This blog is a continuation from:
" - As western society has become less tolerant of difference, and as medical,educational and psychiatric professions have developed, the range of behaviors identiﬁed or perceived of as pathological has grown (Porter,1987). This decreased tolerance and increased psychiatric surveillance over a broad range of behaviors and signs that once were accepted as part of the continuum of human possibility, but that now have become problems to be resolved through expert practice, has been termed the ‘psychiatriza-tion of difference’ (Castel et al., 1982)"
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the intolerance of other humans and their behavior, due to me believing that what I think, believe, feel and pay attention to is 'right' and that others should think and believe as I do.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing society to become more intolerant as I give more power to my own fears, projected onto others - as what 'they' will do, say or make happen that could harm me or my family
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create this fear of what others will do, say, think or believe - because I know that my own thoughts are not to be trusted and that due to my backchat (inner conversations) I could potentially harm others - in moments where I always believe I am right - therefore by controlling society through drugs and institutions - we are all admitting that we are unable to trust our own thoughts and know that most who are placed in positions of control and power exert abuse onto people - as we could do if we allowed ourselves the position to act on our thoughts - and this is why I fear others as they fear me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as I then proceed to protect myself from others, to allow for religion, class and culture to exist as a morality-manipulation control point - from which I can control other cultures/people/minorities into being more like me and calling it 'God's will'.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing my secret mind thoughts to exist around harmful ideas and behaviors that I will never reveal to anyone, will never live, but do not want others to express either as I fear what they can do to me, but instead of developing self honesty in self forgiving the secret mind thoughts within me - I rather create control mechanisms, drugs and institutions, to force all people who have the same secret mind thoughts/patterns/characteristics as me, into controlled behavior and thinking.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give permission to the ‘psychiatriza-tion of difference’ as I would rather institutionalize, drug and marginalise people who are different or who's behavior is not yet understood - so that I dont have to admit to my secret mind thoughts, so that I may either live them out in secret through things like pornography and watching sports (allowing the inner experience/feeling of violence/comparison/competition) or have another profit from controlling my darkest thoughts and urgest - whereon I will justify that I am supporting the economy by allowing others to make a profit from my experience - that in the end there is something to gain from what I am doing.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the internalisation of self control to exist as an illusion of personal power, which is fueled by the idea behind giving people medications and labeling people, which allows society to control the person within society, which gives everyone a place in the word, even if it means nobody finding solutions to what is here but instead ignoring it through means of controlling it.
To be continued