Day 136: The Paranormal Series Part 6 – The being that died as Fear (part 1)

Other blogs in my Paranormal Series:

Day 131: The Paranormal Series - Ghosts and Demons Part 1

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-131-paranormal-series-ghosts-and.html 

Day 132: The Paranormal Series – Ghosts and Demons Part 2

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-132-paranormal-seriesghosts-and.html
Day 133: The Paranormal Series – Ghosts and Demons Part 3

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-131-paranormal-series-ghosts-and_19.html 

Day 134: The Paranormal Series Part 4 - A Psychic’s Gate Keeper (part 1)
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-134-paranormal-series-part-4.html

Day 135: The Paranormal Series Part 5 - A Psychic’s Gate Keeper (part 2)
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/04/day-135-paranormal-series-part-5.html

This blog is based on the following Interview:

Journeys into the Afterlife - The Being that died as Fear

”I was one of the first Demons that communicated through the Interdimensional Portal and there were quite a few of us demons that came through the Interdimensional Portal initially. and No the Interdimensional Portal was not a gate way or opening to hell that ‘unleashed’ all the Demons of existence or that had been damned to hell by ‘god’. I think human beings had done a pretty good job of that yourselves, in becoming the demonic forces on this earth and creating hell for yourselves…”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create an idea that there are demonic forces ‘out there’ creating chaos on earth, while never looking firstly inside myself at the forces that exist within me and rule and direct me into action each day.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that demonic forces exist in and has control over the world, myself and other people – without actually investigating what I am saying, by investigating how the world really functions, how society functions and how the psyche of the human works.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see demons as the beings that they use to be, before being consumed by rage, anger, fear, sorry etc, but instead to use their state of demonic-beigness to entertain myself and to project my own wrong doings or demonic nature onto.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as human to literally not give the demons any time of day, where I would categorise them and observe their nature, but never actually insist on  the white light or a god or a jesus to actually relieve or assist ALL demons from their plight.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to get to know demons, who they were, where they come from, what their experience was, but instead to keep them as my slaves, trapped forever in their state.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the limitation of knowledge and information in my mind that I acquired from books, religion, the internet, other people etc, to be my guide on what demons are or use to be – instead of exploring for myself why demons existed and why if there was a god, why he/she/it would allow a being to remain in such a way.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe in this knowledge and information so absolutely, that I would not investigate demons for myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be limited into my mind as mere beliefs and not action based on what is real and sustainable in this physical reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to call reality a ‘lie’ because when I compare it to the knowledge in my mind, which is knowledge from books and spirituality – because I don't want to face reality and take responsibility for my actions – I compare what I have done simply to my knowledge and because each person is doing this, we eventually allow all to become demons and demonise our planet- because all abuse becomes justified according to some form of knowledge.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not investigate what happens in this reality as it changes over time, thus showing that there are human behaviours, patterns and actions that create consequences over time – but instead continue on the same path, ignoring the consequences and having excuses ready for each manifested outcome/consequence, from my own behaviours and the behaviours from those who came before me.


I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to change and apply myself according to what is best for all, because I am still clinging onto the ideas and belief systems and knowledge./information from generations before me, whom designed the way they did things, simply out of fear of survival, just like the original cave man/woman designed their actions and ideologies based on fear of survival.

For more information on the process of Demons and Self -Forgiveness please listen to or read the following videos/documents:

http://demons.desteni.org/2011/02/the-history-of-demons-and-desteni-videos/

http://demons.desteni.org/2011/01/the-history-of-demons-and-desteni/ (transcription of videos)

http://demons.desteni.org/2011/10/the-new-demon/

http://demons.desteni.org/2011/08/demons-of-the-new-age/

http://demons.desteni.org/2011/01/demons-physical-and-interdimensional/

Day 135: The Paranormal Series Part 5 - A Psychic’s Gate Keeper (part 2)

 Day 131: The Paranormal Series - Ghosts and Demons Part 1

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-131-paranormal-series-ghosts-and.html

Day 132: The Paranormal Series – Ghosts and Demons Part 2

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-132-paranormal-seriesghosts-and.html

Day 133: The Paranormal Series – Ghosts and Demons Part 3

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-131-paranormal-series-ghosts-and_19.html

Day 134: The Paranormal Series Part 4 - A Psychic’s Gate Keeper (part 1)

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-134-paranormal-series-part-4.html

The Next part of Self Forgiveness based on the interview:
Journeys into the Afterlife - A Psychic's Gate-Keeper

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing my true nature within the system of mind consciousness to desire and need a specific type of illusion according to what I would like or dislike or agree with as an afterlife existence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing my true nature to be what I perceive as being the truth or better than what other people experience, and thus I will reject the spiritual ideals and illusions of other people – as invalid or wrong or misguided , while not realizing for myself if I was to use my own reasoning – that my own spiritual needs and desires also have no basis in the truth and also only exists in my mind, where I have learned to fuel my spirituality by giving it life through my own thought processes and by daily focusing so much on aspects and dimensions of ‘my spirituality’ and how it functions – that eventually i too start having the same illusions around spirituality as what others have and create the same mind-physical type reactions, where I start feeling things moving and happening in my body to ‘seeing things’ and ‘knowing things’.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing  myself to misuse the principle of ‘ask and you shall receive’ to not ask about why our reality exists the way it does with famine, war, murder, abuse, rape, poverty, inequality etc – but instead to use my mind to ask for my own unique life experience, whereby I am able to avoid this reality – and further and further float way into my own special experiences that leave me feeling unique, special, spiritual, enlightened.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing  myself to listen to stories about demons and how this will taint or change me – and simply unconditionally believing these stories, without questioning the actuality or truth within this and without questioning the reason why demons are ‘tainted’ in the first place.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make statements of ‘I don't fear death’ when in actuality I still travel around in my mind, creating various, either life or afterlife scenarios – that allow me to avoid the fear of death and rather focus on my own pleasure, enjoyment and ways of avoiding fear and distracting myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing recycling systems of ‘life’ and ‘death’.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing a world system where we decided that a normal human should function a  certain way –which was determined according to our pre-described functioning according to the soul construct and our design within consciousness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be structured within a pre-programmed mind system within consciousness.