and how it exists currently as the Design of the Mind.


I commit myself to ending violence in our society by no longer accepting and allowing myself to participate in any form of sport, culture, and ways in which society participates in condoning war, abuse, separation and the honoring of self interest over Life.


I commit myself to show that the mind is not invincible and that if we do not direct ourselves to stop the madness that has become the human, we will face the consequences and submit our future generation to the karma as direct consequences of what we all accept ad allow now.




Further Reading:
DAY 3: What does it Really Mean to be 'Alive'?
DAY 8: How do we Create/Manifest ‘Who we Are’?
DAY 35: The Soul of Fear

Day 14: International Crime Research - Bi-Polar Disorder and Violent Crimes Part 7

This is a continuation from:

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/06/day-13-international-crime-research-bi.html#

Self-Forgiveness part 5

Bipolar Disorder and Substance Abuse

Please refer to: Day9: International Crime research - Bi-Polar Disorder and Violent Crimes Part 2 for background information on Substance Abuse as primary cause for Violent Behavior in people diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use alcohol and drugs as a means of suppressing my mind.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use drugs and alcohol as a means of encouragement – through which I allow myself to express those parts of myself that are usually suppressed and hidden.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abuse substances due to my fear of taking self responsibility for this world that I have created, and for the consequences of the action that I have taken due to my inability to act responsibility within common sense self expression.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abuse substance in an effort to improve my status within society, by appearing to be something other than my usual self, whom I have come to either despise, fear of judge and which I have to hide in the presence of my peers, thus presenting a separate me to please society, family and friends.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abuse substances, through which I separate myself into two separate beings, the one that comes out while using the substance as the personality I judge as the fun or adventurous one, instead of realizing the contradiction and the schizophrenic nature of my thinking, where most in society willingly participate in this splitting of themselves – while refusing to admit that is indicative of schizophrenia and multiple personality disorder.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing this splitting of my mind into multiple personalities and as society accepting and supporting this splitting of the mind into various personalities through the use of substances.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be embarrassed or regretful of my personalities when I am sober.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to have a new life and therefore using substances to give myself an experience within my mind, so that for a few hours I can forget about my life and ‘feel’ like I have a different life or set of rules according to which I function.





I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge experiences according to good/ bad and valuable/less valuable, through which I create an acceptance of trying to avoid certain experiences in life, causing me through backchat to desire different life experiences, which encourages and creates a society of substance dependent junkies.



I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that what we are actually doing in society is to allow ourselves and each other to become addicted to the use of substances, while refusing to realize in self honesty that we are in actuality hiding from our true selves as the mind, while proclaiming to be more than what we are.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing religion and culture to condone substance use through images of wine and the blood of Christ – to consensually as society together agree to the abuse of substance as a n agreeable method of avoiding this reality and creating image of god realities in our minds where we think we are the greatest thing to ever walk this earth.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to encourage children to use substances to further their delusions of what it means to be human, by attaching images like sex. Fame, richness and coolness to the use of substances through the media, while pretending and claiming that I have no say in how children are influenced.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the media to brainwash me into using substance, due to the use of images and symbols linked to substance use such as coolness, sex, influence, power, money, good times, happiness – instead of realizing that this indicates my existence as a chemically induced robot – stuck in my mind of fake realities.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing substance abuse to be an acceptable form of socializing, in which I will frown upon anybody who suggests socializing without substance use and victimize the person through peer pressure until they succumb to the same mind illusions I have around socializing and substance use.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use substances, to avoid my life and to avoid this reality, instead of changing this reality to what is best for all so that I do not have to continue abusing the physical and myself through substance use.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing substance use to exist in a reality where we give permission to immense abuse and suffering, while the majority are using substances to avoid the reality we have all give permission to.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ‘act out’ while using a substance and then after I have hurt another I claim that it was the substance that did it and not me – not realizing and taking responsibility for the fact that it was me and that all the substance did was allow me to express that part of me that is usually hidden.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be trapped within my mind, within patterns and behavior such as depression, elated moods and irritability, for which I then use substance to suppress or heighten the experiences – which are already in separation from myself.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use substance as a justification for wanting to have more fun in life, not realizing that in doing this I am subject to a substance to provide me with self-direction – while at the same time allowing me to lie about how I really experience this world – which in effect allows me to abuse the reality I reject even more, while avoiding the consequences through substance use.