Showing posts with label spirit guides. Show all posts
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Sunday, December 14, 2014

Day 186: The Paranormal Series part 41: The difference between Energy and Breath 2

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"Therefore what I am referring to here - is one of the points that Mykey also mentions in the interview - where human awareness always actually does know what we are doing to ourselves - but we don’t use awareness to change what we are doing. This in itself obviously indicates the addictive nature to what exist within us as our energy systems - which we do not want to change…"


Now to get to the main point of the interview - Mykey was referring to Energy versus the breath. I drew a line showing how energy systems have developed into a beliefs system that no matter what energy is real and energy is 'who we are' and that if one were to address energy systems and patterns within a human that is not what is best for all - you will be crucified for your blasphemy because you are indirectly spitting in the eye of god. Therefore we do not question the invisible guy in the sky and we also don’t question the invisible energy reactions in the human.

Therefore while on the topic of the difference between energy systems, which as I have now covered is considered 'who we are' and breathing - lets walk an example of both to see what is it that we really are. Ok - energy -as I have explained above - most will describe all forms of energy currently in our human understanding as 'godly' or cosmic'. But - is energy really who we are - this is always the debate between spiritualists and myself - where I have on many occasions had light workers and spiritualists getting quite angry with my blogs or vlogs because from my perspective light workers and people who 'follow energy' of the mind are Elitists - people who have their basic needs seen to and now have the time and privilege to dabble in energy systems - while making it sounds as if the ones out there trying to merely survive are 'doing something wrong' from some cosmic perspective that they too are not 'taken care of' my some god or cosmic intervention. Talk about turning the tables - to actually not consider that our money system is at any given time only able to provide jobs and money and opportunities for so many people, and therefore many other factors come into play for a large group of people to live on the bread line or in poverty and therefore to diminish the actual reality of how we allow people to starve to death - because we justify their fate in some invisible energy/cosmic sense - is to me the true evil in this world. Therefore I indicate that if you really want to 'change the world' or call yourself a 'light worker' or humanitarian', surely one must considered how this reality really functions and not the illusion of energy through which obviously we are not able to feed people and stop the current behaviour of the human and systems of the world such as your economics systems. If this were so- with millions of light workers focusing 'daily' on changing reality through invisible forces - would there not be change already?

Waiting for invisible gods and energies to sort out this reality - It is like giving little children permission to decide the fate of millions of beings - where they can decide that invisible little fairies living in some cosmic realm - either likes you and will send you food or they don’t. Crude analogy but that is basically what it comes down to. Even your most level headed person, that I have come across will have a religious mind set when it comes to things like suffering, starvation etc. Even if the person does not claim to belong to a religion, there still exist a construct of religion in their mind (the realm of invisible things) - where invisible forces are responsible for those dam poor sods that cant feed themselves. You will always hear the excuse of 'well shame they should just find jobs - really what jobs - invisible jobs? Or 'well they are just not trying' oh ok so the millions of people who end up in low wage shitty jobs for their entire lives because there are obviously not enough decent income jobs for millions of people in one city - you are saying… they are just not trying enough? Is that invisible fuzzy logic you are using - where you get to make things up and that makes the situation of the world 'ok'? So again invisible logics fuzzy bubbles in the sky - where basically any reason made up by the capitalist mind as to why suffering and abuse in our current capitalistic system is ok, 'because 'we said so'. This again also comes down to the 'I think therefore I am 'crap. Where because we as humans believe we are at the top of the food chain due to our apparent 'superior intellect' anything that comes up in our minds is absolutely proof of its 'rightness'. Again I suggest that we get off our high horses and realise that the only reason why we believe ourselves superior to other life forms is that we use physical force against other life forms if they don’t let us have our 'superiority' Therefore we have categorised and forced animals and nature into roles that we want them in, and if they don’t go into those roles, we shoot, kill, enslave and maim them...
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Sunday, November 2, 2014

Day 168: The Paranormal Series part 29 - Demons vs. Angels part 16

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"Sitting alone either house sitting or in my own room, I would allow the 'spirits/demons' that came through the ouija board to vent about how bad their lives were, why they died and in most cases why they hated god and 'heaven'. I was sinking further and further into melancholy, because nothing would shake me out of this pit I had dug for myself and in fact my search for spirituality trapped me further and further, because remember I had come from years of 'trusting' my faith, my spirituality. Therefore, when my choices as my consciousness and that which I was not consciously aware of which I called 'spiritual path' - failed me -I justified everything away to it being a difficult spiritual path for me to walk - and so I continued…"

For example, as I mentioned previously the guides when I would ask them about why 'they' allowed this person to come into my life, they would answer that - and here things get even funnier - that it was because of my specific role in the 'design of heaven'. One day I am again angry and frustrated and hoping that somehow my guides would help me to change things by telling me what to do or by miraculously being able to change my reality from some greater 'scheme of things'. But again the guides tell me that my suffering up to this point had been a very specific part of what was to come in my spiritual training and that now was the right time for me to be told what this special 'spiritual path' was, as they could see that I had dedicated myself to my spiritual life and was at peace one could say with the fact that I would never really fit into the 'world system'.

Now remember at this point I had left my job managing the horse farm and for a while I lived with 'the boyfriend' after which I decided to move into a free standing little spare room that my mom had on her property. The boyfriend - lets call him D - his mom's fiancé died and the house we were all living in was to be sold. His mother was going to be moving into a smaller 2 bedroom apartment, so I decided to rather move into the extra room at my moms house, where there would be a bit more space and a bit more privacy.

At this stage the abuse was already escalated to physical abuse. He did not hit me, but he use to strangle me, or shove me hard up against walls. As I mentioned though in my previous blog, I justified why I would 'make' myself live with this life rather than having to again survive in the system. My previous job as horse farm manager was for a very minimum wage, for a lot of work and this left me so bitter towards the end that over the 2 year period of working there and barely scraping by with just being able to buy myself food, I developed an intense dislike for the idea of again having to work long hours for someone else's comfort and luxuries. That, together with the fact that my previous experience trying to find work in the city where, as I explained I could not find work due to 'affirmative action' and the 'humiliation' I experienced of having to walk the streets asking for work - all of these factors together - contributed to the decision I made to take the abuse I endured from the boyfriend which happened lets say twice a week - over what I considered was daily abuse in a world/career environment

So, I lived in this little room and spent most of my time talking to spirits and watching television. Obviously the rest of the time I would go out with D either to clubs, or dinner or to a pub for drinks, and obviously was constantly on edge of what would set him off. It was always unknown what would set him off. It was funny, because observing him, I noticed that he really was similar to an interdimensional demon - a being that was consumed with such jealousy and/or rage - that they were completely 'stuck' in that experience where they became completely lost in and as the anger and rage. Therefore, one could say that the being itself was gone and now purely existed in a state that would fluctuate between anxious, agitated and slightly suspicious to full blown attacks all because of the slightest trigger...
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Sunday, October 12, 2014

Day 163: The Paranormal Series part 24 - Demons vs. Angels part 11

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"So with all religion one is able to see how and why one walks this religion and wears it like a cloak. What does it do for you? Why do we create this 'cloak' which protects us, hides us, changes us and gives us rules to live by? Why do we externalise ourselves into Religion instead of us being the directive principle? Is it because without religions man would fall apart? Does religion first show us the diversity of the human mind fucks, where as I mentioned previously religion allows the human our self interest, where we create self interest of 'WHAT I WANT' and our religion allows us to explore and justify 'WHAT I WANT' because no one can argue with me if I say that my god wants this or god gave it to me, or 'but the bible tells us so.' I mean golly gosh who is going to argue with a god? So this is our way of justifying how we want to live life and then we throw religion in the face of any person who argues against us. You cant pick a fight with god now can you? (not saying I believe god exists, merely drawing a parallel between the idea of a god exiting in ones mind and what this means in totality for human behaviour). For me it was also a matter of 'feeling loved' through 'belonging' and through the words that came through either in books or on the ouija board.' All of the above where some of my reasons for the religion/belief systems I chose…"


Therefore getting back to the point of people asking the questions about what I say and me using this opportunity to answer those questions. The question I am answering here is continuing from above, where people say 'well you cannot use a Ouija board and be a wiccan.' Really? If one removes your filtering system and the limitations you have set up inside yourself as J and I did - and you change your starting point inside yourself of what you accept and what you don’t - then is that not just the formation of yet again another religion of spiritual practise? I mean J decided when he started playing on the Ouija board and his guides came through to protect him while talking to spirits, that this is a great way of communicating not only with the dead but also with his guides. And as he explained it - his guides saw it as a great method too. Therefore he decided he was not limited by 'how others practise' - and will expand himself within his 'religion' to include that which he sees is useful and fun. Obviously this for him was a matter of trusting his guides and that that they could protect him and he trusted what they told him. This would obviously be different from person to person, where one does not veer away from 'normal practises' if one fears 'what is out here' or you do not trust yourself or your religion enough to step outside the barriers as set by others before you. Therefore, I am showing that all religion and spirituality is simply 'made us stuff' - and sometimes one would get it right and sometimes one would face problems - but is this not how everything we have in our world came into existence - because somebody went out there looking for it, exploring, asking the questions and testing?"


The next type of question that has come up before, is whether I am supporting Wiccanism over other religions? What perhaps did not come through clearly in my previous videos and/or writings, is that the whole reason why I am sharing my past, is to show how I walked a path of self realization. This does not mean that I realized myself in some religion, spiritual context. I realized ME. This means that as I worked more and more with my own mind and 'how the human mind functions' and it was shown to me how I have made the decisions I have made thus far - I realized that religion and belief systems specifically only exist in the mind and even though aspects of it are based on reality, still the fact remains that religion and spirituality are constructs that support the mind of the individual, meaning the thoughts that move in your head only - that little bubble on the top of our necks where the brain is - that is where thinking happens - and that is where belief systems and religion are created and participated in.



Therefore what we believe exists out there as reality, are merely in fact only in the bubble of our minds. And the mere fact that one 'believes in something' indicates that there is no physical actual basis to what one is saying, and that one admittedly is saying I believe in information that is found in books and in the minds of others and in my mind and because I don’t know how things work physically and I have no control over the physical - I have to exist in my mind as 'beliefs'. For example I am able to hold a coffee cup in my hand therefore I did not have to believe in coffee cups. Religion takes a few physical events and actualities and combines it with belief, which is information made up in the mind about how things are and how things work. And this is of course where things get very dangerous and very delusional - because we fight wars, hurt each other, our children, ourselves and the animal/nature kingdom because of beliefs. Ouchie.

So, getting back to how J and I started delving more and more into magic: What really got us going the one time, boy oh boy. Ok so J's aunt and cousin were disdained by the fact that he was gay and a wiccan. Where his mom and dad and sister (who all lived together) would be more accepting about his 'ways' - these other family members were not so 'kind'. So, the one day J phones me and says that he had gotten into a huge argument with his aunt and her daughter. He said that they had apparently verbally attacked him about his spirituality and called him a weirdo and lazy and so forth. That evening I visited him and we decided to 'cast a spell' on them so that the 'harm' they did to him would come back 3 times to them. Two days later they receive a phone call that the aunt and her daughter were driving to town and were in a car accident. So, you can imagine what went through our heads as he shared the news with me. We connected this event to the spell that we had cast, and this confirmed our ability to perform magic...
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Thursday, October 9, 2014

Day 162: The Paranormal Series part 23 - Demons vs. Angels part 10

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"So both J and myself would confide in each other when we had arguments with family and from there our magic started developing from 'white magic' which as I explained above as the 'innocent' type of spell casting, to 'grey magic' where we would cast spells to 'bounce' what people did, back to them. LOL. Anyways so basically this meant that if somebody was mean to us or would try and hurt us etc, we would cast a spell so that whatever they did to us would go back to them 3 TIMES!! As I said, looking back now I can giggle about these things, because seriously it shows me, how religion shows firstly how effective the human imagination is in created our own self interest, but to also be able to live out and express all the nasty, thoughts and emotions that we have towards each other and ourselves, while supressing our fears of each other, but under the guise of 'spirituality, or 'religion'. Makes it all sound so plausible and innocent when you are getting away with all kinds of shit in your mind towards yourself and others…"


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In the past I received many emails and comments on the videos I did about my Wiccan and Demon Possession experiences - where people misunderstood many of the things I explained. So perhaps I will address those questions here, because I see how sometimes speaking directly about my past and what I have come to realize about it - from a 'direct' translation' perspective creates confusion in some people - where for example due to again the 'filtering system' of the mind, where a person will directly equate what one says to their own point of reference - people will misinterpret what I am saying based on their point of reference. So now after writing about my experiences both in the book that I did (part 1) and doing the videos - I will explore new dimensions of those experiences in this blog - using the opportunity to slow down more and to consider the questions people have had about why I say what I say.



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For example people responded to my video series where I explained that I was a wican AND used the Ouija Board to communicate with my guides and spirits, by saying that this could not be 'true wiccanism' if I used a Ouija Board. So I will use this opportunity to refer us back to the 'filtering system' that I wrote about back in a previous blog - where to make an assessment and comparison between one person's beliefs and practices to ones own practices -only happens if one has set in stone how you believe reality works and that your way of doing it is the correct way. This will be where we again just like our parents and grandparents, who insisted that their ways and religions and governments are 'the law' - are creating belief systems within ourselves of 'how things work' - whereby we filter what others do through our belief systems and will either respond 'yes that is acceptance or correct' or 'no you are wrong!'.

What I have realized over the years is that none of us really understands how reality works - is that not so? I mean for a moment consider how each one of us came to accept the religions that we did. For example for most, religion is either something that was passed down or 'forced' down by your parents and family or your religion became something you found on your own terms, by comparing what 'feels right' to you about yourself and life, and thus as the example that I gave about Wiccanism, it is something that 'resonated' with me. What this means is that ones pre-programmed personality designs are resonating with those aspects within the religion which would be amplified or supressed by the religion of choice. Thus indicating that firstly religion is not really a choice, because it is something that is mostly 'passed down', and if one note back to the creation of religion, you will see how and why at the time religion as control systems were implemented. Secondly if one is 'choosing' a religion according to what 'resonated with you' this as I found merely indicated to me what was suited to my personality. And within this what I realized about myself through the religion that I chose was invaluable.

Therefore, one is able to learn a lot about where one is not fully taking responsibility for oneself, by the religion that we 'choose'. For example in religion what I found is that it gave me something outside of myself to live for - instead of living for myself and sorting out my own mind and my own life. Religion gave me strength in the belief that deities and energies and cosmic forces were 'looking out for me' and 'changing my life' instead of me being my own strength, my own guide and changing myself so that I could life a productive life. Religion gave me morality rules and concepts to follow - which were mostly based on make believe, but again this gives the mind something to focus on, where I 'felt good' about the life I was living and about my 'standing' - instead of realizing that I was attaching 'who I am' and 'what I do' and 'how I live' to a feeling, instead of just living here in this physical body, in this physical reality. Another example is that religion gave me a scape goat - if I did something wrong I could explain it away to some dark energy or a plan that coincided with some god or a cosmic journey, while on the other side of the coin, asking forgiveness from some god or a cosmic force - without realising that in 'asking for forgiveness'; to another or even some invisible made up being, I was abdicating self responsibility, and therefore not changing my behaviour and being the responsible factor that is actually doing 'the living'.

So with all religion one is able to see how and why one walks this religion and wears it like a cloak. What does it do for you? Why do we create this 'cloak' which protects us, hides us, changes us and gives us rules to live by? Why do we externalise ourselves into Religion instead of us being the directive principle? Is it because without religions man would fall apart? Does religion first show us the diversity of the human mind fucks, where as I mentioned previously religion allows the human our self interest, where we create self interest of 'WHAT I WANT' and our religion allows us to explore and justify 'WHAT I WANT' because no one can argue with me if I say that my god wants this or god gave it to me, or 'but the bible tells us so.' I mean golly gosh who is going to argue with a god? So this is our way of justifying how we want to live life and then we throw religion in the face of any person who argues against us. You cant pick a fight with god now can you? (not saying I believe god exists, merely drawing a parallel between the idea of a god exiting in ones mind and what this means in totality for human behaviour). For me it was also a matter of 'feeling loved' through 'belonging' and through the words that came through either in books or on the ouija board.' All of the above where some of my reasons for the religion/belief systems I chose...
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Day 161: The Paranormal Series part 22 - Demons vs. Angels part 9


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"Therefore when I received this welcoming from J's guides - I decided to follow this positive energy experience. J and I started spending more and more time together and the more I spent time with him, obviously the more irritated my already prone to irritation lol mother became and the more I wanted to avoid her. Obviously this caused me to both stay away more from home and also to focus all of my minds attention on my new found spirituality, to not have to admit that I actually felt afraid, humiliated and 'done in'."

From there J started introducing me more and more to magic and spell casting. We started out with the more innocent types of spell casting (white magic), where for example one would cast spells for good fortune, love, money, protection etc. But as time went by lol, we progressed more and more into 'the dark side' Ok it was not that serious - get the picture of dead cats and sacrificed babies out of your head. Basically how it all started was as follows: both J and I were living with our parents. He was diagnosed years before with depression due to a chemical imbalance and was medically excused from having to work in the system. He had spent a month or so in a psychiatric hospital when this chemical imbalance was detected, and was then released as an 'out patient', where the condition was that he would come back every 2 weeks to see a psychologist and stay on his medication. His parents initially were ok with this, but as time went by they obviously started resenting the fact that he slouched around the house al day, doing minimal work and blatantly would brag at any opportunity he could get, especially to any Christian visitor how he was a wiccan and had guides etc etc.

So being a Christian family - they firstly tried to accommodate his religion, but obviously there were certain points where the 2 belief systems would clash and J would meet them head on with a 'don’t you speak to me like that' attitude and then the parents would get angry and so forth. So what I picked up from the word go was that his parents had a tolerance level which J would at times step over deliberately, in an attempt as he would explain it to me, to show Christians that Wiccans also deserve the same respect and opportunities to express themselves, which Christians had been give unconditionally, due to Christianity becoming the standardised religion in many parts of the world and especially South Africa since 'back in the day'. To top that off J was gay and not just gay, he would flaaaunt it. He had long blond hair and was quite feminine, sooo if you add that to the fact that he would push any christian's buttons with his 'I am a witch' talk - and obviously you would end up from time to time, with friction developing in their house.

So both J and myself would confide in each other when we had arguments with family and from there our magic started developing from 'white magic' which as I explained above as the 'innocent'
type of spell casting, to 'grey magic' where we would cast spells to 'bounce' what people did, back to them. LOL. Anyways so basically this meant that if somebody was mean to us or would try and hurt us etc, we would cast a spell so that whatever they did to us would go back to them 3 TIMES!! As I said, looking back now I can giggle about these things, because seriously it shows me, how religion shows firstly how effective the human imagination is in created our own self interest, but to also be able to live out and express all the nasty, thoughts and emotions that we have towards each other and ourselves, while supressing our fears of each other, but under the guise of 'spirituality, or 'religion'. Makes it all sound so plausible and innocent when you are getting away with all kinds of shit in your mind towards yourself and others...
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Thursday, May 29, 2014

Day 142: The Paranormal Series Part 12 – Demons in the Afterlife part 3


Day 131: The Paranormal Series - Ghosts and Demons Part 1
Day 132: The Paranormal Series – Ghosts and Demons Part 2
Day 133: The Paranormal Series – Ghosts and Demons Part 3
Day 134: The Paranormal Series Part 4 - A Psychic’s Gate Keeper (part 1)
Day 135: The Paranormal Series Part 5 - A Psychic’s Gate Keeper (part 2)
Day 136: The Paranormal Series Part 6 – The being that died as Fear (part 1)
Day 137: The Paranormal Series Part 7 – The being that died as Fear (part 2)
Day 138: The Paranormal Series Part 8 – The being that died as Fear (part 3)
Day 139: The Paranormal Series Part 9 – The Enlightenment Being
Day 140: The Paranormal Series Part 10 - Demons in the Afterlife part 1
Day 141: The Paranormal Series Part 11 - Demons in the Afterlife part 2

Full demons in the afterlife part 2

This blog is based on the next video in the ‘Demons in the Afterlife’ series:

Demons in the Afterlife - Part 2:Frequency bands dividing Spiritual Guides and Demons (Free interview Published: November 07, 2012)


“within the context of understanding demons and within this one will find essentially the understanding of human beings. Essentially through understanding demons what will also be understood is human nature. It is fascinating that already with the word demon or word demonic, that even connecting that connecting that to human beings, many would go into a reaction ‘demon me? No. Demonizing human nature blasphemy!’ When it is to first understand what demon and demonic in fact really was from an existential, multi-dimensional, scientific perspective. Meaning, to understand what substantiated the nature and definition of a demon. So let us have a look at this more specifically: You have this physical existence which was a merged relationship between energy and substance, that through the evolution of the Mind’s relationship to the physical body and the existential minds relationship to this existence, had manifested into very specific density. There was a densification process that evolved within existence as the mind, as consciousness, as energy, layered itself into the physical body and the physical existence as a whole. So, there is an entire imprinted history essentially that one can read within the physical body and within this physical existence, in how the mind consciousness of human beings layered itself into the substance of the structures of physicality…”                                                                                             
                                                                - Demon communicating through the Interdimensional Portal


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that energy is the ultimate power and source of existence

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to question energy and how I define myself within having or not having energy.

within this I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that if energy is not constant and therefore fluctuates and has its own source – it therefore cannot be the ultimate source as substance as Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself as energy and for spiritualising my fluctuations in energy and for not being self honest in realizing that I cannot stand as Life fully as my full potential if I define myself according to energy.

“what happened essentially throughout the history of existence was that the heaven existence was then produced into the existence of pure energy. Within that you had the heaven existence where all the ‘elite’ of the interdimensional/dimensions had positioned themselves, into an entire existence of pure force and source and power. This ‘white light’ purity that resembled and represented power and elitism and control. They had the rest of existence, all the interdimensional/dimensional beings that the elite races deemed as inferior manifested into a physical existence, into an existence where energy would always be produced from substance…”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing  myself to exist as pure energy as source for the heaven existence

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as elite to separate myself from other beings, utilising them to serve me, to take care of me and to be my slaves.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to generate energy which is resourced from my body each time I have reactions within the mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing  myself to then further fuel my reactions in the mind – based on my own reaction to my reactions

thus
4r94kuxI forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fuel my own energy needs of my mind, by being in constant reaction in my mind to myself, to others and to my world – without realizing that the justification to protect myself by following my reactions and trying to out smart others or to survive – is in fact what is keeping not only myself, but the rest of the world as humanity, as each other trapped in the same cycles because what i realize is that if we are all fueling our reactions to protect our reactions from each other – then obviously this is an unending cycle – which simply repeats itself to the extent that we see now within society, where people are possessed into and as the mind – constantly fueling reactions towards ourselves inwardly and reacting to what we see and perceive and believe others are doing ‘to us’.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself within the heavenly existence to be the consumer of energy and within this to not take care that I was drawing energy from humans, who obviously had to go through emotional experiences to generate this energy and within this I was not seeing that as master or guide or any being in heaven drawing from the energy of humans, I was in fact enslaving humans to the mind simply to fuel heaven’s needs – and thus the consequences that we face now as humanity are lost within the mind – is as a direct result of this design.






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