Showing posts with label paranormal. Show all posts
Showing posts with label paranormal. Show all posts

Friday, February 13, 2015

Day 199: I want my Demon!

Thus far I have been writing a blog series on How to write blogs, but I wanted to just quickly insert this blog, because it is a point that I have been noticing lately and have been wanting to do a blog on - so here goes.

This subject is specifically about the paranormal community - or what I have come to see as a community of people who are not interested in the truth of any particular subject, but who seek entertainment through creating Mental Disorders within themselves. Let look at the general definition of Para-normal which is: derived from the Latin use of the prefix para meaning "outside or beyond" what is considered normal. It is interesting because one definition of para is also abnormal - which ties in with my experience I have been having lately towards and in relation to the Paranormal community. Don’t get me wrong - I use to be obsessed with demons and ghosts myself, and if you had told me 10 years ago that ghosts no longer exist or that I am creating my own feelings of 'being followed by a ghost/demon' in my mind and in my body and that I was creating my own demon possession I would have also laughed in your face and yelled 'I want my Demon'. But what I have noticed lately is that the Paranormal community are not interested much in any form of truth. They want to feel Special through experiencing Abnormal mental states - I will walk an example with you in a minute:

Creating the Abnormal is obviously not limited to the Paranormal community - as this is a human trend -something that through our behaviour and addiction to media and social networks - has become who we are as the way we talk, behave and the things we as humans give value to in general. I mean if you look at the things that people get up to and the things that are out there on social networks through which people get attention from others and how this is just getting more preposterous and desperate; - it definitely shows that in time the 'Abnormal Behaviour' section under 'Psychology' will either have to be expanded on in the DSM classification of Mental Disorders  OR we will have to remove classifications of Mental disorder and call everything 'Normal'.


My definition though of normal is different from what society classifies as normal. The things that abuse Life on this planet in various forms, has become 'normal' ways of 'being' - this is what we call 'being human'. From my perspective to be this is abnormal behaviour if I consider that we as humanity have greater potential that what we are currently living and most certainly what we are heading towards. Therefore to me 'normal behaviour' such as self honesty, self correction, self responsibility and self awareness is normal if I consider what principles I want to live by as a human, based on what potential I see exists for us, instead of accepting the Principles we currently live by as 'Humanity/Society'.

Ok - back to the Paranormal community. A few years back we started the Desteni group and along side that we decided to launch a Demonology website, to share our findings on demonology and the Afterlife. We created a forum and invited people to come and work through what they perceive to be demon/ghost possession/influence and get to the core of the Consciousness connection between 'Paranormal experiences' and the Mind of the 'experiencer'. At the time I was wondering how we will be able to handle the influx of people who are desperate to sort out their demon/paranormal experiences. Alas this did not happen and in fact the opposite happened - the paranormal community ran far far away.

For example - every now and again somebody will come to the Demonology website or forum and ask about a ghost or demon that they think is following them or trying to or is possessing them.

I walk them through a basic explanation that ghosts/demons no longer exist - other than what experiences are created within the Mind of the individual which always has a starting point in some past event/memory - and how the person is dealing with their live and environment. Thus the paranormal becomes the explanation as to why we are having dark thoughts, fantasies, illusions, fits of violence, the constant feeling like something wants to hurt us, depression, possession, the desire to escape their lives/minds, the desire to be special, to avoid real trauma and place the emphasis on trauma caused by a 'dark force' etc…

I then suggest reading/viewing material to further explain my point, and ask the person to come back to the forum when they are ready to start exploring their 'Paranormal' experience. This is where something truly paranormal does happen - the person disappears lol. Never to be seen again. Not sure if it is some vortex, triangle or enveloping shadow, but the person simply vanished. Odd.

Anyway - so in time I realised that the reason why I found it so strange that people did not want to come and learn the tools to become stronger and get to know their minds and how they created internal experiences, is because for a moment I forgot that I too once thought I was very special and unique when I was being followed by a demon. Looking back now of course I realize that in my past I was rather silly about these kinds of things and that my entire desire to interact with demons was an energy thrill that I was seeking, which gave me something to do - but also made me feel mysterious and different. I mean you could create quite a list of why we do the things we do, bit what I have found primarily is that people get a compete rush off of the strange, the exiting, that which gives us a kick - because it entertains the mind which has become more and more addicted to energy - vastly more so over the last 10-20 years.

So what I have found is that the Paranormal community create their experiences as a form of entertainment and in most cases it becomes about drawing an experience out for as long as you can. Therefore obviously it would be rather boring if a person had to admit that they are not demon possessed, but are actually possessing themselves - it is just not the same!

Unfortunately as I indicated above this is not only in the Paranormal community that we do this - it exists in many forms within Society - it is just that in the Paranormal community you can basically create anything you want and because everyone is doing it, people are not really going to question each others motives or evidence. In the paranormal experience you can believe in faeries, or UFO's or shadow men or vortexes etc… the list goes on. In the end what I found is that if one stops the addiction to the energy, then you will find that your mind - should I say 'you' will use your imagination less and less, because this is where the imagination comes in - it creates an image of something which you have read about or are aware of as being 'dangerous' or strange' and produces visions/flashes/pictures in relation to this imaginary 'danger' - and 'viola' from there your mind starts producing reactions and responses physically and mentally to this 'threat/problem'. And obviously if a paranormal event/issue' is caused by repressed emotions and repressed memories - then the mind will project its reactions onto this 'danger' that exist 'outside' of the person. Thus the mind gets to experience the emotions and reactions in relation to the danger, which for most also becomes part of an energy addictive pattern, but without facing the core problem. This mostly happens, because we have never been taught to look 'inside', but that our problems and reactions are due to other people or events. Therefore for the paranormal enthusiast - we are automatically trained to look outside ourselves for an inkling of a strange occurrence which could be responsible for our internal experiences...

Friday, September 19, 2014

Day 157: The Paranormal Series part 18 - Demons vs. Angels part 5

Todays blog is a continuation from:





"Children are not born believing that an Allah or a Jesus or a Satan sits somewhere above (or below) them watching their every move, punishing them at random  times if their bad (or good?) behaviour and removes all responsibility fro them just because 'they worship' and thus allows them to participate in a world where cause and effect is the law, but because of 'beLIEve',  cause and effect apparently does not touch the religious . Children are not born believing that animals are there for us (created by the invisible dude in the sky) to do with as we please. I could keep going with examples, but I think you get what I am saying…"



So getting back to my filters. I remember reading books on the paranormal and being completely perplexed and dumfounded that such things could exist. Now this is where I bring in my above mentioned point about religion and brainwashing. Maybe, just maybe, if my parents has not been brainwashed to fear god and to fear ghosts, but to embrace the reality of the situation - which is that there is no real proof of god - therefore you don’t have to lie about who you are in this life, and to not fear questioning why would god leave spirits to roam the earth in confusion - because questioning 'god' is a taboo topic - then maybe I would have had the confidence to ask the questions relevant to understanding the paranormal. But instead I had to buy books in town and read alone, pondering to myself what all of this could mean. You did not ask adults, because by golly - you just don’t ask those kinds of questions and if you do -you get very short answers such as 'ghosts don’t exist', or 'it is gods will(?), or 'don’t ask me ask your father', or 'don’t speak about that', 'it is of the devil'…. LOL I remember once in school either myself or another child took out some book about devil worship from the library. A few days later another child also took out a book about the occult and this put up a red flag for the school and all books on the occult/devil worship were duly removed. Children were being influenced by the devil! So obviously, I was aware that such topics were frowned upon and leaned towards developing quiet ways of buying books and reading by myself.

So the point I am getting at is that I like most children, never really dealt with the actuality of the truth behind the paranormal, because not even my parents, siblings or other adults I came into contact with had a clue about the paranormal and why it existed, and thus my interest turned into an ENERGY - a weird dark -as I called it before 'macabre' energy that sat in my chest and in my belly it transformed into a ball of anxiety as excitement as I was faced with this strange, ultimately unclear 'realm'. Even into my early adulthood I held onto this energy and by then it transformed into a 'look at what I am into' energy as I become a bit of a rebel against society and wore my 'paranormal' interest like a badge and ultimately a shield - which protected me from increased paranoia about boys and peer pressures and the increased pressure to do well in school. I believed that I was special and cool because I did not have a religion and dared to lift the covers and look at what was underneath the bed. Obviously I did not really see what was under the covers because I did not have a frame of reference at that stage of what could possibly be going on. In my mind, I too (like the adults) had mere frames of reference and unfortunately they were pretty much also based around 'demons are bad', and angels are good.

Only years later (which is where my involvement wit Desteni comes in) do I start to see and understand that there were even deeper truths, which in my younger years I would not have been able or willing to listen to and this was mostly due to the fact that my 'intrigue' as I mentioned earlier had turned into an energy which I had become accustomed to and therefore, this was the start of my interests into all things new age and paranormal - where my life choices from there on were mostly shaped by my desire to follow this energy of 'mystery and intrigue.' More in my next blog…

Day 156: The Paranormal Series part 17 - Demons vs. Angels part 4

Today's blog is a continuation from:



"In the next part I would like to also address personal experience with regards to what Mykey mentions when he speaks about 'people following the energy' which is why we have 'spirituality' because this definitely related to me as well as the point he speaks about when he says that demons could change their vibrations so that of the same energy as beings that came from 'heaven' - I have an interesting story to share there as well."


So in the previous blog I mentioned that I would like to share my own experiences around 'following the energy' -and by this I am not only referring to the positive 'light worker' type energy, but also the dark demonic energies.


As I have mentioned in previous blogs, I always moved around and within polarities when it came to spirituality - depending on my mind set and what my current economic situation allowed. For example if I was in a stage/state in my life where I was trying to make a life for myself, I would go after the positive energy (which I will speak about more further down). Then as things would crash and I would find myself yet again bored with my life or afraid or angry then I would swing towards the negative. Heck - looking back now - I remember finding a balance between the 2 points and living both - lol. Yes, I would play around on the Ouija Board talking to demons about how bad life is and how everything sucked - while my profession was a Kinesiologist and 'healer'. This obviously happened, as I have come to realize because I was (as most are) in conflict about who I was and how I was living versus what I wanted to be.

So I am now going to take a look back at how I designed these 2 different energy-polarity personalities. My earliest memories of starting an interest in the Paranormal was probably already around the age of 8/9. It started with me watching tv shows like 'Sightings' and 'Ripley's believe it or not' which peaked my interest in the unknown, the bizarre and the unbelievable. From there I started buying books on ghosts and the paranormal and definitely developed a fascination leaning more towards ghosts/poltergeists/demons than UFO's and the rest. I remember the feeling now - it was always in the centre of my chest - this energy which if I could describe it was 'macabre', 'anxious' and 'mysterious'. The anxious energy specifically related to 'the unknown', in dealing with or coming into contact with things 'out there' that were invisible and I did not know when or how it could interact with me. I supposed one could say that those were typical childhood interests in anything that peaked an interest and stimulated the imagination.

I also recognise the energy as being that of 'curiosity' and 'intrigue' - where as a young person my mind was obviously being trained by my parents, society, teachers and my religion to not have and develop common sense or to even really ever know or stand within the truth of things - but to be an observer in life or 'that which gives life meaning' - meaning have you noticed how we as humanity value that which supports the lies we hold onto and therefore if anything is being faced - the mind will have difficulty grasping the straight truth, as it will filter what is happening through how we are programmed to deal with reality? For example (for those of you thinking huh?); as children our parents think we are pretty dam stupid. They tell us bald faced lies about god and money and love and how the system works and about fake human values etc… As a child we often question these values and norms - because as they say 'the mind of a child is innocent' -which essentially means the child has initially not been trained to bring up bulshit filters to filter the truth of situations -and therefore will directly ask questions. The parent/caretaker/adult will mould the perceptual abilities of a child and in some religions and cultures even abuse children verbally, physically and emotionally - until the child beLIEves the same mumbo jumbo as the parent.

This is Brainwashing ladies and gentle man - at its best. And here we tend to vilify groups - where we call them 'cults who brainwash people' - but this is exactly what happens to children in almost every house hold. The child is not born believing in invisible gods and worshiping money over all life - they are taught this by the parents and society. Literally the parent takes a child's fresh, clean, blank mind and washes through it with knowledge and information that have absolutely nothing to do with this physical reality and which harm the physical reality extensively. To give you an example: a child is not born beLIEving that little blond girls are prettier than girls with brown hair - this is brainwashed into children to prepare them, as the adult had to do to become brood-stock to be picked by the strongest man with the most stable income to provide for her so she can make babies (sounds crude but hey when the shoe fits…).


Children are not born believing that an Allah or a Jesus or a Satan sits somewhere above (or below) them watching their every move, punishing them at random times if their bad (or good?) behaviour and removes all responsibility fro them just because 'they worship' and thus allows them to participate in a world where cause and effect is the law, but because of 'beLIEve', cause and effect apparently does not touch the religious . Children are not born believing that animals are there for us (created by the invisible dude in the sky) to do with as we please. I could keep going with examples, but I think you get what I am saying...

Friday, August 22, 2014

Day 152: The Paranormal Series Part 15 – Demons vs. Angels part 2

The complete 'Paranormal Series' thus far:


Today's blog is a continuation from:

Day 149: The Paranormal Series Part 13 – Demons vs. Angels part 1


Which is based on the following Interview:

Demons in the Afterlife Part 5: The Hypnotic Experience of Angels/Archangels/Guides Vs. the Darkness of the Demons



This Interview is a great start and introduction into the explanation and insights by this this ex-demon (Mykey), into how demons used what was already existent in the human mind as 'consciousness' to be able to do what they did during demonic possessions and demonic interference. For example Mykey (demons name) says the following key point:

"We only always used what was existent in the Mind"

He goes on to basically start explaining how the layers and levels of the Mind is obviously quite hidden from us, and all that we have access to currently is the conscious mind and within that we are even limited. So as an example of what he is referring to - he is saying that we are only aware of some of our thoughts and emotions, not even the faster moving thoughts and experiences. We become aware during our day and within experiences of the thoughts and emotion/feeling experiences that are more predominant. Underneath all that exists within the conscious mind are the subconscious and unconscious mechanisms that lead to the conscious experiences -which would be the end result of what goes on in the background.

These 'background' mechanisms from the conscious mind to subconscious and unconscious would further more include the Quantum Mind and Quantum Physical - where our experiences that we live moment by moment are actually quantumly created, which basically means that one moment such as a thought 'I do not like him' is actually programmed into the mind on a quantum level where the mind is busy with hundreds of 'calculations' and programs using belief systems, fears, ideas, personality designs, memories, desires, pre-programming, perceptions etc - to in one moment insert and create a response system to our external and internal experiences. Therefore, what we believe is self willed, self movement where "I" made that decision to have that thought or make that decision - is in fact shown to not be so.

That is why we say (at Desteni) that as humans, we are not really the directively principle currently of our own decisions and the thoughts, beliefs and ideas that exist in our minds- because we are not currently aware of exactly what 'ingredients' if you will, went into the conscious experience we have. Therefore, what Mykey is referring to in this interview is that the demons could see the time line of events/experiences (ingredients) that went into what wes human experiences on the superficial conscious level. And because they had access to the design layer of our conscious experience - they could tap into these 'elements' or 'ingredients' and bring that to the surface or into expression to be able to express/say/do what they wanted to do.

So for example a demon could be shouting, swearing, and carrying on in all sorts of strange ways - and as we all are aware of - this would mostly in historical documentation of 'demonic possession cases' be viewed as 'irrational and strange behaviour - would which be classified as purely something that the demon is doing to the human subject. However if you actually look 'behind the scenes' you will notice that the demons will merely playing with the machinery/mechanisms (hence the name of our series: 'Quantum Mechanics of Paranormal Events') that makes up the human mind. Therefore I suggest listen to this interview as it gives insight into developing an understanding of why demons carries on the way they did and that we as humans were not merely 'innocent' subjects to a 'wild, strange and uncontrollable' imagination of a demon - but instead, were the actual machines that made it possible fro demons to do what they did because everything was already existent within us.


Most Republican Voters Believe In Possession By Demons




To be continued...

Tuesday, April 29, 2014

Day 136: The Paranormal Series Part 6 – The being that died as Fear (part 1)

Other blogs in my Paranormal Series:

Day 131: The Paranormal Series - Ghosts and Demons Part 1
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-131-paranormal-series-ghosts-and.html 

Day 132: The Paranormal Series – Ghosts and Demons Part 2
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-132-paranormal-seriesghosts-and.html
Day 133: The Paranormal Series – Ghosts and Demons Part 3
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-131-paranormal-series-ghosts-and_19.html 
Day 134: The Paranormal Series Part 4 - A Psychic’s Gate Keeper (part 1)
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-134-paranormal-series-part-4.html
Day 135: The Paranormal Series Part 5 - A Psychic’s Gate Keeper (part 2)
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/04/day-135-paranormal-series-part-5.html

This blog is based on the following Interview:

Journeys into the Afterlife - The Being that died as Fear


”I was one of the first Demons that communicated through the Interdimensional Portal and there were quite a few of us demons that came through the Interdimensional Portal initially. and No the Interdimensional Portal was not a gate way or opening to hell that ‘unleashed’ all the Demons of existence or that had been damned to hell by ‘god’. I think human beings had done a pretty good job of that yourselves, in becoming the demonic forces on this earth and creating hell for yourselves…”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create an idea that there are demonic forces ‘out there’ creating chaos on earth, while never looking firstly inside myself at the forces that exist within me and rule and direct me into action each day.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that demonic forces exist in and has control over the world, myself and other people – without actually investigating what I am saying, by investigating how the world really functions, how society functions and how the psyche of the human works.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see demons as the beings that they use to be, before being consumed by rage, anger, fear, sorry etc, but instead to use their state of demonic-beigness to entertain myself and to project my own wrong doings or demonic nature onto.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as human to literally not give the demons any time of day, where I would categorise them and observe their nature, but never actually insist on  the white light or a god or a jesus to actually relieve or assist ALL demons from their plight.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to get to know demons, who they were, where they come from, what their experience was, but instead to keep them as my slaves, trapped forever in their state.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the limitation of knowledge and information in my mind that I acquired from books, religion, the internet, other people etc, to be my guide on what demons are or use to be – instead of exploring for myself why demons existed and why if there was a god, why he/she/it would allow a being to remain in such a way.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe in this knowledge and information so absolutely, that I would not investigate demons for myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be limited into my mind as mere beliefs and not action based on what is real and sustainable in this physical reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to call reality a ‘lie’ because when I compare it to the knowledge in my mind, which is knowledge from books and spirituality – because I don't want to face reality and take responsibility for my actions – I compare what I have done simply to my knowledge and because each person is doing this, we eventually allow all to become demons and demonise our planet- because all abuse becomes justified according to some form of knowledge.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not investigate what happens in this reality as it changes over time, thus showing that there are human behaviours, patterns and actions that create consequences over time – but instead continue on the same path, ignoring the consequences and having excuses ready for each manifested outcome/consequence, from my own behaviours and the behaviours from those who came before me.


I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to change and apply myself according to what is best for all, because I am still clinging onto the ideas and belief systems and knowledge./information from generations before me, whom designed the way they did things, simply out of fear of survival, just like the original cave man/woman designed their actions and ideologies based on fear of survival.

For more information on the process of Demons and Self -Forgiveness please listen to or read the following videos/documents:

http://demons.desteni.org/2011/02/the-history-of-demons-and-desteni-videos/

http://demons.desteni.org/2011/01/the-history-of-demons-and-desteni/ (transcription of videos)

http://demons.desteni.org/2011/10/the-new-demon/

http://demons.desteni.org/2011/08/demons-of-the-new-age/

http://demons.desteni.org/2011/01/demons-physical-and-interdimensional/

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Day 131: The Paranormal Series - Ghosts and Demons Part 1


For those who have watched or read my experience with Demon possession, with know that I have a long history with exploring the unexplained, ghosts/demons, the paranormal and I have dabbled with Wiccanism and Paganism. If you have not read/viewed my history – you are able to find my documentation here:

My process from there to understanding myself, my possession and demons:

 

  1. Interviews from the Farm 22: Talking Andrea and Portal Authentication with Jack

  2. http://forum.desteni.org/viewtopic.php?f=1&t=20

  3. http://andrearossouw1.blogspot.com/2013/01/changing-my-thoughts-will-change-me.html

  4. http://andrearossouw1.blogspot.com/2012/02/self-forgiveness-and-writing.html

  5. Ghost hunting

  6. Demons, Demon Possession and Entities part 1

  7. Demons, Demon Possession and Entities part 2

  8. Demons, Demon Possession and Entities part 3

  9. Demons, Demon Possession and Entities part 4


More information on the ‘Portal’ and the History of ‘Desteni’

 

  1. The History of Desteni Session 1

  2. The History of Desteni Session 2 - Discovering Heaven

  3. About the Demonology Website

  4. Demon Possession in Modern Times

 

So the reason why I wanted to walk this blog series is as follow: I have always been a great fan of ghost hunting/paranormal investigation stories/movies/documentaries. Like any ghost hunting enthusiast – I would experience an absolute thrill each time I could sit and watch a documentary on youtube or watch some scary movie about ghost hunters exploring/investigating haunted location – or some movie about demonic possession - where my heart would beat a little bit faster as I would wait in anticipation for some proof of life beyond death or to get a glimpse into the activities of some invisible force. I had an insatiable thirst to see or experience ghostly phenomena and I was absolutely fascinated by the intricacies of the mere existence of a thing like a ghost – ‘who are they, what are they experiencing and what are they capable of?’ Now these are the questions we ask ourselves, as ghost hunting enthusiasts, but what we are really experiencing is thrill seeking and the desire to understand more about life after death. For myself, I not only viewed the documentary/scene/video that I was watching from a thrill seeking perspective, but I always wanted to understand who or what do we become when we cross over – for us to become demons/ghosts bound to a person, location or object.

My fascination started after my father’s death – where I realized that I could actually sense and at times see an outline of him in my home. This I initially connected to a simple fascination with my father and the questions that were left unanswered after he died. Therefore I was not really sure if I was really seeing/sensing him or if my underlying fears and desires were the cause of my experiences. I felt lost without him and I also felt guilty for him dying – because I connected his heart attack to him having to much stress which caused him to have the heart attack. This burden I carried with me for many years until I discovered Desteni and was supported to let go of the guilt, the fear, the dependency , the inherent desire to be with my father and to slowly learn to give myself back to me and live my life.

To be continued…

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