Showing posts with label Jeffrey Dahmer. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Jeffrey Dahmer. Show all posts

Friday, July 11, 2014

Day 148: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 2


Day 143: From Criminal to Principled Living
Day 144: Realising and Living my utmost potential part 1
Day 145: Realising and Living my utmost potential part 2

This blog is a continuation from:
Day 147: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 1

“At times I fought the world system, where the ‘darker’ character in me would come out and fight and cuss and blame ‘society’ and religion and my parents etc, blaming everyone for my locked in feeling where I wanted to just be left alone to do my own thing, but was always being contained by either a lack of money or societies rules. Then I would give into the perceived pressure, and realize that to survive in this world I had to work and to survive, so within this I ‘chose’ to follow an interest which was healing and the art of understanding the metaphysics of the human mind and body and how energy worked. So I studied Kinesiology, Reiki and Energy healing, but all the while I felt constantly overwhelmed by depression – something that I inherited from my father, but which also existed as part of my pre-programmed design to give up on myself and exist in conflict my entire life…”
So years ago as I mentioned in my previous blog, I started on a very superficial level, becoming aware of what people were doing/experiencing, and what Society was doing that I could see was not what is best for everyone. I could see that something was wrong with the money system, with the rules and values of society as being in contradiction to itself  and how religion and family values were for example based on avoiding fear and supporting class, and entitlement. What I did not understand at the time, but started investigating once I joined Desteni, was who I was as equal within what I saw in others.

So after joining Desteni, I worked with myself for a long time, investigating my own pre-programmed designs and my genetically inherited traits, which I accepted as who I was, therefore defining and limiting myself into a being whom I knew for years was stuck and afraid and angry. I did not know how to assist myself – but it was in this questioning that I ended up asking the questions that got me here. In this blog – if you have read my previous blogs – you will notice that the direction I have been taking with exploring the mind of the criminal has always been to not separate criminals from ‘normal people’ as we would be so presumptuous to call ourselves, but to draw the parallels within the Designs that exist in ALL humans to varying degrees.

serial_killers_bannerFor example I would draw a parallel between the consciousness Psyche and Design that exists within the Serial killer as someone who’s design is focussed around specific patterns of possession, anger, fear, desire for control and desire for power etc. Then I look at these same design points that exist within myself and ‘humanity as a whole’  - and how we exist in society supporting each other’s designs, to the extent that we will continue to justify why it is ok for us to have people harming each other, without really at any point stepping in and stopping any and all forms of abuse – even through to political, family, religious and societal levels. Therefore I explore how we all allow each others to get away with harming and abusing because if I allow you to do what you want, you will do the same for me. And that is the biggest resistance that people face when reading or hearing the words in the principle of ‘Living by the Principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all’.

That is why one will find that the thoughts that come up inside oneself is always ‘why should I change what I think, what I believe,what I do, what I allow inside myself and in my external world – others don't do it’ or ‘but I am also just trying to enjoy my life’ or ‘but this is how god made me’... That is why in all societies we only draw a line on abusing if lives are lost or a ‘law is broken’ and laws are designed only to stop the obvious crimes – however the same type of crime could happen in a family environment – but as a society we continue to exist around each others lives – where behind closed doors abuse of all forms continues to exist. Most forms of abuse are not even seen as ‘abuse’ it is seen as the right of the parent, the right of the politician, the right of the police or law maker, the right of the land owner, the right of the business owner, the right of the capitalist, the right of the child, mother, father, priest, friend, husband, wife, individual etc. ‘Freedom of choice’ is always used as the statement that is supposed to end all arguments/perspectives against our individual lack of self responsibility – why our internal worlds do not require cleaning, because it is our right to freedom of expression what is within.

In Psychology we touch on some of these practices that are actually realized as not being what is best for us such as ‘condemning someone because of a different belief system, bullying a child because they wont accept the same religion as the parent, victimising someone in the community for being gay/lesbian, attacking someone's character online because of their hairstyle or life style preference, society victimising/targeting a minority group which stir reactions and fears due to their different way of living. These are but a hand full of examples among millions of events that happen every day in millions of house holds and communities all over the world. Where people are enforcing their personal belief systems, ideologies, values and ways of thinking onto others and for most of these situations as I mentioned above – they are seen as justifiable by the rest of society under the banner of ‘protecting society’ or ‘your family’ or ‘your way of living’.
to be continued…

For more information and research on the current capitalistic System please read the following blog:  http://livingincome.me/

Friday, November 23, 2012

Day 71: International Crime Research: Serial Killers, Mass Murderers and Sociopaths Part 8: the Jeffrey Dahmer Character continued



This blog is a continuation from:


Background info: if you have not been walking the Crimes Journey to Life blogs since the beginning - please read the following blog where I explain the how and why I walk this series as 'Crime's Journey to Life':



The Serial Killer Mind:

The Case of Jeffrey Dahmer: 'Mind-blindness'

My Self-Forgiveness will be based on the main points taken from the following article:

The Case of Jeffrey Dahmer: Sexual Serial Homicide from a Neuropsychiatric Developmental Perspective


Throughout the article, they refer to Jeffrey Dahmer as having 'Asperger’s Disorder'.

Definition of Asperger’s Disorder:

"Asperger's syndrome is a developmental disorder that affects a person's ability to socialize and communicate effectively with others. Children with Asperger's syndrome typically exhibit social awkwardness and an all-absorbing interest in specific topics.

Doctors group Asperger's syndrome with other conditions that are called autistic spectrum disorders or pervasive developmental disorders. These disorders all involve problems with social skills and communication. Asperger's syndrome is generally thought to be at the milder end of this spectrum."


Jeffrey Dahmer and Asperger’s Disorder:


"Theory of Mind Deficits in Asperger’s Disorder:

In 1978, primatologists Premack and Woodruff introduced the term “theory of mind” to refer to the ability to realistically assess the mental states of conspecifics as well as other species. The idea that human beings must successfully negotiate a realistic understanding of the intentions of their conspecifics as well as other creatures, is consistent with evolutionary theory, because sexually successful individuals must be able to assess the thoughts, intentions, and emotions not only of themselves, but also of potential mates and predators in order to maximize the chances of their genomic propagation. Since the publication of Premack and Woodruff’s seminal article, various researchers have uncovered substantial evidence indicating that the ability to estimate other people’s mental states or “mind reading”, as it has come to be known, is a universal human capacity. Mind reading can be more accurately viewed as the ability to estimate the mental life of others given previous experience and present social ecological contexts. Theory of Mind (ToM) capacities are likely to be under strict ontogenic control, and they become evident in young children by four years of age. Furthermore, Baron-Cohen and his colleagues as well as many other investigators have studied mind reading abilities in autistic children and discovered that many of them suffer from various types and degrees of ToM deficits. This abnormality has come to be known as “mindblindness”. ToM deficits appear to be present in schizophrenia and other forms of psychosis, although the degree of disability appears to be less than that encountered in severe autism.

Both clinical specialists and researchers in AD as well as family members of AD persons and AD individuals themselves consistently report that those with AD have noteworthy difficulties in assessing the mental states of others and understanding the social world around them. These deficits appear to be closely associated with intrinsic limitations in assessing the cognitive and the affective states of others as well as with an associated dearth (scarcity or lack of) of empathy. 


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become blind to the experience of others

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to grow up believing that the world and experience of others, is separate from me, and even though as I become older I see, realize and understand that the suffering of others is directly connected to my life here on earth, I make the conscious decision to continue ignoring these facts, because it has become something that we simply do in society.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use the backchat, inner conversations of 'well somebody has to do the hard work' and 'well if everybody has the same stuff, then we wont all get the chance to be really happy' to be my reason, as everybody else's reason, for continuing to allow the world systems to exist as they are, where I will turn a blind eye to suffering of my fellow earthly inhabitants, in favor of the possibility of a minority becoming rich and through this experiencing apparent 'happiness' at having a comfortable life, over the fear of not having.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give permission to the fear existent within this polarity manifested game, whereby i have chosen for myself and by myself without much convincing from others - that I too like playing this 'game with my life and the lives of others' of survival of the fittest - while completely not realizing that if I was in the position of being exploited and abused where I had no ability to speak up and choose differently - I would not be able to even have this philosophical inner conversation with myself

therefore;

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have this inner conversation with myself where I debate whether I am willing to be the one walking in the shoes of the other people in the world systems who are being abused/exploited/deprives of a dignified life as Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to dishonor life, by turning this question of whether abuse is justified, into a inner moral debate, where I as the Elite who live a comfortable life - actually give myself the opportunity to debate these questions - simply because I can do so - and have at no point considered that there are people and beings in the world who do not even have the luxury of asking themselves 'would I be willing to walk in the shoes of another' - because they are fighting for survival, getting through from day to day in lives of pain, discomfort and fear - therefore they only focus on surviving and do not give themselves the luxury of inner debates over humnan morality.

therefore

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that the minute I allowed myself to become spiritualized or philosophized in how I approach Life - that was the day that I separated myself from the consequences that my existence on earth has on the lives of others and completely turned suffering into a game or right and wrong that I play in my mind - where I keep myself trapped in accepting the system as it is because I take the time to play the morality game in my mind going from 'feeling bad' about the abuse I see, and then justifying its existence, until i get to continue with my life through 'mindblindness'.

I commit myself, when as as I see myself turning a blind eye to the existence of this reality as it is, to stop, breathe, bring myself back here in my physical body, which is existing equal and one to this physical reality - where i remain self honest about what is really going on and how the problems are created.

I commit myself that if at any point a justification comes up within me to make me blind to the world around me, that i will always use the basic maths of 1+1 = 2, to get to the answers of how something was created, how to stop the existence of the problem and how I will have to change myself to no longer accept and allow the problem to exist, as myself, equal within the responsibility of how the problem was created.

therefore I commit myself to no longer accept and allow suffering and abuse, not just as an idea that exists as some humanitarian, philosopher or religious concept, but an actual living self movement, where I stop and change the suffering/consequences according to what is best for all, as the living changes that will have to take place for suffering to no longer exist.

First step in stopping the Economic abuse, that forces all beings on this planet into compromised lives:

http://equalmoney.org/

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Day 70: International Crime Research: Serial Killers, Mass Murderers and Sociopaths Part 7




This blog is a continuation from:

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/10/day-64-international-crime-research.html#
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/10/day-65-international-crime-research.html
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/10/day-66-international-crime-research.html#
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/11/day-67-international-crime-research.html
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/11/day-68-international-crime-research.html
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/11/day-69-international-crime-research.html


Background info: if you have not been walking the Crimes Journey to Life blogs since the beginning - please read the following blog where I explain the how and why I walk this series as 'Crime's Journey to Life':

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/05/day-8-international-crime-research-bi.html


The Serial Killer Mind:
The Case of Jeffrey Dahmer


My Self-Forgiveness will be based on the main points taken from the following article:


The Case of Jeffrey Dahmer: Sexual Serial Homicide from a Neuropsychiatric Developmental Perspective
http://library-resources.cqu.edu.au/JFS/PDF/vol_47/iss_6/JFS2002051_476.pdf


In the following Blogs, I walk self-forgiveness on Sex, Porn, Child Pornography and Masturbation.

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/06/day-18-international-crime-research.html
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/06/day-19-international-crime-research.html
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/06/day-20-international-crime-research.html
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/06/day-21-international-crime-research.html
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/06/day-22-international-crime-research.html
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-23-international-crime-research.html
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/this-is-continuation-from.html
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-25-international-crime-research.html
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-26-international-crime-research.html
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-27-international-crime-research.html
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-28-international-crime-research.html
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-29-international-crime-research.html
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-30-international-crime-research.html#
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-31-international-crime-research.html
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-32-international-crime-research.html
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-33-international-crime-research.html
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-34-international-crime-research.html
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-35-international-crime-research.html
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-36-international-crime-research.html
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/08/day-37-international-crime-research.html
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/08/day-38-international-crime-research.html

Now more on:

Sexual Serial Killer

"The identification of AD as a decisive factor in the genesis of sexual serial homicide in the JD case may well represent a psychiatrically, criminologically, and biologically relevant paradigm of substantial heuristic and practical value because it may provide a unifying explanation of sexual serial killing behaviors that integrate neuropsychiatric, behavioral, and developmental levels of organization for at least a subset of sexual serial killers. Arguably, the foremost advantage of the proposed pervasive developmental disorder paradigm for serial sexual killing behavior is that it may provide a central insight into the specific psychological causes for serial killing in association with specific underlying neurobiological events.

In contrast, most typologies for the causation of serial killing behavior strongly rely on sexual motives as well as a need by the perpetrator to control the victims. Egger addresses this issue when he states, “It may simply be (as the author is beginning to believe) that the serial killer’s search to gain control over his or her own life by violence and sex and to control and dominate others is the central and causal factor in the development of the serial killer”."


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing sexual motives to exist within me, instead of a physical sexual self expression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing this motive to exist within me, through which I use the media as pictures, gestures and empty promises, to lure me through my Mind's energy addictions - into actions that are not one and equal to the physical's sexual expression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the indoctrination of my mind with images of sexual acts, combines with sexual energies triggered through backchats (inner conversations) that were created by me to specifically generate massive amounts of sexual energy - as I see these images, whereby I become possessed by my permission, through my own design.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself when I become aroused through this sexually charged mind system, to blame advertisements, movies, porn stars and the media -whilst still holding onto this system design within me, within the recesses of my secret mind - where I refuse to let go of 'my precious design' while all the time proclaiming to not really be responsible for these desire that I act out, while possessed by and through my own design.

I commit myself to stop the addiction patterns, that form once I attach an energetic value to a word, picture or gestures.

I commit myself to remain stable here as breathing, one and equal to my physical reality, as I see, realize and understand that it is not the physical that is causing me discomfort and pain - as it is my minds relationship to the physical, through which I have imposed a system design which triggers in time with how I programed it to be, while injecting my energy systems onto the physical body.

I commit myself to realize that nothing is gained by forcing this physical body I have to become subject to my mind-relationships, and therefore I commit myself to learn about how my physical body in fact functions within sexual self expression and from there to walk as the physical in realigning myself here as my cells as they interact within oneness and equality to all aspects of the physical.


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