Day 105: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Drug use Part 9

This blog is a continuation from:


Day 96: International Crime Research: Drug use Part 1

Day 97: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Drug use Part 2

Day 99: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Drug use Part 3

Day 100: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Drug use Part 4

Day 101: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Drug use Part 5

Day 102: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Drug use Part 6

Day 103: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Drug use Part 7

Day 104: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Drug use Part 8



Reaction Dimension of the drug user within Social-situations:

"Reaction Dimension:
Here one will Identify the reactions of emotions and feelings that ‘substantiate / animate’ the Character/Personality; what reactions of emotions and feelings, essentially did one utilize to manipulate oneself with, to fall back into the Mind/Personality instead of standing here with self in stability as Breath. Within this, we’ll use, as Personalities, specific emotions and feelings to activate specific behavioural patterns/habits to in/as this process validate why/how it is that we are a Personality and so in this attempt/try to make a Personality “more real”. Essentially saying “well, I am experiencing this and my behaviour is like that and this is who I am and so I cannot change” – when, all the while, we’re actively, within the Mind participating in creating the experiences and behaviour from the thoughts, to the imagination, to the internal conversations/backchat – sabotaging and compromising ourselves deliberately in the Mind to manifest/validate/materialize our wants, needs and desires, rather than our responsibility to ourselves, our physicals and our lives in this World.
So, to identify the Reaction Dimension is to have a look at what emotions/feelings manifested within one’s Mind in the Physical within and during the Personality Possession."

Source: http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/09/character-dimensions-introduction-day.html

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within perpetual cycles of emotion and feeling polarities, where I exist from day to day to live for the positive feeling experience such as joy, and to avoid the negative emotions such as sadness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to grow up believing in the CONcept that who we are - are our emotions, feelings and thoughts -

within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see, realising and understanding for myself throughout my life, from observing my experiences, that these cycles of energetic experiences are truly not supportive of me as they by nture are uncomfortable, lead to abusive self practises and contain the being within continual struggles and depression/angst.



I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that emotions/feelings - once I for a moment stop participating in them, do not change me as what remains when those 'cycles' end is me consistent here as a living, breathing expressive being -

then I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize and see the common sense that surely it is not a system of the mind that indeed supports me, but only exists as a constant battle, a and is system that requires my understanding and directing, instead of blindly following, where I eventually accept a life around who I am as my thoughts, feelings and emotions, instead of living self responsibility in self honesty as what is best for me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to develop my personality from childhood into adulthood, around my emotions and feelings, whereby I live in an attempt to alleviate the discomfort I experience from allowing my own emotional patterns such as jealousy, anger, conflicted and the 'polarities' between which these points swing - which we call the seeking of the pleasures of life - which would exist as the polarity struggles between feelings and emotions such as: joy/sadness, hope/hopelessness, fear/brave, have/have not, beauty/ugly, joyful/depressed etc.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to develop my personalities in life according to winning people over with my more positive, pleasant feelings and representations of thoughts around me being a good, pleasant, fun person, instead of realising that I am not really living, I am merely learning how to manipulate my environment and those around me, to appear more pleasant and to fit into social groups - which again only exist so that I do not have to face my fear of being rejected and the fear of fear itself.

therefore,

when I realised that I am unable to maintain or avoid these emotional and feeling reactive patterns, I then attempt to avoid or accentuate these traits by using drugs, which allow me to step away from my usual personally traits - which are the 'real me' as y mind, my 'consciousness', into different characters and personalities which I have already imagined within my mind would be 'cool', 'special' and unique' and which would allow me to be accepted by the peer groups I wish to belong to.

therefore,

I realise and forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in this program I have given permission to on my behalf, where I insert commands that are feelings, emotions and personality designs that act in accordance with my fear of being rejected by others,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blindly follow my personality designs which automatically have now used internal conversations of 'not being good enough' to direct me to the apparent 'choice' to use drugs as a solution to the conflicts I experience while in the presence of others - not realising that there is obviously a problem with either myself and the fake reality in my mind that I give more power to over the real physical reality - or that there is a problem with the social reality I participate in - either way the fact that I choose to use a drug to stand in for me as I fear these 'realities' - which are all externalisation's of me as my mind - indicates that I will abuse my physical body and he outcome my decisions have on the physical reality - to supersede 'fakeness' over what is real for my apparent 'experiences' of 'joy', 'happiness' and pleasure'. In this I have not seen and realised that these concepts of joy and happiness and specific to each person - as you will find that each human has created their own mental picture of what it would mean for us to be 'fulfilled' and 'happy' where we will manipulate the physical reality to achieve this experience of internal happiness. Using drugs is an example of where we will manipulate the physical body into a fake chemical experience of 'joy', 'happiness' and 'fulfilment'. Therefore it brings one back to the understanding that we have separated ourselves from our physical bodies as a parasite of the mind and from our physical reality - just to have 'experiences' within the mind. The physical pays the dearest price for the humans to exist in happiness bubbles in the mind...

Behavioural Dimension to continue...

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Day 101: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Drug use Part 5

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Day 100: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Drug use Part 4

The Character Dimensions of 'the happiness-drug-user'

Example:

a person who uses drug like ecstasy in social environments with friends, to enhance self intimacy and intimacy with others. Allowing one, to feel more relaxed, open, sociable and to drop any fears around self-expression.

Now we will look at the character dimensions which is the real character behind why the person relies on a drug, and therefore the drug stands in as a character of comfortability, sociability and intimacy, instead of the individual becoming and living this as themselves, so by the end of the character dimensions - we will also look at why our society does not allow people to feel comfortable to expression ourselves.

First character dimension = let us look at the dimension of Fear - what the individual really fears about themselves and others, resulting in the 'need' of the use of a drug to change those aspects of self or the experience of self towards others in relation to their characters, expressions one actually fears:

In each self-forgiveness statement you will see that I have taken basic fears and expanded on the design, picture and ideas around the fears - by deconstructing the fear through self-forgiveness -

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear self expression, because as a child I was taught that certain facial expressions and physical movements are silly or stupid.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that a facial expression, contains and exists as an outward expression of an internal value system.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge certain behaviours as being childish, due to words used by my parents, condemning my actions as I grew up as being to childish or immature.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself when scolded by my parents for being childish, to react to the words by my parents and to then decide that I will change and act differently to not have my parents yell at me - therefore infusing this reaction into me, as a fear - which then later on becomes the reaction to my own behaviours, taking me into fear of self expression - where I will literally freeze in discomfort and self judgment as I access all old patterns, ideas and thought patterns around any form of expression feared by and through my parents.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that this idea that my parents have of facial expressions and behaviours is my fear of expression as well, passed down from generation to generation, as we label certain expressions/behaviours according to age groups - which I now realise really only serves the existence of the human surviving within the system - where a certain facial expression or body behaviour is seen to either serve your survival drive for that age group or not, and if one acts outside of ones accepted age behaviours, you are judged and forced to stop - as your survival expects of you to act differently,

therefore

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to attach money and survival to my facial expressions and behaviours, where I will actually yell at a child/person for expressing themselves a certain way - when I know that I am really just supporting the fears and backchat of the generations before me, who accepted the human being as an organic robot that must only present itself according to acceptable ways which slot in with how one is supposed to act in this world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to attached fears to physical behaviour, instead of allowing myself to freely express myself, free from judgments towards myself and the judgments I perceive others have of me which have become my own judgments - as I stop myself each time I am about to express myself 'incorrectly' through thoughts in my mind that tell me I am being inappropriate, immature or 'dumb'.

Fear dimension to be continued...

Day 67: International Crime Research: Serial Killers, Mass Murderers and Sociopaths Part 4

This blog is a continuation from:

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/10/day-64-international-crime-research.html#
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/10/day-65-international-crime-research.html
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/10/day-66-international-crime-research.html#

Background info: if ave not been walking the Crimes Journey to Life blogs since the beginning - please read the following blog where I explain the how and why I walk this series as 'Crime's Journey to Life':

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/05/day-8-international-crime-research-bi.html


The Serial Killer Mind:

The Case of Jeffrey Dahmer

My Self-Forgiveness will be based on the main points taken from the following article:


The Case of Jeffrey Dahmer: Sexual Serial Homicide from a Neuropsychiatric Developmental Perspective
http://libraryresources.cqu.edu.au/JFS/PDF/vol_47/iss_6/JFS2002051_476.pdf


"It is well known that JD was the product of a pregnancy complicated by the fact that his mother suffered from disabling protracted nausea, anxiety, and dysphoria coupled with his mother’s use of prescribed tranquilizers"

Tranquilizers:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create a world where we victimize and bully others, through emotions and feelings resulting in fear and suppression of self, which results in people having to use tranquilizers.

I commit myself to support a Life for all of self honest self expression, where Life as the Physical in all its forms is supported and not the Mind as system that controls and influences for the experience of energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing situations within the family structure, where one or all members of the family will bully/manipulate or victimize another member of the family, due to expectations based in 'how the family functions, what they believe in and what they fear', thus driving the person to fear, anger and suppression, through which they will use tranquilizers to suppress the actual experience of themselves or to suppress themselves from saying something to/towards the other person(s).

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate other beings into using tranquilizers due to me using my influence and power, to get what I want, by forcing other people in society or in my family into suppression and fear.

I commit myself to stop the mind games in which we use each other as pawns in the game of mind-energy, where we all accept ourselves as characters in each others lives, where there is no regard for Life, and where we have accepted our physical existence here as one where we live to serve the Ego of the human, regardless of the consequences and how this affects how we deign our society and our beingness as 'Human'.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as governments to induce such fear and hostly within people, through my inability to directly take responsibility for the problems we see within society, where I would rather have people on tranquilizers than supporting people to become effective human beings - because it has never been about humanity/the earth, but has always been about power and influence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to instead of finding practical ways to express my sexuality, to rather condemn and fear sexuality, as this is the form of personal mind control that humans have become accustomed to - where we will allow ourselves to be manipulated intro fearing ourselves, where we will eventually create a society that has to be controlled because apparently we are so 'bad'.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the concepts of right and wrong, which is how we are manipulated as organic robots into becoming dutiful soldiers that follow the guidance of companies that sell us the solutions to our problems and we will follow the governments that manipulate us through greed - instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that most of the world population is on some form of a drug to either correct learning problems, suppress fears or maintain some form of mental balance - which all indicates that there are secrets to being human, which we are taught to fear as ourselves, where each generation will be inflicted with some dysfunction - and these lies we are fed from generation to generation as we accept illness and 'instability'.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing a society that requires tranquilizers to be able to live and function together, instead of realizing my responsibility as myself towards myself and the world and those who I live with, and in acting and taking self responsibility - no one would require to tranquilize themselves, another or a child - as we will always live what is best for ourselves, which is automatically what is best for all. Instead we live now according to personal greed and self interest and therefore have set the game to that of controlling others through creating rules, religions, cultures and money systems that only cause harm to life on this planet - as one can clearly see - if you walk all Life experiences of people and reveal the hidden stories behind how people really live and experience themselves. Instead of being self honest and open about the damage we have caused ourselves and the rest of humanity thus far through the manipulation techniques and power games of the mind, as seen used in the family systems, societal-systems, religions, cultures and money systems - we continue to perpetuate the systems of control, where we will rather use tranquilizers and drugs to maintain the control, then speak up and be a part of a minority which we fear as we fear control - not realizing we are controlled already - as this is what we gave permission to once we gave into self-dishonesty.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as a weakling, a nothingness, a someone who must not speak up against any person or institution I beLIEve should be respected for some apparent form of 'power' - - where I continue manipulating myself through tranquilizing myself until I remain subservient to the experience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear what will happen if I do not use tranquilizers.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the harm that might happen to myself as my emotions and feelings, if I stop using drugs, wherein I apparently have come to believe that my mind is more powerful than me and that if I were to 'let my suppressions, fears or desires' out - then I will be harmed and unable to stop the outflow.


I forgive myself for not having accepted and allowed myself to realize that to live in a society where we have to tranquilize and drug ourselves to fit in is not life and that by accepting my role as 'suppressed one' that accepts and continues functioning as suppression is not life and therefore I commit myself to always question what has been and what we have accepted as 'humanity' and the beingness of 'Human' - to get to the core of myself as a being, to understand the patterns that constitute who we have become and to change myself within what is best for all Life.

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