Day 195: Writing a Blog part 5

Day 191: Writing a Blog Part 1

Day 192: Writing a Blog part 2

Day 193: Writing a Blog part 3

Day 194: Writing a Blog part 4

"So with blogging one is also walking a process or steps that one applies and fine tunes until you are comfortable with writing the type of blog you would like to write. Within blogging the topic that one chooses to write about will also be a process, meaning if one is using blogging/writing to explore oneself - then you are getting to know the tools of self exploration to be able to get to the relevant information and application required to change. If one is using blogging to write about how you see world problems and possible solutions - then again it will require a process of getting to know ones subject, and the layers of information around how this problem/issue came to be - and then getting to know ones solution and how the solution could/would be applied to the problem. Meaning there is no black or white template when it comes to exploring the world systems other than using some common sense and questioning how things work. So as a summary what I am saying is that when one begins blog writing realise that you are exploring how to write  blog - how to publish it (if one chooses to do so) and how to expand ones writing from there and take care of ones public profiles where one shares the writings - while at the same time developing the skills within the type of writing one is doing. Which will bring us to the next topic - what is it that you would like to write about?"

Alright so lets split blog writing into 2 - the one type of blog being 'world events and solutions' and the second type being 'personal change/process points'. In this blog we will discuss the first type 'world events and solutions'. So for those of you who have been following the Desteni blogs on for example the Living Income Guaranteed, have realised that behind these blogs obviously goes quite a bit of research and developing ones ability to address issues of the world, by firstly finding them (research) and secondly taking what is writing about the point - meaning the problems and suggested solutions apart, using ones own understanding of effective solutions to compare and assess what would be the best solutions to the problem. Obviously to work with the 'solutions' part - here one would already be seeing an effective approach such as Living Income Guaranteed which one is able to draw comparisons to.

Now this is where many people say they get stuck - firstly for most getting over the self-doubt is the biggest problem, where 'voices in the head' start telling you that your writings wont be good enough, they wont make sense, people will laugh at your attempts etc etc. Therefore firstly as I mentioned in the previous blogs - one is to realize that this kind of self talk is due to an underlying mind pattern that one has developed over the years, probably even since childhood - where memories of past events now determine how one experiences yourself. Therefore the end result of for example self doubt, self victimisation, self bullying, low self esteem etc - will be these irrational fears and phobias such as 'what if I am not able to write a blog'. Therefore the fear itself from within the mind - comes up and overwhelms us, and if we believe the fear, then we believe this overwhelming experience is real and that there is no solution. This is what we call 'getting stuck in the mind.'

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As I mentioned in the previous blogs, to overcome these self created belief systems and fears, as a immediate solution, I suggest developing and embracing an understanding that these aspects one have created within self, firstly is not real, because it is an irrational fear, and secondly is something that you are able to change - if you apply the steps to change them. For myself when I started writing - I could hardly string one sentence together and from there had the support to develop how I saw things and how to place that into writing. So no - it is not an instant thing and depending on your self created belief systems, you might have to apply yourself in common sense by stopping the abusive thoughts that do not serve you - while taking the ultimate self directive step to practise those things you believe you could not do. Obviously here it is about baby steps - to not overwhelm yourself or confirm your paranoia by go all for it, not getting it right and then proving to your beliefs that yes you could not do it. If this happens then know that you have created a lets call it 'self fulfilled prophecy' where you sabotaged yourself to get back to the same point you came from...

Day 193: Writing a Blog part 3

Day 191: Writing a Blog Part 1

Day 192: Writing a Blog part 2

"For those of you who are not familiar with the Desteni tools, what I am able to recommend in relation to your doubts, ideas and fears - is to use breathing when these reactions come up to 'stop' them. You use breathing in this instance to stabilise yourself out of the reaction meaning - as an example lets say you have the thought come up 'well what is the point because I have been bad at writing since childhood'. The solution to any reaction you are having, is to assess for yourself whether what exists inside of you in that moment is what is best for you - is it you living to your utmost potential?"

The next step is to realize that these thoughts we have around our self judgments - are not what is best for us - therefore as who we really are - how can these things be real? They only exist within the mind if we start participating in them often, whereby we attach emotional values to them, after which the mind physical relationship will on a mind and physical level start responding according to these self beliefs. For example of one starts thinking that one is ugly, because you value societies definitions of 'ugly vs pretty' as something real and relevant and something that you judge yourself by - then this will be the beginning of thought constructs and emotional reactions one will develop over time. For example one will have an experience where usually as a young person we will through the developmental stages of our minds as 'thought processes' start considering the things people say and do around us, on television and what our parents do. Because a child's mind is so impressionable and like a 'sponge' - taking on everything around it - what happens is that a child's identity is developed by taking in the values, fears, beliefs, influences from those around them.

So if a child is exposed to people talking about ugly versus beauty (for example), then they too will start 'thinking' and processing this information - developing their own self beliefs and beliefs about others/the world. From here the thought processes become mind patterns, personalities and characters - which are then set and is who we are into adulthood. But, unfortunately because we live in a society where money moves due to consumerism and consumerism only works if you make sure people have needs around personal self judgments - and needs are only created if you create a impression in society of lack and want and a constant drive for the idea of self satisfaction through the ideas of less/more and that judgments of ones appearance and attainments are 'real'. Meaning where we don’t teach our children that they already are here, complete as the physical body, but that we must always strive to feel fulfilled in our thoughts and emotions/feelings and because we educate them about how to feel bad and incomplete. This then creates the 'normal' human comparing and judging and fearing that we are not experiencing ourselves as complete because the mind creates experiences all the time that cause one to talk shit about ourselves. I am fat, I am ugly, I am dumb, what if they think this of me, what if they don’t like me, what if I don’t do well in that, what if my clothes aren't good enough, I need to have money so I can buy this and that, I wont be happy until I have this and that, what if my husband doesn't think I am sexy…. And so the list goes on and on -with the strange things we program into ourselves.

Then we live the rest of our lives churning around in our minds trying to resolve all of these nasty thoughts that are not what is best for all and is most certainly from my perspective not 'who we really are' For example I would like each religious person who claims they look up to some form a deity to sit next to that deity and let out all the weird belief systems in the mind. For example would you ask Jesus why he hasn’t bought new sandals because his old sandals make him look very uncool? Would you say to Jesus that if he ever wants to get laid he will go and get his dam hair cut into a style that is just like Justin Bieber's? Would you ask Jesus by he doesn't drink because that makes him uncool to be around? Would you ask Jesus if he wants to go shopping and leave his old robe for trendy stuff that will make him fit in? Would you take Jesus to a party and expect him to get trashed and talk shit and try and get laid? Would you tell Jesus to get 2 credit cards, maxed out, so that he could have a nice house in the suburbs with a nice big 4X4, while pretending he is happy, smiling to the nneighbors while really worrying all the time that he cannot pay his bills? Would you try to justify to Jesus why it is really ok to watch pornography? I mean if we had to really sit with a religious Deity we probably would not be able to open our mouths other than 'Hi how are you' because we know that what exist in the mind as our real thoughts and experiences are not really what we would like our god or deity to be privy to. So we create a separation between ourselves and the imaginary deities we worship in our minds - how odd. The deity only exist in the mind and therefore one is not even equal to this fictional character you create in the mind that is supposedly holding your moral compass. Boy oh Boy.


Any way - so my point being that we believe our thoughts to such an extent that we don’t question them - to the extent that through these thoughts and belief systems we will compromise our lives. So in tackling this project of 'writing' one is taking on what exist inside oneself and questioning where ones thoughts, belief systems, ideas and fears come from...

Day 191: Writing a Blog Part 1

A subject that often comes up for the people whom participate with at Desteni or in our online courses such as DesteniIProcess Lite and DesteniIProcess Pro - is how to write a blog. Now this in itself might sound easy, but for most of us writing does not necessarily come easy, especially when one takes an interest in exploring oneself, others or our world systems through writing. This is where many have said (and myself included) that they just don’t know how to bridge the gap between casual writing and more explorative, specific writing which entails looking into deeper designs and details around the particular subject you have decided to write about.

For example, many people express to me that they read the blogs written by people (such as in the Desteni group) and instead of them being struck with inspiration to get started and follow the example - they are left feeling resistant and 'blank' with anxiety. Some have said to me that they do not have writing skills and therefore surely cannot write like the people who's blogs they admire. I then explain to people that for most of us writing from the point of almost not even being able to write an introduction paragraph to more complex blogs with headings and sub topics - took years of practise and more practise.

Something important to take note of here - which I have noticed many people are not aware of: yes some people are born with a natural 'talent' or ability for writing. This is the same as for any other ability - I might be good with my hands to physically take something and work with it while another person might be 'programmed' mathematically - meaning give them something physical to do and they find themselves unable to grasp how to go about it - but give them a mathematic equation to work out and they shine. Same applies the other way around - the person who is born to work with their hands might be completely stumped if asked even the basic mathematical question. We are all like this, different in our strengths and weaknesses. This is what we call pre-programming - each human coming into this world with different programmed designs. From my perspective, neither one really being more important or less important than another - they simply 'are'. Only in our monetary system have we equated skills according to specific values according to what money revolves around that particular skill - and have all brainwashed ourselves to believe that through this some skills are more valuable or even relevant than others.

Children will for example often select skill sets that are either pushed onto them by their parents or that which they see themselves enjoying. Either way monetary rewards are usually a consideration in the choices we make when we pursue a particular career or develop a particular skill set. Even the reward system of 'winning' and 'loosing' such as what one sees in sports etc - these are still part of the same monetary reward system - where instead of bank notes, one is rewarded with and every experience or one looses 'energy', such as 'feeling elated or proud versus depressed or sad - the one being a more 'up' type energy that surges into the body from the mind as the more positive energy experience and the opposite polarity would be a dropping of energy as one 'gives away ones money (energy) in the perception of loss to another. This will be experienced as sadness, depression, numbness, 'what is the point' etc.

So in this blog series - which will be over a few parts - I wanted to share what I have come to see and realize about blog writing. These insights and tools I suggest don’t only have to be applied to and by someone walking the Desteni tools, it can be used by any person who has an interest in writing/blogging but is not sure of how to expand themselves to be able to write the same as somebody they admire.

This part is about understanding that if one finds writing to not 'come naturally' that there are steps and techniques one can use to get to that same level of writing that ones sees others are able to do - which for al of us involved in writing meant practising each step bit by bit until we were confident and actually started enjoying writing. So in the parts to come I will be focussing on the different tools and considerations that I am able to share within 'Blog Writing'...

In the meantime if you want to check out some examples of Blogs such as what I am refering to:  https://www.facebook.com/7yearjourneytolife

Day 111: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Solutions to the Socio-Economic causes of Drug use (Part 15)

This blog is a follow up on:

Day 110: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: The Socio-Economic caused of Drug use (Part 14)

In the 2 previous blogs, I discussed the socio-economic type problems we are facing behind the reason why people are turning to substance abuse as a means of coping with the individuals inner-mind-emotional experiences, as well as for the external environmental experiences - that the individual experience/perceive to be beyond their control.

So to summarise - from where I discussed the internal experiences as well as the economic struggles that 'drive' the human to seeking a chemical influence on the Mind-Personality designs - lets take a last look at how to design and find sustainable solutions - for such problems - where the emphasis is on sustainable, lasting, effective, best for all solutions and not the current solutions that are merely existing to support an economy/profit/individual greed, not to actually resolve and solve the problem.

Therefore - looking back at the previous blogs - to recap - the solution for the internal - emotional and mental difficulties faced by humans currently - is to understand how the Mind works, especially how the Individuals personafamily influence/education/environment, their life experiences, their choices and their own personal likes/dilikes etc which contribute to the justifications and reasons behind how and why each person make their choices.
lised personality designs work - to understand these designs and specify the 'therapy' to identify specifically how the individual came to 'design' their personally - which obviously has been influenced by genetics, parental influence, education/schooling, their  family influence/education/environment, their life experiences, their choices and their own personal likes/dilikes etc which contribute to the justifications and reasons behind how and why each person make their choices.

This is for example where we have designed the various courses/ phases within the DIP Pro program and before one moves onto these programs we suggest to participate in the DIP Lite course which really develops ones writings, tools to understand how to develop ones introspection into your own mind - as well as structures writing exercises that allow the individual the space and time to explore aspects of our current thinking processes such as our emotions, feelings, thoughts, beliefs, values, fears, internal conversations etc.

This allows the individual on a personal mind-mental level to explore the reasons and causes of drug/substance use/abuse - and of course drugs/substances are only one method used by the mind to transfix the being into a state of safety, coping and enhancement of character traits - therefore any coping method can be adressed through the same method of introspection and structured writings/deconstructions - it is not therefore that the emphasis of my blogs in necessarily about drugs - it is to show the relationship between the human psyche/consciousness/mental functioning and coping mechanisms - and what this shows about the underlying problems faced within the individual and our society.

Day 27: International Crime Research – Child Pornography Part 11

The Secret Mind of the Pedophile - continued: 

This is a continuation from: http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-26-international-crime-research.html


In Day 26: Part 10, I walked Self-Forgiveness for the existence and allowance of the Secret Mind. Now I will apply Self-Forgiveness on the Thoughts, Pictures and Memories existent within the Secret and Conscious Mind – of this particular pedophile character (taken from Day 26 – Child pornography Part 10)

“It was a sudden interest in the images that developed due to a response from my body, which was then fueled by my mind through justifications as to why these images are enticing.”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to see an image of a naked or abused child and to connect to that a physical sensation of pleasure.



I commit myself to stop connecting relationship lines between moments and myself to use later on as characters.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use the damaged files of my secret mind where I have stored images and ideas linked to sexual gratification – to now in this moment experience sexual pleasure towards a child while looking at a the images through my secret mind which connects the image to the experience of wickedness, evil, control, purity, pleasure, to overwhelm, to need, to abuse, to inflict, to destroy, innocence lost, punishment, childlike, condemned, obscurity, manipulation, blame, etc.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself once I reacted sexually to the image of a child for the first or second time – due to how my secret mind connected gratification to the act of intimacy or harm to a child – to then become addicted to the energy and release of energy – whereby I then created the character of justification – as the voice that would come up inside – as that part of me that could manipulate me through specific words – to keep doing what I was doing – and that what I was doing were ‘my private moments’ – thus infusing into me my conscious participation as the weakness I had become as I decided to harm life – all for the experience of energy as addiction and the false sense of self-empowerment.

I commit myself to show how all symbolic experiences – which are all experiences we ‘give’ value to, which in essence separate us from the physical in self expression – is merely the mind as it programs the being into future reactions based on past memories that were given specific values – usually from within the secret mind where we store the information we experienced conflict towards from childhood as we saw, realized and understood that most of what we were taught was based in deception – as our parents lied about why and how we do things – because they were busy playing out specific characters that were trying to survive. Due to the fact that we as children were not trying to survive and were more ‘physical’ meaning here, breathing, expressing – and our ‘doing’ was not veiled in surviving – we could see, realize and understand with more clarity when our parents taught us their values, beliefs and ideas. Therefore I commit myself to not allow myself to teach a child any bulshit about why we exist, where we come from and who we are – and to stick to the basic common sense of that which we are here as a physical being on this physical planet – equally born to all other life – so that the only character the child becomes is that which is best for all.

“From there I experienced a combination of initial mistrust towards my own experience, but this did not last long as the energy of shame and guilt towards my own sexual reaction, turned to a new thought which surfaced where I simply knew that I liked it.”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use fear and morality, as a basis from which I turn whatever image I see into something that triggers reactions in me, which allows me to access my secret mind where I stored ideas of shame and guilt which we as children are taught by our parents and teachers as they stand as the examples of charging the mind by charging the positive polarities of good and negative polarities of bad – through the system of punishment and reward.



I commit myself to share how the education system teaches a child how to create patterns based on good/bad, right/wrong – where the patterns are fueled through polarities until the child designs themselves into a system – which cannot function unless it is being stimulated through fear, manipulation, pictures, words, hope, survival, etc – where eventually we do not live here in common sense as what is best for all – but instead live as character systems – that all have a trigger point, memories for information and a desired outcome depending on what was taught to the child the outcome should be. Most humans believe that they are following the outcome of comfort, achievement, intellect, family, acceptance, love, enlightenment, safety, god etc – but the outcome is actually dictated and designed by those who impulse human beings – which is greed, desire, comparison, ego, self interest, separation, conflict, fear, suppression, obsession, consumerism, etc – all characteristic of the perfect systems that wake up in the mornings – go participate in the money system and come home to the family where you design, create and educate the next generation of systems to serve as slaves to the world system – while all the while entertaining oneself in what we believe is individuality and human rights/freedom – but are all actions that further keep us trapped in the mind - which keeps us as unstable characters that are dependent on the world systems for our survival – where we will participate in the world systems and consumerism – as we attempt to alleviate our characters as we strive for resolution of that which we have really become.

“Somewhere from within me, from within my mind I became more and more comfortable with seeing images of naked children, having thoughts about their flesh which I would normally have about woman and then empowering my mind through further thoughts which made me feel alive with energy, as I was pulled between morality and sexual pleasure.”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not take self-responsibility for how I allowed myself to compound my thoughts – not realizing that I was in fact building and designing my physical response as my living self from the thoughts I participated in – as eventually my thoughts became me as the living flesh -as I gave in and followed my thoughts into action.



I commit myself to see, realize and understand the relationship between what we input into the mind and who we eventually become. I commit myself to show how the mind is not ‘something out there, harmless and ethereal’ where thoughts happen to us and at the same time have no bearing on our reality –– instead to show that all actions can be shown to follow a line of information from creation point to action.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define sex as a feeling in the body that happens in reaction to images of naked people.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe and to fuel my belief through how I have participated in sex, that sex is best experienced when a person finds ways to stimulate oneself and to become horny and then to chase a picture presentation of whatever will give one an orgasm.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to observe pornography and how this depicts sexual aggression and disrespect of the human form for profit – and from this to establish my starting point equal and one – in that woman (or men) are there to be fucked and that sex is so important that I must have it and if I don’t get it – that I will charge my mind through memories until I find material on the internet to masturbate to – not realizing that I created this character of masturbator myself, through participating in creating and fueling the value system around sex as it exists in this world currently – instead of taking self responsibility for myself within what I create in this world – of which one point is to realize that to abuse in the name of sexual gratification is not ok by me unless it is really ok by me – which again shows the character that I really exist as – as the real ‘Me’.

Day 1: What is my Journey?

As I walk my Journey to Life, I identify daily patterns, within which I exist as a pre-programed being, according to how my parents lived and how Society expects us as Humans to exist – where there is no or little regards for who we have really become. I have come to realize from myself that most of my experiences have been based on fear, survival, envy, competition, desire, addiction to energy etc. All of these patterns suppress the life within me and the Life within all living on this planet as we live to appease our current designs, instead of fully living without fear, without judgment, without being dependent on energy of the mind; for each to get to a point where we live here in our physical bodies, fully supportive of ourselves and each other as Life, not as Systematized beings, who live to survive.
By identifying my own patterns and applying self-forgiveness I clean the slate of what I have been, to align myself into a being that lives what is best for all life. The writings will consist of the identification of the pattern, the self-forgiveness and the commitment to and as self of change, to be spoken and lived as a self-directive principle of self.
This process will continue for a minimum of 7 years and no part of self-forgiveness will stand alone as it forms part of the whole as what we have accepted and must be read in the context of all the billions of patterns that requires self forgiveness and deletion and correction with effective life willed commitments.

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Do this for you as only you are responsible for you.

Understand that I do self-forgiveness here for all patterns regardless whether it form part of my immediate life. To expand to be equal to what is here in every way, one can only be so by actually becoming all the parts and placing yourself at the very least in a position that if you ever should encounter such point, you will be able to direct it in ways that are best for all life in response to the directive commitment you place. Self-forgiveness thus is the Giving to yourself within the context of a space time reality, the power, authority and responsibility and ability to walk and participate in every relationship that may ever exist as Life in every way with the effect and outcome as that which is best for all life.

If you are not ready yet to join is in this project, read the blogs from the many that are walking this for themselves till you are ready and then join us in the journey to life. – Only you can give you life that is best for all life.


I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to let go of all ideas which I adopted from my childhood, which have not serve me within what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as all the parts that currently make up this world as the abomination that it is to it exists within me, as anger, spite, rage, jealousy, greed, desire, hate, secretiveness, abuse etc

If forgive myself for accepting and allowing the world to exist as it does, because I accepted myself as abused and not worthy of life.

I forgive myself for growing up accepting myself as less than what I can be and for accepting the world in this way as well.

I forgive myself for not taking self-responsibility for who I had become while judging the world for being a place I do not want to live in.

I forgive myself for judging others for their words and actions and for how they create the world, instead of realizing I am equally responsible for creating the world as it is and am therefore fully responsible for my words and deeds in every moment.

I forgive myself that I have not considered that if I place any person or thing above me as the directive principle of me, then I am creating myself as a slave to my world, instead of walking as the creator of my world in full self-responsibility within what is best for all

I forgive myself for disregarding what is best for all, simply to survive in this world and to feel save within the current world systems.

I commit myself to investigate myself and the effects of self-forgiveness as a commitment to myself
I commit myself to addressing my fears, judgments, behaviors and allowances, to find out who I am within what is best for all, and to find out and change that within my world which serves life as what is best for all.
I commit myself to consider that with taking self-responsibility through self-forgiveness i will in fact expand and become able to direct and be responsible for that which I currently belief is beyond my ability to direct.
I commit myself to become the image and likeness of life and to walk that which is best for all, in all ways.
I commit myself to honor all life in all its forms and through this I honor myself as well.
I commit myself to investigate my past, my patterns, my beliefs and how I function, to find the best way to live, here as the physical and to delete that within me which does not serve me as life