Day 107: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Drug use Part 11

This blog is a continuation from:

Day 96: International Crime Research: Drug use Part 1

Day 97: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Drug use Part 2

Day 99: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Drug use Part 3

Day 100: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Drug use Part 4

Day 101: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Drug use Part 5

Day 102: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Drug use Part 6

Day 103: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Drug use Part 7

Day 104: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Drug use Part 8 

Day 105: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Drug use Part 9 

Day 106: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Drug use Part 10



Self-Corrective Statements:

I commit myself, to when and as I see myself going into my mind as pictures, fears and internal conversations, which are based on me not living here as my physical  - but accessing some information network/database about myself - then I stop, I delete all this information and I direct myself here, by immediately looking at how to practically move myself in social situations, without information moving, but me as a living expressive physical being, interacting here in self honesty with others.

I commit myself to delete pictures and ideas of what it means to be human, as I have come to realize that in attempting to live the pictures, words and ideas that we have currently given value to, we indeed only abuse ourselves repeatedly in the name of Ego, to support comparison, jealousy, and internal conflicts within ourselves,

therefore I commit myself to identify what my trigger points are meaning where throughout my life have I given value to an identity base on the value systems of society, whereby I would constantly have to try and fit into a specific picture and idea created by others, and by doing so,

I commit myself to, when and as I realize how I have abdicated living in my flesh to pictures and bubbles of information in my mind, to stop and realise that to free myself from these information shackles I have attached an identity to - is the key to living here fully in my body, free from internal conflicts that could or would come up as a result of me wanting to be something else, something more, something special

and that by stopping these internal emotional ideals of competing with others for specialness, I stop the pattern of self abuse within me, which clearly I see and realize did not serve me and was not the best I am able to be - as an addiction to a chemical bridge showed me for so long,

therefore

I commit myself to through the tool of writing adress the thoughts, internal conversations and pictures within my imagination, through which I fuelled this personality design between shy/withdrawn/socially-awkward to the personality on drugs which becomes effective/ communicative and stable - to understand how the separation was created by me, why I allowed it - to the self corrective point of standing as effective/ communicative and stable - to no longer be a slave to a idea that I am problematic and defective.

I commit myself to when I am in social situations where I start doubting how to communicate and express myself to realize that here I am in a situation where I could either get drawn back into my mind where I want to exist as the personality that will 'fit in' with the personalities at this social event - or I stop, breathe and realize that I am able to stand here in effective self living, to no longer participate in conversations that would require me to use drugs to enjoy - to no longer use words to please others and to no longer want to adapt my behaviour to fit into these social situations, if it is not me in self honest practical living, enjoying me here as my physical, moving myself in a directive principle that is best for all.

Therefore I commit myself that when and as I realize I will not become a personality through the use of drugs to fit into how society interact on the levels of the go and energy addictions - to stop the fears that come up around the point of 'what If I no longer belong' and to immediately stand equal and one to myself as life, to support only directive living that is best for all, and to realize that to exist in social situations that support only the mind as the ego - is not me as life, therefore if any fears come up;

I stop I breathe, I stand physically stable and I either continue to participate in effective self expression without competing and wanting to fit in by acting like others - or I make a decision to leave, and I simply look again at the point of what it is that I would like to participate in, what social situations/interactions woud support me and to then focus in the future on expressing myself where I see I would really enjoy myself, and to not fear letting go of the old personality designs I grew up believing I had to belong to.

Day 101: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Drug use Part 5

This blog is a continuation from:

Day 100: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Drug use Part 4

The Character Dimensions of 'the happiness-drug-user'

Example:

a person who uses drug like ecstasy in social environments with friends, to enhance self intimacy and intimacy with others. Allowing one, to feel more relaxed, open, sociable and to drop any fears around self-expression.

Now we will look at the character dimensions which is the real character behind why the person relies on a drug, and therefore the drug stands in as a character of comfortability, sociability and intimacy, instead of the individual becoming and living this as themselves, so by the end of the character dimensions - we will also look at why our society does not allow people to feel comfortable to expression ourselves.

First character dimension = let us look at the dimension of Fear - what the individual really fears about themselves and others, resulting in the 'need' of the use of a drug to change those aspects of self or the experience of self towards others in relation to their characters, expressions one actually fears:

In each self-forgiveness statement you will see that I have taken basic fears and expanded on the design, picture and ideas around the fears - by deconstructing the fear through self-forgiveness -

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear self expression, because as a child I was taught that certain facial expressions and physical movements are silly or stupid.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that a facial expression, contains and exists as an outward expression of an internal value system.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge certain behaviours as being childish, due to words used by my parents, condemning my actions as I grew up as being to childish or immature.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself when scolded by my parents for being childish, to react to the words by my parents and to then decide that I will change and act differently to not have my parents yell at me - therefore infusing this reaction into me, as a fear - which then later on becomes the reaction to my own behaviours, taking me into fear of self expression - where I will literally freeze in discomfort and self judgment as I access all old patterns, ideas and thought patterns around any form of expression feared by and through my parents.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that this idea that my parents have of facial expressions and behaviours is my fear of expression as well, passed down from generation to generation, as we label certain expressions/behaviours according to age groups - which I now realise really only serves the existence of the human surviving within the system - where a certain facial expression or body behaviour is seen to either serve your survival drive for that age group or not, and if one acts outside of ones accepted age behaviours, you are judged and forced to stop - as your survival expects of you to act differently,

therefore

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to attach money and survival to my facial expressions and behaviours, where I will actually yell at a child/person for expressing themselves a certain way - when I know that I am really just supporting the fears and backchat of the generations before me, who accepted the human being as an organic robot that must only present itself according to acceptable ways which slot in with how one is supposed to act in this world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to attached fears to physical behaviour, instead of allowing myself to freely express myself, free from judgments towards myself and the judgments I perceive others have of me which have become my own judgments - as I stop myself each time I am about to express myself 'incorrectly' through thoughts in my mind that tell me I am being inappropriate, immature or 'dumb'.

Fear dimension to be continued...

Day 55: Education Fraud Part 16 – Medicalization of the Education System Part 4 - Parents abusing Ritalin Part 2

This blog is a continuation from:

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/09/day-52-international-crime-research.html

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/09/day-53-education-fraud-part-14.html

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/10/day-54-education-fraud-part-15.html#



Parents abusing Ritalin Part 2

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as parent to fear losing control of my child

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge my child for being active/overactive/hyperactive or expressive to the point that causes me embarrassment or concern for him/her, our environment or the actions of the child within other environments such as school/groups/outings/shopping malls/play dates etc.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear what other parents will say about me and my ability to parent my child, if they see my child behaving strangely/excessively and/or different to the other children.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the system as schools and other authoritative figures lashing out at me, if my child behaves strangely/excessively in public places/towards others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to trust the opinions of 'authoritative figures', not realizing or considering that their profession exists from research connected to the acceptance of the human as we currently exist, which ties in with the capitalistic/economic survival of man, where we medicalize and label problems, simply to drive the economy and give the economy a chance to survive at the expense of the human experience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe the authoritative opinions, whom I have not considered do what they do, simply because they got degrees from the universities that presented the material, which supports the global economy - therefore the principle of 'human care' is not one of 'funding solutions' but to profit from the problems - therefore everything that comes from the 'authoritative figures' supports the survival of profit and therefore their methods are designed specifically to keep the child and parent trapped within a system of knowledge and information that has no outcome as what is best for all humanity, but to accept the human as lost and broken. That is why we are seeing more and more human behaviors being labeled into 'conditions' - this exists due to the creations of jobs/professions/skills of all that we encounter or experience, so that money can be made from all that is here - as people struggle to survive in the current economic system. Therefore all that is here - means that as the human allows more and more energetic mind possessions, the more the 'authorities' will label the behaviors into conditions, which can then be sold and turned into/medicalized into therapies/methods/courses which have to be paid for and always are about maintaining the human as something out of control, instead of teaching/educating the organic robot about self responsibility, self honesty and self forgiveness.

The following article is an example of the above statements - which I will expand on in future blogs:

http://www.canberratimes.com.au/technology/technology-news/screenaddicted-children-may-have-newest-mental-illness-20120929-26s7q.html

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto a picture of what a child must be and do and look like, equivalent to the children of his/her age

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself once my child does not match this picture that represents the majority of children in our society - to develop backchat as internal conversations about my child being different, naughty and how I must correct this problem.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the internal, backchat conversations towards others and my child in relation to the fear of 'what do the other mothers think of me', or 'what will become of my child as he/she grows up, if he/she carries on behaving like this'

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the emotions/feelings of annoyance, anger, rejection, love, acceptance, jealousy etc - to be the energetic driving force between seeing my child's behavior and deciding to act by giving the child drugs - as I am directed by emotions and feelings linked to values I have placed in relation to my child and how others view me through my child.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to change my physical behavior around my child, based on fear of loss, fear of making mistakes and fear of death - where my child's future is being equated by me, through how I perceive my child will be treated within the system, through their behaviors.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to direct the outcome of placing my child on drugs for any other reason, but a last practical consideration, when all other factors/methods have been considered or walked, where me placing my child on drugs is based on an energetic reaction, based on pictures, fears and backchat conversations within myself towards how I perceive my child will or is being treated and what I project the future outcome of the child's survival within the system will be.