Day 128: Crimes against Life: Struggling to survive – become a porn star!

Day 126: Crimes against Life: Pornography Part 2

This blog is a follow up on:
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2013/10/day-125-crimes-against-life-pornography.html

In this blog I would like to now start taking a look at the time line of events that lead up to the existence of porn user, distributor and the porn star. I will be investigating the various dimensions that lead up to why such an industry exist that has millions of people addicted daily, while at the same time existing due to an undercurrent of rationalisation and justifications by most of humanity – where pornography is seen as acceptable and an sexual outlet that is ok, even though the effects of it on both user and porn star is anything but ‘ok’. So by walking the time line of the life events behind why such an industry exists, together with the societal justifications behind why it ok for us to continue allowing pornography as a sexual outlet – we will be able to come face to face with who we have become as society, as the human beings that rationalise through thinking an industry like pornography into ‘existence’.

As I mentioned in my previous blog, we have drawn a line between child pornography as being ‘wrong’ but rationalise adult pornography as being acceptable. Then most do not bother to do the research about the real effects of pornography on both the user and the porn star and nobody bothers to research the assumptions and myths behind things like ‘porn stars must enjoy it’ and ‘but why can I not use it if I pay for it’. These rationalisations would not be used if we were talking about handing guns to children and would most certainly not be used if 50 years down the line we sold our wives and children into servitude to become porn stars.The fact that this already exists, but is more masked and hidden – does not fall into any category worth investigating – why – well lets be frank – what I have noted about myself and what I have experienced as I came face to face with letting go of and really looking at the effects of my addictions on the world and myself – is that as long as I did not see the harm it was causing – I really did not care. So as I say, for now woman are selling themselves into pornography either to survive in this monetary system or because they have been brainwashed by society and their peers/parents – to believe that abusing sexuality is actually a plus – where if you are really pushing your physical boundaries then it means you are a free spirit who is not limited by the religious and cultural limitations of the rest of society. So pushing oneself to really harm your physical body sexually is seen as a positive thing when it comes to pornography and in fact from my experience writing and speaking about this subject – the reactions from mostly males when mentioning these strange mind rationalisations – is to be attacked and told that I am frigid and lesbian and wont allow myself pleasure.


So lets start at one point here – discussing the female mind set around the ‘achievement accomplished’ to turn oneself into a  porn star. How does a girl/woman grow up to believe that to become a porn start is actually you expressing your sexuality freely? This reminds me of the type of language that is taught by a pedophile to a young child – where the pedophile has one thing in mind and that is to mold the mind set of the young child into his sex slave – therefore as research shows the pedophile will use compliments, comparisons to female and male adult roles and threats to control and subdue a child into the role desires by the pedophile.


So take a young woman growing up, existing as a physical body –and then she reaches an age where she starts noticing glamorous pictures of half naked woman in magazines, movies and billboards. Those who are closest to her such as her mother and sisters' support this image directed identity, by encouraging her to create a personal identity linked within  that which she sees around her. Specific words are used by the mother/sisters/peers to encourage the young girl to start accepting herself as not just female but a companion to a male – and this opens a who can of worms where the mother will imprint on the young girl the same journey she walked into molding herself into a sexualised object for the males. I remember growing up I was told to wash my hair and to start wearing make up and nice clothes etc – to become a nice lady so that one day I will find a man. So every step of the woman's process of growing up becomes about the picture perfect presentation to finding your mate – the make up the hair, the body, the mannerisms. All of ones existence becomes about fulfilling a role to please the male who will pick you to be his mate. Therefore woman plaster make up on their faces to present a fake picture that will match the pictures seen by people in magazines/movies – so that by doing so the woman creates an identity for herself by linking her image to the already desired images on tv/magazines..

To be continued

For further reading please see the following Blogs/pages:
http://pornaddictsjourneytolife.wordpress.com/
https://www.facebook.com/pornaltdelete

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-2432591/Porn-pernicious-threat-facing-children-today-By-ex-lads-mag-editor-MARTIN-DAUBNEY.html

Day 30: International Crime Research – Child Pornography Part 14

This is a continuation from:

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-29-international-crime-research.html


Please refer to: Day 24: International Crime Research – Child Pornography Part 8 for background information, on how and why I will be walking the characters of Criminals/Offenders.


To recap: the following blog is written from the perspective of familiarizing myself one and equal with the mind, character and personality of someone who watches/consumes child pornography. By walking equal to the mind of the user, I am able to draw from it, the contributing factors from the initial thought to the decision that is made to watch child pornography and how the mind is further fueled through backchat and behaviors, until in time, the characteristic is defined and directs the being into action, through an accumulation of memories, thoughts and experiences. What follows is specific self-forgiveness on the characteristics within the write-up.

Pedophile Character: Person who watches child pornography as a substitute for male/female sexual companionship.

“ Growing up I had difficulty around woman, I always found myself from about the age of 11 onwards, to be aware that girls are different to boys and from what I had read and been told by my older brother – apparently girls would one day be a very important part of my life. Becoming a teenager, I brought with me the memory of pictures I had seen in porn magazines and ‘adult education’ books – where a man meets a woman, takes her to dinner and bangs her brains out. According to romantic novels he might later on marry her.”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the pre-programmed personality design of myself as ‘experiencing a difficult time around the opposite sex’



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing my pre-programmed design to consist of the pre-programmed nature and characters of my parents and their parents, as those characteristics they accepted and allowed within themselves, which did not stand as what is best for all – but instead became “conflicted experiences” within the Psyche of the being, through which the mind created more characters to deal with the conflict, which outflows into global problems as we all fight against our characters by fighting with each other.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to align myself from a young age to the thoughts around ‘other young children of the opposite sex being different, strange or making me feel uncomfortably.’



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as a parent to influence children into believing that the opposite sex has a special value or is somehow to be treated differently at different stages of my age-development, through which I teach children to develop experiences as character responses towards other children, which in essence is not necessary and simply becomes part of the game adults play around sex and sexuality as they fight their own sexual repression, and obsessions and maintain the separation between man and woman which is tied into the value system around having money and safeguarding ones surviving within the institution of family as the passing down of ones genes – which is the survival of ‘my’ characters.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take on the conflict my parents experienced in relation to man/woman, as I copied how they were either uncomfortable around the opposite sex, desired the opposite sex or had some hidden agenda towards the opposite sex as they planned and schemed to lure in a partner who would ensure them a safe comfortable life according to the financial status that would be obtained once the partnership/marriage was designed.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to, through media, allow myself to imprint into my character of ‘young male or young female’ the discrepancies towards being male or female which would result in obsessions, lies, abuse, suppression, and character formations – insisted upon by the individual as we force each other into ‘sex specific roles’ to please the ego and the pocket – as we decide from young which partner we want depending on how wealthy we want to be, how much sex we want to have, the breeding of specific charactered children and so forth. Thus in designing and living separation and judgment towards ‘the other sex’ and how this is lived through how we develop relationship and marriage – we are programming our children from young to become the next generation of abusers as they too will adopt values, copied from the parents based in inequality and self-interest.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing thoughts around the opposite sex and myself in relation to them being more than, less than, special, not special, with or without, hating, loving, needing, rejecting, where in the end I manifest myself as uncomfortable in the presence of the opposite sex, due to my participation in the backchat conversations based on fears and ideas I copied from watching my parents, siblings and the characters in movies.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that the opposite sex is somehow different to me, simply because we have different genitalia, due to how my parents treat each other within inequality and how society treats gender as a platform for the allowance of abuse such as in the case of religion, culture, politics and the family system.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use images found within pornography to create an idea about sex and the opposite sex, as if the images portrayed are real and have an actual practical bearing on sex and how it practically functions within the physical.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as parent to teach my child about sex, through allowing pornography and the media to become the number one education tools from which children learn about sex, obscuring the way in which they learn about the body and sex, until all that remains is the child becoming another abuser of the physical to chase the experience of energy and self-glorification as is promoted through pornography and the media.




I commit myself to show how using pictures as a point of comparison, only leads to a world in which we will never be satisfied with the physical reality, because there is always a better picture in the mind of what or how we could/should be.



I commit myself to show that the education, family and religious institutions of this world only exist to develop characters of fear, self-doubt, self-abuse and dependency/slavery and to design the individual in such a way that we will forever remain addicted to characters to try and alleviate the fear that was inserted into us by these institutions through words, images and the example of physical behaviors.



I commit myself to show that if the education, family and religious institutions were really about what is best for all – then the individual would represent what is best for all and not become dysfunctional organic-character robots, driven by symbols and images used through media by the groups that benefit the most from the individuals remaining trapped and dependent on being characters.



I commit myself to show that what we call beauty, love, acceptance, relationship, accomplishment, intellect – are all just mechanisms used by the characters who control others to make the individual believe we are accomplishing something with our lives – while what we are really doing is becoming the characters addicted to consuming and entertain the systems of the mind.



I commit myself to show that what is considered to be a ‘well adjusted human’ – simply indicates societies acceptance of the human as a character – and that for us to accept a child as fearing or obsessing or desiring while being impulsed through the media to participate in Capitalism due to the hidden symbols and pictures – indicates that we are not fit as parents as all we bring into this world are slaves to each other’s financial, emotional and mental agendas (characters).

Further Reading/Viewing in similar Subject matters:

Pornography


2012 God created Vaginoplasty!


The perfect Vagina

Day 23: International Crime Research – Child Pornography Part 7

This is a continuation from: http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/06/day-22-international-crime-research.html

 Research taken from: http://www.crime-research.org/articles/536/ Legal Issues Raised by the Regulation of Computer Child Pornography

Along with all the truly remarkable--even lifesaving--tasks which computers perform, the development of computers and the advent of on-line communication has introduced serious challenges into every area of the law. Many questions have yet to be answered. For example, in each nation across the globe, who is legally liable for material placed on a bulletin board system, an on-line service or on the Internet" The individual who introduces the material into the system, the systems operator, the producer of the material, and/or the person who downloads it" There are further questions. In the case of pornography transmitted by computer, the origination of the image may be in a jurisdiction in one part of the world where the image is legal but it may travel to another where the image is patently illegal. Should the global network be dominated by the strictest standard or the most tolerant" Furthermore, should not consenting adults be able to engage in e-mail interactive chat sessions which describe "objectionable" materials since these same communications might not be criminalised it they were face to face, by regular post, or by telephone" The possibility of creating computer generated pornography has produced a myriad of additional legal issues that are difficult to resolve. Civil libertarians argue that if computer generated pornography involves no real child victim, laws based on protecting children would no longer apply and regulation would be an unwarranted restriction of free speech. They argue that because there is no absolute scientific data that demonstrates a causal connection between the use of child pornography and the commission of crimes against children, there is no reason to restrict its transmission on the Internet. They might also point out the difficulty of determining the "age" of a "child" depicted in a computer generated image. Child advocates voice the position that the harm of child pornography extends far beyond the individual victim. They assert that children as a whole are the victims of computer generated pornography which displays child victims as sexual objects. Many law enforcement officers argue that the harm reaches beyond the individual child when pornography is used to seduce other children. They add that neglecting to prohibit computer generated child pornography could well re-establish the commercial trade--filling bookstores with computer generated images, de-sensitising society and fuelling demand for such material. Additionally, if it becomes impossible to distinguish computer generated pornography from that which depicts an actual child, prosecution of " genuine" child pornography would become virtually impossible and child pornographers would be furnished with another avenue of defense. 

Stopping for a break on a walk in Nature - to
write our Journey to Life Blogs, with Andrea, Lindsay, Niklas,
Malin and Rozelle

I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to have become so desensitized by abusive images in this world that I will allow abuse to escalate to the extent that it has – and at no point stand up as the voice to stop abuse, but instead turn the point around within my mind through backchat, where I will rationalize and excuse-away the abuse, until I can comfortably set the problem aside inside my mind. 

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify the use of child pornography as someone else’s problem, the government’s problems and the problem of ‘irresponsible parents’ whose fault it is for allowing their children to end up being abused.

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify that child pornography only exists because there are people in the world who are ‘mentally deranged and sick’ - not realizing that any and all sexual addiction and the participation therein exists due to me being maladjusted in my sexual responses– and therefore if I am not self responsible within sexuality and use my mind as fantasies and secret desires to influence my sexual behavior – then I am responsible for myself as abuser.

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that the impact that child abuse and child pornography will have on the world, will only be subject to children who are of lower socioeconomic value than my own and therefore it does not bother me.

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify that because these children were forced into these situations by the abusers and were not protected by the parents – that it serves the parents right for not protecting the children and therefore I can continue allowing child pornography as it serves as warning and punishment for those who do not protect their children.

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that these children who are abused are already accustomed to abusive lifestyles and therefore within my mind I separate myself from these children and see them as less than myself and less than my children.

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think and believe that due to these children mostly coming from broken homes or poor homes, that these are merely ‘victims of our society’ and therefore not deserving of equal rights to be protected by the system.

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing society to push these children aside through judgment and perception that it is their fault for what happened to them due to the socio economic situation they find themselves in or for their parents apparently not protecting them sufficiently – which only exists as justification and reason for society to continue participating in the Mind – as the foundation from which all abuse is designed on an individual and global level.

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be spiteful towards these children by secretly believing – well some children are special and are therefore taken care of and others are not. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself through family to allow such a mind set of ‘my children are special’, through which I will justify separating my family from the rest of the world, which consequently has had the effect of each family looking on as other families/individuals are abused in the name of profit and human self interest.

 I commit myself to reveal the structure of family as the point of separating ourselves and our family members from the rest of the world and using family as the justification why my bubble is special and I only have to protect my family-bubble – and that this serves as the reason why all families accept and allow abuse t happen to other families.

 I commit myself to show how humanity has desensitized ourselves to the abusive that happens and how we refuse to accept self-responsibility as the users and abusers on this planet. I commit myself to show that Capitalism is not even the real problem – as Capitalism merely exist as the system that we as the Consumers and Capitalists give permission to on a day to day basis – therefore if children are being exploited for money it is firstly because we are not self responsible within sexual expression – and secondly that we will sit by and watch as Capitalism continues to exists to support us, while making profit from abuse to support us.

 Further Reading on Desire and Sex 

Inception of Desire

Sex as Positive Energy Addiction

Mind's Multiplication Effect

What Masters of Energy do now know

Nakedness of Forbidden Fruit

Day 22: International Crime Research – Child Pornography Part 6

This is a continuation from: http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/06/day-21-international-crime-research.html


Research taken from: http://www.crime-research.org/articles/536/


USES OF CHILD PORNOGRAPHY – continued

5. Blackmail: Sexually explicit images are used to ensure the lifelong silence of the victimised child by threatening to show the pictures to parents, peers or others. Child victims will not always report pictorial records--even if they report sexual abuse--because they may be ashamed of what happened to them as well as of their participation in the pornography.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing blackmail within this world, due to human greed and self-interest – through which by the sheer nature of blackmail we accept ourselves as the abusers of others.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to blackmail people as a means of requiring money instead of taking self responsibility for myself within providing for my own means – whereby I will align myself to abuse for money instead of Self responsibility.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing blackmail, whereby I am disregarding the experienced for the other person, and only looking out for my own self-interest.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing blackmail to exist around the principle of secrets, whereby someone can blackmail me based on revealing my secrets to the world.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing secrets to exists within my world, where I act in ways that I would not reveal to others due to my actions not standing as what is best for all.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing a world where blackmail has become such an extensive means of obtaining money due to us having conflicting moral within society, where we will judge certain actions as so immoral, that we have to hide these actions, even though as the high incidence of blackmail shows - we still live out these immoral actions, but as a society approve of the action of hiding or suppressing what we do.

6. A medium of exchange: Child pornography is used as a means of establishing trust and camaraderie with other pedophiles and molesters and as proof of their good intentions when establishing contact with other exploiters. It is a medium of communication with fellow exploiters in public and private sex markets.

7. Access: Some exploiters exchange pornography to gain access to other markets and to other children

8. Profit: Although most do not sell child pornography, there are some paedophiles and child molesters who sell home-made videos and photos on a one-to-one basis. Some child exploiters sell their self-produced materials to finance trips overseas to popular sex tourist destinations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have minimized the quality of life to simply exist as something that I can sell and trade for my own self-interest and greed.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing capitalism to turn everything into profitable material – and by accepting and allowing this I have admitted that I have no worth, my family has no worth and anything I do has no worth, as it all gets equated to a point of profit within capitalism.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to only complain about life being equal to profit – if it affects myself or my family, where I will cry and moan, but if I see it happening all around me to billions of beings each day, I turn by back and pretend I did not notice or pretend that it is not me that is responsible as I am the one that profits from living in this system that uses life for money.




THE CONNECTION BETWEEN CHILD PORNOGRAPHY AND CHILD SEX ABUSE CRIMES

Some social scientists interpret the research to indicate that the use of child pornography is a precursor to other sex crimes and that child pornography is fuel to feed the obsession of paedophilia; Child Pornography and Sexual Exploitation: European Forum for Child Welfare Position Statement, 3 (Nov. 1993) [hereafter EFCW Position Statement] (citing studies that support this thesis). others conclude that it is a safety valve that prevents such crimes.




I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use the justification of allowing child pornographers to use child pornography as a safety valve – where I say that at least by only looking at pictures the abusers are not actually abusing real children – not understanding, realizing and comprehending the type of world I am creating where I mask these abusive intention with clever words and justifications, to protect my right to abuse.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use the excuse of ‘at least they are only masturbating to pictures of children’ as an excuse to justify the reason why I can masturbate to picture of people, creating a world where we mask our inner behaviors with reasons and excuses – without properly investigating mathematically how abuse unfolds from the abuse we allow within.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing child pornography to continue existing on the Internet, even though research indicates that child pornography exists in most cases as a prelude to the actual act.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate the actions on the internet from reality – not realizing that the actions on the internet reveal what people are really doing inside and out – and is not merely just a make believe world.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give permission to the internet as a secret reality that is apparently only 3d- where I allow others their secret fantasies as long as they allow me my secret fantasies – where the internet has grow to such an extent that anything and everything is allowed under the guise of ‘its only a virtual reality and not real.’


I commit myself to show how the human has allowed itself to separate its actions into realities that are always justified as acceptable by society due to it existing in a bubble called religion, internet, culture, family, relationship, sport, entertainment, individuality, free-will – and to show that these bubbles are how we protect the deception that we clearly see and understand – however never want to take responsibility for equal and one to its existence.


Further Reading:

Success and Reward

The Visible and Invisible

Day 53: Slavery Exploiting Sex, Life and Labor in the Consumerism Concentration Camp

Day 5: South African Crime Research - Radical changes made to rape laws

The University of South Africa’s Criminology and Security Sciences Study guide (2012) – refers to a new legislation that will change how rape cases are prosecuted in South Africa. Through changes to the rape laws, the following factors will help prevent secondary victimization within rape cases:

1.       The rape victim’s sexual history may no longer be taken into account, which will prevent the victim from being seen in a prejudiced light.

2.       The fact that the victim had a promiscuous sexual history does not mean that the perpetrator is entitles to rape her.

3.       An apparent lack of physical injury may no longer be used as an excuse for the offender or as a sign that the victim was not in fact injured (not fighting might have saved her life). 

4.       The fact that there was a relationship between the rapist and the victim does not excuse the rape or imply that she consented to the act.

5.       The bill also counteracts duplication and delays, since victims will not have to repeat their testimony (secondary victimization).

6.       The bill seeks to expediate the finalization of serious criminal cases, especially those of a violent nature, to punish the perpetrator of serious offenses appropriately and to prevent the secondary victimization of complainants.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing rape to exist in this world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing rape to exist in this world due to the value that has been given to sex and pictures.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give value to sex and masturbation to such an extent that I will sometimes be overwhelmed by the energy until it directs me into action, just like the energy of a rapist that is moved and possessed by energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the justification of ‘but sex and masturbation is nothing like raping someone’ to exist within my mind, through which I will secretly continue fantasizing over pictures and other beings, hoping to have sexual relations with them and with the people in porn movies until the entity I create possesses me and directs me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the existence of porn movies, due to my inability to effectively express myself here in my physical body with another physical body, without requiring stimulus and the hidden meanings within my secret mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to turn sex into something disgusting based on dominance and the energy of fear, repulsion, erotica, arousal, through which I have tacitly agreed to the existence of the energy of the rapist within my mind and within society.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear sexually as the expression of myself, to such an extent that I have to turn sex into a perversion, through which I have agreed to all the countless forms of sexual abuse that is happening in the world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the idea that if a woman was dressed provocatively, she deserved to be raped.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing any pictures and ideas in my mind linked to rape, which causes and has caused me to get sexually aroused.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wait for governments to ‘do something about rape’ instead of me taking direct self-responsibility for rape in this world as parts of it exists within me as my mind, as pictures linked to desires.

I commit myself to stopping any and all forms of sexual abuse within myself towards myself and towards another

I commit myself to stopping the apparent need for governments to stop abuse in my world, by observing myself within who I have become to see how I am living out the designs of abuse within myself.

I commit myself to stopping sexual fantasies and secret mind desires – and to learn to effectively direct myself here in my physical body

I commit myself to self-honest self-expression within sex and to stop any form of sexual abuse within my relationship/agreement.

I commit myself to develop effective communication within myself about what I am experiencing and to direct my experiences in the breath, through self-honesty and common sense, to stop the energy entity build ups, which lead to eventual abuse in my life and this world, as what others will also come to accept as ‘sex’.

I commit myself to stop any and all forms of sexual abuse through the media and the acceptance of sexuality as it currently exists today.

I commit myself in stopping patterns of sexuality in which I exist that are not what is best for all.