Day 27: International Crime Research – Child Pornography Part 11

The Secret Mind of the Pedophile - continued: 

This is a continuation from: http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-26-international-crime-research.html


In Day 26: Part 10, I walked Self-Forgiveness for the existence and allowance of the Secret Mind. Now I will apply Self-Forgiveness on the Thoughts, Pictures and Memories existent within the Secret and Conscious Mind – of this particular pedophile character (taken from Day 26 – Child pornography Part 10)

“It was a sudden interest in the images that developed due to a response from my body, which was then fueled by my mind through justifications as to why these images are enticing.”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to see an image of a naked or abused child and to connect to that a physical sensation of pleasure.



I commit myself to stop connecting relationship lines between moments and myself to use later on as characters.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use the damaged files of my secret mind where I have stored images and ideas linked to sexual gratification – to now in this moment experience sexual pleasure towards a child while looking at a the images through my secret mind which connects the image to the experience of wickedness, evil, control, purity, pleasure, to overwhelm, to need, to abuse, to inflict, to destroy, innocence lost, punishment, childlike, condemned, obscurity, manipulation, blame, etc.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself once I reacted sexually to the image of a child for the first or second time – due to how my secret mind connected gratification to the act of intimacy or harm to a child – to then become addicted to the energy and release of energy – whereby I then created the character of justification – as the voice that would come up inside – as that part of me that could manipulate me through specific words – to keep doing what I was doing – and that what I was doing were ‘my private moments’ – thus infusing into me my conscious participation as the weakness I had become as I decided to harm life – all for the experience of energy as addiction and the false sense of self-empowerment.

I commit myself to show how all symbolic experiences – which are all experiences we ‘give’ value to, which in essence separate us from the physical in self expression – is merely the mind as it programs the being into future reactions based on past memories that were given specific values – usually from within the secret mind where we store the information we experienced conflict towards from childhood as we saw, realized and understood that most of what we were taught was based in deception – as our parents lied about why and how we do things – because they were busy playing out specific characters that were trying to survive. Due to the fact that we as children were not trying to survive and were more ‘physical’ meaning here, breathing, expressing – and our ‘doing’ was not veiled in surviving – we could see, realize and understand with more clarity when our parents taught us their values, beliefs and ideas. Therefore I commit myself to not allow myself to teach a child any bulshit about why we exist, where we come from and who we are – and to stick to the basic common sense of that which we are here as a physical being on this physical planet – equally born to all other life – so that the only character the child becomes is that which is best for all.

“From there I experienced a combination of initial mistrust towards my own experience, but this did not last long as the energy of shame and guilt towards my own sexual reaction, turned to a new thought which surfaced where I simply knew that I liked it.”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use fear and morality, as a basis from which I turn whatever image I see into something that triggers reactions in me, which allows me to access my secret mind where I stored ideas of shame and guilt which we as children are taught by our parents and teachers as they stand as the examples of charging the mind by charging the positive polarities of good and negative polarities of bad – through the system of punishment and reward.



I commit myself to share how the education system teaches a child how to create patterns based on good/bad, right/wrong – where the patterns are fueled through polarities until the child designs themselves into a system – which cannot function unless it is being stimulated through fear, manipulation, pictures, words, hope, survival, etc – where eventually we do not live here in common sense as what is best for all – but instead live as character systems – that all have a trigger point, memories for information and a desired outcome depending on what was taught to the child the outcome should be. Most humans believe that they are following the outcome of comfort, achievement, intellect, family, acceptance, love, enlightenment, safety, god etc – but the outcome is actually dictated and designed by those who impulse human beings – which is greed, desire, comparison, ego, self interest, separation, conflict, fear, suppression, obsession, consumerism, etc – all characteristic of the perfect systems that wake up in the mornings – go participate in the money system and come home to the family where you design, create and educate the next generation of systems to serve as slaves to the world system – while all the while entertaining oneself in what we believe is individuality and human rights/freedom – but are all actions that further keep us trapped in the mind - which keeps us as unstable characters that are dependent on the world systems for our survival – where we will participate in the world systems and consumerism – as we attempt to alleviate our characters as we strive for resolution of that which we have really become.

“Somewhere from within me, from within my mind I became more and more comfortable with seeing images of naked children, having thoughts about their flesh which I would normally have about woman and then empowering my mind through further thoughts which made me feel alive with energy, as I was pulled between morality and sexual pleasure.”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not take self-responsibility for how I allowed myself to compound my thoughts – not realizing that I was in fact building and designing my physical response as my living self from the thoughts I participated in – as eventually my thoughts became me as the living flesh -as I gave in and followed my thoughts into action.



I commit myself to see, realize and understand the relationship between what we input into the mind and who we eventually become. I commit myself to show how the mind is not ‘something out there, harmless and ethereal’ where thoughts happen to us and at the same time have no bearing on our reality –– instead to show that all actions can be shown to follow a line of information from creation point to action.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define sex as a feeling in the body that happens in reaction to images of naked people.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe and to fuel my belief through how I have participated in sex, that sex is best experienced when a person finds ways to stimulate oneself and to become horny and then to chase a picture presentation of whatever will give one an orgasm.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to observe pornography and how this depicts sexual aggression and disrespect of the human form for profit – and from this to establish my starting point equal and one – in that woman (or men) are there to be fucked and that sex is so important that I must have it and if I don’t get it – that I will charge my mind through memories until I find material on the internet to masturbate to – not realizing that I created this character of masturbator myself, through participating in creating and fueling the value system around sex as it exists in this world currently – instead of taking self responsibility for myself within what I create in this world – of which one point is to realize that to abuse in the name of sexual gratification is not ok by me unless it is really ok by me – which again shows the character that I really exist as – as the real ‘Me’.

Day 17: International Crime Research – Child Pornography Part 1

The following excerpts which I have used, as a research basis from which to walk the point of Self-Forgiveness, is taken from:


http://www.crime-research.org/articles/536/



Please note that I am not disputing or validating the research findings or opinions of the author(s), researchers or website developers. I am taking the research presented on Crime related topics and using it as a platform from which to support myself through self-forgiveness, to stop the patterns existent within myself, through which myself and humanity have given permission to and designed ‘Crime’ as it exists today. I will also indicate within my self-forgiveness statements the connection between how we as humanity have stopped honoring life and have allowed the existing system and the existence of crime as an outflow of the abuse of life and the fear of survival (money).



This paper was prepared as a working document for the World Congress against Commercial Sexual Exploitation of Children by Margaret A Healy for ECPAT.

THE DEFINITION OF CHILD PORNOGRAPHY

“Child pornography is a problem of international proportion. The global community has recognized that children are at risk from those who engage in the production, exhibition, distribution, and consumption of child pornography and that children can suffer serious negative effects as a result of pornographic exploitation. The United Nations Convention on the Rights of the Child ("UNCRC"), which has been ratified by an overwhelming majority of the nations of the world, identifies child pornography as a violation against children and requires that nations who are parties to the convention take measures to prevent the exploitative use of children in pornographic materials. Despite the notable efforts of many nations, child pornography remains a serious issue.”

CHALLENGES TO THE STUDY OF CHILD PORNOGRAPHY

“Challenges to any study of international child pornography include: 1) the lack of any uniform definition of what child pornography entails; 2) lack of data regarding the production and distribution of child pornography in many parts of the world, particularly Africa and Latin America; and 3) shifting global patterns of production and consumption of child pornography.


Furthermore, the development of home video equipment and computer technology has revolutionized the international production and distribution of child pornography. Rapidly expanding international access to increasingly inexpensive technology has transformed child pornography into a sophisticated cottage industry. Computer alteration of images and the potential for creating computer generated pornography pose formidable challenges for courts and law enforcement officials throughout the world.”





I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the production, exhibition, distribution, and consumption of child pornography.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to stand by and watch as people produce, exhibit, distribute and consume child pornography, while still insisting that our governments do what is best for all and have the ability to govern a country according to ‘what is best for all.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing child pornography to exist, especially regarding the vastness of the problem, while at the same time claiming that religions have any say in this world and that God takes care of humanity.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to support governments, who have the power to stop child pornography if that is what they wanted to do, and instead of doing so they proclaim that there are obstacles to them stopping child pornography, which only means that they ALLOW child pornography to exist, because of it’s profit value.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see, understand and realize that pornography exists and continues to be allowed in this world because it forms part of the current economic system and this is the only reason why politicians and law enforcements claim to want to ‘do something about it’ – bit internationally and collectively do nothing about it.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing child pornography to exist in a world where governments are supposedly, collectively at all times as the principle from which they function, suppose to stop child pornography as they absolutely have the power and ability to do so, but choose to use child pornography for profit, while lying to the faces of the public that ‘the problem is beyond their control’.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as the public to stand by and watch as the governments lie to protect capitalism, which is what they are protecting when they claim to not be able to stop child pornography.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as a member of the public to choose each and every day to allow child pornography to continue, each time I validate the existence of the current capitalistic system as well as the current societal value systems, religions and governments. I realize that even though it appears as if these ‘entities’ exist for the betterment of man – why is it then that they have no say actually in doing what requires to be done to bring about a world that is best for all?



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abuse individuality, human rights and freedom of speech - where I have placed all of those principles as my rights above the rights of the beings that are abused in the world – where I insist that I want to keep my freedom of expression, thus allowing child pornography to go unchanged on the internet under the banner of ‘individual freedom’.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself and others to abuse the term ‘freedom of the individual’, while not realizing that for us to stop child pornography we have to firstly take self responsibility for ourselves and then take responsibility for those who are not self responsible and harming life – by doing whatever is necessary to stop the abuse – even if it means for a while clamping down on groups that abuse life on the internet and closing them down – utilising the principle of ‘my rights and freedom do not impede on the rights and freedom of another.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing society to continue abusing Life, under the lie that ‘we cannot stop people from doing what they are doing because that would infringe on people’s rights to freedom of expression.’



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to rather appease the rights of humans to express themselves, than realize that this freedom is used to abuse the freedom of others, and that this atrocity is protected in the name of money – by all who protect the right to abuse – which is currently what it means to have a right to express freely.



I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that the ‘nations who are parties to the convention that should take measures to prevent the exploitative use of children in pornographic materials” only serves as a basic minimum requirement to keep the public satisfied so that politicians and those in power may continue to have an influence on the public and to remain in power.





I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that if I allow officials, politicians and those with ‘power’ to continue only doing the basic minimum requirements to prevent and stop pornography – while my vote makes a difference (and then all individuals collectively vote for change) – then I am responsible for the continuation of child pornography – as I am the one that agreed to governments and politics and and I am the one who’s support they require to keep deceiving people.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe in governments and politician, while before my eyes I see, realize and understand using basic common sense, that they DO NOT use their power and resources to establish a world that is best for all – but instead they protect and maintain capitalism – by allowing such atrocities such as child pornography. At the same time politicians and leaders will support religion because they realize and understand that this is how one keeps the masses dulled through the possession of the god-spirit as the invincible force that keeps people feeling that all is ok – in a world of absolute abuse, while also maintaining that god’s plan includes this abuse so that humans can ‘learn’. This level of brainwashing is used by politicians to keep humans dumb and for humans to think and believe that firstly there must be someone who will eventually come down and save us and that as part of gods bigger plan, surely the politicians who were chosen by man to rule man – are doing what is best for all. Therefore:



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be brainwashed by politicians through pictures on tv and religious symbols and words, to keep me docile and hoping that there is a bigger reason behind why children are molested for profit.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to keep professing that some form of religion explains to me why child pornography is acceptable or why it is beyond my understanding or why I should separate myself from it through religious and spiritual practices like prayer, services and going to church.



I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see, understand and realize that unless I change the current economic system, instead of myself supporting its survival despite the evidence of the abuse that is being allowed in the name of profit and greed – that the governments, politicians and nation leaders – WILL NOT stop child pornography because it serves as income and profit for so many – who within the Capitalistic system are now dependent on the money for survival.



Self-Commitment Statements:



I commit myself to show that profit driven greed is the motivation behind why corruption exists within politics and why this has become the reason behind why all governments pretend to not have the ability to stop child pornography



I commit myself to show that the human has become dulled and numb to the existence of child pornography, due to the fact that we believe we are incapable of changing the system and due to the fact that people fear loosing their freedom of expression, which is the breeding ground for self dishonesty, if freedom of expression is curbed or questioned for those who abuse life.



I commit myself to show that the money system exists purely based on the greed of the individual and that is why child pornography continues to be allowed- because people know that is they want to stop child pornography – they will have to change the contributing factors to it which is greed – which means changing how we all value and participate in the money system.



I commit myself to show how the human has become brainwashed in all ways – and that child pornography will continue to be allowed while the human professes godly love and human values – although the evidence clearly shows that there is an immense problems with how we value lifee and how we carry on accepting abuse in our world.



I commit myself to show that a new economic system is required, one that honors life and will by principle stop child abuse as it will stop greed motivated actions and will hold all beings responsible for the decisions that are made – as will commit to living in self responsibility and self honesty as what is best for all.







Source:



Margarat, H. (2004, August 2). Child pornography: an international perspective. Computer Crime Research Center. Retrieved 21 June 2012 from http://www.crime-research.org/articles/536/
Furthermore, the development of home video equipment and computer technology has revolutionized the international production and distribution of child pornography. Rapidly expanding international access to increasingly inexpensive technology has transformed child pornography into a sophisticated cottage industry. Computer alteration of images and the potential for creating computer generated pornography pose formidable challenges for courts and law enforcement officials throughout the world.”

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