Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Day 66: International Crime Research: Serial Killers, Mass Murderers and Sociopaths Part 3

This blog is a continuation from:

Background info: if you have not been walking the Crime's Journey to Life blogs since the beginning - please read the following blog where I explain the how and why I walk this series and why I apply Self-Forgiveness as myself for all the character components found within 'Crime' - which includes understanding 'Crimes against Life'.

The Serial Killer Mind

The Case of Jeffrey Dahmer

My Self-Forgiveness will be based on the main points taken from the following article:

From the article I will be compiling the main developmental/experiences within Jeffrey Dahmer - contributing to him becoming a 'Serial Killer'

"It is well known that JD was the product of a pregnancy complicated by the fact that his mother suffered from disabling protracted nausea, anxiety, and dysphoria coupled with his mother’s use of prescribed tranquilizers"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing my past to influence myself through memory to such an extend that physically I am eventually overcome with states of 'protracted nausea, anxiety, and dysphoria'.

I commit myself to stop the past from repeating itself as cycles of abuse in my present, by clearing each moment as it happens, walking the moment in self honesty, self responsibility and consideration that my words and actions are molding me as well as the future generations as the words and actions we speak and live.

I forgive myself for storing the past as abusive or fearful experiences in my cells as DNA, which activates me into the living hell of 'protracted nausea, anxiety, and dysphoria'

I commit myself to show how allowing any form of abuse, does not not just 'go away' - but in fact in our world, is currently shown as being the key ingredient in the abuse that is recreated into and as the new generations - where no one considers that if we do not stop the layers of abuse and self sabotage - we will never change what is here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within the dimension of Fear, which causes anxiety, nausea and eventually influences the mind of the being into altered states, where the mind shifts itself off into protection mechanisms and mechanical dysfunctions - such as 'dysphoria'.

Dysphoria (difficult to bear) (semantically opposite of euphoria) is a medically recognized mental and emotional condition in which a person experiences intense feelings of depression, discontent, and in some cases indifference to the world around them.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give up on myself due to my internal self sabotage conversations and life circumstances, in which I manifest the experience od self-depression.

I commit myself to stand up from within this energetic experience of 'depression', into and through breathing - where I release myself from the idea that I give up on myself - as I realize that this giving up was merely based on my rejecting myself, who I have become and the world before me - where I have never considered changing myself or the world I live in to no longer allow any abuse and harm, wherein I am taking direct responsibility for the allowance of depression within me by taking responsibility for the reasons why such self annihilation occurs.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use depression as a means of escape - wherein I have submitted myself in my living flesh to a point of discomfort and avoidance, instead of facing who and what I am within how the world functions - but instead abdicating self responsibility of myself into a withdrawal and physical punishment.

I forgive myself for reminding myself daily through internal conversations that my life is to much to bear, instead of realizing the compounding effect it will eventually have on my mind and physical, as I program myself into and as the experience of depression.

I commit myself to stop any and all polarities within myself, where I create life and self worth expectations, which are based on positives and negative outcomes, which force me into a continuous struggle as I attempt to correct the polarities I perceive as I program myself into systems of the mind charged by feelings I programmed as either positive or negative.

Monday, October 29, 2012

Day 65: International Crime Research: Serial Killers, Mass Murderers and Sociopaths Part 2

This blog is a continuation from:

- Please read for a reference/introduction into how and why I will be walking this series.

Now I will draw extracts from the following document mentioned in Part 1, which will provide us with contextual background information on the Psychological findings behind the 'how and why' of Serial Killers. My next blog will focus on exploring the Childhood, Life experiences and choices of a Serial Killer, together with the Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Statements. I will walk Self-Forgiveness and Self-Corrective statements on a few known Serial Killers to show how the Patterns exist within the Psyche and Mind -Construction of the Human being who takes the backchat as internal conversations to the extent of Self-Mind-Possession.


Author: Cindy A. Pokel

Date: August, 2000

- Research has shown an increase in the amount of serial murders that has occurred in the second half of the twentieth century with a trend that is destined to continue. Federal Bureau of Investigation statistics report that there are 20,000 murders per year and over thepast 20 years murder and manslaughter has increased 300%.

- Dr Ronald Holmes in his book " The World of Serial Killers" has identified four types of serial killers. The first type is identified as a "visionary serial killer". The visionary serial killer is commanded to kill by voices or visions. The second type of serial killer is identified as the "mission serial killer". The mission serial killer is interested in ridding the community from undesirable individuals. The third type of serial killer is a "hedonistic serial killer". Lust, thrill and comfort drive the hedonistic serial killer. The last type of serial killer is the "power/control serial killer". The power/control serial killer is motivated by the need for power and dominance (Holmes, 2000).

- Though their crimes may be sickening, they are not sick in either a medical or legal sense. Instead, the serial killer is typically a sociopathic personality who lacks internal control, guilt or conscience to guide his own behavior but has an excessive need to control and dominate others. He definitely knows right from wrong, definitely realizes he has committed a sinful act, but simply doesn't care about his human prey" (Levin and Fox, 1985).

- For "the serial killer, the motivation is not one of only money or power. The serial killer is simply motivated to kill, as you or I need water, the serial killer NEEDS to kill" (Serial Killers, Online, 2000).

- Levin and Fox (1985) found that a murderer is trying to feel superior over the victim and triumph or conquer by destruction (Levin & Fix, 1985).

- Egger (1985) has noted that the motivational factor of a serial killer seems to be consistent with research on the nature of rape (Egger, 1985)

- Leyton identifies deprivation as a provocation for the multiple murderers' frustration.
Leyton has also argued that multiple murders are a "kind of sub-political and conservative protest, which nets the killer a substantial social profit ofrevenge, celebrity, identity and sexual relief' (Leyton, 1986, p.26).

- Wilson (1972) would agree with Leyton: "Ifman is deprived of meanings beyond his everyday routine, he becomes disgusted and bitter, and eventually violent. A society that provides no outlet for man's idealist passions is asking to be torn apart by violence"

- Dr Helen Morrison, who examined John Gacy for 800 hours feels the serial killer is a new personality type (Berger, 1984).(p.233).

- Theories regarding inadequate socialization and childhood trauma are often found in homicide literature as a possible causal factor of serial murder. Starr (1972) theorizes that human cruelty may be connected to the development of a serial murderer (Starr, 1972).
Willie found the most common feature of the family background of serial murderers to be violent punishing practice inflicted upon the child ( Willie, 1975). Other literature has identified the existence of an unusual or unnatural relationship with the serial killer's mother (Lunde, 1996).
Ressler (1984) found that a number of serial murderers had been fascinated with law enforcement.

- In classifying serial murder four basic questions must be asked, which focuses upon looking at the behavioral background ofthe perpetrator, exploring the characteristics of the victims, examining the pattern of killing and method used and finally the location of the serial murders. The behavioral background examines three major root sources of criminal behavior to include biogenic, sociogenic and psychogenic. Motives can also be extrinsic in that the motives to kill are located outside the individual psyche or intrinsic when the motives are in the psyche of the killer.

- Holmes and DeBurger (1988) examine the social cultural background of
known serial murderers in the United States. There are two basic sociocultural sources that are important to the origins ofmulticidal behavior. One ofthese
includes the persistent culture of violence in today's society that is occupied by continuous change in the nature of society-individual relations. The other significant factor is in the impact of violence in early development in a family setting ( Holmes & De Burger, 1988).

- The Federal Bureau of Investigation in 1985 completed an exhaustive study that found that most serial killers spent their childhood in unhealthy, uncaring and
abusive homes (Federal Bureau of Investigations, 1985). The study also found that family histories of serial murderers highlighted multiple problems to include
alcohol and drug abuse. The study found that most ofthe murderers evaluated had a weak attachment to their family members, and that there was present a parent whom suffered from problems of substance abuse, criminality and aberrant sexual behaviors. A common theme among all the murderers was a childhood with the absence ofthe development of self worth. Fantasy was also a common theme among these murderers as often being isolated they turned to fantasy to escape their unpleasant environment (Federal Bureau of Investigations, 1984).

- Sears goes on to examine other personality traits that appear to be common among serial murderers. The absence ofthe presence of a loving and nurturing relationship with parents creates great difficulties in developing and maintaining meaningful relationships. The absence of meaningful relationships also impacts the aspect of sexual relationships. Often exposed to abuse and neglect as children, these murderers becomes fascinated with fantasy related to sex and violence. An obsession with pornographic materials acts as an aid for a serial murderer to construct a sexual relationship on his mind.

- The serial murderer may appear to be very normal often pleasant and amiable. There is often the absence of any overt mental illness. Serial murderers
have been found to be usually quite intelligent. Research has found the IQ level of such serial murderers as Ted Bundy, JohnWayne Gacy and Wayne Williams ranged
between 118 and 124. In both an academic and professional life, serial killers tend to be most successful and promising. Examples such as John Wayne Gacy and Ted Bundy are often cited. John Wayne Gacy was a very successful businessman and Ted Bundy was an up and coming attorney.

- Sears concludes his brief overview of the profile of a serial killer by stating "the serial killer is obviously a distinctive and extremely dangerous criminal". He possesses a superficial charm, whereby he may effectively mimic appropriate socially approved behavior in any given setting, but behind this carefully constructed facade he exhibits no genuine feelings and is insensitive to the welfare ofothers" (Sears, 1991).

- In examining the psychological explanations of serial murder the most predominant theory is he suffers from an antisocial personality disorder. Individuals with antisocial personality disorder display the following characteristics: superficial charm, intelligence, absence of delusions or irrational thinking, lack of nervousness, unreliable, untruthful, and insincere, exhibits poor judgment and fails to learn from experiences, pathogenic egocentricity and incapable of love. The antisocial personality disorder or psychopath is common among serial killers. A serial killer often engages in related criminal acts, experiences anxiety and tension, but experiences no guilt or remorse for his actions.

- In examining the sociological explanations for the existence of serial killers,
Sears makes the opening statement that "environmental factors are perhaps the most influential and very often a permanent affect in the shaping of the later development of a child" (Sears, 1991). Sears identifies seven aspects ofthe sociological explanations to include childhood deprivation, intense frustration, need for power, undercontrolled or overcontrolled behavior, excitement ofthe hunt, societal roles and media influence and pornography.

- It has been theorized that emotional deprivation combined with other environmental factors or damage to the inhibitive centers of the brain can account for the development ofpsychopathy.

- A serial murderer may commit murders in part because a build up of intense frustrations. This frustration buildup theory is similar to the psychodynamic theory developed by Freud. A buildup from birth creates aggressive energy. This energy is generally released in small amounts periodically. Ifnot released it can cause an explosion ofviolent behavior. Frustration can also develop from failed interpersonal contacts, school, military or employment.

- The third aspect of sociological explanations involved a need for power. This is one ofthe basic themes that have prevailed through most serial murderers. The serial murderer seeks a sense of power and control that his life seems to lack. He achieves this power and control by killing others.

- The fourth aspect of sociological explanations involved undercontrolled and overcontrolled behavior. The undercontrolled individual tends to have limited ability to control aggressive behaviors and often engages in violence. This type of individual when frustrated responds by use of aggression. The overcontrolled individual conversely learns to suppress aggression. This individual tends to build up aggression and frustration until one day a small and insignificant event causes a violent and explosive reaction.

- The fifth aspect of sociological explanations includes the excitement of the hunt. This aspect postulates that it is not the murder itself that motivates the crime of a serial murderer, but instead it is the exhilaration felt by the serial killer as he stalks his victim.

- The sixth aspect of sociological explanations includes societal roles. This theory proposes that the serial killer's actions portray the roles that society has assigned to man and women. Men are to be strong, powerful and unemotional. Women are to be weak and submissive. A serial killer looks to maintain society's roles by acting out what he perceives are expected of him.

- The seventh and final aspect of the sociological explanations proposed by Sears includes media influence and pornography. Researchers have completed numerous studies, which have correlated media violence and aggression. 'Thus, violence in the media does play a role in the short-term aggression exhibited by serial murderers as well as the general public" (Sears, 1991). Pornography is now also being linked to serial murderers. Often lacking interpersonal relationships, serial murderers develop an insatiable appetite for pornographic materials. Researchers believe that a serial murderer derives his ideas about torture and domination from the submissive roles he sees women and children play in this pornographic material.

- A biological aspect examined looks at levels oftestosterone and serotonin. It has been found that when testosterone levels are high and serotonin levels are low it tends to lead to increased aggression and sadistic behavior
according to Scott (Scott, 2000).

- Genetics have taught us that the nervous system of a psychopath varies from a normal person's. Psychopaths tend to need higher levels of stimulation and thus they seek dangerous situations. This thrill seeking leads a lot of serial killers to become police officers.

- The psychopath sees the victim as a symbolic object. Psychopaths are generally completely out of touch with reality, but seem to know what is right and wrong in society. Psychopaths are smooth talkers often well versed in psychology and skilled at manipulating evaluators. Serial killers who are psychopathic often blend into society.

- most commonly quoted factor of the making of a serial killer has been exposure to violence. Ed Gein, among others, witnessed the slaughter of farm animals as a child. Not every traumatic experience can lead a child to become a serial killer. But how much is too much. Research has not been able to provide us with a clear-cut answer. One serial killer, Albert Fish ( Bettemann) points a finger of blame at a Washington, D.C. Orphanage. Other serial killers have pointed a finger of blame at reform schools, jails and prisons. Reform school and jails in the 19th century often had stories told of sadistic guards and medieval punishments. Does violence in a confined setting create more violence?

- According to the The first Sociological theory (contributing to the explanation of serial killers), related to structural/functionalist approaches: The origins of this theory can be taken from the 1965 work of Durkheim who theorized that deviance and crime is the result of a breakdown in a social consensus regarding society goals and values. (Mitchell, 1996). The serial killer finds himself to be an outcast in society and unable to meet the goals and values of the society as a whole. The serial killer becomes helpless and turns to violence as outlet (Mitchell, 1996).

- Mitchell next looks at the strain theory, which was first developed by Merton in 1968. The strain theory much like Durkheim's theory looks at the fact that social end and means to achieve them are learned behaviors. Some people have high aspirations and others do not. The cultural norm presents a goal of achievement and success. Some individuals within society lack the abilities to achieve that societal goal of achievement and success. These individuals thus feel the "strain" of society. In order to feel a sense of accomplish goals may be reached through illegitimate means. For the serial killer these goals and achievements are reached through killing (Mitchell, 1996).

- According to the subculture Theory: Serial killers who have grown up in an environment filled with domestic violence and physical abuse may view violence as a more "natural" environment. This creates a subculture where violence is an acceptable action that is not viewed as morally wrong (Mitchell, 1996).

- Researchers theorize that violent behavior is often learned in the context of gender roles. Media, family and peer groups teach the differential roles of the genders. Males are taught to "take" and strive for power and women are taught to be passive and subservient. It is clear that serial murder itself is not socialized, but certainly the important precursors, such as violence and power are often socialized (Mitchell, 1996).

- Mitchell has theorized that serial murder represents an "ideological breakage". He explains it as a type of disruption in the status quo (Mitchell, 1996). Leyton has theorized that serial murder may even be a form of social protest (Leyton, 1986).

- The ninth theory examined by Mitchell involves a theory related to glorification. The media has helped contribute to society's intense interest in serial murder.

- The final theory examined by Mitchell looks at the role religion plays in the concept of serial murder. There is a great deal of debate as too how much or how little influence religion plays in serial murder. In the visionary serial killer, God may be telling him to kill. In cases such as Manson, Lucas and Ramirez there was a satanic cult link.

- A psychiatric approach examined by Mitchell includes multi personality disorder. The symptom of dissociation (the lack of integration of thoughts, feelings and experiences into consciousness) is often observed in serial killers. It is unclear as to whether this dissociation is an ongoing symptom or connected to commission of the offense. Bundy often talked about his crimes in the third person. It is not clear as to whether this was a legal ploy or a symptom of mental illness.

- Another psychiatric approach examined by Mitchell includes neurotic disorders. Mitchell quotes Hirose(1979) in associating homicidal behavior with depression. Research has shown that serial killers tend to display higher scores in psychoticism and neuroticism on inventories than other subjects. In the past research mood has not been viewed as a major contributor in serial murder (Mitchell, 1996).

- Sexual dysfunction is often reported by serial murderers, but is that so unusual based on the fact that serial murderers have often become isolative and lack the experience of socialization?

- Studies have found a prevalence of substance abuse as high as 50% in serial murderers (e.g. Dietz, 1990). Sears has reported that in interviews he has had with known serial killers the report of drug and alcohol use is high. It is believed that drugs and alcohol may be more likely to be incidental to serial murder (Sears, 1991).

- Mitchell lastly examines the biological explanations of serial murder. Mitchell looks at five biological aspects that may lead to an explanation of serial murder. The first explanation looks at the evolutionary and ethological approaches. For centuries man has sought to achieve power and control from the early days of the caveman to present day. Society reinforces this evolutionary belief through providing rewards for dominance and power. Power has often been gained through violence. Males have evolved to be effective users of violence to gain dominance and control. This very simple explanation is explained the rare existence of a female serial killer and the over abundance of male serial killers (Mitchell, 1996).

- The next biological aspect examined by Mitchell included the biochemical approaches. Research has shown speculation about the role of serotonin in aggressive behavior. An excess amount of serontonin may play a role in the offense of serial murder. Hormonal factors may also play a role in serial murder. Androgens such as male testosterone may have a direct influence on the brain making a particular behavioral response.

- By far the most startling research related to the development of the criminal mind of a serial killer lies within a theory postulated by Dr. Herbert Strean and Lucy Freeman. In their book "Our Wish to Kill", Strean and Freeman theorize that the instinct or murder can lurk in all ofour psyches and that some people can control those urges better than others. An example of that would be a situation in which you get angry with your spouse, partner or children and you blurt out the comment, "and you make me so angry I could just kill you". Could you really kill that person? It is certainly startling to think that you could actually commit the act of murder, but how many times have we learned of the tragedy of murder and perhaps known directly or indirectly the murderer and questioned how that person could have committed the crime of murder. Research literature simply can't answer that question. Murder and especially serial murder has been a crime that psychologists have been unable to explain....

Friday, October 26, 2012

Day 64: International Crime Research: Serial Killers, Mass Murderers and Sociopaths Part 1


Serial Killer:

A serial killer is traditionally defined as an individual who has killed three or more people over a period of more than a month, with down time (a "cooling off period") between the murders, and whose motivation for killing is usually based on psychological gratification. Some sources, such as the FBI, disregard the "three or more" criteria, and define the term as "a series of two or more murders, committed as separate events, usually, but not always, by one offender acting alone" or, including the vital characteristics, a minimum of two murders.Often, a sexual element is involved in the killings, but the FBI states that motives for serial murder include "anger, thrill, financial gain, and attention seeking". The murders may have been attempted or completed in a similar fashion and the victims may have had something in common; for example, occupation, race, appearance, sex, or age group.

Mass Murderer

Mass murder (in military contexts, sometimes interchangeable with "mass destruction" or "genocide") is the act of murdering a large number of people (four or more), typically at the same time or over a relatively short period of time.[1] According to the FBI, mass murder is defined as four or more murders occurring during a particular event with no cooling-off period between the murders. A mass murder typically occurs in a single location in which a number of victims are killed by an individual or more.[2] Most acts of mass murder end with the death of the perpetrator(s), whether by direct suicide or being killed by law enforcement.[citation needed]
A mass murder differs from a spree killing in that it may be committed by individuals or organizations alike, whereas a spree killing may only be committed by one or two individuals. Mass murder may also be defined as the intentional and indiscriminate murder of a large number of people by government agents. Examples are the shooting of unarmed protestors, the carpet bombing of cities, the lobbing of grenades into prison cells and the random execution of civilians.Mass murderers are different from spree killers, who kill at two or more locations with almost no time break between murders and are not defined by the number of victims, and serial killers, who may kill large numbers of people over long periods of time. The largest mass killings in history have been attempts to exterminate entire groups or communities of people, often on the basis of ethnicity or religion. Some of these mass murders have been found to be genocides and others to be crimes against humanity, but often such crimes have led to few or no convictions of any type.


Antisocial personality disorder (ASPD) is described by the American Psychiatric Association's Diagnostic and Statistical Manual, fourth edition (DSM-IV-TR), as an Axis II personality disorder characterized by "...a pervasive pattern of disregard for, and violation of, the rights of others that begins in childhood or early adolescence and continues into adulthood."

The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, fourth edition (DSM IV-TR), defines antisocial personality disorder (in Axis II Cluster B) as:

A) There is a pervasive pattern of disregard for and violation of the rights of others occurring since age 15 years, as indicated by three or more of the following:

failure to conform to social norms with respect to lawful behaviors as indicated by repeatedly performing acts that are grounds for arrest;
deception, as indicated by repeatedly lying, use of aliases, or conning others for personal profit or pleasure;
impulsiveness or failure to plan ahead;
irritability and aggressiveness, as indicated by repeated physical fights or assaults;
reckless disregard for safety of self or others;
consistent irresponsibility, as indicated by repeated failure to sustain consistent work behavior or honor financial obligations;
lack of remorse, as indicated by being indifferent to or rationalizing having hurt, mistreated, or stolen from another;

B) The individual is at least age 18 years.
C) There is evidence of conduct disorder with onset before age 15 years.
D) The occurrence of antisocial behavior is not exclusively during the course of schizophrenia or a manic episode.

In this Blog Series, I will look at the fine line between Serial Killers, Mass Murderers and Sociopaths as Classified through Psychology and Criminology and the Characteristic of these same 'Labels' which are found within what we call 'Normal Society'. First I will explore the Psychological Dimension of for example the Serial Killer and walk Self Forgiveness on the Mind of a Serial Killer - consisting of their Childhood, Environmental, Behavioral, and Self-Directed Influences. Then I will take a look at what traits or Characteristics of the Serial Killer, Mass Murderer and Sociopath are found within our World Systems such as Society, Capitalism, Consumerism, Human Thought Processes and the 'rights of the Individual' at the expense of Life on this planet. What distinguishing the rest of Society and the way we permit for example Abuse, War, Genocide, Poverty, Exploitation, all in the name 'Individual freedom and the rights of the Consumer' - from Serial Killers, Mass Murderess and Sociopaths? Lets walk the Mind of the Serial Killer and See what unfolds...

The following Research Paper contains an overview of the Psychological studies behind Serial Killers. If you have a moment and would like to read the complete Document:

or if you have a Scribd account:

In my next blog - I will place the major points taken from the research paper, as background information on the influences in the Life of a Serial Killer as well as 'interesting factors' that allow us to start seeing similarities between what we have labeled as Serial Killers, Mass Murderess and Sociopaths and what are considered to be 'normal consequences' of human Behaviours and the outflow/ consequences of existing in and being subject to the current Capitalistic System, which functions according to the principle of the Value your Life has depends on what Money you have. Death, pain and suffering is basically ok if you are doing it in the name of 'Human Prosperity' and the 'drive of Capitalism' or if you do it due to your personal belief systems, religions emotions/feelings or personal 'choices' based on ones individuality and right to 'Life/freedom of expression'.

In the next Blog, I will focus on the lives of specific serial killers, which provide 'examples' of the research findings - after which I will focus my self-forgiveness on the specified research findings and the 'Mind-Construct' (how the Mind-set or Character was Designed/Constructed) of the various Serial Killers. From there I will explore the various Mind Designs of the Human within a world where any and all forms of Abuse/Suffering are currently escalating and the justifications that exist behind why we allow some to follow their experience of happiness, joy, love and satisfaction over the consequences we create for the lives of Billions, each day and why there has never been any solutions and personal change/self-responsibility occurring in the face of these global problems.


Sunday, October 21, 2012

Day 63: Education Fraud Part 24 – Medicalization of the Education System Part 12 - Self-Forgiveness on 'Professionals involved in the medicalizing process' Part 5

This blog is a continuation from: 

 "the behaviors to be measured by parents and teachers on assessment instruments relate primarily to the classroom, and indeed, most parents in both sites noted that their children’s problems began or escalated once they entered the school system."

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as educator to develop and education system that is limited to only a percentage of children with specific learning traits/abilities, while ignoring the rest of the children and how they process information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the development of the education system, within parameters and limitations - as I as educator, claim that there are not enough resources and teachers available to teach all children based on the varying ways in which they have been programmed to process information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing this limitation within the education system, due to money and how the money system dictates according to profit and that certain basic functions that should be included in the development of the human, such as how to earn to read, speak and process information - is then not accessible to some children/individuals, simply due to an economic system that works according to what money the school is given, which has an unnecessary impact as consequence for those who are not given the tools to learn effectively.

I forgive myself for deliberately accepting and allowing as both educator, capitalist and human - the dumbing down of the human, due to unequal education, because by doing so we create those that simply work as work-slaves within the money system, because they have come to accept themselves within this already accepted system of inequality as the 'dumb/lesser ones' that cannot do what the clever/educated ones do, do not have the mental capacity to better themselves, and therefore simply have to accept themselves as the working force that then only 'deserve' to earn a basic income, while the apparent 'clever' business owners and manipulators of Life called the Economists and Capitalists, get to play with people's lives for the ultimate game of Profit and riches.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing money as a piece of useless paper, to have become more important than life on this planet.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that because I have given the useless piece of paper more value than each person developing to the fullest, I am directly responsible for institutions, such as schools and education departments, claiming that they are limited by the funds that they receive and therefore the humans that have to go to them for skills development, are completely subject to a life of potential struggle, only because the school could not employ and educate sufficient teachers to teach the person, due to power and value given to a piece of paper so that the Elite of the world can get richer, due to the concept of profit, Loss, and 'the struggle that humans have to endure' to apparently appreciate Life 'more'.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to play this very ridiculous game, in which I will watch as my children go off to schools that have been limited in what and how they can teach due to an economic system that functions of off greed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to send my child into a world, that is in support of Elitism that only exists if we have a Capitalistic System that consists of Systems that divide people into rich and poor and for which the entire purpose of such a system is to function of of fear of survival and the funneling of funds to the Rich from the working class, while working class are left with only enough to survive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to call this economic game with people's lives - 'Life' and in fact even though I have seen for myself how children are limited due to a limited education system, which is managed according to this have/have not system mentioned above - to still support capitalism, due to the resonant hope and belief that one day I will become the lucky one that receives or makes allot of money - so that I too may experience that energy experience from 'feeling rich.'

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as educator and parent - to allow this abuse against life to continue, due to the inexplicable hope and absolute possessive desire to also one day have more money than other people - so that I may feel special as I shop for useless items in stores that 'other people cannot afford' and to be able to live in a bigger house than other people and to drive a 'better car than others' - all egotistical human games designed around finding self worth in the energy we experience when we 'have more' than others - in the ultimate human desire to be rich.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to continue allowing the Education systems of the world to be lacking and insufficient, with the excuses always being about there never being enough funding to educate the human to be a fully functional being - where we will cast more than half of the world population aside as they struggle to learn or even attain and education in the first place -all because we all secretly want and desire the experience of greatness, which is only possible if there is an opposite polarity of 'not having', not achieving' and not having money to buy stuff that makes you feel better than other people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the current economic system as a system of fear based survival of the Human Ego - to exclude more than half of the world population - where they are denied a basic effective education, based on learning all the skills necessary for us to function in this world -because I would rather still exist in this system where we have the have nots and those who have - because I am addicted to the energetic experience of being addicted to feeling self empowered - which exists only due to the power that we have given to 'having more than others' - which is only possible if you have an economic system that functions according to such separation.

I commit myself within the realization that I am not alone on this planet and that the world systems represent what I have already decided is Life for all on this planet and that if the world system says some people's lives are more important than others because of the useless pieces of paper they possess - then I stop and look within myself to see, realize and understand that what is apparently happening 'out there' to 'others' by 'others' is actually happening because of who I am - and all abuse exists because I have thus far given permission as has the rest op humanity.

I commit myself as I realize I have been a deceiver and abuser,by subtly and tacitly agreeing to world systems that abuse this physical reality for the game of profit - to ask myself the question - do I accept myself as this person - and within the realization and self honesty of no I am not this' - I then also realize that sitting back and waiting for the system to miraculously change simply because I wish it so - is not going to happen and history has proven that well wishing and positive thinking is not going to change it


I commit myself within this realization that it took my participation and permission and the participation and permission of all my generations before me, to design the system as it is now - which abuses Life on this planet - - and therefore it will take my direct participation to stop, undo and redesign a system that is truly what is best for all Life.

Thursday, October 18, 2012

Day 62: Education Fraud Part 23 – Medicalization of the Education System Part 11 - Self-Forgiveness on 'Professionals involved in the medicalizing process' Part 4

  This blog is a continuation from: 

" - As western society has become less tolerant of difference, and as medical,educational and psychiatric professions have developed, the range of behaviors identified or perceived of as pathological has grown (Porter,1987). This decreased tolerance and increased psychiatric surveillance over a broad range of behaviors and signs that once were accepted as part of the continuum of human possibility, but that now have become problems to be resolved through expert practice, has been termed the ‘psychiatriza-tion of difference’ (Castel et al., 1982)"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the intolerance of other humans and their behavior, due to me believing that what I think, believe, feel and pay attention to is 'right' and that others should think and believe as I do.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing society to become more intolerant as I give more power to my own fears, projected onto others - as what 'they' will do, say or make happen that could harm me or my family

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create this fear of what others will do, say, think or believe - because I know that my own thoughts are not to be trusted and that due to my backchat (inner conversations) I could potentially harm others - in moments where I always believe I am right - therefore by controlling society through drugs and institutions - we are all admitting that we are unable to trust our own thoughts and know that most who are placed in positions of control and power exert abuse onto people - as we could do if we allowed ourselves the position to act on our thoughts - and this is why I fear others as they fear me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as I then proceed to protect myself from others, to allow for religion, class and culture to exist as a morality-manipulation control point - from which I can control other cultures/people/minorities into being more like me and calling it 'God's will'.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing my secret mind thoughts to exist around harmful ideas and behaviors that I will never reveal to anyone, will never live, but do not want others to express either as I fear what they can do to me, but instead of developing self honesty in self forgiving the secret mind thoughts within me - I rather create control mechanisms, drugs and institutions, to force all people who have the same secret mind thoughts/patterns/characteristics as me, into controlled behavior and thinking.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give permission to the ‘psychiatriza-tion of difference’ as I would rather institutionalize, drug and marginalise people who are different or who's behavior is not yet understood - so that I dont have to admit to my secret mind thoughts, so that I may either live them out in secret through things like pornography and watching sports (allowing the inner experience/feeling of violence/comparison/competition) or have another profit from controlling my darkest thoughts and urgest - whereon I will justify that I am supporting the economy by allowing others to make a profit from my experience - that in the end there is something to gain from what I am doing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the internalisation of self control to exist as an illusion of personal power, which is fueled by the idea behind giving people medications and labeling people, which allows society to control the person within society, which gives everyone a place in the word, even if it means nobody finding solutions to what is here but instead ignoring it through means of controlling it.

To be continued

Monday, October 15, 2012

Day 61: Education Fraud Part 22 – Medicalization of the Education System Part 10 - Self-Forgiveness on 'Professionals involved in the medicalizing process' Part 3

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 - It has been argued that, in the United States, educators have come to embrace ADD/ADHD and drug therapy as a result of decreased access to the use of traditional educational social controls of physical discipline and student expulsion or suspension (Kiger, 1985)

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define education as a system of controlling children's behavior and thinking

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that children are not yet capable of understanding self responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to expect people to exists within certain morality parameters, set up by and through people who have not yet self honestly looked at the design of emotions, feelings, memories, reactions and the general nature of thought and how it influences people's behavior - but then to expect children to grown up within this structure of human psyche that has over time proven to be unstable and ineffective - as we can see by the consequential outflow that has become 'an ADHD child' or a child with Cognitive/behavioral Difficulties.'

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself, even though the proof is here that we do not yet grasp the design of the Mind and we do not yet fully comprehend the consequences of the current accepted way of Mind-behavior called Consciousness and 'Human-Thought - to continue giving such power to the current Psychology and Education Systems, which clearly do not yet have a grasp on why the human has become increasing violent, unstable, unpredictable and emotionally volatile - but instead to place generation after generation of children through the same brainwashing, simply because those were the accepted ways of preparing a young child - the same as what we were subject to.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the Education System to stand as the responsible party that is apparently above reproach, when clearly the system of Education is flawed as we can see - as the human more and more disregards others and the physical reality in the name of inner energetic experiences based on self interest.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as parent to simply allow educators to use drugs to control and manage my child's behavior, instead of realizing that they do not have the answers and that they too are trapped in political agendas behind why human nature is exploited and controlled for the personal gain of minority groups, who profit from the fucked up nature of the human.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not stand as self responsibility and to act out abusive behaviors towards my world and others - which then manifests as the education system having to implement control measurements in the form of physical punishments.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the behavior of the child to be so rebellious and reactive to its environment/rules/expectations, that after a while the education system has to place a ban on physical punishment in schools, indicating that there is a maladjustment in how the humans behavior develops, due to the imprinting of images through media, television, the internet and the examples that are set for children through the behaviors of the parents and the rest of society.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wait until the education system has to ban physical punishment in school, forcing teachers to turn to drugs to control children, due to the fact that I as human, as parent have never considered what we have become as the human as the way we think, behave, speak and live - whether it be in secret or in the open.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not really care about what happens to the world, about what I participate in, what I do to others, what I say about others, what I think/believe about others or myself - but when my child starts behaving in the exact same manner of not caring and not wanting to stick to society/parental/morality rules - then I go up in arms and subject the child to drugs and punishment, as I simply repeat what was done to me by my educators/parents when I was a child, instead of stopping and changing all of these patterns as they exist by taking responsibility for myself, my world and how i prepare my children to be fully functional beings, considerate of themselves and other as Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the current education system which controls what we teach children and how children must understand the world and live in it - which comes directly from the control of the human into accepting the current world systems of money, into which they will be walking into, in order for them to survive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing this control of the information and development of the children into organic robots that compliantly accept the system, no matter how much abuse is directly and indirectly caused in the name of money and greed - while at the same time leaving the parents and educators with little, restricted or no solutions as to how to direct these conflicted, outward/reactive behaviors - all because those who control human behavior for money understand that to allow further friction within society, ensures that the false leadership and authority that currently exists, will always be depended upon, as humanity believes we require the sciences and governments to solve our problems for us - because we have never considered self-responsibility and self honesty.

Therefore as the parents refuse to take self responsibility for who they became, what type of world they create and then what their children became - the outflow of that is a world in peril, with Capitalists profiting from the conflict, fear and need for outside forces to control human behavior.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as educator and parent, to refuse to see that my child - is representing the next generation of the human race which is not the living image of what is best for all, but mere characters surviving according to the ego - as each human tries to be famous and have their special experiences, regardless of the cost to other lives. That is why we are seeing children expressing themselves in ways that irritate and concern the parent - however if the parents were to really look at the child's behaviors - they will see that the child mirrors what they see at home, on television, on the internet and around them in the world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing this cycle of perpetual bullying and lack of self responsibility from the child and adult to continue in ever increasing cycles, where children are behaving more and more 'outwardly/reactive' and the 'authorities' are proclaiming that there is less and less educators and parents may do about the behavior - other than of course supporting a multi billion dollar drug industry that keeps the population addicted, dependent and believing the human is 'flawed'.

I commit myself to develop a world system that removes money-determined research/policies and implementation of living standards - to a system that firstly exists to support Life, where the 'systems' that currently exist will purely be there as support foundation from which information is drawn and life-support-modalities can be designed according to.

Equal Money System - Education Goal:

 "Education in an Equal Money System will prepare Each Human to become a Self-Aware, Responsible Part of the Human Race that lives a fulfilled and Extra Ordinary Life of Excellence, Happiness and fun. Equal Money will Ensure that every Citizen is Effectively Educated to Live in Harmony with Plants, Animals and the Environment in General."

Friday, October 12, 2012

Day 60: Education Fraud Part 21 – Medicalization of the Education System Part 9 - Self-Forgiveness on 'Professionals involved in the medicalizing process' Part 2

This blog is a continuation from:

If you have a moment I suggest read the following article:

This blog's self-forgiveness is focussed on the content of the article, specifically the summary provided in

Day 58: Education Fraud Part 19 – Medicalization of the Education System Part 7 - Professionals involved in the medicalizing process.

" - the medicalization of ADD/ADHD was, at the time of the study, far more entrenched in Canada than in the UK in both professional and lay circles. It is not surprising, then, that mothers describe a high preparedness of teachers in Canada to accept the ADD/ADHD label when compared withdescriptions of UK educators."

I forgive myself as parent for accepting and allowing myself to be condition by and through society, doctors ans scientists into accepting the human condition as it currently exists, as a flawed organic robot, which exists as a consumer, fragile and waiting to die, requiring drugs and conventional thinking tied in with the morality code we have come to accept - even though we are able to see generations down the line that who we have accepted ourselves to be up until now, is not the image and likeness of self perfection - but a conglomeration of thought patterns dictated to us, to lull the human into accepting ourselves as needing to be fixed/guided/controlled.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as parent to become and allow the same thoughts within my mind about how I should act, feel, think, believe ad function - as what is considered acceptable by the rest of society - not seeing, realizing and understanding the consequences of simply accepting what has thus far been accepted as 'normal' human behavior.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the condemnation that has been subjected onto and as humanity, as I also allow religion, beliefs and culture to dictate my every move, even though we have proven through time that religious and spiritual people have up until now not been able to change the psyche of the human, and instead hide behind words like jesus, god and the bible to not have to face our own creations and to take direct self responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to subject my child to this same self-brainwashing as I train my child from young into emotional and feeling addictive patterns - where I myself have come to believe that energy patterns of the mind are who we are supposed to be - without actually considering that the child who is born into the physical did not have all these emotion and feeling behaviors - and that through examples I trained the child to conjure up emotions and feelings within them, by linking these energetic reactions to pictures, words and experiences - thus trapping my child into a life time of manipulating self and other for emotion/feeling energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to train my child how to create characters to fit into this world and through this takes away from my child the ability to simply live, here in this physical reality, as the physical, moving and directing themselves here in the body - but making it about adjusting themselves into and as a persona - which comes from a blueprint created in moments through impressions -to fit into situations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to train my children to accept themselves only if they are accepted for the characters they become, not realizing that these characters I trained them to become are not real - but simply like actors preparing for a role - where the child firstly imprints the energetic experience of the character with the thoughts around why and what the character is - which is connected to what the character will support the child in being able to do in the specific environment the character is stimulated within.

and it is for this reason, that as adult I sit and watch what the media does, what the education system says and what the scientists agree on - what is best for my child - because I have already submitted my thinking and the character creation process I go through to 'the authorities' who claim to do what is best for all - but in essence are only protecting an industry, which is designed to design the human into a functional organic system that requires the mind-system to function. Once the being accepts the Mind to function - we no longer exist in our physical bodies, equal and one to the body and are therefore trapped slowly through time, as we grow up into the mind as thoughts, feelings, emotions and backchat, which create systematic responses that then require of the bing to keep participating in these systems, due to the Mind functioning according to Energy. Therefore after a while, as we can now see happening to our children, the being becomes obsessed and dependent on certain behaviors and patterns, which allow them to constantly feed the energy patterns of the mind

this is why we see children for example becoming highly, obsessively addicted to tv games, cell phones, conversations, gossip, jealousy, fashion, trends, communication, sports, socializing, drugs, alcohol, activities - anything that constantly stimulates the mind to create energy.


we create energy junkies out of our children - and then claim as the parents that we dont know how our children became obsessive and out of control as they stop valuing life and only seek the next energy high - as we see happening more and more in more evolved forms on the internet and news everyday

That is why

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as adult to patiently listen to the scientists and accept any new law, therapy or diagnosis they have for my children, because I have already just like watching and engineer, engineer machines - watched as my children have through my direct participation, been turned into machines of the Mind - where everything that the child does, wants, desires and fears is linked to and because of a system of energy that is directing the child through thoughts to act according to the parameters/guidelines of the system.

If you are not clear on how the Mind is designed with regards to the points indicated above, I suggest read the Heaven's Journey to Life blogs - these blogs are written from the Interdimensional perspective looking into the exact minuscule, exact design of how the mind was created, how we evolve the mind, why we use the mind and how the Human exists paralel to how the current world system functions:

For more information on the Human and our behaviors:

I commit myself to when I start fearing living in the physical body as the Physical, instead of the Mind-System, to stop and breathe and to realize my commitment to Life as myself.

I commit myself, that when and as I become afraid for my child due to thoughts and backchat that starts running about 'how will my child survive in the system', to stop and breathe, and realize that the Mind-System as indicated in my reaction, is designed to survive and that it will use backchat, thoughts and idealized or feared pictures as moments (memories) to capture my attention and bring me back into the energetic pattern of fearing the what ifs, due to me giving permission to the feeling of fear that moves through my body.

I commit myself, when my my mind repeats the feeling as energy of fear, to stop and breathe and realize that the experience is not real and in any given moment I am able to stop the experience, just as I originally allowed the experience to 'come up inside me'

I commit myself as parent to stop judging my child and to stop allowing my own backchat and fear in relation to the system rejecting my child and my child dying if I do not follow the guidelines of the 'experts'

I commit myself as parent to become the director of my relationship with my own mind and body and from there to self purify my own relationship with myself, into a living expression of the physical.

I commit myself to walk this process of self purification, equal and one with my child and to not allow fear and the what if backchat inner conversations, to direct how I support my child's development.

Cool Quote for the day:

"with the Birth of a Child, the Physical Body which is a Quantum Physical Machine, integrates the Mind as a copy from the parents (you can see this with a Feral child where the child is brought up by a wolf, they will copy the Mind of a wolf) - with this happening by the time the child start using the Mind and categorizing the words, pictures, and energy design into a coherent story, which will eventually become the story that is thoughts, words, language, culture, religion, the child is already lost within and as the Mind and the connection with the Original Life Force as the Physical Body is already lost. Therefore, any and all communication within any and all points as Energy, as the Mind, as Spirituality, as Consciousness, is the result of a preprogrammed design, specifically and deliberately placed to Control the Story to be what Heaven wants it to be, and from this, through time, developed our present day media in all its forms - doing exactly the same: as above so below. "


 Malacrida C, "Medicalization, Ambivalence and Social Control: Mothers’ Descriptions of Educators and ADD/ADHD." Publication Date: Jan 1, 2004. Accessed on 8 Oct 2012.

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Day 59: Education Fraud Part 20 – Medicalization of the Education System Part 8 - Self-Forgiveness on 'Professionals involved in the medicalizing process' Part 1.

This blog is a continuation from:

If you have a moment I suggest read the following article:

This blog's self-forgiveness is focussed on the content of the article, specifically the summary provided in

Day 58: Education Fraud Part 19 – Medicalization of the Education System Part 7 - Professionals involved in the medicalizing process.

- ADD/ADHD is medicalized through educators, medical practitioners and members of the
 psy sector, the complex of social work, psychological,psychiatric and helping professionals that handle mental health and psycho-logical issues within a given culture (Donzelot, 1997).

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the medicalization of childhood/adult behavior through and by the 'educators, medical practitioners and members of the
psy sector', who apparently after decades of research and discussions, have still no clear understanding of how the human behaves, how the mind works and how generational designing and construction of characters/personalities/traits within consciousness functions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to accept that there is a inability for these sectors to agree on how to work with the human and how a human's mind develops due to environmental, societal and genetic factors.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give credit to these sectors that claim to understand how the human functions and what solutions are best - while admitting also that they do not have the answers, and instead of then sticking to self honest research, to see and understand how a human child develops, they instead allowed capital/profit, to dictate the future of research where it is now, where it is clear to see that everyone is protecting their profession and their research, which does not have the end result of 'best for all' - but results directly in 'best for profit/gain.'

I commit myself to stop any and all desires, needs, wants to have what I do in life be about money or about my self worth.

I commit myself to develop who I am according to developing myself into a fully functional being and to develop what is here to support the physical reality to be the best that we can be, therefore

I commit myself to develop what I do and how I live, according to what is required for all who inhabit this planet to live dignified lives within oneness and equality to what is here as this physical reality - which supports life, whereas the human destroys life.

I commit myself to stick to the basic of common sense and my principle of 'doing what is best for all' - while performing any task, research or development, as it is life that I honor equally for all and not personal gain and the value given to Life to serve the needs of energy for the satisfaction of the human.

- Medicalization is not always complete, but occurs in varying degrees, depending on whether competing definitions of the problem exist (as is the case withADD/ADHD), and on the relationship between professionals who are involved in the medicalizing process (Conrad, 1992). With ADD/ADHD,there are gaps in the medicalization process at both the conceptual level and the institutional level.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as researcher and professional to only be concerned with establishing my profession and its opinions, so that I may become a 'somebody' in the professional community due to my ability to compete with other professionals and repeat knowledge and information from a book, as if this makes me Life and where I give myself permission to abuse life for knowledge and information mostly generated separate from how the physical really functions - but instead plays a role in the functioning of what is heer to serve Capitalism.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the separation of professions to exist, due to the starting point of ego and power, where the human has sacrificed doing what is best and serving life, for the opportunity to use other's lives to advance ones own.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as professional to lie about why i became an educator, researcher, psychologist, therapist or medical professional - where if I was to trace back in time to the moment where I decided to study within this particular profession, I will be able to see - that a fear or desire for self gratification and desire for power over others existed within me, which through the participation in thinking, resulted in me weighing up the best way for me to outshine other humans by following a well respected profession in the eyes of other humans, so that I may experience myself through my ego, or where I made the decision to get away from/avoid a particular fear and thus sought a particular profession which would allow me financial/emotional security, or respect through the eyes of others, so that I do not have to face the fear of who I will be if I dont become 'special'.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel empowered by being able to recite knowledge from books and to be able to play the power game with other professionals in my/similar fields, and for not realizing that by seeking a career that leaves me feeling empowered without actually empowering humanity, illustrates that my starting point was never about what is best, but to chase/appease some inner experience of energy - at the cost of the lives of society who will look towards me to do what is best.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing professionals to not do what is best and for accepting this failure of these sectors to understand and direct child development effectively, due to my own acceptance of the lie, which is that of the 'broken/fragile/frail/sick' human, which all of humanity have come to accept.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the entire deceptive con around 'not quite knowing what is wrong/what the solutions are' - because in that way children/families and humanity will always be dependent on drugs/chemicals/therapies/the medical, psychological and educational professions for guidance/support/solutions/quick-fixes - under the illusion that the human is somehow faulty/corrupt and is always without self responsibility/self-honesty, and will always require a religion/spirituality/god or government to guide us - and this is how the dependency cycles that have been developed and maintained to support the existence and survival of capitalism continues.

I commit myself to find and establish solutions based on how things really work, not how I want them to work.

I commit myself to stop all industries of dependence, based on human greed/self interest and to develop a society/community that is self responsible human beings living equal and one to the physical reality.

I commit myself to show, that for those who became professionals in fields of human development/care, that did so to support humanity, for us it is possible to continue our work and to effectively research once and for all human development to the outcome of what is best for all, with the implementation of an equal money system - where the focus is the development and support of Life.