Day 90: International Crime Research: Mass Murderers Part 4: The Physical Reaction of Mass Murderers

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Day 89: International Crime Research: Mass Murderers Part 3: Reaction of Mass Murderers


Physical Dimension:


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself, once I have fuelled my thoughts and imagination on how I will seek revenge on the other, to now allow myself to exist so far in my mind where I am walking equal and one to these thoughts and imaginations, that I do not notice that I am busy restricting my breathing, tensing my muscles and changing my physicality,

from there;

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to now as I participate in programming myself physically by repeatedly thinking the thoughts and allowing the imaginations of revenge, to - together with the mind dimensions, to also now program my physical with specific reactions/behaviours, linked to the mind experiences -walked in the previous blogs, for example

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to first program into my physical the physical tightness of my shoulders, the hunching of my back, the tightening and changing of my breathing, to the clenching of my fists,

then

as these basic physical reactions are programmed together with the backchat, fears and imaginations and pictures of how I will seek revenge within my mind -now as time progresses I start reacting more severely physically, due to the energy I have compounded over time, by participating extensively, consistently in the mental aspects/dimensions of my plans for revenge/retaliation,

therefore;

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to program into the physical layered energetic reactions, which then become physically compounded reactions such as lashing out in anger by striking at children, animals, objects - whereby my mind will rationalise the outburst in terms of something that cannot protect itself or speak up for itself.

within this;

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compound this energy build up through participating in the mind dimensions, further in time as I create all kinds of scenarios in my mind of how I have been 'hurt, cheated, done in', and as time progresses the physical possession takes place at an energy level - after which I now am no longer only thinking about reacting/acting out -but become possessed by this pre-programed system - that I designed over years/months/weeks or days.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself then to eventually become physically possessed as my physical reaction aligns within the amount of thinking I have been doing in relation to seeking revenge, whereby I physically seek ways to harm myself or others, as this physical 'lashing out' allows for the release of the energy that I have compounded through participating in the mental dimensions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to then further become possessed by the power and sense of release of being able to finally express by grief/anger/annoyance - as I now physically for the first time experience a relive that was not there before,

therefore;

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to now want to directly lash out at the individual/group/object that I am blaming for my own internal conflict I have compounded for myself through the use of Ego

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to now lash out by using physical measures which could range from picking up a stick, hitting with my fists, even to the extent of using deadly force such as shooting, strangling or the use of bombs etc...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use this deadly force to mass murder any individual or group, I perceive annoys me or stand in my way of getting what I want - not for a moment considering the consequences of creating a world, where instead of living the solution of breath, by stopping reactions based on protecting the Ego, but instead the individual seeking self gratification at the expense of others, which as we see today in the news - has created a world where mass mind possession is occurring now at all times, as people compound the mental energy of revenge, ego into physical possessions.

I commit myself, when and as I find myself compounding any energy through thinking about a scenario using any imagination or opinion or fair/unfair instead of simply looking at my self responsibility in creating the outcome that is best for all, to stop, breathe, relax myself physically, letting go of any built-up thought designs, and walking the physical steps of self correction.

I commit myself within the walking of the steps of self correction, to always look at how the other person/group perceive their perspective within this situation, to also take responsibility for the creation point from their perspective, as the energy we build up during such experience of 'feeling done in/deceived' is always coming from various participatory points/parties - therefore;

I commit myself to always place myself 'in the shoes' of all parties, and align myself through observing the starting point of each, to assist and support myself in self forgiving the point, correcting it as myself to no longer accept and allow deception, no matter from which starting point/ past experience it happens.

Day 88: International Crime Research: Mass Murderers Part 2: Mass murder by individuals

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Day 87: International Crime Research: Mass Murderers Part 1


Taken from Wikipedia:

Mass murderers may fall into any of a number of categories, including killers of family, of coworkers, of students, and of random strangers. Their motives for murder vary. A notable motivation for mass murder is revenge, but many other motivations are possible, including the need for attention or fame.Examples of mass murderers include James Eagan Holmes, Adam Lanza, William Unek, Campo Elías Delgado, Jeff Weise, Woo Bum-kon, Martin Bryant, Ahmed Ibragimov, Baruch Goldstein, Robert Bales, Omar Thornton, Nidal Malik Hasan and Charles Whitman.

Revenge: Thought (picture)

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto a picture of what I believe is the wrong doing of another, to me or something I value,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing when and after holding onto this picture as a memory of what I perceive was done to me by another, to use the picture as a way of feeding existing fears, angers and resentments I have developed throughout my life, in relation to similar points.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing this picture as an animated thought to 'pop' into my mind from time to time, after which I will start negotiating inner reactions towards this memory as picture - whereby I am now slowly starting to create an energetic charge in relation to this picture

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to charge this picture energetically (negatively) due to pre-programmed likes and dislikes, which are now creating conflict within me as I battle between my ego, which wants me to win, to succeed, to be right over others and therefore this internal battle is created from the vantage point of how do I win in the future over others using the past, as memories from which I will plot my next step.

Backchat/Inner conversations:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to now start having internal conversations with myself based on this picture that pops into my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use the picture, to now create scenarios based on the what ifs, the ways I should have or could have dealt with the past, which is basically me not looking at the fear reaction I experiences in relation to the past memory, but instead now conjuring up ways of fighting in the future to be the winner - therefore becoming the one that harms others in self-interest.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to CONvince myself in my mind that others are at fault, not allowing myself to realize that the actual experience within me is one of an emotion reaction of doubt, fear, annoyance, embarrassment.

Myyy PRECIOUSSS!!

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use inner conversations to plan how to in the future act in a way that will allow me to win over the other person, instead of realizing that my emotional reaction is fear based, the fear of losing face, of looking bad and of losing out in life - wherein I am not willing to realize that the war/fight/stance I plan in my head to be spiteful or get back at another - is actually only as a result of my fear towards what I perceive others are doing or are able to do 'to' me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing this inner dialogue to become 'the how' I deal with people and situations, not realising that I am now more and more distancing myself from this actual reality, from the conversations required between myself and others to practically find solutions, instead of rash, final actions and harsh words where I 'deal the final blow' as reaction - to 'be the winner'.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to now create internal conversations around the idea of getting revenge on another, in my beLIEve that this will correct the past and allow me to 'feel better about what happened, without me considering the practical implications of such an act, in that it only serves to exacerbate the emotion/feeling energy systems, and has no practical purpose for this reality - as it only creates further cycles of anger and revenge.

Day 87: International Crime Research: Mass Murderers Part 1

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http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/12/day-79-international-crime-research.html

According to Wikipedia:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mass_murder

"Mass murder (in military contexts, sometimes interchangeable with "mass destruction" or "genocide") is the act of murdering a large number of people (four or more), typically at the same time or over a relatively short period of time.[1] According to the FBI, mass murder is defined as four or more murders occurring during a particular event with no cooling-off period between the murders. A mass murder typically occurs in a single location in which a number of victims are killed by an individual or more.[2] Most acts of mass murder end with the death of the perpetrator(s), whether by direct suicide or being killed by law enforcement.[citation needed]

A mass murder differs from a spree killing in that it may be committed by individuals or organizations alike, whereas a spree killing may only be committed by one or two individuals. Mass murder may also be defined as the intentional and indiscriminate murder of a large number of people by government agents. Examples are the shooting of unarmed protestors, the carpet bombing of cities, the lobbing of grenades into prison cells and the random execution of civilians. Mass murderers are different from spree killers, who kill at two or more locations with almost no time break between murders and are not defined by the number of victims, and serial killers, who may kill large numbers of people over long periods of time. The largest mass killings in history have been attempts to exterminate entire groups or communities of people, often on the basis of ethnicity or religion. Some of these mass murders have been found to be genocides and others to be crimes against humanity, but often such crimes have led to few or no convictions of any type.

The concept of state-sponsored mass murder covers a range of potential killings. It is defined as the intentional and indiscriminate murder of a large number of people by government agents. Examples are shooting of unarmed protestors, carpet bombing of cities, lobbing of grenades into prison cells and random execution of civilians."

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define humanity as separate groups, according to which I either like or dislike these separate groups, depending on whether they are similar to me and what I give value to within life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to grow up accepting the fears of my parents and others adults of other groups - and through the accumulation of these fears into adulthood, I will even create inner conversations and thoughts about how I would react if faced with such a group and how I would through words or deeds attempt to remove the group - if I feel threatened due to my own accumulated fears.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself, by belonging to groups and organisations such as political parties and religion groups, confess that I am separate from most others and will familiarise myself with methodologies and methods that focus on the protection of oneself against other groups.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have thoughts of harm towards other individuals as I allow myself to feel more threatened each day - by other groups/individuals - as I allow a society to exist which thrives off of competition and annihilation of the 'weak'.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define some as being weak due to them appearing physically different than than myself, acting different to me or belonging to a different group - thus through developing such irrational justification I am pre-programming myself into a mass murderer of individuals who through societies values are deemed less worthy of life - thus justifying any harm, abuse or death that comes to such individuals - where I do not even flinch because I have already accepted that any group I label as inferior to myself does not deserve the rights I would like for myself, which is to live a dignified life without fear or harm.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to protect any government or group that preaches and practices separation, discrimination and judgment - whereby I am silently giving permission to the mass murders that occur each day - as those with power elected by the people - destroy the lives of those who do not have the ability to stand up for themselves.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to secretly believe that governments and politicians and religious leaders 'protect us from harm' - which is actually the division of labour and the monopolising of resources - away from those who are not able to stand up for themselves.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that each day that any group or individual is harmed or killed so another group is able to flourish - then myself as the one that benefits from such murder and harm, is in fact a co-conspirator in mass murder.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see, realize and understand that the definition of mass murder, just like the definition of a serial killer is only interpreted as far as we are willing to live with ourselves and is never taken as far as bringing responsibility to any and all humans who allow the destruction or death of another group or individual so that another group/individual may prosper - therefore;

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that by standing back and watching as wars are fought to protect my lifestyle and wealth - is the same as signing a permission slip to mass murder any individual or group whom would interfere with my lifestyle - which is derived and designed through the sweat of others, who either conform to be a working slave to make my life more comfortable - or die from starvation;

therefore

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that at any given moment if I allow a system to exist that will bring harm or death directly or indirectly to another group or individual so that I may flourish and live a life of pleasure - I am in fact a murderer of the masses that die each day in what is ignored and justified within Capitalism.

I commit myself to show that the current economic system is flawed, and that even one death within such a system, should always be brought under question - as it should show that the system requires revision and realignment as there is a point that was not taken into consideration - thus costing the Life of another.

Therefore I commit myself to show that capitalism is so flawed as it daily takes the lives of millions not to mention the continual abuse and suffering - but that we as humans have come to accept this as our fate - just like we have come to accept the good/evil concepts of a god and hell and that we are eternally condemned - and that is why mass murderers as the human civilisation try and suppress the reality of what we know we do and participate in each day - with drugs, alcohol and addictions.

I commit myself to show that Capitalism does not have to be flawed and that everything is here as a system for us to change to one that stands by the principles of protecting and honouring Life for all, instead of what exists now - as a system that corrupts and harms so a few may experience bliss.


We are thus here starting a project of investigating what Capitalism should be like according to its very own principles - and thus, what requires to be adjusted within the current Capitalistic system to make it a system that works for everyone. Equal Money Capitalism will be the necessary transition step to as a global society towards establishing an Equal Money System as presented at www.equalmoney.org.