Day 199: I want my Demon!

Thus far I have been writing a blog series on How to write blogs, but I wanted to just quickly insert this blog, because it is a point that I have been noticing lately and have been wanting to do a blog on - so here goes.

This subject is specifically about the paranormal community - or what I have come to see as a community of people who are not interested in the truth of any particular subject, but who seek entertainment through creating Mental Disorders within themselves. Let look at the general definition of Para-normal which is: derived from the Latin use of the prefix para meaning "outside or beyond" what is considered normal. It is interesting because one definition of para is also abnormal - which ties in with my experience I have been having lately towards and in relation to the Paranormal community. Don’t get me wrong - I use to be obsessed with demons and ghosts myself, and if you had told me 10 years ago that ghosts no longer exist or that I am creating my own feelings of 'being followed by a ghost/demon' in my mind and in my body and that I was creating my own demon possession I would have also laughed in your face and yelled 'I want my Demon'. But what I have noticed lately is that the Paranormal community are not interested much in any form of truth. They want to feel Special through experiencing Abnormal mental states - I will walk an example with you in a minute:

Creating the Abnormal is obviously not limited to the Paranormal community - as this is a human trend -something that through our behaviour and addiction to media and social networks - has become who we are as the way we talk, behave and the things we as humans give value to in general. I mean if you look at the things that people get up to and the things that are out there on social networks through which people get attention from others and how this is just getting more preposterous and desperate; - it definitely shows that in time the 'Abnormal Behaviour' section under 'Psychology' will either have to be expanded on in the DSM classification of Mental Disorders  OR we will have to remove classifications of Mental disorder and call everything 'Normal'.


My definition though of normal is different from what society classifies as normal. The things that abuse Life on this planet in various forms, has become 'normal' ways of 'being' - this is what we call 'being human'. From my perspective to be this is abnormal behaviour if I consider that we as humanity have greater potential that what we are currently living and most certainly what we are heading towards. Therefore to me 'normal behaviour' such as self honesty, self correction, self responsibility and self awareness is normal if I consider what principles I want to live by as a human, based on what potential I see exists for us, instead of accepting the Principles we currently live by as 'Humanity/Society'.

Ok - back to the Paranormal community. A few years back we started the Desteni group and along side that we decided to launch a Demonology website, to share our findings on demonology and the Afterlife. We created a forum and invited people to come and work through what they perceive to be demon/ghost possession/influence and get to the core of the Consciousness connection between 'Paranormal experiences' and the Mind of the 'experiencer'. At the time I was wondering how we will be able to handle the influx of people who are desperate to sort out their demon/paranormal experiences. Alas this did not happen and in fact the opposite happened - the paranormal community ran far far away.

For example - every now and again somebody will come to the Demonology website or forum and ask about a ghost or demon that they think is following them or trying to or is possessing them.

I walk them through a basic explanation that ghosts/demons no longer exist - other than what experiences are created within the Mind of the individual which always has a starting point in some past event/memory - and how the person is dealing with their live and environment. Thus the paranormal becomes the explanation as to why we are having dark thoughts, fantasies, illusions, fits of violence, the constant feeling like something wants to hurt us, depression, possession, the desire to escape their lives/minds, the desire to be special, to avoid real trauma and place the emphasis on trauma caused by a 'dark force' etc…

I then suggest reading/viewing material to further explain my point, and ask the person to come back to the forum when they are ready to start exploring their 'Paranormal' experience. This is where something truly paranormal does happen - the person disappears lol. Never to be seen again. Not sure if it is some vortex, triangle or enveloping shadow, but the person simply vanished. Odd.

Anyway - so in time I realised that the reason why I found it so strange that people did not want to come and learn the tools to become stronger and get to know their minds and how they created internal experiences, is because for a moment I forgot that I too once thought I was very special and unique when I was being followed by a demon. Looking back now of course I realize that in my past I was rather silly about these kinds of things and that my entire desire to interact with demons was an energy thrill that I was seeking, which gave me something to do - but also made me feel mysterious and different. I mean you could create quite a list of why we do the things we do, bit what I have found primarily is that people get a compete rush off of the strange, the exiting, that which gives us a kick - because it entertains the mind which has become more and more addicted to energy - vastly more so over the last 10-20 years.

So what I have found is that the Paranormal community create their experiences as a form of entertainment and in most cases it becomes about drawing an experience out for as long as you can. Therefore obviously it would be rather boring if a person had to admit that they are not demon possessed, but are actually possessing themselves - it is just not the same!

Unfortunately as I indicated above this is not only in the Paranormal community that we do this - it exists in many forms within Society - it is just that in the Paranormal community you can basically create anything you want and because everyone is doing it, people are not really going to question each others motives or evidence. In the paranormal experience you can believe in faeries, or UFO's or shadow men or vortexes etc… the list goes on. In the end what I found is that if one stops the addiction to the energy, then you will find that your mind - should I say 'you' will use your imagination less and less, because this is where the imagination comes in - it creates an image of something which you have read about or are aware of as being 'dangerous' or strange' and produces visions/flashes/pictures in relation to this imaginary 'danger' - and 'viola' from there your mind starts producing reactions and responses physically and mentally to this 'threat/problem'. And obviously if a paranormal event/issue' is caused by repressed emotions and repressed memories - then the mind will project its reactions onto this 'danger' that exist 'outside' of the person. Thus the mind gets to experience the emotions and reactions in relation to the danger, which for most also becomes part of an energy addictive pattern, but without facing the core problem. This mostly happens, because we have never been taught to look 'inside', but that our problems and reactions are due to other people or events. Therefore for the paranormal enthusiast - we are automatically trained to look outside ourselves for an inkling of a strange occurrence which could be responsible for our internal experiences...

Day 138: The Paranormal Series Part 8 – The being that died as Fear (part 3)

Day 131: The Paranormal Series - Ghosts and Demons Part 1
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-131-paranormal-series-ghosts-and.html

Day 132: The Paranormal Series – Ghosts and Demons Part 2
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-132-paranormal-seriesghosts-and.html

Day 133: The Paranormal Series – Ghosts and Demons Part 3
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-131-paranormal-series-ghosts-and_19.html 

Day 134: The Paranormal Series Part 4 - A Psychic’s Gate Keeper (part 1) 

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-134-paranormal-series-part-4.html

Day 135: The Paranormal Series Part 5 - A Psychic’s Gate Keeper (part 2) 

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/04/day-135-paranormal-series-part-5.html 

Day 136: The Paranormal Series Part 6 – The being that died as Fear (part 1) 

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/04/day-136-paranormal-series-part-6-being.html 

Day 137: The Paranormal Series Part 7 – The being that died as Fear (part 2) 

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/05/day-137-paranormal-series-part-7-being.html

This blog is a continuation from ‘The being that died as Fear (part 2)’ and is based on the following Interview:

Journeys into the Afterlife - The Being that died as Fear

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to afraid of everything

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become a demon of fear

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing  myself to fuel my fears, by feeding them through thoughts and by allowing myself to go with the fear, meaning where the fear would come up and the thoughts would tell me to move away from the object/person/environment, I would not question my fear, but just give in and thus move further and further into my fear and way from common sense and from this reality.

I forgive myself for never accepting and allowing myself to overcome my fears by working with them, and instead became the after effects of the product of my fears a mere consequence as a reaction and not life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing  fear to become my soul mate, my reason for moving and my reason for each decision I would make – whether it be to move away from or closer to a being, point or an experience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feed of the fears of humans as a demon

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing  to focus my entire existence as a demon on consuming the fear energy of humans.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as a demon that consumed the fear energy of humans, to never question why this would be my existence a being needing to live of of fear and in doing so keeping the fear cycle of humans going, together with the fear that exists as this world as all the survival fears that already exist in the lives of humans.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing  myself to be entertained by the fear of others, such as what you see has become the focal point of television, news an media – where people are obsessed by watching other people in life threatening, fearful situations, that are writhe with pain and suffering, where I do not allow myself for a moment to really question why have I become a demon, some one who has de-‘life’ and de-manned myself and ensures that all life on this planet is victimised more and more around creating fear as a consequence of these world systems and what we do to ourselves and each other.

          http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anneliese_Michel

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing  myself as a demon to become possessed and to possess others

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as a demon to possess others so that I may feed off of their energy and generate energy within myself based on my participation and experience towards another who is themselves in a state of energy.

Day 137: The Paranormal Series Part 7 – The being that died as Fear (part 2)

Day 131: The Paranormal Series - Ghosts and Demons Part 1

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-131-paranormal-series-ghosts-and.html
Day 132: The Paranormal Series – Ghosts and Demons Part 2

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-132-paranormal-seriesghosts-and.html
Day 133: The Paranormal Series – Ghosts and Demons Part 3
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-131-paranormal-series-ghosts-and_19.html
Day 134: The Paranormal Series Part 4 - A Psychic’s Gate Keeper (part 1)
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-134-paranormal-series-part-4.html

Day 135: The Paranormal Series Part 5 - A Psychic’s Gate Keeper (part 2)
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/04/day-135-paranormal-series-part-5.html
Day 136: The Paranormal Series Part 6 – The being that died as Fear (part 1)
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/04/day-136-paranormal-series-part-6-being.html

This blog is a continuation from ‘The being that died as Fear (part 1)’ and is based on the following Interview:

Journeys into the Afterlife - The Being that died as Fear

“I am not a demon anymore, I am a being that is now in my process, walking equal to and one with how humans and existence as a whole, is walking their process within existence, where I had freed myself with self-forgiveness. ‘Freed meaning where, with self-forgiveness with the realization of what forgiveness really in fact means, set myself free from my belief as illusion as energy, set myself free from the point of knowledge and information that defined me…”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as a demon to be enslaved by and through the mind consciousness system as emotions and feelings which generate energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as demon to believe that if I did not get energy that I would cease to exist, instead of questioning whether I exists more than just an energy experience, which was after all the starting point upon death or after death for why I became trapped within the experience of energy such as rage or fear or sadness and does not determine who I am as a being.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as demon to be enslaved into the past through knowledge and information

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as human to exist in even more knowledge and information, trapping and limiting myself in cycles of abuse and consciousness systems, while at the same time subjecting each other, children, animals and nature to my mistakes and my evolution within consciousness as who I become from child into adult as my ‘personalities’ that each seek out its own self interested experience in the form of wants, needs, desires, fears and the addiction to energy, emotions and feelings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as ‘human’ to be trapped even further than the demons in my state of illusion within my mind consciousness system.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within one point of pre-programmed design such as overcoming a specific fear and never therefore questioning why our human existence is about fear or pain or suffering.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create these ‘life lessons’ instead of living life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be contained in my mind as one experience of myself, repeating it in patterns throughout my life, at times questioning why a god or a higher consciousness would create such limiting experiences for me on this planet, but ultimately never stopping the cycles as myself, but instead giving into the energy experiences and addictions thereof.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as the ‘creators’ to create these points around which beings entered this physical reality as our bodies where we would program beings into repeating cycles into infinity, facing the same points.