Day 176: Living by the principle of self honesty Part 2

The rest of the 'Principled Living' series:

Day 143: From Criminal to Principled Living.

Day 144: Realising and Living my utmost potential part 1

Day 145: Realising and Living my utmost potential part 2

Day 147: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 1

Day 148: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 2

Day 150: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 3

Day 151: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 4

Day 154: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 5

Day 155: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 6

Continuing from:

Day 175: Living by the principle of self honesty Part 1

"Therefore, using self honesty allows oneself to set yourself back to zero so to speak where you give yourself the opportunity to see ones mis-takes, to align them to how you see you would like to speak/live/act, and this allows one next time to speak/live the correction. For example sticking to 'I spoke and then realized I did so out of fear'. Once I use self honesty to initially see that this was my starting point, then I either use writings (will explore more later) to open up the design of how I got to 'speaking out of fear' and all of its various dimensions - which if un-cleared/undirected will keep the point existent in the mind, which will simply mutate itself into new patterns/behaviours. Therefore self honesty does not merely stop at the point where one goes 'oh I spoke there out of fear' - it allows one as I mentioned to look deeper into all the 'puzzle pieces' so to speak of this one design. For example 'speaking out of fear' - if I use writing or immediate investigation within myself (method 2) I will find the design aspects such as childhood memories/experiences, emotions, people involved, reasons, excuses, justifications, wants, desires etc…"

As an example - lets say with 'talking from fear', I realized that this habit came from a childhood memory where I was in class and the teacher started yelling at me accusing me of cheating on my homework and that I wrote down the answers from a piece of paper on her table etc etc. In that moment I knew that I did not cheat and did not write the answers down and experience bewilderment, embarrassment because all the kids now believed I am a chat, I experience anger and mistrust that a teacher would do this and so forth. All of these experiences as 'puzzle pieces' imprinted into my mind as a fear of communication , -where in the mind this experience was now used as a reference point as I started growing up. Therefore in similar situations where someone would ask me about the validity of what I have done, I immediately go into fear and access all of those points of anger and resentment, which throughout my life cause secondary consequences.

For example lets say further in my life I created conflict situations because now I from fear and resentment at being questions, attack people verbally or try and cut them short without explanation etc. This in itself as time goes by, as I am sure we are all able to relate - will compound into secondary patterns, where the conflict now grows further into fear around communicating with people. Eventually the mind builds coping mechanisms such as lying when confronted or avoiding jobs with greater responsibility because of the fear behind being held accountable or fear of confrontation. This furthermore creates consequences where to avoid having to communicate about certain points to people I see as authority, I will lie and then if I get caught in the lie, I will blame my actions on another person, which then leads to an authoritative personality to avoid people questioning why I think I can blame others. Therefore my personalities get louder and more abrasive and I find myself becoming a 'harder person' who others will 'fear' confronting or questioning. So here fr example the mind will build a fear creating personality to not have to face the fear within self….

So you see how one childhood experience can expand in the mind over the years into adult patterns/behaviours. And as time goes by we contribute new layers to the original pattern - all because of the minds inherent nature to protect itself - and therefore it adapts. So if one did not pick up on this behaviour - then think how differently conversations would turn out - the outcome would be a very different story then the truth behind what is really going on. And this is why we as humanity are habitually acting constantly out of self interest in the way we speak, act and think - because we have never really been taught the ability to be self honest about who we are and are never effectively taught methods of how to direct experiences, this mostly being due to the fact that nobody has actually assessed whether these experiences we call 'being human' or normal human behaviours is actually what is best. Therefore, in our child-programming platforms such as classrooms, childhood social setups, home environments, the effects of media, television, music on the development of children etc - all of these experience shaping platforms are all seen as 'normal' and 'acceptable' where we don’t trace the problems to these institutions.

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Self honesty though, is also a choice and not a choice lol let me explain. Self honesty always exists - you are always what you are. I would say that 2 forms of self-honesty exist. If I have nasty thoughts about myself then I can tell you 'I have ugly thoughts about myself' - this is me being self honest. But then there is being honest about who self really is - the best self can be - and therefore by saying 'I have ugly thoughts about myself is not self honest - it is in fact self dishonesty - I am not honouring myself. So initially - when one starts to walk the process of 'self honesty - what I have found is that one goes through the initial phase of revealing to self everything that exist inside of self, ones true thoughts, feelings, emotions, behaviours, feelings, possessions etc. Then one starts looking at what is it that I would like to live as 'my utmost potential', as that which is best for me, which is what is best for all - and this is where one becomes 'self honest'.

I could continue to live blissfully unaware of my words, thoughts and deeds and create a life for myself where I seek out in every moment to be the best, feel the best, live my utmost potential - in the world system, where the emphasis is on personal self-interest, or in self honesty I know that I cannot say the world is 'messed up' if I don’t start addressing me in the global soup of messed upness lol...

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Day 124: The Paranoia Series Part 5: Thought and Cognitive Disinformation

This is a follow up on:

Day 120: The Paranoia Series - How Cognitive Disinformation creates Paranoia part 1
Day 121: The Paranoia Series - How Cognitive Disinformation creates Paranoia part 2
Day 122: The Paranoia Series - How Cognitive Disinformation creates Paranoia part 3
Day 123: The Paranoia Series Part 4: Consciousness and Cognitive Disinformation

It is so easy for us to always point fingers out there, at the corporations, the media, the governments, them and ‘they’. We have essentially cognitively disillusioned ourselves already by creating a projected idea that how the world exists and the depth of the deception behind how these wheels turn - only occur ‘out there’ by others towards us. Interesting how it is always towards us – but who is doing it if we are always the victims? Reminds me of when one hears/reads a obituary – the person who died was always ‘squeaky clean’, a good soul and loved by their friends, family and community. Most chuckle when we read these, as we realize that the true nature of each human, at the point of death and throughout our lives is never this – and the person themselves during their life would admit that they have secrets, doubts and many points in their world where they fear and lie and hold onto patterns we know do not serve us, but are to addicted to, to fearful of, to let go of. So most humans actually understand at any given time that our inner experience is not so ‘clean’ as our obituaries instantly make us at the time they are written. Each human knows the thoughts that exist in our minds, some see these thoughts towards self and others as a strength that to win over others, you have to think and believe yourself to be better. Others – cringe as the thoughts run through the mind, we cringe as we experience the emotions and feelings that compound one to madness – where you try and convince yourself that your particular personality consisting of daily emotions and feelings are what makes you human – but why is it not so easy then to live in constant jealousy, anger, the need for love, attention and validation.

Even the positive emotions  - one realizes comes part and parcel with having to upkeep the experience to not have to go into the energetic pattern of the opposite polarity – so to constantly chase positive experiences as an experience similar to buying a new flashy cell phone – one is always making peace you could say, with the energy of the opposite polarity which exists because we accepted oneself as an energetic being who is controlled by and dependent upon these cycles of energy as they polarise between the positive and negative. So in essence we have created an outer world that exists as positive and negative experiences – with us in the middle trying to avoid the negative while seeking the positive – this we call life – as we make peace with bad things (the negative polarity) happening daily to billions of beings – human, animal and nature alike –where we hardly flinch (other than reacting inside ourselves for a moment with ‘sadness’) – because we don't see what we are doing – and because we are in the energy patterns as the energy patterns and therefore cannot really feel anything other than the polarity that the moment presents for us  - within our energy matrix.


So again – looking at what exists in the mind – the question of how and why Cognitive Disinformation exists – is due to those who have mastered Cognitive Disinformation – already understanding how human thinking works. So Cognitive Disinformers are already using a system of the Mind that is Misinformed with regards to the movement of information within the mind and how this is accepted by the being as ‘ok’ and ‘normal’ as thinking and how we then program the mind-physical relationship between how we think and behave. Therefore the essence of responsibility for and of Cognitive Disinformation is to look at the Mind-Systems and how each of us is taught from young - the ways in which to think. For example returning to what I mentioned above –most people say ‘oh I wish I wasn't so jealous’ and yet in thousands of forms all over the world, in all forms of media, entertainment, sport, family, friends, relationships, fashion, the movies, celebrities, capitalism, the value of life between people – here you will find Jealousy as an acceptable exchange between human and human, and human and the physical reality. So we lock Jealousy as an emotional experience into ourselves as how we will respond to others and our reality – in millions of micro ways – and this is just one emotional experience –and yet we don't see that our entire way of living  -exists as all the thoughts, emotions and feelings that we actually on an individual basis realize is uncomfortable and harmful. Yet not even in Psychology do they reveal the glue that holds the human existence together – the same emotion and feeling patterns, the same thought patterns that we understand harms us and wish we could actually change. That is because the glue that bind the human to participate in the system – is how the human functions – therefore no matter how the human evolves into a more and more destructive force –what will always be emphasized is how special we are for how we think and what we think – how we fuel emotions and feelings into excessive patterns of behaviour. Therefore to speak about the Human Mind and cause to how and what we allow in this world is seen as taboo – and this in itself by the internet-trolls which we discussed in previous blogs on Cognitive Disinformation – will be protected and people will be hunted down and their internet profile damaged – for speaking of how the human participates in the abuse  -because the Dis-informed uses the Human Disinformation about how we have grown up to be  -to support already existent systems that the Troll/Disinformer wants to protect within the world system.

More to follow…

Day 90: International Crime Research: Mass Murderers Part 4: The Physical Reaction of Mass Murderers

This blog is a continuation from:


Day 89: International Crime Research: Mass Murderers Part 3: Reaction of Mass Murderers


Physical Dimension:


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself, once I have fuelled my thoughts and imagination on how I will seek revenge on the other, to now allow myself to exist so far in my mind where I am walking equal and one to these thoughts and imaginations, that I do not notice that I am busy restricting my breathing, tensing my muscles and changing my physicality,

from there;

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to now as I participate in programming myself physically by repeatedly thinking the thoughts and allowing the imaginations of revenge, to - together with the mind dimensions, to also now program my physical with specific reactions/behaviours, linked to the mind experiences -walked in the previous blogs, for example

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to first program into my physical the physical tightness of my shoulders, the hunching of my back, the tightening and changing of my breathing, to the clenching of my fists,

then

as these basic physical reactions are programmed together with the backchat, fears and imaginations and pictures of how I will seek revenge within my mind -now as time progresses I start reacting more severely physically, due to the energy I have compounded over time, by participating extensively, consistently in the mental aspects/dimensions of my plans for revenge/retaliation,

therefore;

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to program into the physical layered energetic reactions, which then become physically compounded reactions such as lashing out in anger by striking at children, animals, objects - whereby my mind will rationalise the outburst in terms of something that cannot protect itself or speak up for itself.

within this;

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compound this energy build up through participating in the mind dimensions, further in time as I create all kinds of scenarios in my mind of how I have been 'hurt, cheated, done in', and as time progresses the physical possession takes place at an energy level - after which I now am no longer only thinking about reacting/acting out -but become possessed by this pre-programed system - that I designed over years/months/weeks or days.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself then to eventually become physically possessed as my physical reaction aligns within the amount of thinking I have been doing in relation to seeking revenge, whereby I physically seek ways to harm myself or others, as this physical 'lashing out' allows for the release of the energy that I have compounded through participating in the mental dimensions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to then further become possessed by the power and sense of release of being able to finally express by grief/anger/annoyance - as I now physically for the first time experience a relive that was not there before,

therefore;

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to now want to directly lash out at the individual/group/object that I am blaming for my own internal conflict I have compounded for myself through the use of Ego

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to now lash out by using physical measures which could range from picking up a stick, hitting with my fists, even to the extent of using deadly force such as shooting, strangling or the use of bombs etc...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use this deadly force to mass murder any individual or group, I perceive annoys me or stand in my way of getting what I want - not for a moment considering the consequences of creating a world, where instead of living the solution of breath, by stopping reactions based on protecting the Ego, but instead the individual seeking self gratification at the expense of others, which as we see today in the news - has created a world where mass mind possession is occurring now at all times, as people compound the mental energy of revenge, ego into physical possessions.

I commit myself, when and as I find myself compounding any energy through thinking about a scenario using any imagination or opinion or fair/unfair instead of simply looking at my self responsibility in creating the outcome that is best for all, to stop, breathe, relax myself physically, letting go of any built-up thought designs, and walking the physical steps of self correction.

I commit myself within the walking of the steps of self correction, to always look at how the other person/group perceive their perspective within this situation, to also take responsibility for the creation point from their perspective, as the energy we build up during such experience of 'feeling done in/deceived' is always coming from various participatory points/parties - therefore;

I commit myself to always place myself 'in the shoes' of all parties, and align myself through observing the starting point of each, to assist and support myself in self forgiving the point, correcting it as myself to no longer accept and allow deception, no matter from which starting point/ past experience it happens.

Day 89: International Crime Research: Mass Murderers Part 3: Reactions of Mass Murderers

This blog is a continuation from:

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2013/01/day-88-international-crime-research.html


Reaction Dimension 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use emotions and feelings as the driving force - as energetic reaction - from which I will allow myself to become possessed into reactions towards another

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the building-up of dimensions within me - where I allow myself to see, hear or perceive something within my world, which will then be based on specific value systems, I have attached to it, triggering emotion and feeling energetic responses - instead of me realising that it is not me responding and directing myself within my world, but an automated energy system, linked to information of how I perceive myself , others and the world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing this energy system as emotions and feelings to then become the highlight of my life - meaning where instead of realising that I have placed coping mechanisms to my world and people - I become obsessed with 'serving' these energy systems, as if they are real and as if they are the reason why i exist - thus further looking for arguments/debates and fights to protect my rights to experience the polarity cycles between feelings and emotions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing these energy systems to then become the directive principle of me, whereby I will give names to these reactions, based on the values behind them, and will protect, justify and defend 'my emotions and feelings' - regardless of the reality of why and how these reactions exist as program language to automate me in my world, towards what I perceive are safe or acceptable ways to exist in a world that requires of me to outsmart and out manipulate others, so that I may succeed and perceive myself to be 'safe and happy'

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to program these energy reactions from childhood such as anger, sadness, joy etc - and throughout my life place conditions and trigger points around these systems, living my life to serve a system of survival.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive my world and others through these energy systems, where I will judge others who are different emotionally from me as either good or bad - and I will make life decisions based on my emotion/feeling reactions to things/people - regardless of the fact that I am therefore a programmable program reacting to other programs with programs - and this I call Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to design characters and personalities according to my emotion/feeling reaction systems, whereby I will surround myself with things and people that allow me through perceptions to initiate and trigger my energy systems of happy/sad, good/bad, beautiful/ugly, special/nothingness etc

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fuel these energy systems - with other adaptive/evolved/responsive/backup energy systems - therefore tying myself into a infinity loop of energy reactions, dependent on more systems to keep me going, which is why addictions are so difficult to over come, as the energy systems are self sustaining and always takes the person back to the same energy patterns, just with different words, places, ideas or experiences -for example:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use anger as a manipulation to change myself or others, to allow me to trigger the experience of happiness within me - this being an example of how I would manipulate life on this planet, to surround myself with people and things that allow ME, to avoid that which is unpleasant and seek that which gives me pleasure - not seeing and realising that the physical reality, literally takes the brunt, the fall and the abuse within a world system that uses the physical as consumerism to bring the human, 'joy and pleasure', to avoid negative energetic experiences.

And in the case of a 'mass murdering mind set'; I forgive myself for then accepting and allowing myself to first trigger a picture of me being harmed or harming another who I perceived harmed me, into an internal conversation of how I will 'stand up to this person', which then chemically-energetically triggers certain emotions/feelings - that I have already pre-programmed to drive me into action through emotions such as anger, resentment, conflict etc - to ultimately experience my own contentment, joy, safety - instead of creating a world within and as me, that stand for stopping these energy based reaction os resentment and conflict - which includes and starts with self honesty as self - and only from there will each one stand as the principle of equality and oneness living, when we stop deceiving each others out of fear of getting hurt.