Day 90: International Crime Research: Mass Murderers Part 4: The Physical Reaction of Mass Murderers

This blog is a continuation from:


Day 89: International Crime Research: Mass Murderers Part 3: Reaction of Mass Murderers


Physical Dimension:


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself, once I have fuelled my thoughts and imagination on how I will seek revenge on the other, to now allow myself to exist so far in my mind where I am walking equal and one to these thoughts and imaginations, that I do not notice that I am busy restricting my breathing, tensing my muscles and changing my physicality,

from there;

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to now as I participate in programming myself physically by repeatedly thinking the thoughts and allowing the imaginations of revenge, to - together with the mind dimensions, to also now program my physical with specific reactions/behaviours, linked to the mind experiences -walked in the previous blogs, for example

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to first program into my physical the physical tightness of my shoulders, the hunching of my back, the tightening and changing of my breathing, to the clenching of my fists,

then

as these basic physical reactions are programmed together with the backchat, fears and imaginations and pictures of how I will seek revenge within my mind -now as time progresses I start reacting more severely physically, due to the energy I have compounded over time, by participating extensively, consistently in the mental aspects/dimensions of my plans for revenge/retaliation,

therefore;

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to program into the physical layered energetic reactions, which then become physically compounded reactions such as lashing out in anger by striking at children, animals, objects - whereby my mind will rationalise the outburst in terms of something that cannot protect itself or speak up for itself.

within this;

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compound this energy build up through participating in the mind dimensions, further in time as I create all kinds of scenarios in my mind of how I have been 'hurt, cheated, done in', and as time progresses the physical possession takes place at an energy level - after which I now am no longer only thinking about reacting/acting out -but become possessed by this pre-programed system - that I designed over years/months/weeks or days.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself then to eventually become physically possessed as my physical reaction aligns within the amount of thinking I have been doing in relation to seeking revenge, whereby I physically seek ways to harm myself or others, as this physical 'lashing out' allows for the release of the energy that I have compounded through participating in the mental dimensions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to then further become possessed by the power and sense of release of being able to finally express by grief/anger/annoyance - as I now physically for the first time experience a relive that was not there before,

therefore;

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to now want to directly lash out at the individual/group/object that I am blaming for my own internal conflict I have compounded for myself through the use of Ego

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to now lash out by using physical measures which could range from picking up a stick, hitting with my fists, even to the extent of using deadly force such as shooting, strangling or the use of bombs etc...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use this deadly force to mass murder any individual or group, I perceive annoys me or stand in my way of getting what I want - not for a moment considering the consequences of creating a world, where instead of living the solution of breath, by stopping reactions based on protecting the Ego, but instead the individual seeking self gratification at the expense of others, which as we see today in the news - has created a world where mass mind possession is occurring now at all times, as people compound the mental energy of revenge, ego into physical possessions.

I commit myself, when and as I find myself compounding any energy through thinking about a scenario using any imagination or opinion or fair/unfair instead of simply looking at my self responsibility in creating the outcome that is best for all, to stop, breathe, relax myself physically, letting go of any built-up thought designs, and walking the physical steps of self correction.

I commit myself within the walking of the steps of self correction, to always look at how the other person/group perceive their perspective within this situation, to also take responsibility for the creation point from their perspective, as the energy we build up during such experience of 'feeling done in/deceived' is always coming from various participatory points/parties - therefore;

I commit myself to always place myself 'in the shoes' of all parties, and align myself through observing the starting point of each, to assist and support myself in self forgiving the point, correcting it as myself to no longer accept and allow deception, no matter from which starting point/ past experience it happens.

Day 87: International Crime Research: Mass Murderers Part 1

This blog is a continuation from:

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/12/day-79-international-crime-research.html

According to Wikipedia:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mass_murder

"Mass murder (in military contexts, sometimes interchangeable with "mass destruction" or "genocide") is the act of murdering a large number of people (four or more), typically at the same time or over a relatively short period of time.[1] According to the FBI, mass murder is defined as four or more murders occurring during a particular event with no cooling-off period between the murders. A mass murder typically occurs in a single location in which a number of victims are killed by an individual or more.[2] Most acts of mass murder end with the death of the perpetrator(s), whether by direct suicide or being killed by law enforcement.[citation needed]

A mass murder differs from a spree killing in that it may be committed by individuals or organizations alike, whereas a spree killing may only be committed by one or two individuals. Mass murder may also be defined as the intentional and indiscriminate murder of a large number of people by government agents. Examples are the shooting of unarmed protestors, the carpet bombing of cities, the lobbing of grenades into prison cells and the random execution of civilians. Mass murderers are different from spree killers, who kill at two or more locations with almost no time break between murders and are not defined by the number of victims, and serial killers, who may kill large numbers of people over long periods of time. The largest mass killings in history have been attempts to exterminate entire groups or communities of people, often on the basis of ethnicity or religion. Some of these mass murders have been found to be genocides and others to be crimes against humanity, but often such crimes have led to few or no convictions of any type.

The concept of state-sponsored mass murder covers a range of potential killings. It is defined as the intentional and indiscriminate murder of a large number of people by government agents. Examples are shooting of unarmed protestors, carpet bombing of cities, lobbing of grenades into prison cells and random execution of civilians."

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define humanity as separate groups, according to which I either like or dislike these separate groups, depending on whether they are similar to me and what I give value to within life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to grow up accepting the fears of my parents and others adults of other groups - and through the accumulation of these fears into adulthood, I will even create inner conversations and thoughts about how I would react if faced with such a group and how I would through words or deeds attempt to remove the group - if I feel threatened due to my own accumulated fears.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself, by belonging to groups and organisations such as political parties and religion groups, confess that I am separate from most others and will familiarise myself with methodologies and methods that focus on the protection of oneself against other groups.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have thoughts of harm towards other individuals as I allow myself to feel more threatened each day - by other groups/individuals - as I allow a society to exist which thrives off of competition and annihilation of the 'weak'.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define some as being weak due to them appearing physically different than than myself, acting different to me or belonging to a different group - thus through developing such irrational justification I am pre-programming myself into a mass murderer of individuals who through societies values are deemed less worthy of life - thus justifying any harm, abuse or death that comes to such individuals - where I do not even flinch because I have already accepted that any group I label as inferior to myself does not deserve the rights I would like for myself, which is to live a dignified life without fear or harm.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to protect any government or group that preaches and practices separation, discrimination and judgment - whereby I am silently giving permission to the mass murders that occur each day - as those with power elected by the people - destroy the lives of those who do not have the ability to stand up for themselves.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to secretly believe that governments and politicians and religious leaders 'protect us from harm' - which is actually the division of labour and the monopolising of resources - away from those who are not able to stand up for themselves.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that each day that any group or individual is harmed or killed so another group is able to flourish - then myself as the one that benefits from such murder and harm, is in fact a co-conspirator in mass murder.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see, realize and understand that the definition of mass murder, just like the definition of a serial killer is only interpreted as far as we are willing to live with ourselves and is never taken as far as bringing responsibility to any and all humans who allow the destruction or death of another group or individual so that another group/individual may prosper - therefore;

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that by standing back and watching as wars are fought to protect my lifestyle and wealth - is the same as signing a permission slip to mass murder any individual or group whom would interfere with my lifestyle - which is derived and designed through the sweat of others, who either conform to be a working slave to make my life more comfortable - or die from starvation;

therefore

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that at any given moment if I allow a system to exist that will bring harm or death directly or indirectly to another group or individual so that I may flourish and live a life of pleasure - I am in fact a murderer of the masses that die each day in what is ignored and justified within Capitalism.

I commit myself to show that the current economic system is flawed, and that even one death within such a system, should always be brought under question - as it should show that the system requires revision and realignment as there is a point that was not taken into consideration - thus costing the Life of another.

Therefore I commit myself to show that capitalism is so flawed as it daily takes the lives of millions not to mention the continual abuse and suffering - but that we as humans have come to accept this as our fate - just like we have come to accept the good/evil concepts of a god and hell and that we are eternally condemned - and that is why mass murderers as the human civilisation try and suppress the reality of what we know we do and participate in each day - with drugs, alcohol and addictions.

I commit myself to show that Capitalism does not have to be flawed and that everything is here as a system for us to change to one that stands by the principles of protecting and honouring Life for all, instead of what exists now - as a system that corrupts and harms so a few may experience bliss.


We are thus here starting a project of investigating what Capitalism should be like according to its very own principles - and thus, what requires to be adjusted within the current Capitalistic system to make it a system that works for everyone. Equal Money Capitalism will be the necessary transition step to as a global society towards establishing an Equal Money System as presented at www.equalmoney.org.

Day 79: International Crime Research: Serial Killers, Mass Murderers and Sociopaths Part 13: Learning to Kill

My Self-Forgiveness will focus on the following Article:


The Qualitative Report Volume 9 Number 2 June 2004: Sipping Coffee with a Serial Killer: On Conducting Life History Interviews with a Criminal Genius

Author: J. C. Oleson


In each blog I will walk self-forgiveness on different parts of the Article, discussing the developmental aspects of somebody who 'learns to kill'.

This blog is a continuation from the previous blog in this series:

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/12/day-77-international-crime-research.html


To summarize - the next few blogs with focus on the final aspects of how 'X' learned how to use and be comfortable with violence/crime:

-At seventeen years old, while a junior in high school, X was invited to a club with a friend. While waiting for the friend a man in the club picked a fight with X. A stranger comes to his defense and beats up the bully. X spends the rest of the evening talking to this man (Vince) and befriending him. 

- Towards the end of the evening when it comes to paying the bill, vince offers to pay. Vincent tosses a $100.00 bill onto the table. X, accustomed to teenager’s wages, was overwhelmed by such extravagance. He didn’t know who Vincent was, but he was anxious to find out, as he was intrigued by this courageous, generous man. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to associate a positive experience to seeing people act with bravery and to associate positive belief systems around what I am seeing and understanding - due to how I grew up with the pre-programmed belief-system that good, strong, courageous actions are to be seen in a specific way.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to then define the individual as trustworthy and of strength, due to them acting in ways that resonante with me - meaning in ways that I have already associated values to - which allow me to automatically respond positively to the person or situation, without ever bothering to ask or check who this person is and whether their actions are in honor of Life and What is Best for All or only their own self-interest.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to through the development of friendship and closeness to the idea of who this person or event is -to completely disregard the rest of my world and the world in general as I will follow this good feeling, while never considering that there are billions of beings on this planet each day who suffer, while I follow the blissful energetic experience associated to this one person or event - placing myself in a mind-bubble of bliss, which indicates my own self interest and that my definition of strength or courage has therefore nothing to do with real courage.strength, but about who or what can I attain my own self-interest through.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to categorize courage and strength into 'who will serve my needs' and thus within this world we see that the real problems such as war, poverty, abuse never get sorted out - because war, poverty and abuse always serves somebody's self interest and therefore nobody wants to change it, because everybody knows they gain in life from permitting such atrocities.

therefore

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to remain permissive of war, poverty and abuse as I see, realize and understand that it serves me and my life on this planet - but at the same time my own conscious will bother me and therefore by creating diversions such as charities and causes -I get to apease my conscious by pretending to show an interest in the suffering of a particular group - while ignoring the actual problems underlying all forms of abuse within the world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself just like the 'serial-killer' in this story to project an image of bravery and strength onto one person or group, so that I may protect my self interest and my life and money - while obviously never stopping to consider that there is abuse in the world happening due to the world systems I give permission to - which I will not change as it serves me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to through this projection-effect, create and participate in causes and charities into which I wil, invest emotion and feeling energy such as empathy and strength - so that as the world together -we can all claim we do look out for the best interest of all because we support 'charities.''

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to follow ideologies around strength where I will deliberately misguide myself into believing that strength for example is in how agressive, dominant, protective, sneaky, or wealthy you are - not realizing that in fact I am only therefore protecting what protects my comfortable existence and therefore have never actually considered what strength and compassion would be as I do not consider the consequences of my existence here and the impact my existence has on Life as this Physical Reality.

I commit myself that when and as I find myself placing hope, fear or even desire within another person, object or event - to stop, breathe and remind myself to remain here within my principle of self first - meaning to not create personality constructs and characters that require energy through relationships to characters in the world - and that i walk in self-support of myself, but also what is required to bring about a change in the world

as I commit myself when and as I find myself justifying why our current world systems are acceptable, as I slip into the character of acceptance - to stop, and through my dedication to Life which is me, to remain stable and focussed and to never settle for justifications and excuses in a world where Abuse is still existent.