Day 177: Transforming Family Dynamics: Sibling Relationships

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Day 29: International Crime Research – Child Pornography Part 13

This is a continuation from:

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-28-international-crime-research.html

Please refer to: Day 24: International Crime Research – Child Pornography Part 8 for background information, on how and why I will be walking the characters of Criminals/Offenders.



To recap: the following blog is written from the perspective of familiarizing myself one and equal with the mind, character and personality of someone who watches/consumes child pornography. By walking equal to the mind of the user, I am able to draw from it, the contributing factors from the initial thought to the decision that is made to watch child pornography and how the mind is further fueled through backchat and behaviors, until in time, the characteristic is defined and directs the being into action, through an accumulation of memories, thoughts and experiences. What follows is specific self-forgiveness on the characteristics within the write-up.

Pedophile Character: Man who watches child porn as a substitute for women/men

“ Growing up I had difficulty around woman, I always found myself from about the age of 11 onwards, to be aware that girls are different to boys and from what I had read and been told by my older brother – apparently girls would one day be a very important part of my life. Becoming a teenager, I brought with me the memory of pictures I had seen in porn magazines and ‘adult education’ books – where a man meets a woman, takes her to dinner and bangs her brains out. According to romantic novels he might later on marry her.


When I reached pubescence I developed acne and no matter what creams my mother bought me, I would always have red marks and pimples on my face. By the age of 15, I knew that I was interested in girls and like most boys my age developed masturbation fantasies around girls in my school. I remember the one day I was sitting in class and I heard the girls sitting at the table behind me, talking about me. Shelly was asking Valerie whom she was going to invite to her birthday party. Shelly would mention people in the class’ names and Valerie would respond with a ‘yes’, ‘no’ or some personal insult to clarify her discontent towards that boy or girls and the reason why they definitely would not be invited to her birthday party. I was following their conversation, because I was intrigued to know whether I would be invited to this party. The only other parties I had been to were that of my guys friends and I had never been invited by a girl to one of their birthday parties. That seemed like something that was reserved for the semi popular/cool or attractive guys. The nerd were only invited by other nerds and nobody paid any attention to who was being invited to their parties. This in itself caused a tingle in my belly, as I knew that being invited to Valerie’s party would mean the beginning of this phase where we now start treating each other in different context’s then mere ‘children’. As Shelly whispered my name my stomach tightened and I unconsciously held my breath. From all the nasty comments I heard Valerie make about some of the other boys and girls, I couldn’t help but wish that she would magically see me as someone cool enough to get invited to her shindig. Shelly whispered my name and Valerie’s response was ‘gross’. Shelly spurted out a short giggle and both girls tried to suppress their laughter into their hands before they continued onto the next unsuspecting victim. An ice-cold rod shot up my spine into my neck and face and a cold flash crept its way into my belly – as my worst fear had been realized: I was ugly and the girls hated me.


During my teenage years the girls mostly ignored me and I learnt to accept that I was not handsome or cool enough for the girls I liked. By the age of 17 I dated a girl for a few months but she wanted to wait for sex after marriage so I did not score and therefore felt even more withdrawn from this reality that I felt I was supposed to be in with the other young men, bragging about their girlfriends and whether they scored with them or not. So I distracted myself during breaks to not have to watch and be part of the socialization of the horny teenagers outside, and followed my interest, which was to play on the computers in the library. I developed an interest in computer programming and after graduating I studied to become a computer programmer.


By the age of 19 I fell in love with a girl, who after 6 months decided to sleep with one of the guys I worked with. I was furious – as I treated her like a queen and spent all my hard earned cash on her. After that relationship I met Lucinda, a girl who worked in the office next to me. We fell in love and got married when I was 23. We were married for 4 years during which time – we fell out of love, as we realized that our interests changed and she was too attached to her family. When I was offered a job in another city she cried and said that she could not leave her family, whom she was very close to -so we stayed. I became increasingly irritated with her from that point on and started seeing her for what she was – a weak minded girl who was to afraid to be away from her family even though she was now married. My resentment turned into spitefulness – she wanted to try for a baby – and I said ‘ I was not ready’. This went of for two more years as I continued to lie about why we could not yet have a baby – she was suffocating me by restricting my choices in life I would do the same to her. We started fighting about everything – money, family, friends, babies, and careers – eventually we both acted from spitefulness whenever we had a chance. I noticed in our arguments that her family must have been fueling her resentment towards me for not ‘being ready’ to have a baby – as she would let slip ‘well you know my sister thinks that…’ This fueled my resentment as I made a decision one day to just ‘ignore the bitch’.



We started leading separate lives – she spent most of her time with her family and I spent all my time on the Internet surfing gaming sites and utilizing porn as a substitute for my wife. I would use porn extensively to masturbate while Lucinda was visiting her family. Sex obviously became a massive problem – as I knew that she was trying for a baby and I did not want to start a family with this woman. I worked in a dead end job for a basic salary, where as all the jobs I could apply for, I could not, as I knew she would not be willing to move away. Each time we discussed potential job opportunities she would start crying about me not loving her and her sick father needing her and blah, blah, blah.


After another year Lucinda tells me one day out of the blue – that she has been seeing another man, whom she works with, and that she is pregnant. The shock hit me so hard that I simply sat there starring at her. Then the shock mutated into rage as I realized that yet again I was deceived by a woman into giving up my life and getting nothing for it. I moved out of our apartment into a small one bedroom apartment on the other side of town – closer to my work. This is where I spent the rest of my time – from work I come home and I surfed the web, playing games until late at night. I used porn sites as I had done before, but now that I was living alone for the first time in years, combined with this seething rage – I started looking for specific porn. Rape porn and sadomasochism – were the only forms of pornography that gave me release. I enjoyed watching woman being abused and eventually only used hardcore porn sites.


From there due to the types of websites I was already using, I found my mind constantly chasing me to find more and more absurd and hardcore porn. I would feel a rush of power as I masturbated to these scenes where woman were being hurt, embarrassed, mutilated. My thoughts when alone at home were always around which new category of porn I could investigate. I went through various sites and then I came across child pornography. The sensation as I flicked through some of the images were triggered by thoughts linked to sheer vengeance towards my ex wife and the baby that she wanted to have with another man – and how she wanted what she wanted without giving me what I wanted. The child before my eyes as a victim to what I could do – became the new source of hatred I used to feed this frenzy I constantly felt around the desire to masturbate. I watched child porn while I masturbated not because I found the children attractive – but the sense power overwhelmed me. In that my mind developed new thoughts, new sensations in my body as my addiction used my rage to fuel itself. After using child pornography for years – I could no longer tell the difference between a normal sexual attraction to a woman and this link I had created between my anger and the rush I felt from watching child pornography. To me sexual pleasure was derived from my secret reality I could access on the internet.”

If you read the story above – you will notice how the abuser's mind works in layering of information over time – in which the person has an initial experience or thought and from there uses backchat as thinking to fuel further development into the point. So looking at memories – we see here that each time we experience something we store the experience in the mind as memory. Then at a later point one uses the memory in ones current experiences to compare how one will now face the current experience one is in. Therefore for an abuser for example – one is looking at a character that is created from layers and layers of memories – each one fueling the current experience – until the current experience is then existent as memories with the latest information of how the person experiences themselves. The original personality design of the person, as one can observe in the story, creates the initial foundation point from which the person starts building their experiences. A person, who is for example pre-designed as the personality construct of sexually addictive, will develop and build more specific sexual addictions around the experiences they have had. Add to that the tendency as personality to distance oneself from responsibilities or problems one is facing, together with the personality of ‘blame’ – and one has a specific character design that comes together as seen in the example above. Add to that all the likes, dislikes, fears, behaviors and other patterns already existent from childhood – and you have the makings of a character – whom to the next person might appear absurd or even strange -but look for yourself; each design element – one could call it of the character of pedophile, is a combination of thousands of minor factors, that once glued together as the ACCEPTANCE and ALOWANCE of the individual, becomes them in their totality and appears to the individual to be normal as ‘who they are’.



 in the example above, if one starts walking the time line of how he designed himself, one can see that as a young man he was faced with desire for recognition based on the value system he was taught from his parents, the media, his peers and siblings on what it means to be a man or a woman and at what stage one should start showing an interest in girls. Here the person stepped into a pre-designed role which was designed through society – into what is the acceptable human experience and that if he is to be a ‘normal’ young man’ he would follow the character of being accepted by the opposite sex. As humans, for example we are trained from young to fit into these sexual identities or characters and are also taught that to accept oneself you have to be accepted within the role that is predetermined for you by society. This is the first step into character – as we believe we should become what others have hinted or directly told us to become through ways of education. We are also taught, that if we do not manage to become the character set out for us, then there is something wrong with us, and then we are also through the education given to us by our parents, educated on how to react emotionally and behaviorally if we are unsatisfied with our experience. What a dichotomy we have created – we create rules according to what it means to be human , and then we create emotional dis-stress if we cannot fulfill those roles -through which we furthermore fuck ourselves into the role of victim to our own victimization. All humans complain about how uncomfortably it is to be depressed, sad, angry, secluded, worried etc as an experience of ourselves if we do not meet the standards of society – and yet nobody is willing to change those standard -fascinating how the human is a sucker for punishment.


This young man was faced as we all have - with the multidimensional nature of himself within who he believed he should be. This was then contradicted by how the girls responded to him – based on the characters they had come to accept themselves as, within the world and societal systems. His reactions to how he was treated was programmed by him as the memories together with the feelings, emotions and thoughts he had in that moment – into and as himself as a dimension of himself. He then throughout his life added experiences to this character until it became his personality – where in the end the pedophile is acting from these dimensions in which he has programmed the layers of information about his life experiences.


So – even though I have only walked the characters of two pedophiles –realize – as you can see from yourself if you were to place yourself in the ‘shoes’ or ‘character’ of a pedophile – that thousand of different pedophile characters exist in this world –as each person develops him/herself differently according to different memories. Each one’s life experiences and pre-programming is different, which results in each character being slightly different. The key here however – is to see, realize and understand the complexity of how the mind created the ‘here’ of who I am – based on the accumulation of moments as memories and by storing the information into and as the mind – where we have become the living manifestation of memories – which are our characters as we try and live out the past experiences. This is how the mind as the conscious, subconscious and unconscious functions – it is a machine that uses memories to imprint who and what the mind should be based on the value system we give the memory in the moment. And the minute we go into the mind and participate in the ‘here’ moment which is simplistically me here in my body, breathing and participating in my world – and I shift into the mind and participate in reality through my mind – by seeing a and experiencing ‘here’ as any value system laden with information – then I am programming me into and as a memory. Now my next moment will be the same – where I am constantly shifting from one mind dimension to the next as I move through the layers of information that were implanted into me as my childhood memories where my parents and teachers started brainwashing my moments by giving them information values – where I now constantly move through dimensions in the mind to access the characters of me I want or need to me here – based on all the layers of information I had already programmed before. So my character now becomes a memory regurgitator as I attempt to live out the good memories or avoid the bad memories.



As you can see from the example of the pedophiles -and this is applicable to ALL of us – not just the ‘criminal/offender’ - is that his experience became that of trying to either run away from bad memories – by aligning his characters to new choices that would allow him to avoid pain/humiliation – or he made his character choices based on the memories of what he had come to believe to be ‘good/happy times’ – and so he moved into the character of seeking happiness and fulfillment. What eventually happens is we create many characters as combination of the two polarities –because we are constantly trying to adjust our characters to avoid pain and experience happiness. Each time we shift into a new character, we compiled from all the memories that we were satisfied contained ‘positive experiences’ – either from our own past or from what we saw others having – we are running into new variables as obviously our environment and other people and such factors will not go according to our plan – but will again force us to shift into new characters by either attempting to change our character to avoid that point or by forcing change in our environment/others.


So what can we tell about the pedophile as the character he has become? As you can see the individual is not really sexually attracted to a child – as a practical physical, sexual expression point with another consenting individual with whom you are sexually fairly compatible with. No - The individual is sexually ‘attracted’ – because his character in that moment is loaded with information based on past events that have now symbolically come together to play out as the pedophile. This individual believes he is attracted to the child – because he believes the end result of the character – however as observers we can see that there are multi dimension and layers to who this individual is as ‘pedophile’. His/her character exists as a layer of information starting with how he was programmed as a young man – and from there be designed himself as character in reaction to what he experienced in his world. The mind in that way is ‘simplistic by nature’ in that it takes moments and imprints it into itself and the symbolic value given to that memory. Due to how the mind functions as a character in relation to the other characters – we can see that the mind function to continuously adapt and change the character to be able to survive between all the other characters we have all come to accept.


So this manifestation of the pedophile for example, merely shows us the multidimensional nature of ourselves and how we really are the creators of ourselves. Therefore to truly understand the mind of for example ‘the pedophile’ – it is necessary for one to walk the time line of this being’s design -how his character was created. Only then can one delete the character – as one takes self responsibility for the parts of the character – by looking into the dimension into which he/she shifted when he/she experienced the information – and by deleting the dimension by bringing it here and applying self forgiveness on the dimension.


So the solution for example is not to say ‘stop being a pedophile’ as remember in the background you could say – running on automatic is the individuals mind creating characters automatically – I mean if this was not the case – we would not be seeing any person–which when dissected has a time line of information placement points which then equates to an end result. These end results we have come to call human and human personalities. For us to stop the world characters of abuse in all it millions of forms we have to go to who is implementing and doing the abuse – the human. Therefore we have identified that the human is the character that is applying abuse on this planet. Now to understand how we all abuse and allow abuse -we go into the character one has become as the abuser – to understand how the character was created – and by doing this we delete the memories that hold the vast networks of information which all come together to create ‘my current character’.


Please realize that even thought I basically write out an entire life story for this individual – I am still only touching on maybe 10 to 20 memories that made up the character of the offender. This is merely an example I am walking for each offender. Realize that there are millions upon millions of moments from birth that are imprinted into the mind as memory – which later became the present day character of the individual. Therefore in my example I bring across the childhood memories, the feelings, emotions, thoughts, behaviorisms, the DNA, the environmental influences, the cultural programing etc. This is not even touching on the Soul Construct Design of the individual according to how the Soul Construct use to work – as who they being was designed to be this life time before they were even placed into their human life. This in itself is a vast topic and does not require of us to go into to understand our characters now – because all we need to understand and see -is how we designed our characters from childhood – and in that we have sufficient data on the character we are now.


In my next Blog I will apply Self-Forgiveness and Self-Commitment Statements on the Character above.


(Please note that in my blog I use fictional characters, stories and names)

Further Reading:

Stepping out of Character

Stepping out of Character with 'Loves Ones'

Creating Character

The only real Character

The Reincarnation Character

Character Charting to Discover the Real Me

Lightworker Chart and Charter

And God created Slaves

Matter of Opinion

It is my Opinion...

The Secret Mind

Day 15: International Crime Research - Bi-Polar Disorder and Violent Crimes Part 8

This is a continuation from:


http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/06/day-14-international-crime-research-bi.html

Self-Forgiveness part 6


Bipolar Disorder and Family.

Please refer to Day 9: International Crime research - Bi-Polar Disorder and Violent Crimes Part 2  for background information on Family Dynamics and Environmental factors as primary cause for Violent Behavior in people diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing family to become the breeding ground for dysfunctional humans.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing family to exist as the platform from which information is passed along from dysfunctional, dishonest humans into our children.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the family environment to contribute to the dysfunctional behaviors of children, without it being questioned and without parents receiving effective education and evaluation before and during the period of raising children – and that myself as a member of society has come to accept the dysfunctional human as natural and acceptable.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the dysfunctional human to exists as a time line of influences based in DNA, environmental factors, ineffective education, ineffective examples as the current human and the contribution of the general mind fucks that mold our children into the adults we see today.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing parenting to exist based on Fear of survival, competition, greed etc. – in which we prepare our children to fight for survival in the system and with each other.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to raise children according to the current human values such as beauty, fame, jealousy, ignorance, blame, addictions, abuse etc.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame other parents for fucking up their children, without considering and realizing that unless I am teaching my child in all ways how to act within self responsibility and common sense as what is best for all – and I too force my child to develop its mind according to any form of illusions – then I am also responsible for the world as it is as I am shaping the generations to come and holding the past in place.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the family environment to exist as the place where I teach my children how to exist based on polarities of good and bad, where I take the child from being born into the physical and encourage the child to develop a mind system based on beliefs, backchat, emotions, feelings – until by the age of 4 or 6 the child is already existing purely as a pre-programmed system.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to condition my children through reward and punishment to believe what I want them to believe and do what I want them to do, simply because this was done to me by my parents and simply because I exist in such fear of the world, that I enforce my fears on my children.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forgot that children can be a fresh start into and as life and instead of me preparing the world to support my child, I mold my child to become a personality that will survive in our current world system, regardless of the fact that I can see how abusive the world has become.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to teach children to attach values to this physical reality, even though I have seen from my own experience the abuse that exists in this world because of the values we have given ideas, beliefs and pictures, in which we honor the mind as energy, with no regard for the abuse that happens as each defends their self-interest.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to subject my child to my behaviors and pattern of backchat and dishonesty, without realizing that the child is busy copying my behavior.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing violence, abuse and dishonesty to exist in the family environment, and by doing so I am molding my child from a being born into the physical – to a copy of my behaviors, while I profess that I love my children.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing environmental factors to mold my child into depression, irritability, elated moods and expansiveness, as attempts by the child to either avoid pain, discomfort, punishment, disappointment or as an addiction to the energy system I trained them to become from young. This energy system I developed within my child by attaching energetic reactions to things, places, pictures and people and then training my child to react in similar ways. The child then gives the things, places, pictures and people a value according to how they experience themselves, and then learn to abuse all life in the name of judgment.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing my home and family environment to become a breeding ground where I teach my children about conflict because the child observes the parents in conflict over money and their inner battles.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the home environment to be the foundation from which the child learns the behaviors that are eventually diagnosed as Bipolar, while not seeing that the home environment, schools and the environments within the system I accept for my child is directly responsible for who and what my child becomes. Within this I also realize that my DNA was the starting point from which the child came into this life and that if I do not clear myself within who I am – and simply regard myself, my past memories that influence me and my living expression as suitable without really considering what this means - my child will grow up into a dysfunctional being trapped in layers of information from myself and that which I subject them to while in my environment and within society.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use the word Love to teach the child how to manipulate others, through feelings and emotions, for their own self-interest.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to associate the word Love with family, in which I teach my child that if they love me they will do as I say and that for me to love them I have to manipulate them into becoming and being the perfect soldier within the system, to protect the family name and to not embarrass the family by doing anything that could be judged by others.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to associate the word family with trust, in which I teach my child that they cannot trust themselves, because they have to trust the parent who is a living copy of their dysfunctional parents and to trust a god who supposedly placed them on this planet to allow and endure suffering without any solutions. Thus, I teach my child to trust abuse and suffering and to trust the family unconditionally, in which the child starts to accept the world system as it is and even starts participate in it willingly as a means of winning in life.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use words and behaviors to manipulate the child into changing themselves to please the parents, whilst not realizing that everything I as the parent believe, think and feel is programmed into me through my parents, the media, myself as my fears and desires.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to teach my children that love is conditional and to only Love those things that bring them personal enjoyment, regardless of the evidence before us that this behavior which all currently practice is having a direct impact on the world, as countless beings are abused daily in the name of profit and personal enjoyment.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to teach my children to seek pleasure in life while avoiding discomfort, which inevitably means that we create a system which is designed around seeking joy to avoid discomfort, regardless of the fact that this directly results in us creating a world where we argue and fight amongst ourselves as we seek enjoyment at the expense of others.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have children regardless of the fact that I am unable to support the child within my environment or financially.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to avoid taking responsibility for this planet, whilst adding to the population, not realizing that unless I change what is here now, my children will either end up suffering or end up being supported within the Capitalistic System which causes suffering for others.



I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that the family is there to support each other to become the most effective, functional beings on this planet, instead of what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become now.



I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to support my family in realizing themselves as Life, but instead I have accepted myself and my family as subject to what has already been accepted about humans as human nature – thus opening the door to allow ourselves to repeat the past while evolving more and more into mind possessed humans.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to subject myself and my children to inner experience I feel I have no direction within, instead of walking within common sense application, equal and one to my child to no longer accept and allow inner experience to influence who I am here and who my child becomes.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to design a world where children and the experience of children, is subject to money.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to design a world where children become accustoms to having to stake their claim for attention and fame and through this defining themselves according to the mind.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to design a world and a family system where my children have become accustomed to using depression as a means of manipulating themselves and the world, according to attaining their desires, based on what they see through the media, in comparison to others and where they have placed their self worth according to what others say and think.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use the family environment as a teaching ground where I develop the child’s mind into that of a fully functional system, where the child no longer is able to fully express itself without is being locked into a societal value system according to which all function.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to develop the child’s mind to respond and react to certain stimuli – thus programming my child from the physical into a system, based on various factors such as fear, desire, jealousy, emotions, feelings, self ineptest, survival etc.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate children in such a way that eventually the child only functions according to elated moods to avoid the polarity opposite experience of sadness based of self judgment, taught to them through the adult as the adult attempts to mold the child through rules, values, culture and religion into ‘the perfect human’ as it is currently understood and lived.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to design situations within which I place my children, which eventually due to its impact on the child, forces the child into behaviors to align themselves or avoid the point – which then get labeled Bipolar disorder or ADD or ADHD (and various other childhood behavioral problems).



I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to observe why my child has a behavioral or mood disorder and the cause of it within SELF-HONESTY, and instead to describe and justify the reason as being ‘some scientific reason’ or ‘gods will’ or ‘an imbalance in the brain’ – instead of deconstructing the disorder/behavior – even as far back as the parental DNA time lines – to find the building blocks as events that have imprinted itself onto the child’s mind – causing the mind to program into itself the living behavioral manifestation of a ‘behavioral problem’. By doing this I am placing the responsibility here with myself as parent and within how I have not effectively cleared my DNA – so that the past stops repeating itself within my child and me.

For further Reading:

Day 18: Day 18: Dementia – The Rotten Child Syndrome



Day 19: Rotten Love



Day 21: Success and Reward



Day 43: Parenting Patterning Fear and Control



Day 46: TRUST ME!

Day 9: International Crime research - Bi-Polar Disorder and Violent Crimes Part 2

This is a continuation from: Bipolar Disorder and Violent Crime - New Evidence FromPopulation-Based Longitudinal Studies and Systematic Review Part 1

According to the Psychology Prescribed Text Book: “Understanding Abnormal Behavior” (Sue, Sue and Sue, 2010) “Bipolar Disorder is characterized by Mania, a condition characterized by elevated mood, expansiveness or irritability, often resulting in hyperactivity. It is usually accompanies by depression. Depression and Mania, the two extremes of mood or affect, can be considered the opposite ends of a continuum that extends from deep sadness to wild elation.”

(Two forms of Bipolar Disorder have been classified: Bipolar 1 and Bipolar 2.)

The following Excerpts are taken from the article: International Crime research - Bi-Polar Disorder and Violent Crimes.

(http://archpsyc.jamanetwork.com/article.aspx?volume=67&issue=9&page=931)

Definition of terminology:

Comorbidity: “In psychiatry, psychology and mental health counseling comorbidity refers to the presence of more than one diagnosis occurring in an individual at the same time.” (Wikipedia.org. 2012)




“ Objectives of the Study: To determine the risk of violent crime in bipolar disorder and to contextualize the findings with a systematic review.


Design: Longitudinal investigations using general population and unaffected sibling control individuals.


Setting : Population-based registers of hospital discharge diagnoses, sociodemographic information, and violent crime in Sweden from January 1, 1973, through December 31, 2004.


Participants: Individuals with 2 or more discharge diagnoses of bipolar disorder (n = 3743), general population controls (n = 37 429), and unaffected full siblings of individuals with bipolar disorder (n = 4059).


Main Outcome Measure: Violent crime (actions resulting in convictions for homicide, assault, robbery, arson, any sexual offense, illegal threats, or intimidation).


Results from Study 1: During follow-up, 314 individuals with bipolar disorder (8.4%) committed violent crime compared with 1312 general population controls (3.5%). The risk was mostly confined to patients with substance abuse comorbidity. The risk increase was minimal in patients without substance abuse comorbidity, which was further attenuated when unaffected full siblings of individuals with bipolar disorder were used as controls.


Results from Study 2: A longitudinal study of 3743 individuals with bipolar disorder has 2 main findings. First, there was an increased risk for violent crime among individuals with bipolar disorder. Most of the excess violent crime was associated with substance abuse comorbidity.


Second, there was an increased risk for violent crime among the unaffected siblings of individuals with bipolar disorder. This finding further weakens the relationship between bipolar disorder per se and violent crime and highlights the contribution of genetic or early environmental factors in families with bipolar disorder.


Bipolar disease severity (measured by the presence of psychotic symptoms) or diagnostic subgroups (manic vs depressive episode) were not associated with a violent crime risk increase in our study. Instead, the association between bipolar disorder and violent crime seemed to be largely mediated by substance abuse comorbidity.


Common familial etiology for bipolar disorder, violent criminality, and substance abuse.


Available data suggest a common familial etiology for bipolar disorder, violent criminality, and substance abuse. First, we found that the risk of violent crime in individuals with bipolar disorder was confined to those with comorbid substance use, and among those with substance abuse comorbidity, the risk was reduced from 6.4 relative to that of general population controls to 2.8 in comparison to sibling controls, indicating that familial effects are important for the association between violent crime and bipolar disorder among individuals with substance abuse. Second, comorbidity between bipolar I disorder and substance misuse is high (60% in the National Comorbidity Survey Replication), and in our data familial effects confounded the association between bipolar disorder and substance abuse (unaffected siblings had twice the rate of substance abuse [4.0%] compared with that of general population controls [1.9%]). Third, related work from Sweden demonstrated a 5-fold increased risk of violent crime in individuals with substance abuse; hence, substance abuse seems to be a likely explanation for increased violence in the unaffected siblings. The finding of shared familial etiology for bipolar disorder, violent criminality, and substance abuse is consistent with at least 2 likely explanations for the increased risk of violence among some patients with bipolar disorder. Bipolar disorder (with a predominantly genetic cause) may lead to substance abuse, which in turn increases the risk for violent crime.


Two implications follow from the role of comorbidity in mediating violence among individuals with bipolar disorder. First, detection is important, and current practice guidelines highlight the fact that comorbidity may be overlooked. Second, substance abuse treatment for individuals with bipolar disorder is likely to reduce the risk for violence and other adverse outcomes (including suicide). More trial evidence is required.


A recent expert consensus statement identified a single trial, that of psychoeducation, for the treatment of comorbidity in patients with bipolar disorder. Other recommendations include the involvement of an addiction psychiatrist and the potential value of dual-diagnosis treatment programs.


What evidence-based recommendations for assessment of risk for violent crime should be made for patients with bipolar disorder, given our findings? Since the risk estimate for bipolar disorder with substance abuse comorbidity is similar to that for substance abuse alone (reported to increase the risk of violence between 6- and 7-fold in a recent review), we suggest that detailed assessment is appropriate for all individuals with substance abuse, irrespective of bipolar diagnosis.


Rates of violent crime and their resolution are similar across western Europe, and assault rates are comparable between Sweden and the United States, suggesting the potential generalizability of our findings. In addition, alcohol sales per capita in Sweden are similar to those in the United States, although comparative information on illegal drug use is limited. Furthermore, Sweden is similar to the United States in terms of an internationally recognized proxy for psychiatric morbidity, namely, age-adjusted disability-adjusted life-years.”



To Summarize – what was found to be the common denominators within the research, was that family dynamics/influence and the use of alcohol and drugs was primarily responsible for Violent Behavior in people diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder as well as for the unaffected siblings of individuals with bipolar disorder.

Self-Forgiveness Part 1:



Bipolar Disorder and Elated Mood

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing a condition such as Bipolar disorder to exist.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the Mind to manifest into ‘conditions’, in which I have allowed myself to program and manifest the functioning of the mind into dysfunction, because of a lack of self responsibility within my actions, thoughts and words.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the mind to develop and exist as various conditions and dysfunctions because from the beginning I have not taken self responsibility for the mind and have allowed myself to copy the dysfunctions I see in others and have accepted the mind as it exist within others as my parents, siblings and fellow humans – as normal.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the mind to become dysfunctional, because I took for granted how the mind simply functions as a program which adapts to what I allow within myself and what I allow myself to become as all the dimensions of the mind – into which I have separated myself into from the physical - as a mind system.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abuse myself and others, because I developed conditions of the mind such as Bipolar disorder in which I abdicated responsibility into the mind, based on my starting point of not being self responsible and for not honoring life as myself.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the mind to exist in dimensions and for allowing the dimension of mania to exist in which I allow myself to become a different personality.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the existence of Mania within me, through which I in moments of irresponsibility would act out in my own self interest not worrying about how my actions affect others, simply so that I may experience an elated mood, which is the addiction to the energy of elated mood, without realizing that I was not acting in awareness of all as myself but simply generating energy through the interaction with my environment, to please me as my mind.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as a child to get caught up in moments in ‘elated mood’ where I would observe adults and other children pushing their levels of energy due to external stimulus and copying this behavior until I myself became addicted to the desire for this elated mood energy, at the expense of other people and beings on this planet.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look for ways to generate this elated mood energy, regardless of who or what the cause of my elation was and regardless of the outflow and consequences in the world of me allowing others to become my slaves for energy.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate only in those aspects of life, where I could participate within myself in energy, completing disregarding the abuse that happens at the opposite end of the polarity of ‘elated mood’, because I was to busy trying to become elated.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the design of the polarity system – ‘elated mood’ which has the polarity opposite of ‘sadness/depression’, which is where I would end up experiencing myself if I could not get my energy fix of elated mood.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to design Bipolar – existent since the beginning of human existence, because I become addicted to elated moods and to find ways to avoid depressed moods, by looking for new ways to up my energy into and as elation and happiness.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the existence of the capitalistic system, which was designed to serve my needs to experience elated moods – and over the generations I allowed the compounding effect of the searching for elation, by finding quicker and easier ways to buy my elation by participating with more greed and self-interest in capitalistic system.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the existence of the development and compounding of capitalism to serve my needs of elation, whereby I pushed the development of products faster and cheaper for me to have my outcome as elated mood. Within this I did not see and realize, even though it was right there in front of my eyes –that for capitalism to serve my needs of wanting elation faster and for cheaper, more products had to be produced faster for less, which means that more slaves had to work for longer hours with minimal income under stressful life changing situations, to serve my consumerist needs.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the destruction of this planet and the beings who live here with me, as capitalism and myself eventually started disregarding and abusing all resources and beings out of the drive for greed and my drive for elation.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing capitalism to now only exist for human mood elation and in this I gave permission to the abuse of all life, in the name of greed – not realizing that the justification used by capitalists that there exist a ‘market for products’, simply exists because from the beginning I wanted my experience of elation faster and with more intensity, with no regard for the planet and for others and using my own justification of happiness/elation to motivate myself and others so support capitalism and how it is being allowed to destroy and abuse life.


Commitment statements will be placed at the end of the section on Bipolar Disorder.



Part 2: Bipolar Disorder and Expansiveness






Sources:




1. Sue D, Sue DW, Sue S (2010). Understanding Abnormal Behavior. Boston: Wadsworth.



2. (http://archpsyc.jamanetwork.com/article.aspx?volume=67&issue=9&page=931)