Please read the previous parts:
Day 147: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 1Day 148: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 2Day 150: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 3
“If I truly felt anything towards abuse, towards the problems we faced – I had to start with me and stop yelling to the skies, or blaming the government, or blaming the obvious baddies etc. I mean if one uses a bit of common sense you will realize that even if we ended up like in those end of the word Apocalypse movies, where we get shipped to another planet because we have destroyed this one. What would change? Nothing – due to our inherent nature, we as who we have become would simply start all over again and destroy – in time the new planet; basic common sense. If we don't change, nothing will change. So therefore this principle of ‘doing what is best for all’ became my full understanding as the solution. If we want to stop the madness and have ‘what is best’ – how can we expect to still live the secret aspects of our minds as our fears and justifications for our self interest? How can we respect jesus as an example of a man who did and encourages living what is best – but we continue not living what is best? Why must somebody else like a guru or deity or religious figure or politicians do what is best for us, but we don't want to live that within ourselves as a principle?”
Therefore ultimately what I realized was that I was not existing in my body - but in my minds where I lived for energy experiences. Therefore I was blind to the harm caused to others because even when I looked at an image on the news or facebook of a person or animal being abused, I only reacted slightly – but in the end would continue to support the same Mind-Design patterns that resulted in
that form of abuse be it within myself or an outflow of what happened to support my individual self interest. To give you an example – we see an image of a collapsed building such as from this blog: ‘
The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Capitalism Part 1: Death in the work place’. We see the suffering and pain caused to the victims and their families all because of the deceptions within the principles of the functioning of Capitalism. We for a moment react and maybe shed a tear – but in the end what happens in the mind – we think ‘well for this to end we have to put an end to many factors behind which Capitalism functions. For example I will have to stand by a principle of changing our money system – because this is one examples of billions of examples of what happens each day in our current money system. For the money system to change I will have to change my desire and hidden dishonesty towards other life forms, where I want to have more money than others and feel better about the class I am in, because I can compare myself within my self worth to others. I would have to stop accepting minimum wages and things like slave labour. I would have to see those people who died there as my equals, worthy of the same life requirements as me.’ There are many dimensions one can look at, when investigating what is behind why we as society accept these points of suffering. But what happens in the mind when faced with that point of change: “NAAAAHHH, Not going to do that, I like things just the way they are.’ And yet if our own families or ‘loves ones’ or fiends or our own lives are
harmed, then you see people becoming hysterical and flooding facebook with messages of ‘please send your love and prayers to so and so…’ Where we yell how unfair it was and that the authorities
must do something!’ As long as it is not me and my family. That is unfortunately the extent to which love exists in our society – love for me and my own. This is very obvious and I am not going to try and even explain the point further because this is absolutely evident in itself – if everyone loved life equally for and as ALL – then we would have by now changed the world systems that force abuse onto those who cannot protect themselves.
Moving on – I worked with the truth of how I saw myself and every other life form. The truth was that in my mind, in my hidden and not so hidden thoughts about myself and others – I actually didn't care about anybody and that was the truth of why I existed in the exact same mind set of ‘me, mine, what I WANT’. I realised that the world system is not caused by some invisible force of evil. It exists due to me allowing it to be an extension of the truth of who I really am inside. Not the picture I show to people of how ‘good I am’ or even ‘how dark and nonchalant I can be’ – the actual truth.
That means that I walked different forms of abuse that I saw in the world – such as the building collapsing in Bangladesh or a boy being beaten up for being Jewish or a girl being bullied at school for being fat. I looked at where do I in my thoughts justify the beauty industry and the existence of the class system as created within capitalism – for me to justify why it is ok for capitalism to continue to exist as it does, where it justified buildings collapsing on people. I looked at where do I either in my words, or thoughts or deeds bully another for not being like me, being of a different religion, believe or even for just liking different things than me. I looked at the girl being bullied for being fat –and I looked at the times I have gotten possessed over my own appearance and self image – where I insisted on having things my way at the expense of others, or where I would secretly judge a fat girl as I walked past her for being thinner than her. All of these base design thought patterns exist in all of us. The only difference comes into – ones personalised personality – which will utilise different thoughts processes. For example in all humans exist all forms of emotions and feelings – but we utilise them and go into the energy experience of that emotion/feeling differently – for example you might get someone who gets completely possessed with jealousy and the next person only feels a slight movement inside themselves – but the end of the day moving oneself as that emotion – where it directs ones decision – this is still exactly the same thing all that is different is to what extent we make these decisions based on these emotions and the extent of the consequences to ourselves. It is still ‘
the emotion of jealousy’ that directs me and therefore I am the same as every other person who I might have judged for being directed by their emotions. And it is these consequences that we in society have all labelled as either unacceptable because we see the direct consequence as being unacceptable or we label it as acceptable because it only caused some harm or harm we are not able to see directly.
For example lets say a ‘serial killer’ (see series:
International Crime Research: Serial Killers, Mass Murderers and Sociopaths Part 1) was moved by the possession of sex and dominating woman through the sex-power experience as learnt through pornography (which is another example of parents seeing pornography as being a harmless developmental phase in their child's life and just giggle and roles their eyes at it instead of REALLY looking at what is pornography designing and influencing within the impressionable youngster). So within most humans we develop, especially of you look at the vast majority of people who watch pornography OR who at least grow up with a skewed view of sexuality – a view and practise on sex that is at best not in alignment with it being a healthy physical self expression point, but which became again a hidden, secretive practise based on a system within the mind body relationship that uses imagery and fear and morality and secretiveness which transpires into desire which generates energy. For most people though - sex is a very big system, because of the addictive nature of it – and it is due to this that most humans will deny and fight tooth and nail to protect our sexual practices. It is seen as natural and ‘fun’ even to have secret sexual desires towards others and to get aroused by pornography and other graphic sexual images such as rape, bestiality, child pornography. So these are examples of what we really do behind closed doors and in our private spaces, most people do it to some extent and because of this and because the consequences of such addictions are not taught to children and obviously not seen by adults – because ‘I am having fun in my life screw the rest’ – this is the reason why hidden patterns of abuse are justified and participated in my most people. Monkey see monkey do is the principle – I see others doing it so I do it too – because it is acceptable.
So it is wrong for Ted Bundy or Jeffrey Dahmer for example to become possessed in a sex-power system and for it to result in the death and harm of people BUT if I tap into the same sex-power system energy through watching porn or the way I participate in sexual practices and masturbation and the way I act in relationships – then it is ok – as long as someone did not get ‘hurt’. But do we ever walk the time lines of the consequences of how we participate to see what have we created inside ourselves and as a societal acceptable practise? Do we look at who gets harmed behind the scenes of what I have allowed? No – if our consequences are not in our faces then we don't bother investigating this reality and how we are a part of. Easier just to say ‘someone else did it’ or ‘he/she is bad’ or to put blinkers on our eyes and not really investigate anything.
(See Ted ‘
Bundy’s Final Interview’ where he speaks about the influences such as Pornography, that contributed to who he became.)
I quite enjoy watching crime related tv series like CSI, Criminal Minds and so forth. So as an example you will notice how if a crime happens, the CSI, or Police or behavioural analysists will come along and investigate the time line of events that moulded and shaped the final event/death/murder. However we don't do this for ourselves to see where and how our lives, our choices have consequences for yourselves, our children, the lives of others and this planet. Here is where I started investigating myself and what I do to myself as creator, and also what I do to the world as creator. The painful part at that stage was realising ‘self responsibility’ because on the one hand one wants to believe that this life is ‘so short’ and ‘why can I not have fun’ etc. But after a while as I worked through those reactions I realised that I could no longer ignore the reality of this world. I could not longer sit back and continue to participate in my secret world which had an indirect and direct outflow on my external world. If I truly felt anything towards abuse, towards the problems we faced – I had to start with me and stop yelling to the skies, or blaming the government, or blaming the obvious baddies etc. I mean if one uses a bit of common sense you will realize that even if we ended up like in those end of the word Apocalypse movies, where we get shipped to another planet because we have destroyed this one. What would change? Nothing – due to our inherent nature, we as who we have become would simply start all over again and destroy – in time the new planet; basic common sense. If we don't change, nothing will change. So therefore this principle of ‘doing what is best for all’ became my full understanding as the solution. If we want to stop the madness and have ‘what is best’ – how can we expect to still live the secret aspects of our minds as our fears and justifications for our self interest? How can we respect jesus as an example of a man who did and encourages living what is best – but we continue not living what is best? Why must somebody else like a guru or deity or religious figure or politicians do what is best for us, but we don't want to live that within ourselves as a principle?
In the next part I will explore an example of Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all.
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How I experienced being around even disgruntled demons, which in itself was, especially for a spiritually sensitive person like myself - intense - meaning where I could experience the 'emotions' so to speak of the spirit - this was still easier for me than the emotional and mental games played by and between us humans in society. Mostly, because there I could sit very still on my bed with my ouija board and the 'chaos' so to speak would occur around me, but not to me. You could say I became desensitised to the chaos that the spirit world could bring. I mean, in the beginning J taught me about demons, where after introducing me to guides and spirits connected to wicca on the ouija board, he asked me if I was ready to communicate with demons. This initially was somewhat nerve wrecking as bot of us could actually feel the wind move past our faces as the beings whipped through the air. We could feel them touching our faces with either icy cold or hot sensations. We could hear them whispering in our ears and we could experience, as I mentioned, their emotional states as they moved also from calm one moment to agitated the next. Initially for me (and for J he admitted) this was unsettling, but as J assured me, our 'guides' would not allow the demons to harm us and would make sure after a while, when we were done communicating, that the demons would leave. This was explained to me as something that was not always the case for people who simply used the ouija board, but did not have any 'protection', where once they were done and they asked the demons to leave, the demons would say 'bi-bi' but then still hang around and cause problems later on...
