Friday, September 19, 2014

Day 157: The Paranormal Series part 18 - Demons vs. Angels part 5

Todays blog is a continuation from:





"Children are not born believing that an Allah or a Jesus or a Satan sits somewhere above (or below) them watching their every move, punishing them at random  times if their bad (or good?) behaviour and removes all responsibility fro them just because 'they worship' and thus allows them to participate in a world where cause and effect is the law, but because of 'beLIEve',  cause and effect apparently does not touch the religious . Children are not born believing that animals are there for us (created by the invisible dude in the sky) to do with as we please. I could keep going with examples, but I think you get what I am saying…"



So getting back to my filters. I remember reading books on the paranormal and being completely perplexed and dumfounded that such things could exist. Now this is where I bring in my above mentioned point about religion and brainwashing. Maybe, just maybe, if my parents has not been brainwashed to fear god and to fear ghosts, but to embrace the reality of the situation - which is that there is no real proof of god - therefore you don’t have to lie about who you are in this life, and to not fear questioning why would god leave spirits to roam the earth in confusion - because questioning 'god' is a taboo topic - then maybe I would have had the confidence to ask the questions relevant to understanding the paranormal. But instead I had to buy books in town and read alone, pondering to myself what all of this could mean. You did not ask adults, because by golly - you just don’t ask those kinds of questions and if you do -you get very short answers such as 'ghosts don’t exist', or 'it is gods will(?), or 'don’t ask me ask your father', or 'don’t speak about that', 'it is of the devil'…. LOL I remember once in school either myself or another child took out some book about devil worship from the library. A few days later another child also took out a book about the occult and this put up a red flag for the school and all books on the occult/devil worship were duly removed. Children were being influenced by the devil! So obviously, I was aware that such topics were frowned upon and leaned towards developing quiet ways of buying books and reading by myself.

So the point I am getting at is that I like most children, never really dealt with the actuality of the truth behind the paranormal, because not even my parents, siblings or other adults I came into contact with had a clue about the paranormal and why it existed, and thus my interest turned into an ENERGY - a weird dark -as I called it before 'macabre' energy that sat in my chest and in my belly it transformed into a ball of anxiety as excitement as I was faced with this strange, ultimately unclear 'realm'. Even into my early adulthood I held onto this energy and by then it transformed into a 'look at what I am into' energy as I become a bit of a rebel against society and wore my 'paranormal' interest like a badge and ultimately a shield - which protected me from increased paranoia about boys and peer pressures and the increased pressure to do well in school. I believed that I was special and cool because I did not have a religion and dared to lift the covers and look at what was underneath the bed. Obviously I did not really see what was under the covers because I did not have a frame of reference at that stage of what could possibly be going on. In my mind, I too (like the adults) had mere frames of reference and unfortunately they were pretty much also based around 'demons are bad', and angels are good.

Only years later (which is where my involvement wit Desteni comes in) do I start to see and understand that there were even deeper truths, which in my younger years I would not have been able or willing to listen to and this was mostly due to the fact that my 'intrigue' as I mentioned earlier had turned into an energy which I had become accustomed to and therefore, this was the start of my interests into all things new age and paranormal - where my life choices from there on were mostly shaped by my desire to follow this energy of 'mystery and intrigue.' More in my next blog…

Day 156: The Paranormal Series part 17 - Demons vs. Angels part 4

Today's blog is a continuation from:



"In the next part I would like to also address personal experience with regards to what Mykey mentions when he speaks about 'people following the energy' which is why we have 'spirituality' because this definitely related to me as well as the point he speaks about when he says that demons could change their vibrations so that of the same energy as beings that came from 'heaven' - I have an interesting story to share there as well."


So in the previous blog I mentioned that I would like to share my own experiences around 'following the energy' -and by this I am not only referring to the positive 'light worker' type energy, but also the dark demonic energies.


As I have mentioned in previous blogs, I always moved around and within polarities when it came to spirituality - depending on my mind set and what my current economic situation allowed. For example if I was in a stage/state in my life where I was trying to make a life for myself, I would go after the positive energy (which I will speak about more further down). Then as things would crash and I would find myself yet again bored with my life or afraid or angry then I would swing towards the negative. Heck - looking back now - I remember finding a balance between the 2 points and living both - lol. Yes, I would play around on the Ouija Board talking to demons about how bad life is and how everything sucked - while my profession was a Kinesiologist and 'healer'. This obviously happened, as I have come to realize because I was (as most are) in conflict about who I was and how I was living versus what I wanted to be.

So I am now going to take a look back at how I designed these 2 different energy-polarity personalities. My earliest memories of starting an interest in the Paranormal was probably already around the age of 8/9. It started with me watching tv shows like 'Sightings' and 'Ripley's believe it or not' which peaked my interest in the unknown, the bizarre and the unbelievable. From there I started buying books on ghosts and the paranormal and definitely developed a fascination leaning more towards ghosts/poltergeists/demons than UFO's and the rest. I remember the feeling now - it was always in the centre of my chest - this energy which if I could describe it was 'macabre', 'anxious' and 'mysterious'. The anxious energy specifically related to 'the unknown', in dealing with or coming into contact with things 'out there' that were invisible and I did not know when or how it could interact with me. I supposed one could say that those were typical childhood interests in anything that peaked an interest and stimulated the imagination.

I also recognise the energy as being that of 'curiosity' and 'intrigue' - where as a young person my mind was obviously being trained by my parents, society, teachers and my religion to not have and develop common sense or to even really ever know or stand within the truth of things - but to be an observer in life or 'that which gives life meaning' - meaning have you noticed how we as humanity value that which supports the lies we hold onto and therefore if anything is being faced - the mind will have difficulty grasping the straight truth, as it will filter what is happening through how we are programmed to deal with reality? For example (for those of you thinking huh?); as children our parents think we are pretty dam stupid. They tell us bald faced lies about god and money and love and how the system works and about fake human values etc… As a child we often question these values and norms - because as they say 'the mind of a child is innocent' -which essentially means the child has initially not been trained to bring up bulshit filters to filter the truth of situations -and therefore will directly ask questions. The parent/caretaker/adult will mould the perceptual abilities of a child and in some religions and cultures even abuse children verbally, physically and emotionally - until the child beLIEves the same mumbo jumbo as the parent.

This is Brainwashing ladies and gentle man - at its best. And here we tend to vilify groups - where we call them 'cults who brainwash people' - but this is exactly what happens to children in almost every house hold. The child is not born believing in invisible gods and worshiping money over all life - they are taught this by the parents and society. Literally the parent takes a child's fresh, clean, blank mind and washes through it with knowledge and information that have absolutely nothing to do with this physical reality and which harm the physical reality extensively. To give you an example: a child is not born beLIEving that little blond girls are prettier than girls with brown hair - this is brainwashed into children to prepare them, as the adult had to do to become brood-stock to be picked by the strongest man with the most stable income to provide for her so she can make babies (sounds crude but hey when the shoe fits…).


Children are not born believing that an Allah or a Jesus or a Satan sits somewhere above (or below) them watching their every move, punishing them at random times if their bad (or good?) behaviour and removes all responsibility fro them just because 'they worship' and thus allows them to participate in a world where cause and effect is the law, but because of 'beLIEve', cause and effect apparently does not touch the religious . Children are not born believing that animals are there for us (created by the invisible dude in the sky) to do with as we please. I could keep going with examples, but I think you get what I am saying...

Thursday, September 4, 2014

Day 155: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 6

Previous Blogs in this series:



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"Next blog: walking an example of  Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all"



An example:

Years ago I came the realization that pornography is an abusive practice which has many consequential outflows for all of society and the individual - and that most of these consequences are not considered by humanity, due to us firstly allowing ourselves to be addicted to sex, masturbation and relationships/marriage, and therefore on a societal level, pornography might cause eyes to role and the occasional smirk, but it is never really directed, because most participate in some form of sexual addiction, be it on the internet or in your own relationship-dynamics.

Secondly, as I mentioned in a previous blog - due to this secretive allowance of sexual addictions (and most additions for that mater) we tend to not bother to walk the time lines of consequences that have played out and continue to manifest in the lives of individuals and the impact on society since the start/invention and the 'evolution' of pornography and sexuality into what it is today. So looking at all the dimensions of sex and sex addiction, I realize for myself that what existed as the pieces of the puzzle which made up the human psychological dimensions of sex addiction, existed in myself as well. Therefore, I could completely relate to my own experience of addiction to sex energy and all of the dimensions linked to personal values and the ideas behind what it means to be a ''woman. So how could I continue to 'judge' or 'condemn' or want pornography and sex abuse to be stopped, if I myself also existed within the same mind-systems as any other person who would participate in sex and sexual abuse.

This is where I started peeling the layers of my own mind with regards to 'addiction' and specifically for this example the addiction both to 'the desire for relationship' as well as the addiction to masturbation. Now what I am walking here is not in-depth - meaning how we have structured our understanding of 'how the mind works' - is done in course form and in interviews, therefore what I share here are more basic overviews and insights into the process of understanding and self change that I have walked thus far. So, when realized that for the world to change I have to change, I could therefore not say no to challenging my own pre-designs with regards to who I had become as my thoughts, words and deeds.

Therefore in this example around sexuality, I peeled the layers of how I currently viewed and experienced sex and masturbation. I found there were many layers to my experiences - therefore I took one experience at a time and walked the creational time lines of how it started - the years and moments in my youth, where experiences around sex and masturbation - were taken in by my mind and together with other pre-programmed mind systems, turned into my specific character and personalities around sexuality. For example what I noticed as I walked backwards in time was that like most people I grew up developing conflicted, morality views on sexuality. From there I had experiences like most people that involved boys, and what contributed to my sexual development were the specific mind experiences which all eventually for each individual fit together like puzzle pieces to one day down the line (the 'now') combine and become a pre-programmed design which in specific moments when faced with for example sexuality will literally 'come up' from the back of the mind as thoughts, which lead to emotional experiences and reactions, which influence ones behaviour, combined with the energy that moves through the physical especially around the sexual organs. This we then perceive as 'natural responses' or 'who we are' or our 'god given designs' - however we don’t see that most of our experiences are programmed into us from firstly the experiences and life time fears and belief systems passed down in our DNA from our parents, and secondly as I mentioned previously from moments of experiences we have as we grow up - where the mind creates itself from quantum moments.

So to cut a long story short - I was able to then after writing out the 'how' my sexual ideals, desires and addictions were created -apply self forgives on the various dimensions of the design - which as I started above is to much to go into now, so I will simply stick to how this allowed me to change from sexual addiction to sexual self expression. Which means that I worked with removing all the layers that made up my sexuality to get back to a purified me within sexuality, where I was not being moved by memories or societal ideas or fears etc, to get to a point where my thoughts about sexuality were not based on anything other then me here in physical self expression. The same then for my deeds - where I through removing these layers by applying the self forgiveness, stopped the movement of sex-energy which would drive and manipulate me towards looking for a partner and words, where I no longer participated in sex talk with my partner, as I realized that was part of the energy-matrix design where one 'builds up energy' which is connected to the secret mind where we store all our nasty imagery and symbols about sex, which largely comes from (and this is an example of what I referred to above about influences and moments from the past that make up your design of who you are now) - pornography, movies, television etc…

Day 154: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 5

Previous Blogs in this series:



"If I truly felt anything towards abuse, towards the problems we faced – I had to start with me and stop yelling to the skies, or blaming the government, or blaming the obvious baddies etc. I mean if one uses a bit of common sense you will realize that even if we ended up like in those end of the word Apocalypse movies, where we get shipped to another planet because we have destroyed this one. What would change? Nothing – due to our inherent nature, we as who we have become would simply start all over again and destroy – in time the new planet; basic common sense. If we don't change, nothing will change. So therefore this principle of ‘doing what is best for all’ became my full understanding as the solution. If we want to stop the madness and have ‘what is best’ – how can we expect to still live the secret aspects of our minds as our fears and justifications for our self interest? How can we respect jesus as an example of a man who did and encourages living what is best – but we continue not living what is best?  Why must somebody else like a guru or deity or religious figure or politicians do what is best for us, but we don't want to live that within ourselves as a principle?"



So with regards to realizing the Principle of doing what is best for all, I realizes firstly as mentioned in my previous blog, that this would directly imply that I would have to become the change that I expected from the world - because if I did not change my beingness, the starting point of who I was as the human living on this planet directly creating and participating and allowing abuse in all forms of its creation from minuscule to large - then obviously we don’t stand a chance. At first this was a bit of a shock, a revelation that at first allowed me to feel relief as I realised that I could finally stop waiting for some god or deity or 'powerful special person' to save me, but then a while later as I looked at the real steps that I will have to take to bring that about, it left me experiencing a slight bit of anxiety in my solar plexus, as it dawned on me that self change actually means changing who I am, how and what I think and what I allow to exist within me.

Therefore even thought at Desteni you will notice we use many big words or knowledge concepts such as 'self honesty, self forgiveness, self responsibility and self realization. But if you take a closer look at the people who apply these tools and principles - what we are directly saying by speaking these words is that for each it becomes a point of 'living' the words, not just merely speaking them. Obviously this in itself as I realized is the difficult part because and this ties in with the definition of the statement: Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all - what this means is to actually investigate, take responsibility for and change how I have conditioned myself into how I think and speak and express myself.

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As an example of : Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all; What does this practically mean? This means as stated above that I would like to live in a world where we stop deceiving and abusing and living only for self interest as the addiction to the Mind. This means that my principle becomes doing and living that which in all ways will always support us as humanity to be better people, functioning in all ways to create a society of people that are actually if one were to say 'the image and likeness of god' - and here I am not saying I belief in a god - here I am referring to what one would understand to be the best human possible. What would this imply - well for me this means stopping all actions, words and thoughts that are not in my best interest, because if it is not what is best for me, then it is obviously not what is best for others - and therefore one will say that to direct one in ones words, thoughts and deeds, is to in every moment asses 'me', meaning to purify my thoughts, words and deeds.

Next blog: walking an example of Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all

Friday, August 22, 2014

Day 153: The Paranormal Series part 16 - Demons vs. Angels part 3


The complete 'Paranormal Series' thus far:


Today's blog is a continuation from:



Which is based on the following Interview:



"So for example a demon could be shouting, swearing, and carrying on in all sorts of strange ways - and as we all are aware of - this would mostly in historical documentation of 'demonic possession cases' be viewed as 'irrational and strange behaviour - would which be classified as purely something that the demon is doing to the human subject. However if you actually look 'behind the scenes' you will notice that the demons will merely playing with the machinery/mechanisms (hence the name of our series: 'Quantum Mechanics of Paranormal Events') that makes up the human mind. Therefore I suggest listen to this interview as it gives insight into developing an understanding of why demons carries on the way they did and that we as humans were not merely 'innocent' subjects to a 'wild, strange and uncontrollable' imagination of a demon - but instead, were the actual machines that made it possible fro demons to do what they did because everything was already existent within us."

And ladies and gentleman - this is why Mind Possession today - still looks, sounds and is perceived exactly as demonic possession - because even when you remove the demons - you are still left with the human mind, which was the basis from which demon possession occurred from and within. This indicates a state currently of 'chaos' and 'reactiveness, where the mind becomes possessed by our internal conflicts. For example, is it not interesting that we tend to blame everyone for how we behave on a day to day basis? I mean switch on the news or simply surf the internet and you will be bombarded by images of humans acting absolutely bizarre, so much so that most shake our heads in disbelief at the wars, and violence and chaos we see. I mean, switch on Youtube alone and you will see millions of videos (and here I am not even referring to news worthy content) of people acting in ways that would depict 'abnormal behaviour' or a form of 'possession' - from bullying, to weird sex fetishes, to stunts designed to embarrass or exhilarate etc. All of these actions would indicate something else is taking over these people, that surely it is not 'normal' for us to behave that way and that is why drugs and demons and society and socio-economic troubles etc all get blamed for our choices and for the more obvious personality and human behavioural traits which allow for these apparent 'external forces' to take control and find expression in the first place. All of this exposes a strange chaotic nature of the human, which over the last few years has been accelerating on daily basis. And yet, it is very interesting that we don’t consider that it is in fact us doing it to and by ourselves from within, where these external forces act as channels which exacerbate the outcome but would not exist without the Mind. This brings us to the point Mykey makes in the interview where the little bit of 'beigness' that once existed as the human-being - has completely been taken over more and more by the Mind. This many would call 'the evolution of Consciousness', which one is able to see merely means the de-evolution (demonised = de-manned) of our beingness as Life in the Physical to 'The Mind' as programs and energy systems called 'Consciousness'.

You will always find us justifying and blaming something or someone else for the actions of all of humanity from the smallest points e.g. 'I am jealous' to the greatest; 'declaring wars, raping, abusing, fighting etc'. What is quite funny in an un-funny kind of way for me, has been starting up the Demonology Website and Forum. When we started it - we expected the paranormal community to respond well to us offering insights into the designs of the Paranormal and how each is able to step beyond self-interest to see how we have participated in creating the current day 'paranormal' and how each within the extent of self responsibility are able to change these types of mind created events to bring a stop to that which we are directly responsible for. Yet - interestingly enough which actually made sense as I reviewed everything a year later - where I realized that people were not interested in getting to the truth of for example why ghosts were left by a 'god' to suffer alone - no - rather people like the idea of ghosts floating around aimlessly for the rest of their existence, because it gives the paranormal enthusiast 'entertainment'.


Therefore what I have found mostly on the demonology forum, when people come ask to be assisted with what they perceive at the time to be demonic interference or possession - when I support them with content that will allow them to realize they are not being followed by some ghost or demon and that the creation and design of their experience is specific to their own Mind creation - instead of people being relieved (which I would be if someone told me I am not being followed by an evil presence that possibly is beyond my control and could really hurt me) - the reaction has instead been that of disappointment, which if you look at the thought behind it is 'nah boring I want it to be a demon'.

In the next part I would like to also address personal experience with regards to what Mykey mentions when he speaks about 'people following the energy' which is why we have 'spirituality' because this definitely related to me as well as the point he speaks about when he says that demons could change their vibrations so that of the same energy as beings that came from 'heaven' - I have an interesting story to share there as well.

Day 152: The Paranormal Series Part 15 – Demons vs. Angels part 2

The complete 'Paranormal Series' thus far:


Today's blog is a continuation from:

Day 149: The Paranormal Series Part 13 – Demons vs. Angels part 1


Which is based on the following Interview:

Demons in the Afterlife Part 5: The Hypnotic Experience of Angels/Archangels/Guides Vs. the Darkness of the Demons



This Interview is a great start and introduction into the explanation and insights by this this ex-demon (Mykey), into how demons used what was already existent in the human mind as 'consciousness' to be able to do what they did during demonic possessions and demonic interference. For example Mykey (demons name) says the following key point:

"We only always used what was existent in the Mind"

He goes on to basically start explaining how the layers and levels of the Mind is obviously quite hidden from us, and all that we have access to currently is the conscious mind and within that we are even limited. So as an example of what he is referring to - he is saying that we are only aware of some of our thoughts and emotions, not even the faster moving thoughts and experiences. We become aware during our day and within experiences of the thoughts and emotion/feeling experiences that are more predominant. Underneath all that exists within the conscious mind are the subconscious and unconscious mechanisms that lead to the conscious experiences -which would be the end result of what goes on in the background.

These 'background' mechanisms from the conscious mind to subconscious and unconscious would further more include the Quantum Mind and Quantum Physical - where our experiences that we live moment by moment are actually quantumly created, which basically means that one moment such as a thought 'I do not like him' is actually programmed into the mind on a quantum level where the mind is busy with hundreds of 'calculations' and programs using belief systems, fears, ideas, personality designs, memories, desires, pre-programming, perceptions etc - to in one moment insert and create a response system to our external and internal experiences. Therefore, what we believe is self willed, self movement where "I" made that decision to have that thought or make that decision - is in fact shown to not be so.

That is why we say (at Desteni) that as humans, we are not really the directively principle currently of our own decisions and the thoughts, beliefs and ideas that exist in our minds- because we are not currently aware of exactly what 'ingredients' if you will, went into the conscious experience we have. Therefore, what Mykey is referring to in this interview is that the demons could see the time line of events/experiences (ingredients) that went into what wes human experiences on the superficial conscious level. And because they had access to the design layer of our conscious experience - they could tap into these 'elements' or 'ingredients' and bring that to the surface or into expression to be able to express/say/do what they wanted to do.

So for example a demon could be shouting, swearing, and carrying on in all sorts of strange ways - and as we all are aware of - this would mostly in historical documentation of 'demonic possession cases' be viewed as 'irrational and strange behaviour - would which be classified as purely something that the demon is doing to the human subject. However if you actually look 'behind the scenes' you will notice that the demons will merely playing with the machinery/mechanisms (hence the name of our series: 'Quantum Mechanics of Paranormal Events') that makes up the human mind. Therefore I suggest listen to this interview as it gives insight into developing an understanding of why demons carries on the way they did and that we as humans were not merely 'innocent' subjects to a 'wild, strange and uncontrollable' imagination of a demon - but instead, were the actual machines that made it possible fro demons to do what they did because everything was already existent within us.


Most Republican Voters Believe In Possession By Demons




To be continued...

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

Day 151: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 4


Please read the previous parts:

Day 147: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 1
Day 148: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 2
Day 150: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 3

“If I truly felt anything towards abuse, towards the problems we faced – I had to start with me and stop yelling to the skies, or blaming the government, or blaming the obvious baddies etc. I mean if one uses a bit of common sense you will realize that even if we ended up like in those end of the word Apocalypse movies, where we get shipped to another planet because we have destroyed this one. What would change? Nothing – due to our inherent nature, we as who we have become would simply start all over again and destroy – in time the new planet; basic common sense. If we don't change, nothing will change. So therefore this principle of ‘doing what is best for all’ became my full understanding as the solution. If we want to stop the madness and have ‘what is best’ – how can we expect to still live the secret aspects of our minds as our fears and justifications for our self interest? How can we respect jesus as an example of a man who did and encourages living what is best – but we continue not living what is best?  Why must somebody else like a guru or deity or religious figure or politicians do what is best for us, but we don't want to live that within ourselves as a principle?”
Therefore ultimately what I realized was that I was not existing in my body  - but in my minds where I lived for energy experiences. Therefore I was blind to the harm caused to others because even when I looked at an image on the news or facebook of a person or animal being abused, I only reacted slightly – but in the end would continue to support the same Mind-Design patterns that resulted in that form of abuse be it within myself or an outflow of what happened to support my individual self interest. To give you an example – we see an image of a collapsed building such as from this blog:  ‘The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Capitalism Part 1: Death in the work place’. We see the suffering and pain caused to the victims and their families all because of the deceptions within the principles of the functioning of Capitalism. We for a moment react and maybe shed a tear – but in the end what happens in the mind – we think ‘well for this to end we have to put an end to many factors behind which Capitalism functions. For example I will have to stand by a principle of changing our money system – because this is one examples of billions of examples of what happens each day in our current money system. For the money system to change I will have to change my desire and hidden dishonesty towards other life forms, where I want to have more money than others and feel better about the class I am in, because I can compare myself within my self worth to others. I would have to stop accepting minimum wages and things like slave labour. I would have to see those people who died there as my equals, worthy of the same life requirements as me.’ There are many dimensions one can look at, when investigating what is behind why we as society accept these points of suffering. But what happens in the mind when faced with that point of change: “NAAAAHHH, Not going to do that, I like things just the way they are.’ And yet if our own families or ‘loves ones’ or fiends or our own lives are iraq_deadchild_mother2harmed, then you see people becoming hysterical and flooding facebook with messages of ‘please send your love and prayers to so and so…’ Where we yell how unfair it was and that the authorities must do something!’ As long as it is not me and my family. That is unfortunately the extent to which love exists in our society – love for me and my own. This is very obvious and I am not going to try and even explain the point further because this is absolutely evident in itself – if everyone loved life equally for and as ALL – then we would have by now changed the world systems that force abuse onto those who cannot protect themselves.

Moving on – I worked with the truth of how I saw myself and every other life form. The truth was that in my mind, in my hidden and not so hidden thoughts about myself and others – I actually didn't care about anybody and that was the truth of why I existed in the exact same mind set of ‘me, mine, what I WANT’. I realised that the world system is not caused by some invisible force of evil. It exists due to me allowing it to be an extension of the truth of who I really am inside. Not the picture I show to people of how ‘good I am’ or even ‘how dark and nonchalant I can be’ – the actual truth.

That means that I walked different forms of abuse that I saw in the world – such as the building collapsing in Bangladesh or a boy being beaten up for being Jewish or a girl being bullied at school for being fat. I looked at where do I in my thoughts justify the beauty industry and the existence of the class system as created within capitalism – for me to justify why it is ok for capitalism to continue to exist as it does, where it justified buildings collapsing on people. I looked at where do I either in my words, or thoughts or deeds bully another for not being like me, being of a different religion, believe or even for just liking different things than me. I looked at the girl being bullied for being fat –and I looked at the times I have gotten possessed over my own appearance and self image – where I insisted on having things my way at the expense of others, or where I would secretly judge a fat girl as I walked past her for being thinner than her. All of these base design thought patterns exist in all of us. The only difference comes into – ones personalised personality – which will utilise different thoughts processes. For example in all humans exist all forms of emotions and feelings – but we utilise them and go into the energy experience of that emotion/feeling differently – for example you might get someone who gets completely possessed with jealousy and the next person only feels a slight movement inside themselves – but the end of the day moving oneself as that emotion – where it directs ones decision – this is still exactly the same thing  all that is different is to what extent we make these decisions based on these emotions and the extent of the consequences to ourselves. It is still ‘the emotion of jealousy’ that directs me and therefore I am the same as every other person who I might have judged for being directed by their emotions. And it is these consequences that we in society have all labelled as either unacceptable because we see the direct consequence as being unacceptable or we label it as acceptable because it only caused some harm or harm we are not able to see directly.

serial_killers_bannerFor example lets say a ‘serial killer’ (see series: International Crime Research: Serial Killers, Mass Murderers and Sociopaths Part 1) was moved by the possession of sex and dominating woman through the sex-power experience as learnt through pornography (which is another example of parents seeing pornography as being a harmless developmental phase in their child's life and just giggle and roles their eyes at it instead of REALLY looking at what is pornography designing and influencing within the impressionable youngster). So within most humans we develop, especially of you look at the vast majority of people who watch pornography OR who at least grow up with a skewed view of sexuality – a view and practise on sex that is at best not in alignment with it being a healthy physical self expression point, but which became again a hidden, secretive practise based on a system within the mind body relationship that uses imagery and fear and morality and secretiveness which transpires into desire which generates energy. For most people though  - sex is a very big system, because of the addictive nature of it – and it is due to this that most humans will deny and fight tooth and nail to protect our sexual practices. It is seen as natural and ‘fun’ even to have secret sexual desires towards others and to get aroused by pornography and other graphic sexual images such as rape, bestiality, child pornography. So these are examples of what we really do behind closed doors and in our private spaces, most people do it to some extent and because of this and because the consequences of such addictions are not taught to children and obviously not seen by adults – because ‘I am having fun in my life screw the rest’ – this is the reason why hidden patterns of abuse are justified and participated in my most people. Monkey see monkey do is the principle – I see others doing it so I do it too – because it is acceptable.

So it is wrong for Ted Bundy or Jeffrey Dahmer for example to become possessed in a sex-power system and for it to result in the death and harm of people BUT if I tap into the same sex-power system energy through watching porn or the way I participate in sexual practices and masturbation and the way I act in relationships – then it is ok – as long as someone did not get ‘hurt’. But do we ever walk the time lines of the consequences of how we participate to see what have we created inside ourselves and as a societal acceptable practise? Do we look at who gets harmed behind the scenes of what I have allowed? No – if our consequences are not in our faces then we don't bother investigating this reality and how we are a part of. Easier just to say ‘someone else did it’ or ‘he/she is bad’ or to put blinkers on our eyes and not really investigate anything.

(See Ted ‘Bundy’s Final Interview’ where he speaks about the influences such as Pornography, that contributed to who he became.)

I quite enjoy watching crime related tv series like CSI, Criminal Minds and so forth. So as an example you will notice how if a crime happens, the CSI, or Police or behavioural analysists will come along and investigate the time line of events that moulded and shaped the final event/death/murder. However we don't do this for ourselves to see where and how our lives, our choices have consequences for yourselves, our children, the lives of others and this planet. Here is where I started investigating myself and what I do to myself as creator, and also what I do to the world as creator. The painful part at that stage was realising ‘self responsibility’ because on the one hand one wants to believe that this life is ‘so short’ and ‘why can I not have fun’ etc. But after a while as I worked through those reactions I realised that I could no longer ignore the reality of this world. I could not longer sit back and continue to participate in my secret world which had an indirect and direct outflow on my external world. If I truly felt anything towards abuse, towards the problems we faced – I had to start with me and stop yelling to the skies, or blaming the government, or blaming the obvious baddies etc. I mean if one uses a bit of common sense you will realize that even if we ended up like in those end of the word Apocalypse movies, where we get shipped to another planet because we have destroyed this one. What would change? Nothing – due to our inherent nature, we as who we have become would simply start all over again and destroy – in time the new planet; basic common sense. If we don't change, nothing will change. So therefore this principle of ‘doing what is best for all’ became my full understanding as the solution. If we want to stop the madness and have ‘what is best’ – how can we expect to still live the secret aspects of our minds as our fears and justifications for our self interest? How can we respect jesus as an example of a man who did and encourages living what is best – but we continue not living what is best?  Why must somebody else like a guru or deity or religious figure or politicians do what is best for us, but we don't want to live that within ourselves as a principle?

In the next part I will explore an example of Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all.





Day 150: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 3


Please read the previous 2 parts:

Day 147: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 1
Day 148: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 2
“In Psychology we touch on some of these practices that are actually realized as not being what is best for us such as ‘condemning someone because of a different belief system, bullying a child because they wont accept the same religion as the parent, victimising someone in the community for being gay/lesbian, attacking someone's character online because of their hairstyle or life style preference, society victimising/targeting a minority group which stir reactions and fears due to their different way of living. These are but a hand full of examples amongst millions of events that happen every day in millions of house holds and communities all over the world. Where people are enforcing their personal belief systems, ideologies, values and ways of thinking onto others and for most of these situations as I mentioned above – they are seen as justifiable by the rest of society under the banner of ‘protecting society’ or ‘your family’ or ‘your way of living’.”

So for myself I realized many things while investigating the world and the mind of the individual – our fears, our beliefs, how emotions and feelings work, what is consciousness etc. Within this I realized one key principle which in a way simplifies everything – ME. If I change myself into what is the best human I could be, where I stop looking towards gurus and profits like Jesus and actually change and Live me to be a solid, effective, trustworthy human being, living what is best for ALL – and then if each human does that, then obviously we will put an end on an individual thus global level to all forms of abuse.

Currently we are looking towards and blaming the governments, religions and ‘other people’ for not doing what is best – but can we see how these institutions are merely placed by us as management points and if we decide to live dishonesty, then obviously the management systems are going to manage us within our dishonesty. I mean religion was formed to popecontrol the human, where we were not living self responsibility – so people stepped in and used religion as  way to control people. Really, you can sugar coat religion as best you want to by saying ‘but jesus came’ and ‘I saw this’ and ‘but that happened’ or ‘that book was written by that profit/gods son/disciple’ and ‘that miracle happened’. You are able to justify any pre-programmed event into proof for what one is doing. And religion is an example of us not standing by ourselves, for ourselves as responsible humans. It is a mechanism that holds the human almost like  a backbone, where we do not trust ourselves to act alone for the best of all. And of course if one look at the principles of religion which have all clearly been shown, you will see that the hidden truths behind how the Mind of the human functions – is the foundation from which religions and the same for political parties are structured.

If in my mind  I desire to have somebody take my ‘sins’ away from me so that I can watch porn and have nasty thoughts about others people and deceive people in my business – what better way to do that than create a religion that will explain my weaknesses and take away my sins, so allowing me to continue doing what I was doing, but with a justified, societally acceptable scapegoat and outlet. The same method is applied for religions that condemn, and declare wars, and fight over so called ‘right and wrong’, and to protect classes of people and to condemn people who are different than those of that religion …. look at what exists inside ourselves as we belongs to the religion and you will see the truth of who we are at all times. The rules of a religion shows us the rules of our Minds. The same applies for politics and how laws are created – always protecting those who have an involvement in how laws are made.

Getting back to the Principle – I realized firstly that to be the change of a better human, a better world – I had to be the change – this in itself is common sense, but most who fight this point – do so because what we have accepted as ourselves as the true self that is hidden in our thoughts and reactions and feelings – this true self does not want to change. The true beingness of the human wants to have our special feelings and thoughts and place in the world where we are unique and different and liked and desires and rich and where we can separate ourselves from ‘others’ all the time, so that we can be better and see ourselves as better. This all comes with the territory of the Human Ego, which functions according to ( as I have mentioned before) ‘Energy’. The addiction to energy which is created by the mind within the body, is the reason why the human ‘thinks’. I am not referring to thinking as a practical tool of moving oneself in your environment such as ‘what will I make for supper’ I am talking about the mind that functions in a quantum level for energy as the Ego and Personality – where the thought goes from what will I make for supper – to I must make food that will be low in calories – so that I can loose weight – so that I can be skinny – so that men and woman will like me for being skinny and beautiful and this allows me to ‘feel’ beautiful and acceptable and desirable etc… and now I accept myself. One is able to walk inside the mind like this and see how most of our thoughts are running all the time to work on the deception which has become ‘the human’. Where our existence has become that of living through and for wanting to be special and powerful and unique and through these mind-values we will only accept ourselves.

So you might be asking yourself the question – what is wrong with me wanting to accept myself if I am beautiful? As I have explained above – currently all forms of abuse in this world exists, because we are all busy inflicting harm onto ourselves and others for self interest – about what ‘I WANT’. Therefore a choice always exists, for us to continue allowing this planet to be a foundation for us to grow up into adults where we accept what it means currently to be human, and we too accept our own pre programmed designs which take us down a path of playing a role in the self interest and illusion of what we have created as what it means to be alive. For most being alive means being loved, being appreciated, having material goods, having fun, having money, being free to do what you want, feeling special, belonging, having power in ones life. These statements as examples sound very nice on first view – however I encourage you as I have done for myself to walk these thought patterns deeper into what really goes on behind them, why we have them and what are the consequence in our world and to other people, nature and the animal kingdom, for the individual to be able to experience these ‘desires’ and desired forms of apparent ‘living’.

To be continued...

Friday, August 1, 2014

Day 149: The Paranormal Series Part 14 – Demons vs. Angels part 1


Day 131: The Paranormal Series - Ghosts and Demons Part 1
Day 132: The Paranormal Series – Ghosts and Demons Part 2
Day 133: The Paranormal Series – Ghosts and Demons Part 3
Day 134: The Paranormal Series Part 4 - A Psychic’s Gate Keeper (part 1)
Day 135: The Paranormal Series Part 5 - A Psychic’s Gate Keeper (part 2)
Day 136: The Paranormal Series Part 6 – The being that died as Fear (part 1)
Day 137: The Paranormal Series Part 7 – The being that died as Fear (part 2)
Day 138: The Paranormal Series Part 8 – The being that died as Fear (part 3)
Day 139: The Paranormal Series Part 9 – The Enlightenment Being
Day 140: The Paranormal Series Part 10 - Demons in the Afterlife part 1
Day 141: The Paranormal Series Part 11 - Demons in the Afterlife part 2
Day 142: The Paranormal Series Part 12 – Demons in the Afterlife part 3
Day 146: The Paranormal Series Part 13 – Demons in the Afterlife part 4

This blog is based on the following Interview:

Demons in the Afterlife – Part 5:

The Hypnotic Experience of Angels/Archangels/Guides Vs. the Darkness of the Demons


“…simply because we did not come in with higher frequency vibrations, and we really came through the Mind and the real Physical, we were seen as ‘bad’ and ‘evil’ and within that with being connected to all the religious systems within humanity, or this world, or society, on the ;dark side’ of the religious systems, in terms of being connected to the devil, Satan or Lucifer and being connected to all the superstitions and omens… I mean us poor demons didn't have a chance to come through and warn the humans about the world deception of the heaven existence, the angels and the masters and the guides and the channels that were coming through with all their powerful vibrations. Which was fascinating,because they could simply do these vibrations and heightened energy and that would make human beings feel powerful, when really us demons could do it as well, it was not that difficult;  you just align yourself to a specific frequency or energy and then you vibrate and you frequencially move yourself until you are on that level of frequency or vibration and there you go. It doesn't make any difference to the nature of who you are as a being, it only made a difference to how you feel and experience yourself."

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that a being/spirit who presents themselves within a specific frequency/energy is unique and special.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that if I want to change who I am I must focus on changing my energy and my frequencies.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing  myself to believe that my fears will go away if I trust and speak to dimensional beings/guides who have a specific frequency that makes me feel good.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing  myself to think and believe that my thoughts and feelings and emotions will change or go away if I follow spirituality and follow specific teachings and through this;

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing  myself to believe that if I follow the energy experience that I first felt when I met my guide – that my life would change and that some spiritual higher purpose will change my life
within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing  myself to believe that if this higher purpose is involved in my life, that I wont experience hardship like other people and within this I am therefore ignoring the fact that a higher purpose cannot be what is best for all, if it means some suffer while others do not, repeatedly generation after generation without any sustainable difference happening over time that stops suffering

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wish and believe that if I have a guide that he/she will tell me what to do and will automatically connect me to some higher consciousness or higher frequency through which I will then be protected from the world problems such as lack of money

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that this supreme spiritual energy that is presented to me through my guide will save me, while not seeing and realizing that I am not considering the fact that nothing much changes after I meet my guide or start my spirituality path and if by chance there is some change in my life, why does change from suffering have to be conditional such as in the case of ‘starting a  religion’ or ‘believing in a  deity’?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become addicted to the energy that I experienced around my guide and angels etc

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that the reason why I became addicted to these frequencies and energies that I felt/experienced around my guide – was simplistically because of the inherent nature of my mind, which means that my mind is addicted to good feelings and energy and that spirituality is just yet again another form of addictions.

Also I did not realize that needing a guide or spiritual experience to feel and be different also showed me that I was not the change and the stability and self movement in my life therefore;


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ultimately only exist as an organic spiritualised robot – that gets switched on and off depending on the words and frequencies used my masters/guides/angels etc.

Friday, July 11, 2014

Day 148: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 2


Day 143: From Criminal to Principled Living
Day 144: Realising and Living my utmost potential part 1
Day 145: Realising and Living my utmost potential part 2

This blog is a continuation from:
Day 147: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 1

“At times I fought the world system, where the ‘darker’ character in me would come out and fight and cuss and blame ‘society’ and religion and my parents etc, blaming everyone for my locked in feeling where I wanted to just be left alone to do my own thing, but was always being contained by either a lack of money or societies rules. Then I would give into the perceived pressure, and realize that to survive in this world I had to work and to survive, so within this I ‘chose’ to follow an interest which was healing and the art of understanding the metaphysics of the human mind and body and how energy worked. So I studied Kinesiology, Reiki and Energy healing, but all the while I felt constantly overwhelmed by depression – something that I inherited from my father, but which also existed as part of my pre-programmed design to give up on myself and exist in conflict my entire life…”
So years ago as I mentioned in my previous blog, I started on a very superficial level, becoming aware of what people were doing/experiencing, and what Society was doing that I could see was not what is best for everyone. I could see that something was wrong with the money system, with the rules and values of society as being in contradiction to itself  and how religion and family values were for example based on avoiding fear and supporting class, and entitlement. What I did not understand at the time, but started investigating once I joined Desteni, was who I was as equal within what I saw in others.

So after joining Desteni, I worked with myself for a long time, investigating my own pre-programmed designs and my genetically inherited traits, which I accepted as who I was, therefore defining and limiting myself into a being whom I knew for years was stuck and afraid and angry. I did not know how to assist myself – but it was in this questioning that I ended up asking the questions that got me here. In this blog – if you have read my previous blogs – you will notice that the direction I have been taking with exploring the mind of the criminal has always been to not separate criminals from ‘normal people’ as we would be so presumptuous to call ourselves, but to draw the parallels within the Designs that exist in ALL humans to varying degrees.

serial_killers_bannerFor example I would draw a parallel between the consciousness Psyche and Design that exists within the Serial killer as someone who’s design is focussed around specific patterns of possession, anger, fear, desire for control and desire for power etc. Then I look at these same design points that exist within myself and ‘humanity as a whole’  - and how we exist in society supporting each other’s designs, to the extent that we will continue to justify why it is ok for us to have people harming each other, without really at any point stepping in and stopping any and all forms of abuse – even through to political, family, religious and societal levels. Therefore I explore how we all allow each others to get away with harming and abusing because if I allow you to do what you want, you will do the same for me. And that is the biggest resistance that people face when reading or hearing the words in the principle of ‘Living by the Principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all’.

That is why one will find that the thoughts that come up inside oneself is always ‘why should I change what I think, what I believe,what I do, what I allow inside myself and in my external world – others don't do it’ or ‘but I am also just trying to enjoy my life’ or ‘but this is how god made me’... That is why in all societies we only draw a line on abusing if lives are lost or a ‘law is broken’ and laws are designed only to stop the obvious crimes – however the same type of crime could happen in a family environment – but as a society we continue to exist around each others lives – where behind closed doors abuse of all forms continues to exist. Most forms of abuse are not even seen as ‘abuse’ it is seen as the right of the parent, the right of the politician, the right of the police or law maker, the right of the land owner, the right of the business owner, the right of the capitalist, the right of the child, mother, father, priest, friend, husband, wife, individual etc. ‘Freedom of choice’ is always used as the statement that is supposed to end all arguments/perspectives against our individual lack of self responsibility – why our internal worlds do not require cleaning, because it is our right to freedom of expression what is within.

In Psychology we touch on some of these practices that are actually realized as not being what is best for us such as ‘condemning someone because of a different belief system, bullying a child because they wont accept the same religion as the parent, victimising someone in the community for being gay/lesbian, attacking someone's character online because of their hairstyle or life style preference, society victimising/targeting a minority group which stir reactions and fears due to their different way of living. These are but a hand full of examples among millions of events that happen every day in millions of house holds and communities all over the world. Where people are enforcing their personal belief systems, ideologies, values and ways of thinking onto others and for most of these situations as I mentioned above – they are seen as justifiable by the rest of society under the banner of ‘protecting society’ or ‘your family’ or ‘your way of living’.
to be continued…

For more information and research on the current capitalistic System please read the following blog:  http://livingincome.me/

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