Day 197: Writing a blog part 7

Day 191: Writing a Blog Part 1

Day 192: Writing a Blog part 2

Day 193: Writing a Blog part 3

Day 194: Writing a Blog part 4

Day 195: Writing a Blog part 5

Day 196: Writing a Blog part 6

"The reason why I shared my time line of experiences to how my interest in Criminology developed was to show that sometimes one has experience in a subject, from which the interest grows, but sometimes you only have a small interest in a subject which comes from for example an awareness or from reading articles on the internet. Either way from here if ones decides to pursue the subject - it takes a bit of research to familiarise oneself with the subject - therefore 'Research is the key'."

Working in the South African Police force and studying Criminology, obviously left me with a very black and white view to Criminal Behaviour - where a criminal is bad and the police catch criminals. Thanks to the work that I have been doing for the last few years I was able to start bridging the gap more between the understanding that currently exist in Criminology of 'what makes a criminal' to the grey areas that nobody in society really wants to talk about - such as if people steal because they don’t have an income - why are we creating and supporting a money system that excludes certain people from receiving their basic living requirements? Therefore you could say I became interested in the 'fringe psychology' within criminology where unfortunately Capitalism has very much set the precedent for how criminology exists. I mean from my perspective you could say that Criminology as all studies in the world is 'in the pocket of the Capitalists' - therefore how can you really study Criminology if you are never allowed to really look at and speak about the real causes of Criminal behaviour.

Things that society rely upon such as the current money system which is based on inequality and abuse and a consumerist system based on Psychological system such as addiction to energy - if we never address these problems we don’t sort out the reason why people commit crimes. But because the entire human idea of existence relies on the value systems within the mind which ties in with consumerism - you will find that most Criminalists will stick to the main stream acceptable discussions and fields of study about Crime - but never dig deeper. For example everyone learns about for example 'crimes being committed because the person was poor or could not feed themselves or desires wealth' and then BAM the information literally stops there. So I have made it my field of interest to continue looking underneath the surface stuff. It was a few years ago that in conjunction with the work that I do with Life Coaching and the Living Income Guaranteed proposal - that myself and others who do the same thing decided to study Psychology to develop an understanding of how the more acceptable 'system' definitions and studies into the Human Mind works to see where we can improve on the acceptable understandings oh the Human Psyche. In this I selected Criminology as my Minor. So from this my blogs have been a focal point on looking underneath the 'surface' stuff where normal Psychology and Criminology stops.

Therefore in relation to the discussion of writing blogs - this is the first point I want to bring across for those interested in Blog Writing - whether it is about the World System and its Problems or about Self and Self Change - either way we are writing blogs in such a way to 'lift the veil' so to speak on 'what is out there' and 'what exist within' from what one understands about any given topic based on what has been published on the internet/books/research material. As I mentioned before, in a consumerist/capitalist based Psychology - most fields of study are linked into how the Mind is 'perceived to work' and from this perception we must understand that how we have been taught things work is not necessarily how they work. So in blog writing - we address the real way in which things work where you learn how to start questioning the information that is 'out there' and how this information works in the bigger picture -meaning developing the understanding that the information itself is part of a bigger design in essentially - yes I am going to say it - the controlling of the human being to exist within specific behaviours and allowances which serve specific groups to achieve specific goals. Be it from the Consumerist system to Politics to general control of the pollution - all of these 'domains' - which are seemingly invisible to the trusting populous - you will find if you do some research and start questioning the information behind the information - will reveal to you the Design of the World System…

Therefore, for me an interest opened up while doing policing and observing the effects of Crime on Society - at that stage I had a sympathy for some criminals, as I could see with limited insight that they came from tough lives and therefore in some cases I felt out right uncomfortable stopping and searching people or acting like a big tough cop and questioning people about their whereabouts, Especially considering that in the South African police force there are still many racist white policeman who enjoy the power trip of while wearing the uniform and gun, to use this as an opportunity to bully people from other colours.

Through the years doing policing I was on the one side also investigating spirituality, and therefore I started becoming more sensitive so to speak to the experiences of both the criminal and the victim. But at that stage I did not yet have the skills to 'lift the veil' on how crime works beyond what I had come to accept from what is 'accepted' by society- I remember just feeling really uneasy around certain policing procedures. It was only years later joining Bernard here at Desteni that he assisted me in seeing more of how the system worked and most importantly how to use tools such as research and common sense to assess that which exist in the world. Therefore, that is what blog writing is about - it is not just about placing information you are already aware of onto paper, but a platform to practise tools of expansion within the topic you are interested in. That is why our DesteniIProcess courses are developed to slowly expand a person's self awareness - and the blogs we write about 'world problems' becomes a personal platform from which ones learns about common sense and investigating what exist as the current accepted systems of the world.

Day 178: Crime - Asking the Hard Questions

Day 147: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 1

Day 143: From Criminal to Principled Living

Day 144: Realising and Living my utmost potential part 1

Day 145: Realising and Living my utmost potential part 2

Now I walk the second Principle in the ‘From Criminal to Principled Living Series’:

2. Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all

For many who would read this principle, it might sound too ‘out there’, too ‘far fetched’, like something that only a person into spirituality or enlightenment would write. One’s Mind tends to look at that entire statement and either hit a blank, or react in anxiety at the enormity of it, or simply disregard the Principle as something that is rather ‘impossible’ for a ‘mere mortal to achieve’. Let me walk you through what I realized about this Principle a few years ago:

When I started exploring my own mind, it entailed looking at my own pre-designs, meaning who I had become due to genetics as well as the pre-programmed mind sets, personalities, and general ‘make-up’ of who I was as the baseline of my mind’s existence. Each human has this and pre-programming obviously means ‘pre’ – therefore indicating ones design that is hardwired into you from the time of conception until birth. It is those traits we inherit from the Conscious outline of the Human Psyche together with the traits that we inherent from our parents and the generations before them.

Therefore one’s ‘pre-programming’ is already in many ways that which makes it very difficult for any person to change, the moment we realize we are faced with a pattern that is not supporting us to be the best we can be as a ‘human’. For example my pre-programming consisted of for example: being a black sheep, being depressed, giving up on life, sabotaging myself and heading into a life of despair and maybe even suicide. I was predesigned to end up being an ADHD Emo/Chrystal child, into black arts and magic, who would either turn by gifts like intuition and the ability to see the dead into a ‘positive’ life path such as becoming a light worker and choosing to help others as a ‘worker of good’ instead of harming – OR I would have ended up working in a low wage job, with black Emo hairstyle, and a pentagram hidden under my shirt. I suspect that – and this I could do as I walked by life if I had NOT reached this point of change – I see that in the end I probably, if I had gone down the darker personality pre-programmed designs, would have started using drugs or even committed suicide.

At some stage in my life, many years ago, I dabbled with both pre-programmed designs at the same time. I was working as a Alternative Healer to find ways to support people and animals, while at the same time being a Pagan, who practised magic and dabbled with demons on the Ouija Board. Some years I dabbled more into the occult, the ‘darker’ side of me and other years I would lean more towards the ‘white light worker in me’. Talk about being in conflict over ones pre-programmed designs. At all times, however no matter which direction I leant to – I was always in conflict over my thoughts, my emotions. I was, as most humans are, in conflict about myself and who I was within the world and then who i wanted to be in the world but could not be, due to money and pre-programmed limitations such as inherent depression. At times I fought the world system, where the ‘darker’ character in me would come out and fight and cuss and blame ‘society’ and religion and my parents etc, blaming everyone for my locked in feeling where I wanted to just be left alone to do my own thing, but was always being contained by either a lack of money or societies rules. Then I would give into the perceived pressure, and realize that to survive in this world I had to work and to survive, so within this I ‘chose’ to follow an interest which was healing and the art of understanding the metaphysics of the human mind and body and how energy worked. So I studied Kinesiology, Reiki and Energy healing, but all the while I felt constantly overwhelmed by depression – something that I inherited from my father, but which also existed as part of my pre-programmed design to give up on myself and exist in conflict my entire life…

to be continued

Day 129: Crimes against Life: Forced to keep working in the Sex Industry

This blog is a follow up on:

Day 128: Crimes against Life: Struggling to survive – become a porn star!

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2013/12/day-128-crimes-against-life-struggling.html

 

On the subject of Money as motivation for why people become involved in porn, I watched 2 documentaries today:

Dark Side of Porn 04 Death of a Porn Star

http://youtu.be/5AQDAmCIwcQ
This documentary is based on the life or Lolo Ferrari -  labelled as the woman with the largest breasts in the world’ (artificial). Lolo had body dysmorphic disorder which meant that she constantly looked for ways to improve on the shape and size of her face, lips, body and breasts –as she was never satisfied with herself. In short once she got married, her husband served as her agent – from model to stripper to short lived porn star- all based on her fame for her large breasts. In the documentary you basically see the battle going on between her mother saying that it was the husband that was responsible in the end for her death (which they thought was a suicide but 2 years after initial autopsy a second autopsy cast doubt on it being a suicide) and the husband, who claimed that Lola’s path of self-destruction was due to abuse from her parents when she was young.

The documentary basically highlights both parties portraying themselves as innocent –saying that it was Lola and either the husband or family that caused her downward spiral to the apparent suicide. Nowhere in the documentary does anybody take responsibility for what happened and for who Lola became. What I want to highlight about this documentary was the opinions given by the Psychiatrists who discuss body dysmorphic disorder as well as the plastic surgeon who mentions that the plastic surgeons who assisted her to constantly have more surgeries done until she in the end looked like and I quote her mother ‘a monster’ –did in fact more harm to her than good.


So what I am emphasising here about this documentary is the fact that nobody understands that one can criticise this woman for her decisions, but unless one understands how society contributes to the overall design of body dysmorhic disorder –as all the image related ideals we create for woman and men – we will never sort out the problem – because right now how males and females are obsessed with ‘how we look’ is all forms of body dysmorphic disorder which we all generate and participate in creating all the time in our own homes where we teach young girls and boys about acceptance in the form of what they dress and what they look like. So this extreme case of ‘Lolo’ is only emphasised because it stands out – nobody wants to talk about the global problem that exist within most young people today – and that the porn industry exist because so many people are creating abusing, illusionary, capitalistic/consumerist driven ideals about our image and worth as sexual objects both within society and marriages.

The second point here – is that no matter what the psychiatrists and plastic surgeons say about the harm done to and by this Lolo character that was created – the point is we will not be able to change the porn industry and how people get sucked into it – if we don't understand how the money system works – you are not going to change people going into the sex industry for ‘easy’ money if you don't change Capitalism and how people have to survive within our current money system.

Lets research the solution to each person having a effective income:

Living Income Guaranteed

http://basicincomeguaranteed.wordpress.com/

The second documentary:

Me and My Slaves (The Dark Side of Porn) 2006

http://youtu.be/akBhhmQapuU

This documentary follows the life of a ‘sadomasochist master’. The documentary follows this man for a year, where he shows the presenters insights into his life, his dungeon where he tortures people (for money) and the behind the scenes insights are revealed into why this man chose to do this. Now the interesting direction that this documentary takes is that the man says that he wants to eventually towards the end of this documentary quit what he is doing – however you can see that towards the ending of the documentary he reveals that he does not really know what he will now do for money, as he has no particular skill sets as he has been doing this for 25 years already.

So, you can see how this man struggles with his own inner demons as he wants to stop what he is doing because he is starting to connect the dots between his own abusive sexual past of rape etc, to his choices over the last 25 years to be a ‘paid’ sadomasochist. The battle ensues as he is torn between his financial future and basically having to now step into the uncertainty of what he will do for money, and his moral or conscious fight with his choices which were all – as he reveals throughout the documentary in anyway based on being abused sexually.

Now that the picture becomes more clear to him, he wants to step away from inflicting pain on others to cope with his own rage at being sexually abused, but the reality of the situation is that he will now probably have no other job and he even mentions that he will probably loose everything. Towards the end of the documentary you see him packing up and selling his sado masochism tools and equipment, thus revealing that he is truly biting the bullet so to speak and letting go – but again one does not know how it really ended – would he in time simply go back to what he has always done financially? Will the fear of not being able to provide for himself in the system, eventually drive him back to reliving his choices of inflicting abuse based on abuse? Is this really the life choices anybody would want for themselves – is this truly living?

Lets research the solution to each person having a effective income that removed abuse and fear:

Living Income Guaranteed

http://basicincomeguaranteed.wordpress.com/

Crime's Journey to Life Day 94: The Programmable Human

Crime's Journey to Life Day 93: Crime and Predictive Behaviour