Day 176: Living by the principle of self honesty Part 2

The rest of the 'Principled Living' series:

Day 143: From Criminal to Principled Living.

Day 144: Realising and Living my utmost potential part 1

Day 145: Realising and Living my utmost potential part 2

Day 147: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 1

Day 148: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 2

Day 150: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 3

Day 151: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 4

Day 154: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 5

Day 155: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 6

Continuing from:

Day 175: Living by the principle of self honesty Part 1

"Therefore, using self honesty allows oneself to set yourself back to zero so to speak where you give yourself the opportunity to see ones mis-takes, to align them to how you see you would like to speak/live/act, and this allows one next time to speak/live the correction. For example sticking to 'I spoke and then realized I did so out of fear'. Once I use self honesty to initially see that this was my starting point, then I either use writings (will explore more later) to open up the design of how I got to 'speaking out of fear' and all of its various dimensions - which if un-cleared/undirected will keep the point existent in the mind, which will simply mutate itself into new patterns/behaviours. Therefore self honesty does not merely stop at the point where one goes 'oh I spoke there out of fear' - it allows one as I mentioned to look deeper into all the 'puzzle pieces' so to speak of this one design. For example 'speaking out of fear' - if I use writing or immediate investigation within myself (method 2) I will find the design aspects such as childhood memories/experiences, emotions, people involved, reasons, excuses, justifications, wants, desires etc…"

As an example - lets say with 'talking from fear', I realized that this habit came from a childhood memory where I was in class and the teacher started yelling at me accusing me of cheating on my homework and that I wrote down the answers from a piece of paper on her table etc etc. In that moment I knew that I did not cheat and did not write the answers down and experience bewilderment, embarrassment because all the kids now believed I am a chat, I experience anger and mistrust that a teacher would do this and so forth. All of these experiences as 'puzzle pieces' imprinted into my mind as a fear of communication , -where in the mind this experience was now used as a reference point as I started growing up. Therefore in similar situations where someone would ask me about the validity of what I have done, I immediately go into fear and access all of those points of anger and resentment, which throughout my life cause secondary consequences.

For example lets say further in my life I created conflict situations because now I from fear and resentment at being questions, attack people verbally or try and cut them short without explanation etc. This in itself as time goes by, as I am sure we are all able to relate - will compound into secondary patterns, where the conflict now grows further into fear around communicating with people. Eventually the mind builds coping mechanisms such as lying when confronted or avoiding jobs with greater responsibility because of the fear behind being held accountable or fear of confrontation. This furthermore creates consequences where to avoid having to communicate about certain points to people I see as authority, I will lie and then if I get caught in the lie, I will blame my actions on another person, which then leads to an authoritative personality to avoid people questioning why I think I can blame others. Therefore my personalities get louder and more abrasive and I find myself becoming a 'harder person' who others will 'fear' confronting or questioning. So here fr example the mind will build a fear creating personality to not have to face the fear within self….

So you see how one childhood experience can expand in the mind over the years into adult patterns/behaviours. And as time goes by we contribute new layers to the original pattern - all because of the minds inherent nature to protect itself - and therefore it adapts. So if one did not pick up on this behaviour - then think how differently conversations would turn out - the outcome would be a very different story then the truth behind what is really going on. And this is why we as humanity are habitually acting constantly out of self interest in the way we speak, act and think - because we have never really been taught the ability to be self honest about who we are and are never effectively taught methods of how to direct experiences, this mostly being due to the fact that nobody has actually assessed whether these experiences we call 'being human' or normal human behaviours is actually what is best. Therefore, in our child-programming platforms such as classrooms, childhood social setups, home environments, the effects of media, television, music on the development of children etc - all of these experience shaping platforms are all seen as 'normal' and 'acceptable' where we don’t trace the problems to these institutions.

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Self honesty though, is also a choice and not a choice lol let me explain. Self honesty always exists - you are always what you are. I would say that 2 forms of self-honesty exist. If I have nasty thoughts about myself then I can tell you 'I have ugly thoughts about myself' - this is me being self honest. But then there is being honest about who self really is - the best self can be - and therefore by saying 'I have ugly thoughts about myself is not self honest - it is in fact self dishonesty - I am not honouring myself. So initially - when one starts to walk the process of 'self honesty - what I have found is that one goes through the initial phase of revealing to self everything that exist inside of self, ones true thoughts, feelings, emotions, behaviours, feelings, possessions etc. Then one starts looking at what is it that I would like to live as 'my utmost potential', as that which is best for me, which is what is best for all - and this is where one becomes 'self honest'.

I could continue to live blissfully unaware of my words, thoughts and deeds and create a life for myself where I seek out in every moment to be the best, feel the best, live my utmost potential - in the world system, where the emphasis is on personal self-interest, or in self honesty I know that I cannot say the world is 'messed up' if I don’t start addressing me in the global soup of messed upness lol...

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Day 174: The Paranormal Series part 35 - Demons vs. Angels part 22

This blog is a continuation from:

Day 149: The Paranormal Series Part 13 – Demons vs. Angels part 1

Day 152: The Paranormal Series Part 14 – Demons vs. Angels part 2

Day 153: The Paranormal Series part 16 - Demons vs. Angels part 3

Day 156: The Paranormal Series part 17 - Demons vs. Angels part 4

Day 157: The Paranormal Series part 18 - Demons vs. Angels part 5

Day 158: The Paranormal Series part 19 - Demons vs. Angels part 6

Day 159: The Paranormal Series part 20 - Demons vs. Angels part 7

Day 160: The Paranormal Series part 21 - Demons vs. Angels part 8

Day 161: The Paranormal Series part 22 - Demons vs. Angels part 9

Day 162: The Paranormal Series part 23 - Demons vs. Angels part 10

Day 163: The Paranormal Series part 24 - Demons vs. Angels part 11

Day 164: The Paranormal Series part 25 - Demons vs. Angels part 12

Day 165: The Paranormal Series part 26 - Demons vs. Angels part 13

Day 166: The Paranormal Series part 27 - Demons vs. Angels part 14

Day 167: The Paranormal Series part 28 - Demons vs. Angels part 15

Day 168: The Paranormal Series part 29 - Demons vs. Angels part 16

Day 169: The Paranormal Series part 30 - Demons vs. Angels part 17

Day 170: The Paranormal Series part 31 - Demons vs. Angels part 18

Day 171: The Paranormal Series part 32 - Demons vs. Angels part 19

Day 172: The Paranormal Series part 33 - Demons vs. Angels part 20

Day 173: The Paranormal Series part 34 - Demons vs. Angels part 21

"So again the reason why I share this part of my story is to show the developmental phase of myself as I was trying to turn myself into a worker of god, a doer of good. This exists in all of us, the inherent desire to be able to either live out our angelic self or express our demonic self. So this yearning of mine was obviously quite apparent for me to have walked the path I did in create this right hand of God personality lol. Obviously years later as I started investigating myself and my past - I realized that again, as with all religions this was my way of trying to empower myself. To try and make myself more than my fears and more than my actual life, the reality of my life which was starting me in the face every day…" 

This following of positive experiences to avoid the negative experiences within myself was how I lived most of my life up until around the age of 28. I wrote about most of my experiences in a book, but to summarise I would like this blog to emphasis what I am saying about what I realized about all the years floating in between light worker god's right hand person to demon possessed rebellion. Most people, as I am sure you are able to relate express addiction to positive experiences in for example consumerism, family, romance, relationships, friendship, careers, having children, socialising etc and equally so with express negative experiences in this like jealousy, competition, anger, nastiness, gossiping etc - all types of characters that we can feel come up within us, usually in cycles that fuel themselves between the positive to negative poles of the polarity.

In society we have come to accept all forms of these expressions as acceptable - the positive ones we obviously enjoy and actively seek and usually go hand in hand with what money and resources one have available. The positive polarities also exist within us as our inherent emotional mind designs. These also come up inside of us as part of our mind consciousness system designs. For example a husband and wife will 'fall in love' with all the positive feelings and thoughts that go with that and a year after getting married will start having what we call 'backchat' or internal conversations about each other, set in negative patterns such as 'fucking idiot why cant he put down the toilet seat' or 'why cant she just let me watch my rugby and have my beer, she is always nagging. ' Eventually these couples end up 10 years down the line, sarcastically referring to each other at parties in derogatory terms such as ' the old bag' or 'the old fart' - all words that seem funny enough on the surface, but underneath we know these words are loaded with years and years of resentment and habitual patterns crammed into one name.

My experiences were extreme in a way because I really went to the opposite polarity of allowing myself to become possessed by my darkest demonic self - literally and figuratively. Therefore on the surface for those who have read my story - it might appear 'out there' - as any person would experience a slight shock or bemusement at hearing that someone has been demons possessed. But actually if I look at it, I see my experience as no different to the possessions we see around us every day. Only difference is we have not labelled positivity possessions or negativity possessions in any particular way, and seems to 'mollycoddle' each others behaviour in society. When we hear about a husband stabbing his wife to death because she 'pissed him off' - we raise our eyebrows because we think 'shit, that got out of hand' but really most of our lives are simply drawn out time lines of events where we focus on seeking positive experiences to avoid negative experiences and in doing so - we polarise between the two - which means they become dependent on each other and thus we keep creating the negative to have the positive.


This I found years ago when I asked but why would we want to keep capitalism the same way if we see how much death and suffering it causes each day - and here I reminded myself of how trapped I was in my cycle of self punishment - how I perceived life as experiences one must have and attain, where one battles against the bad. Therefore in Capitalism, the excuses will always be that life is about learning about ourselves, and who would we be if we did not know suffering and blah blah blah. Really just possessed by allowing each other suffering and pain, for what? So that we can maybe possibly at some short stage in our lives have a short burst of happiness? While in-between we fear the next day, fear having to pay our bills, fear that some maniac will drive into us, fear that our partner will leave us and most people currently do come face to face with what society in general consider to be worst case scenarios.

There are the elite few that make up a small percentage of the world population, but the rest of the population are constantly subject to survival. With survival we have come to accept the seeking of the good to over rise the fear and pain. Is this really how we want to live our lives? Is this really what we want to bring our children into - generation after generation will be born from our off- spring and we are bringing them into world where we live to survive - and that is it. Unless of course you are one of the lucky Elite -but don’t count on it. So - unfortunately I had to place myself through hell, to get to a point of saying STOP - enough. Then from that I realised that playing games with human (or any) lives as part of some sick survival mechanism of the human race, which we call evolution, or competition or 'reaching our fullest potential' or whatever -is just not Life. So yes I put myself through that, but came out sober. Unfortunately now we are in the 'demonic phase' of humanity, and lets see how bad we let things get until we say stop.

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Day 78: International Crime Research: The Psychology of Crimes Against Life: Heuristics Part 3: Availability Heuristic

This blog is a continuation from: The Psychology of Crimes Against Life: Heuristics Part 2

The Availability Heuristic: "Another cognitive rule of thumb, suggesting that the easier it is to bring information to mind, the greater the impact on judgments or decisions."

An example would be, where from childhood parents teach a child to accept their value systems, beliefs, ideas and ways of living within the world, just like the parents accepted how their parents lived based on what was copied from their parents. Therefore, what we are seeing within the world, is that generations within families exist as the copying of information and ways of living. How many times, have each one of us cringed when we were younger when our parents forced us to go to church, or to watch the television shows/sports that they wanted to watch/play or to see the world the way they did. As a child, I have observed, we tend to more clearly immediately create a 'reaction or resistance to the education of our parents, because more often than not the child has not yet develop such a level of brainwashing that they become the brainwashing. That is why children more often will rebel against or question the ways of the parents and it is only until much later as the child gives into the influences and discipline of the parent, educators and societal 'authority figures' - that they too adapt themselves to forms of belief and ways of living that they then call 'their own'.

That is how we develop into adults who are simply going along with - you could say the 'availability heuristic' - where for our childhood development phase, we were constantly bombarded through parental and educational manipulation with specific belief system and values - until -- tada! - we 'become adults' and we too apparently loose the ability to question our reality and the rules and values set out within society. This is due to many factors - one of them being our fear of survival. As children we are constantly manipulated into conforming and being 'obedient' through threats of not getting taken care of and subtle threats of death/punishment or not having a place to stay, if we dont do what the parents want us to do. Therefore we come into this world firstly as a child - as a physical expression, learning and adapting to our environment and from there - within and through the parental system, we are taught the same survival mechanisms our parents were taught, which is done from the starting point of Fear of Loss/Fear of Survival.

Therefore as we have all learnt - that to live in this world one has to take certain steps to survive. This survival is not only equal to monetary survival, although who one becomes and how one behaves will lead to ones position in the world - which is directly linked to the economic bracket one will then fit into. Therefore from a humanistic mental survival point of view - we are taught since childhood to adapt our way of thinking to that of the more 'mainstream' ways of thinking, feeling, believing and behaving. Therefore one adapts oneself by observing how society thinks and behaves and within this the tendency of most is to not 'go against the grain' but to move with the flow of 'Life on this planet' as one wants to experience friendships, relationships and the all the comforts that human society can offer the human - as we are designed by nature to seek self validation, or self-fulfillment - which we are also taught from young, to find within 'who we become, what we do, what we participate in and how others view us'. Instead of teaching our children, for example to find Self within Self as Self - meaning to realize that we are already here in a physical body, born into a physical reality equal and one from the same substance - we are trained instead within the Mind, to separate ourselves through Fear to seek acceptance of self through separating Self into Mental-Realities which are based on Energy.

Therefore, we adapt Mind-Systems to filter information on how we are to live and behave such as the 'Availability Heuristic', which is basically a predetermined system of guidelines which allows one through time to constantly be told the same set of values, beliefs and ways of thinking - and from there adapting this 'system' to support one in immediately within our role within society, to be able to 'call forth' how to best behave within the context of fitting in and belonging within 'human-society' - without stopping and considering whether the way we have been living and the values we have given Life, as seen through History is truly what is Best.

Next: Thought, Internal Conversations/Backchat/Voices in the Head, Imagination, Reaction, Behavior and Fear Dimensions.


Thought dimension: A picture of me happily married with a successful guy, with anice house and accepted by my peers.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to grow up accepting all of my family's ways of speaking, living, believing, thinking, acting and living life - without considering that in that moments where I 'cringed at having to change/adapt/revert my behavior to fit into how my parents expected me to be' - I was actually already showing myself that I was developing to become different within who I am as my expression and therefore to be forced by another to change me without actual evidence that the way of living that is expected of me is what is best for me - and that this is showing me that my family is existent within fear based survival patterns.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to instead of standing by my own directive principle by honoring my own decisions, to accept the rules and pressures placed on one through family, the education system, society and authoritative figures - as I separate me from me as I go further into my mind, where I exist at the mercy of how i perceive others perceive me and where I have from childhood developed a fear of not being accepted - and thus from these fears and desires -direct myself into the same pattern, where i placed the outcome of the accepted pattern into and as a picture-thought - according to which I will live my desires to be able to obtain this 'way of living'.

I commit myself to stop and delete thoughts as pre-programmed outcomes based on predetermined sets of values/ways of living according to the greater system of functioning, by self forgiving the thought-constructs after identifying where I created it and what it is connected to.

Within this

I commit myself and am able to identify the origin of a thought and whether it is really me making the decision, living for myself within what is best for me as life, or a pre-determined life decision from those who have gone before me, which is always based on some form of separation from myself as the physical, in self trust as myself as the physical - into the Mind.


Internal Conversations/Backchat/Voices in the Head, Imagination, Reaction, Behavior and Fear Dimension in the next 'The Psychology of Crimes against Life' Blog...


Source:

 Baron R, Branscombe N, Byrne D. Social Psychology. Boston: USA. 2009. Print.

Day 74: International Crime Research: The Psychology of Crimes Against Life: Heuristics Part 1

This past year, one of my Psychology undergraduate subjects was 'Social Psychology'. As part of this Blog series I will apply self-Forgiveness on all te Personality-Character Designs within 'Social Psychology, which have all been accepted as 'the way we are' and 'human nature' - where not even within Psychology or these Psychology textbooks, is mention ever made, that these accepted Personality-Character designs are actually the foundation of how we Live and become Abusers of life on this planet.

Thus far I have been walking the Series on The Character Design of Serial Killers, where I draw a comparison between the Mind of 'Serial Killers' and the Mechanics of the Mind of your average 'Human'. I decided to walk the two series' parallel to each other, which is actually quite specific, as walking the 'Social Psychology Series' will indeed assist in connecting the dots between the Psychology of a Serial Killer and the same Mind-Mechanics of 'The Human' as Abuser of Life.

"Social Psychology: The Scientific field that seeks to understand the nature and causes of individual behavior and thought in social situations."

Heuristics: 

According to the Social Psychology Textbook Heuristics are "simple rules for making complex decisions or drawing inferences in a rapid manner and seemingly effortless". You get the following types of Heuristics:

1. Representativeness Heuristic: "a strategy for making judgments based on which the extent to which current stimuli or events resemble other stimuli or categories" (Social Psychology 46). An example would be meeting a person for the first time, and noticing that her clothing style is rather conservative, neat and orderly - and through this you connect her clothing style to other people whom you have seen wearing the same thing, and from this you try and assume who this person could be and the profession he/she follows - therefore conservative, neat, orderly could be school teacher, librarian, business manager. The extent to which we take this 'association-program' exists within the confinement of associating values to people and things and accordingly also programming into this association all kinds of judgments as likes and dislikes. Take this one step further and you are looking at the human as an example or an organic robot, where we program all new events and experiences into our Mind according to predetermined values. This is how we categorize our world, not according to how things are, but according to energy system - wherein we assign values to people and things, based on how we experience ourselves in the presence of these predetermined values. For example in the case of 'school teacher, librarian, business manager' - the labeling effect included basing our own judgments into these labels, as mentioned previously according to how we experienced ourselves when around 'school teachers, librarians, business managers'. This would mean that when we are meeting a new person, and make the connection according to his/her way of dressing, speaking or their life style - and we allow this automatic program to 'kick in' and through this automatically react by 'making a decision about the person' we are directly allowing ourselves to not experience life and each other and this physical reality as it is, directly by observing this as they are - but we filter through pre-programmed likes and dislikes.

If one observes the world today - this heuristic is seen everywhere as we judge each other according to what we wear, where we went to school, the economic bracket we live within, the type of car we drive, our choice of lifestyle, our physical characteristics, career etc. In the background we have from young been indoctrinated into believing that who we are is dependent on how we speak, look and appear to others. Therefore the consumerism market plays on the fact that from young, people are projecting their self worth into and onto other 'things', 'concepts' and 'people' such as celebrities and our accomplishments and 'status' in life. Within this nobody questions whether this is truly what is best for man, because everybody who teachers this projection of self through things and people, have come to accept the consumeristic nature of our existence. Even when realizing that Capitalism thrives from this human internal battle, through selling us through whatever means possible, our 'self-worth and 'self-acceptance', we go as far as supplying instant justifications that we are doing so to keep 'the economy supported'.

Most act according to this Representativeness Heuristic through the belief one grew up within, that self is and has always been dependent on others. That is why religion is shoved down our throats - even if one considers that a child is born not knowing of gods and things like beauty vs. ugly - but soon is indoctrinated into all these beliefs and made to live it, or is reminded that self will not be acceptable to others and that you will 'go nowhere in life' if you dont 'fit in'. I remember from my own childhood experience, my mother tried to support me within her own frame of reference by always reminding me to walk tall, wear nice clothing, do not chew my nails and dont swear so much'...or you wont meet a nice man who will want to marry you. Here we as the parents are copying the 'representativeness heuristic' style of programming that our parents designed us into as young organic robots - and we merely repeat the cycle - not once asking ourselves whether this is really what we want to be - a de-manned version of man, separated always into billions of personalities seeking 'self-value' through the 'experience' (energy) of self through the eyes and words of others.

Next I will walk examples of the components of the 'Representativeness Heuristic' Character/Personality in the Mind, consisting of the dimensions of Fear, Thought, Imagination, Backchat/Internal Conversations, Reactions (emotions/feelings) and also a Behavioural System.

For more information on the Character Dimensions: http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/09/character-dimensions-introduction-day.html

Thought Dimension: "Here, the Thought will be the ONE point that would activate the Representativeness Heuristic Character. The Thought can be in the form of an image/picture and/or Memory/past experience that would relate to activating the Representativeness Heuristic Character.

Thought as Image: Myself wearing old, frumpy clothes with ugly hair.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the Thought as image/picture to automatically come up within my Conscious-Mind of me wearing old, frumpy clothes with ugly hair, that I in this forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how I am in that moment accepting and allowing ONE THOUGHT coming up automatically within my Conscious Mind to determine, define who I am in my relationship to myself.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that i made a decision when I programmed this image into and as myself, whereby I now deliberately set a trap, so to speak for myself as a picture that 'comes up within the mind' whereby I fall into this old trap, in which I go down the same road of emotions, feelings and physical behavioral changes, and within this

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to therefore, limit myself to a picture that in any given moment may come up and sieze my mind, from which point I allow myself to be taken directly into the other pre-programmed dimensions, whereby I am limiting myself into and as a pre-designed reactive state, all based on value systems I have imprinted into and as this one image.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imprint into this one image the value system of 'ugly, not worthy and should be ignored, which were all value system I allowed myself to think about other people, which means that in that moment as I thought that about another, i gave permission to this value system of judgment, whereby I condemn myself and others to this energy system, which i trap myself into as a slave to this design.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that this energy value system i imprinted into and as this 'image' is not real, and only exist as the ugly nature of the human Psyche that exists for energy and therefore,

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed this energy system to exist within me, even though in self honesty I am able to see, realize and understand that by sheer connotation, this system is abuse to myself and other and I therefore delete it from myself as I realize it does not serve anybody or thing in this physical reality and has always only served the ego, which harms Life for its own embellishment.

I commit myself, that when as as I see this image in my mind as a thought that is already in motion, that is about to trigger me into my pattern, to stop participation in the Thought, by taking a breath, letting go of any energy-physical buildups, and to remain here within my physical body.

I commit myself that when I am faced with an image of myself in a photo or mirror and at any point a thought moves in relation to what I am seeing, to stop, breathe and remain committed to supporting myself within physical practicality, to direct my decision about for example clothing etc, always in relation to what is practical and supports the physical body.



Imagination, Internal Conversations/Backchat/Voices in the Head, Reaction, Behavior and Fear Dimensions to follow...



 Baron R, Branscombe N, Byrne D. Social Psychology. Boston: USA. 2009. Print.