Day 32: International Crime Research – Child Pornography Part 16

This is a continuation from:

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-31-international-crime-research.html


Please refer to: Day 24: International Crime Research – Child Pornography Part 8 for background information, on how and why I will be walking the characters of Criminals/Offenders.



To recap: the following blog is written from the perspective of familiarizing myself one and equal with the mind, character and personality of someone who watches/consumes child pornography. By walking equal to the mind of the user, I am able to draw from it, the contributing factors from the initial thought to the decision that is made to watch child pornography and how the mind is further fueled through backchat and behaviors, until in time, the characteristic is defined and directs the being into action, through an accumulation of memories, thoughts and experiences. What follows is specific self-forgiveness on the characteristics within the write-up.

Pedophile Character: Person who watches child porn as a substitute for male/female sexual companionship.

“By the age of 15, I knew that I was interested in girls and like most boys my age developed masturbation fantasies around girls in my school."

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to develop masturbation fantasies of girls/boys and through this developed a false idea about sex and the physical body, as my reference point became about the energy and not the interaction with and movement of my and the other physical body in natural self-honest self expression.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself through this false image of the body and the sex, to create a vast network from which I can create any picture to masturbate to as I got older, not realizing that I was opening the door to becoming an abuser as I trained myself form young to give permission to my mind to conjure and connect images to sexual gratification and masturbation.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself in that moment as the decision I made to create and allow secret fantasies of others in my mind –to establish myself as the character of abuser within this world as I allowed myself within my mind – which is me – to exist as someone who secretly does things to others without them knowing – where in real life I would never admit to the person that I was doing these things to them within myself.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself, to within creating these fantasies to also create secret conversations, hopes, dreams and outcomes within my energetic relationships to these images, which did not match the reality of my situation – which further fueled my inner turmoil if I did not get in real life what I was already getting or hoping to get in my energy reality of my mind.



I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that the world is in the state it is with mind possessions escalating, because the inner reality as the Mind is never Equal to what really happens in the physical - therefore people end up going into Mind Possessions because when they cannot have in ‘Real Life’ what they believed/imaged/desired themselves to have in the Mind.



Therefore; I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place so much value in what my Mind reality wants and can have, not considering self honestly that I am the one who created a world of conflict, abuse, war, terrorism, pain, inequality –because eventually we always inflict the desires of the inner reality (mind) onto the Physical Reality, whether it wants it or not. That is why people can watch war abuse, poverty, rape, murder, starvation etc without blinking – because each one already through thinking has forced our mind Realities of ‘I want!’ to such an extend within ourselves that we through backchat always win and always get what we want – therefore when we see this forcing happening ‘for real’ in the physical reality – we do not even blink an eye.



I commit myself to show that as long as we have realities within which we exist in the mind, that we will always end up abusing the physical reality – as we have laced such value on what exists in the individuals mind that nobody is willing to stand up for the abuse we allow in the physical reality and to each other.



I commit myself to show that children are educated in how to exist in the mind, which becomes the starting point of ‘who I am’ through how parents teach them to follow the rules of culture, religion, family and society – with no regard for the outflow of a culture we have created where all get to abuse Life on this planet – as long as the abuse is justified in that it was part of the individuals rights to freedom of expression.



I commit myself to show that the family, religious and cultural systems are ‘protectors’ of the mind – where a young person is shown how to become emotional characters and are trained in how to manipulate others and self to get ‘what I want’ regardless of the effects on the world.

“I remember the one day I was sitting in class and I heard the girls sitting at the table behind me, talking about me. Shelly was asking Valerie whom she was going to invite to her birthday party. Shelly would mention people in the class’ names and Valerie would respond with a ‘yes’, ‘no’ or some personal insult to clarify her discontent towards that boy or girls and the reason why they definitely would not be invited to her birthday party. I was following their conversation, because I was intrigued to know whether I would be invited to this party. The only other parties I had been to were that of my guys friends and I had never been invited by a girl to one of their birthday parties. That seemed like something that was reserved for the semi popular/cool or attractive guys. The ‘nerds’ were only invited by other nerds and nobody paid any attention to who was being invited to their parties. This in itself caused a tingle in my belly, as I knew that being invited to Valerie’s party would mean the beginning of this phase where we now start treating each other in different context’s then mere ‘children’. As Shelly whispered my name my stomach tightened and I unconsciously held my breath. From all the nasty comments I heard Valerie make about some of the other boys and girls, I couldn’t help but wish that she would magically see me as someone cool enough to get invited to her shindig. Shelly whispered my name and Valerie’s response was ‘gross’. Shelly spurted out a short giggle and both girls tried to suppress their laughter into their hands before they continued onto the next unsuspecting victim. An ice-cold rod shot up my spine into my neck and face and a cold flash crept its way into my belly – as my worst fear had been realized: I was ugly and the girls hated me.”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to play the game of self-esteem based on what others think of me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in thoughts around hoping others will approve of me.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself in that moment to participate in the backchat conversation with myself of ‘hoping they would pick me’ and how I will experience myself if they rejected me – creating the character for myself of who and what I would become if I were to he rejected.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself from participating in the backchat to then generate a physical tension in anticipation of how these two individuals are going to decide for me who and what I am – thus inflicting onto my physical the abuse character I was creating in that moment through my thoughts.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to design a character around what others were apparently thinking and saying of me and through this infusing into the physical a system design based on the moment, as the values, the pictures, my reactions, fears, emotions, feelings – all into and as a system that shot up into my spine and infused itself from my mind consciousness system into my spine and through the physical – thus predesigning my responses for the rest of my life, on how I would experience myself in similar situations.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to preprogram myself from the character of ‘rejected and hurt’ into someone who would then take situations in which I reacted and felt ‘hurt’ to further fuel the system, until I became an abuser of others because I built on this original memory from my youth where I allowed myself to take what was said personally and to systematically design my anger and resentment over time, into a system, which would then later on activate me into responding to my past by hurting others as they represented pictures, images, and symbols I then responded to in light of this system design.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create a judgment of people who are not invited to parties by popular people and then living out the character of the ‘rejected one’ according to the judgments I created and participated in.



I commit myself to show how all relationships are created through thoughts and thoughts exists as a means of protecting oneself from others, therefore by the time you have created a relationship with another, you have designed it so as to exist as that which you want to protect about your characters.



I commit myself to show how relationship dynamics, is actually just another way of saying how we support the creation of characters to protect ourselves to not have to be self honest and thus relationship dynamic is how one moves yourself into character to appear as something more than what you are while only responding to the dynamics (character) within another that will compliment the character one is currently primarily existent within –whether this is what is best for humanity or not.

Day 16: International Crime Research- Bipolar Disorder and Violent Crimes: Self-Commitment Statements

The Self-Commitment Statements based are based on all the Blogs below:




Bipolar Disorder and Violent Crime – Part 1: Overview



Day 9: Bi-Polar Disorder and Violent Crimes Part 2: Population-Based Longitudinal Studies and Systematic Review



Day 10: Bipolar Disorder and Violent Crimes Part 3: Bipolar Disorder and ‘Expansiveness’.



Day 11: Bipolar Disorder and Violent Crimes Part 4: Bipolar Disorder and Irritability



Day 12: Bipolar Disorder and Violent Crimes Part 5: Bipolar Disorder and Hyperactivity



Day 13: Bi-Polar Disorder and Violent Crimes Part 6: Bipolar Disorder and Depression



Day 14: Bi-Polar Disorder and Violent Crimes Part 7: Bipolar Disorder and Substance Abuse



Day 15: Bi-Polar Disorder and Violent Crimes Part 8: Bipolar Disorder and Family.



I commit myself to expand myself not due to pictures, expectations and fear of survival within the system, but based on common sense and self will, within the context of self-enjoyment, whilst supporting Life here as what is best for all, as myself.


I commit myself to evaluate how I value expansion within myself and to not accept and allow fear based expansion to move within me as my starting point of who I am and what I live.


I commit myself to establishing a new economic system, which will allow all beings to truly expand themselves here within physical self expression and not as it exists currently where all are merely developing themselves within ‘skill sets’ required of us to survive in the current money system.


I commit myself to grounding myself using the breath, to no longer accept and allow myself to move myself within irritation towards myself.


I commit myself to stopping judgments towards myself and others, as I realize that all judgments are separation of myself towards myself and others. I also realize that to use the mind to judge others indicates a cycle of self-abuse, because in judging others for who they are or how they do things one is eventually judging Self as one judges simply to judge – and judgment has no practical purpose.


I commit myself to look at each person and individual within their process and I direct myself according to the situation, according to what is best for all – not according to judgments.


I commit myself to stop all energy patterns, behavior and addictions within myself, to stop the cycle of hyperactivity versus laziness as a pattern which I realize serves no purpose and in the end still requires my self willed self direction.


I commit myself to no longer participate in any world system design that encourage me to act out in hyperactivity by stimulating me through pictures, words, desires as I realize that being stimulated by an outside source not only indicates that I am subject to another, but also subjects me to abuse and the allowance of people abusing each other for profit and personal self interest.


I commit myself to establish a new economic system that will end all abuse which currently only exists because people are addicted to energy, simply because we have come to accept ourselves as machines that move according to the will of others. Therefore by changing the money system so that beings are no longer trapped in survival, I will also be removing our inherent tendencies to allow ourselves to be manipulated through the system and those with money – to stand up within ourselves and finally grasp what it means to Live and me Life.



I commit myself to no longer accept myself to try and manipulate people’s energy levels when in their company by raising my voice, using specific tonalities and trying to get people exited or to laugh – all of this being used to get people to find me amusing or interesting – based on a desire for self appreciation through the appreciation of others. This game of self versus others through the mind, where we use each other for personal gain is how and why people develop the symptoms of Bipolar Disorder as we attempt to either suppress or express that which we believe others want from us either within family, societal, religious, cultural or economic situations.


I commit myself to no longer allow myself o treat children within the current world understanding where we terrain children in every moment to become specific personalities that serve the purpose of the family and the economic system.



I commit myself to support all beings equally within the context of ‘family’ as ‘those whom I share this planet with’ – to no longer condone within myself the abuse of beings due to the desire for profit and personal self-interest.



I commit myself to redefine the family, within the context of equality and to establish effective communication and to no longer allow mind games to be the directive principle within how one communicates with the members of the family.



I commit myself to stop subjecting my hidden desires, wants and fears on others beings, especially in the context of ‘family’ as the beings you share your space with and are responsible for – as I realize that to do so I am abusing them as life under the guise of ‘family’ -to serve me as my slaves.



I commit myself to no longer accept and allow science as the authority on the human mind, and instead I commit myself to the effective education and research of the human, to clear the clutter of what we have become as the human survival system – to return to the physical existence where all are equal and have equal rights.



I commit myself to present solutions through which I will be able to assist beings in to stop the use and abuse of substances as a way of suppression of apparent ‘living’ our ones hidden personalities – to bring about self honesty by supporting all within the process of self realization.


I commit myself to stop mood swings as mood disorders within myself, as this exists merely as a means of manipulation within the current societal value systems.


I commit myself to reveal family and societal deception and how it directly influences the experience of beings within this world as the outflow and consequence of what we allow depicted as Bipolar Disorder.



I commit myself to change my inner reality, where I accept and allow depression, irritability, elated moods, hyperactivity – to align myself here in consistency as the Physical – to no longer be subject to the mind and its dimensions within and how it exists currently as the Design of the Mind.


I commit myself to ending violence in our society by no longer accepting and allowing myself to participate in any form of sport, culture, and ways in which society participates in condoning war, abuse, separation and the honoring of self interest over Life.


I commit myself to show that the mind is not invincible and that if we do not direct ourselves to stop the madness that has become the human, we will face the consequences and submit our future generation to the karma as direct consequences of what we all accept ad allow now.




Further Reading:
DAY 3: What does it Really Mean to be 'Alive'?
DAY 8: How do we Create/Manifest ‘Who we Are’?
DAY 35: The Soul of Fear

Day 9: International Crime research - Bi-Polar Disorder and Violent Crimes Part 2

This is a continuation from: Bipolar Disorder and Violent Crime - New Evidence FromPopulation-Based Longitudinal Studies and Systematic Review Part 1

According to the Psychology Prescribed Text Book: “Understanding Abnormal Behavior” (Sue, Sue and Sue, 2010) “Bipolar Disorder is characterized by Mania, a condition characterized by elevated mood, expansiveness or irritability, often resulting in hyperactivity. It is usually accompanies by depression. Depression and Mania, the two extremes of mood or affect, can be considered the opposite ends of a continuum that extends from deep sadness to wild elation.”

(Two forms of Bipolar Disorder have been classified: Bipolar 1 and Bipolar 2.)

The following Excerpts are taken from the article: International Crime research - Bi-Polar Disorder and Violent Crimes.

(http://archpsyc.jamanetwork.com/article.aspx?volume=67&issue=9&page=931)

Definition of terminology:

Comorbidity: “In psychiatry, psychology and mental health counseling comorbidity refers to the presence of more than one diagnosis occurring in an individual at the same time.” (Wikipedia.org. 2012)




“ Objectives of the Study: To determine the risk of violent crime in bipolar disorder and to contextualize the findings with a systematic review.


Design: Longitudinal investigations using general population and unaffected sibling control individuals.


Setting : Population-based registers of hospital discharge diagnoses, sociodemographic information, and violent crime in Sweden from January 1, 1973, through December 31, 2004.


Participants: Individuals with 2 or more discharge diagnoses of bipolar disorder (n = 3743), general population controls (n = 37 429), and unaffected full siblings of individuals with bipolar disorder (n = 4059).


Main Outcome Measure: Violent crime (actions resulting in convictions for homicide, assault, robbery, arson, any sexual offense, illegal threats, or intimidation).


Results from Study 1: During follow-up, 314 individuals with bipolar disorder (8.4%) committed violent crime compared with 1312 general population controls (3.5%). The risk was mostly confined to patients with substance abuse comorbidity. The risk increase was minimal in patients without substance abuse comorbidity, which was further attenuated when unaffected full siblings of individuals with bipolar disorder were used as controls.


Results from Study 2: A longitudinal study of 3743 individuals with bipolar disorder has 2 main findings. First, there was an increased risk for violent crime among individuals with bipolar disorder. Most of the excess violent crime was associated with substance abuse comorbidity.


Second, there was an increased risk for violent crime among the unaffected siblings of individuals with bipolar disorder. This finding further weakens the relationship between bipolar disorder per se and violent crime and highlights the contribution of genetic or early environmental factors in families with bipolar disorder.


Bipolar disease severity (measured by the presence of psychotic symptoms) or diagnostic subgroups (manic vs depressive episode) were not associated with a violent crime risk increase in our study. Instead, the association between bipolar disorder and violent crime seemed to be largely mediated by substance abuse comorbidity.


Common familial etiology for bipolar disorder, violent criminality, and substance abuse.


Available data suggest a common familial etiology for bipolar disorder, violent criminality, and substance abuse. First, we found that the risk of violent crime in individuals with bipolar disorder was confined to those with comorbid substance use, and among those with substance abuse comorbidity, the risk was reduced from 6.4 relative to that of general population controls to 2.8 in comparison to sibling controls, indicating that familial effects are important for the association between violent crime and bipolar disorder among individuals with substance abuse. Second, comorbidity between bipolar I disorder and substance misuse is high (60% in the National Comorbidity Survey Replication), and in our data familial effects confounded the association between bipolar disorder and substance abuse (unaffected siblings had twice the rate of substance abuse [4.0%] compared with that of general population controls [1.9%]). Third, related work from Sweden demonstrated a 5-fold increased risk of violent crime in individuals with substance abuse; hence, substance abuse seems to be a likely explanation for increased violence in the unaffected siblings. The finding of shared familial etiology for bipolar disorder, violent criminality, and substance abuse is consistent with at least 2 likely explanations for the increased risk of violence among some patients with bipolar disorder. Bipolar disorder (with a predominantly genetic cause) may lead to substance abuse, which in turn increases the risk for violent crime.


Two implications follow from the role of comorbidity in mediating violence among individuals with bipolar disorder. First, detection is important, and current practice guidelines highlight the fact that comorbidity may be overlooked. Second, substance abuse treatment for individuals with bipolar disorder is likely to reduce the risk for violence and other adverse outcomes (including suicide). More trial evidence is required.


A recent expert consensus statement identified a single trial, that of psychoeducation, for the treatment of comorbidity in patients with bipolar disorder. Other recommendations include the involvement of an addiction psychiatrist and the potential value of dual-diagnosis treatment programs.


What evidence-based recommendations for assessment of risk for violent crime should be made for patients with bipolar disorder, given our findings? Since the risk estimate for bipolar disorder with substance abuse comorbidity is similar to that for substance abuse alone (reported to increase the risk of violence between 6- and 7-fold in a recent review), we suggest that detailed assessment is appropriate for all individuals with substance abuse, irrespective of bipolar diagnosis.


Rates of violent crime and their resolution are similar across western Europe, and assault rates are comparable between Sweden and the United States, suggesting the potential generalizability of our findings. In addition, alcohol sales per capita in Sweden are similar to those in the United States, although comparative information on illegal drug use is limited. Furthermore, Sweden is similar to the United States in terms of an internationally recognized proxy for psychiatric morbidity, namely, age-adjusted disability-adjusted life-years.”



To Summarize – what was found to be the common denominators within the research, was that family dynamics/influence and the use of alcohol and drugs was primarily responsible for Violent Behavior in people diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder as well as for the unaffected siblings of individuals with bipolar disorder.

Self-Forgiveness Part 1:



Bipolar Disorder and Elated Mood

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing a condition such as Bipolar disorder to exist.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the Mind to manifest into ‘conditions’, in which I have allowed myself to program and manifest the functioning of the mind into dysfunction, because of a lack of self responsibility within my actions, thoughts and words.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the mind to develop and exist as various conditions and dysfunctions because from the beginning I have not taken self responsibility for the mind and have allowed myself to copy the dysfunctions I see in others and have accepted the mind as it exist within others as my parents, siblings and fellow humans – as normal.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the mind to become dysfunctional, because I took for granted how the mind simply functions as a program which adapts to what I allow within myself and what I allow myself to become as all the dimensions of the mind – into which I have separated myself into from the physical - as a mind system.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abuse myself and others, because I developed conditions of the mind such as Bipolar disorder in which I abdicated responsibility into the mind, based on my starting point of not being self responsible and for not honoring life as myself.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the mind to exist in dimensions and for allowing the dimension of mania to exist in which I allow myself to become a different personality.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the existence of Mania within me, through which I in moments of irresponsibility would act out in my own self interest not worrying about how my actions affect others, simply so that I may experience an elated mood, which is the addiction to the energy of elated mood, without realizing that I was not acting in awareness of all as myself but simply generating energy through the interaction with my environment, to please me as my mind.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as a child to get caught up in moments in ‘elated mood’ where I would observe adults and other children pushing their levels of energy due to external stimulus and copying this behavior until I myself became addicted to the desire for this elated mood energy, at the expense of other people and beings on this planet.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look for ways to generate this elated mood energy, regardless of who or what the cause of my elation was and regardless of the outflow and consequences in the world of me allowing others to become my slaves for energy.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate only in those aspects of life, where I could participate within myself in energy, completing disregarding the abuse that happens at the opposite end of the polarity of ‘elated mood’, because I was to busy trying to become elated.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the design of the polarity system – ‘elated mood’ which has the polarity opposite of ‘sadness/depression’, which is where I would end up experiencing myself if I could not get my energy fix of elated mood.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to design Bipolar – existent since the beginning of human existence, because I become addicted to elated moods and to find ways to avoid depressed moods, by looking for new ways to up my energy into and as elation and happiness.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the existence of the capitalistic system, which was designed to serve my needs to experience elated moods – and over the generations I allowed the compounding effect of the searching for elation, by finding quicker and easier ways to buy my elation by participating with more greed and self-interest in capitalistic system.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the existence of the development and compounding of capitalism to serve my needs of elation, whereby I pushed the development of products faster and cheaper for me to have my outcome as elated mood. Within this I did not see and realize, even though it was right there in front of my eyes –that for capitalism to serve my needs of wanting elation faster and for cheaper, more products had to be produced faster for less, which means that more slaves had to work for longer hours with minimal income under stressful life changing situations, to serve my consumerist needs.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the destruction of this planet and the beings who live here with me, as capitalism and myself eventually started disregarding and abusing all resources and beings out of the drive for greed and my drive for elation.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing capitalism to now only exist for human mood elation and in this I gave permission to the abuse of all life, in the name of greed – not realizing that the justification used by capitalists that there exist a ‘market for products’, simply exists because from the beginning I wanted my experience of elation faster and with more intensity, with no regard for the planet and for others and using my own justification of happiness/elation to motivate myself and others so support capitalism and how it is being allowed to destroy and abuse life.


Commitment statements will be placed at the end of the section on Bipolar Disorder.



Part 2: Bipolar Disorder and Expansiveness






Sources:




1. Sue D, Sue DW, Sue S (2010). Understanding Abnormal Behavior. Boston: Wadsworth.



2. (http://archpsyc.jamanetwork.com/article.aspx?volume=67&issue=9&page=931)