Showing posts with label entity. Show all posts
Showing posts with label entity. Show all posts

Monday, November 10, 2014

Day 171: The Paranormal Series part 32 - Demons vs. Angels part 19

This blog is a continuation from:




"Obviously this did not work either because after a  few days he was back to his usual self. So the reason why I am sharing these smaller stories is to show how far along I went into and got consumed with spirituality to try and solve my problems. I am therefore walking the time line of events, or at least those that pop up for me in my memories, so that in my sharing I am obviously firstly for myself seeing and reminding myself of how change has to always be self and not a 'band-aid' method that works with good feelings to avoid negative feelings. That in actuality - all those years as I stuck to the really odd-ball situations, choices and people I chose to live with and for - this was really who I had become and the answer was always all along to change myself to no longer accept myself as for example 'abused' or vulnerable' or 'in need of guidance' or 'spiritual' etc..."

Secondly in my sharing I obviously would like to also assist other people who are faced with choices to make the changes required, but like myself are facing the point of absolute fear and denial, and would rather cling to hope and religion than do the actual legg-work of real time changing. So obviously the changing I am referring to is and was not only on a physical level - for example leaving the abusive boyfriend or pushing myself to become self supportive - yes practical changes are an absolute part of the changing process, but what I am also referring to is the 'self-changing' required and this as most are able to relate, is the most difficult part. Using the 'inner child' analogy as an example - I am not saying we have an inner child - this use to be white light constructed designs within the mind conscious system and therefore were merely placements through which the human was controlled through and by 'the white light' (heaven) according to our 'pre-programmed life designs'.

But the reason why I use this inner child here as an example, while we are on the topic is to show how for example even though the advice from the 'guides' were in a sense practical - in that he had to change himself and ultimately let go - which was why we did on a symbolic level the merging of himself to his supressed inner child while also stopping the addiction to the 'entity' which represented all his anger and jealousy. But what this in essence would have meant - had he and myself really understood 'self-change would have meant forgiving self for having accepted self for becoming the anger and jealousy and thus creating from that a 'backup system' per so - or shall we call it a protective survival personality. Therefore the key would have been to take responsibility for his creation in full understanding of what he allowed and to therefore within himself no longer accept and allow himself to further participate in the design and allowance of such personality designs. So obviously what was missing from what we did, which we did not understand was that changing oneself is an absolute statement and 'gift' of self forgiveness - in which one takes responsibility for what you have allowed, while giving oneself the power and awareness that you are the one that lets go and that within this you are in essence giving yourself back to yourself - where one had stood back and allowed experiences to determine who one is throughout ones life. Therefore one literally 'goes with the flow' such as in this case where he became possessed by this 'entity' or personality design because he did not know that 'self' is already here- meaning me as complete here, no parts missing or dependant on some force or special technique to bring it back.

So funnily enough what all these little spiritual techniques showed me upon introspection, was that we are obviously from very young taught that who we are is very much dependent on developing ourselves into completeness -and this is done through firstly the education system, our parents, religion, and the roles we accept within society - and that for each this will depend obviously on ones religious and cultural choices (or upbringing). Therefore in most forms of philosophy about 'who we are' very few modalities will say 'I am here' full stop. Meaning who I am is already here as this physical body and that therefore I use knowledge but I am not determined by knowledge (the mind). Currently our understanding is that it is exactly the other way around that the physical is merely a vessel for 'I think therefore I am'

So looking back at that whole little exercise - as I mentioned before, it allowed me my own insights into how we have a whole song and dance literally for amalgamating parts of ourselves, instead of realizing - I am HERE.

Friday, May 9, 2014

Day 138: The Paranormal Series Part 8 – The being that died as Fear (part 3)


Day 131: The Paranormal Series - Ghosts and Demons Part 1
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-131-paranormal-series-ghosts-and.html
Day 132: The Paranormal Series – Ghosts and Demons Part 2
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-132-paranormal-seriesghosts-and.html
Day 133: The Paranormal Series – Ghosts and Demons Part 3
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-131-paranormal-series-ghosts-and_19.html 
Day 134: The Paranormal Series Part 4 - A Psychic’s Gate Keeper (part 1) 
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-134-paranormal-series-part-4.html
Day 135: The Paranormal Series Part 5 - A Psychic’s Gate Keeper (part 2) 
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/04/day-135-paranormal-series-part-5.html 
Day 136: The Paranormal Series Part 6 – The being that died as Fear (part 1) 
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/04/day-136-paranormal-series-part-6-being.html 
Day 137: The Paranormal Series Part 7 – The being that died as Fear (part 2) 
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/05/day-137-paranormal-series-part-7-being.html

This blog is a continuation from ‘The being that died as Fear (part 2)’ and is based on the following Interview:

Journeys into the Afterlife - The Being that died as Fear



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to afraid of everything

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become a demon of fear

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing  myself to fuel my fears, by feeding them through thoughts and by allowing myself to go with the fear, meaning where the fear would come up and the thoughts would tell me to move away from the object/person/environment, I would not question my fear, but just give in and thus move further and further into my fear and way from common sense and from this reality.

I forgive myself for never accepting and allowing myself to overcome my fears by working with them, and instead became the after effects of the product of my fears a mere consequence as a reaction and not life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing  fear to become my soul mate, my reason for moving and my reason for each decision I would make – whether it be to move away from or closer to a being, point or an experience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feed of the fears of humans as a demon

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing  to focus my entire existence as a demon on consuming the fear energy of humans.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as a demon that consumed the fear energy of humans, to never question why this would be my existence a being needing to live of of fear and in doing so keeping the fear cycle of humans going, together with the fear that exists as this world as all the survival fears that already exist in the lives of humans.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing  myself to be entertained by the fear of others, such as what you see has become the focal point of television, news an media – where people are obsessed by watching other people in life threatening, fearful situations, that are writhe with pain and suffering, where I do not allow myself for a moment to really question why have I become a demon, some one who has de-‘life’ and de-manned myself and ensures that all life on this planet is victimised more and more around creating fear as a consequence of these world systems and what we do to ourselves and each other.

          http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anneliese_Michel

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing  myself as a demon to become possessed and to possess others

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as a demon to possess others so that I may feed off of their energy and generate energy within myself based on my participation and experience towards another who is themselves in a state of energy.

Friday, May 2, 2014

Day 137: The Paranormal Series Part 7 – The being that died as Fear (part 2)


Day 131: The Paranormal Series - Ghosts and Demons Part 1
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-131-paranormal-series-ghosts-and.html
Day 132: The Paranormal Series – Ghosts and Demons Part 2
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-132-paranormal-seriesghosts-and.html
Day 133: The Paranormal Series – Ghosts and Demons Part 3
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-131-paranormal-series-ghosts-and_19.html
Day 134: The Paranormal Series Part 4 - A Psychic’s Gate Keeper (part 1)
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-134-paranormal-series-part-4.html
Day 135: The Paranormal Series Part 5 - A Psychic’s Gate Keeper (part 2)
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/04/day-135-paranormal-series-part-5.html
Day 136: The Paranormal Series Part 6 – The being that died as Fear (part 1)
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/04/day-136-paranormal-series-part-6-being.html
This blog is a continuation from ‘The being that died as Fear (part 1)’ and is based on the following Interview:

Journeys into the Afterlife - The Being that died as Fear

fear“I am not a demon anymore, I am a being that is now in my process, walking equal to and one with how humans and existence as a whole, is walking their process within existence, where I had freed myself with self-forgiveness. ‘Freed meaning where, with self-forgiveness with the realization of what forgiveness really in fact means, set myself free from my belief as illusion as energy, set myself free from the point of knowledge and information that defined me…”
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as a demon to be enslaved by and through the mind consciousness system as emotions and feelings which generate energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as demon to believe that if I did not get energy that I would cease to exist, instead of questioning whether I exists more than just an energy experience, which was after all the starting point upon death or after death for why I became trapped within the experience of energy such as rage or fear or sadness and does not determine who I am as a being.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as demon to be enslaved into the past through knowledge and information

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as human to exist in even more knowledge and information, trapping and limiting myself in cycles of abuse and consciousness systems, while at the same time subjecting each other, children, animals and nature to my mistakes and my evolution within consciousness as who I become from child into adult as my ‘personalities’ that each seek out its own self interested experience in the form of wants, needs, desires, fears and the addiction to energy, emotions and feelings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as ‘human’ to be trapped even further than the demons in my state of illusion within my mind consciousness system.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within one point of pre-programmed design such as overcoming a specific fear and never therefore questioning why our human existence is about fear or pain or suffering.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create these ‘life lessons’ instead of living life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be contained in my mind as one experience of myself, repeating it in patterns throughout my life, at times questioning why a god or a higher consciousness would create such limiting experiences for me on this planet, but ultimately never stopping the cycles as myself, but instead giving into the energy experiences and addictions thereof.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as the ‘creators’ to create these points around which beings entered this physical reality as our bodies where we would program beings into repeating cycles into infinity, facing the same points.

Tuesday, April 29, 2014

Day 136: The Paranormal Series Part 6 – The being that died as Fear (part 1)

Other blogs in my Paranormal Series:

Day 131: The Paranormal Series - Ghosts and Demons Part 1
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-131-paranormal-series-ghosts-and.html 

Day 132: The Paranormal Series – Ghosts and Demons Part 2
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-132-paranormal-seriesghosts-and.html
Day 133: The Paranormal Series – Ghosts and Demons Part 3
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-131-paranormal-series-ghosts-and_19.html 
Day 134: The Paranormal Series Part 4 - A Psychic’s Gate Keeper (part 1)
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-134-paranormal-series-part-4.html
Day 135: The Paranormal Series Part 5 - A Psychic’s Gate Keeper (part 2)
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/04/day-135-paranormal-series-part-5.html

This blog is based on the following Interview:

Journeys into the Afterlife - The Being that died as Fear


”I was one of the first Demons that communicated through the Interdimensional Portal and there were quite a few of us demons that came through the Interdimensional Portal initially. and No the Interdimensional Portal was not a gate way or opening to hell that ‘unleashed’ all the Demons of existence or that had been damned to hell by ‘god’. I think human beings had done a pretty good job of that yourselves, in becoming the demonic forces on this earth and creating hell for yourselves…”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create an idea that there are demonic forces ‘out there’ creating chaos on earth, while never looking firstly inside myself at the forces that exist within me and rule and direct me into action each day.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that demonic forces exist in and has control over the world, myself and other people – without actually investigating what I am saying, by investigating how the world really functions, how society functions and how the psyche of the human works.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see demons as the beings that they use to be, before being consumed by rage, anger, fear, sorry etc, but instead to use their state of demonic-beigness to entertain myself and to project my own wrong doings or demonic nature onto.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as human to literally not give the demons any time of day, where I would categorise them and observe their nature, but never actually insist on  the white light or a god or a jesus to actually relieve or assist ALL demons from their plight.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to get to know demons, who they were, where they come from, what their experience was, but instead to keep them as my slaves, trapped forever in their state.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the limitation of knowledge and information in my mind that I acquired from books, religion, the internet, other people etc, to be my guide on what demons are or use to be – instead of exploring for myself why demons existed and why if there was a god, why he/she/it would allow a being to remain in such a way.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe in this knowledge and information so absolutely, that I would not investigate demons for myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be limited into my mind as mere beliefs and not action based on what is real and sustainable in this physical reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to call reality a ‘lie’ because when I compare it to the knowledge in my mind, which is knowledge from books and spirituality – because I don't want to face reality and take responsibility for my actions – I compare what I have done simply to my knowledge and because each person is doing this, we eventually allow all to become demons and demonise our planet- because all abuse becomes justified according to some form of knowledge.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not investigate what happens in this reality as it changes over time, thus showing that there are human behaviours, patterns and actions that create consequences over time – but instead continue on the same path, ignoring the consequences and having excuses ready for each manifested outcome/consequence, from my own behaviours and the behaviours from those who came before me.


I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to change and apply myself according to what is best for all, because I am still clinging onto the ideas and belief systems and knowledge./information from generations before me, whom designed the way they did things, simply out of fear of survival, just like the original cave man/woman designed their actions and ideologies based on fear of survival.

For more information on the process of Demons and Self -Forgiveness please listen to or read the following videos/documents:

http://demons.desteni.org/2011/02/the-history-of-demons-and-desteni-videos/

http://demons.desteni.org/2011/01/the-history-of-demons-and-desteni/ (transcription of videos)

http://demons.desteni.org/2011/10/the-new-demon/

http://demons.desteni.org/2011/08/demons-of-the-new-age/

http://demons.desteni.org/2011/01/demons-physical-and-interdimensional/

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Day 133: The Paranormal Series – Ghosts and Demons Part 3

This is a follow up from:

Day 131: The Paranormal Series - Ghosts and Demons Part 1
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-131-paranormal-series-ghosts-and.html

Day 132: The Paranormal Series – Ghosts and Demons Part 2
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-132-paranormal-seriesghosts-and.html
 
“Now, this is where I know most ghost enthusiasts will kick up a stink and complain to me that many ghost hunters will actually attempt to assist the ‘ghost/demon’ to ‘go to the light’ so to speak. But you know what? This is like saying to the room full of children – ‘its ok, don't be scared, go through that door over there, I have read in an old book written and rewritten by humans who are known for fabricating stories and inventing ‘knowledge’ to control people or to drive/impulse/manipulate the human for profit - that what is behind that door is ‘nice’. The fact is many ghost hauntings and possession cases re-occur and that the exorcist and demon hunters don't ACTUALLY know ‘what is behind the door’ (the white light) but are trusting sources from books – where they themselves have never actually been able to look behind the door …. So would you do that to a child? So for example when I had my ‘aha’ moment where I experienced shock and shame at my antics – what I realized was that firstly ‘why would a God allow beings who at the moment of a traumatic/confusing/angry death clinging to their bodies or homes or objects –why would such a God punish them by saying ‘well you wanted to stay there so weh…’”
 
If you have ever watched ‘ghost hunting/paranormal investigator’ type documentaries, then you will know what I am talking about. As I said before I have watched many documentaries/ghost movies and ghost hunter videos on youtube etc and a while back in preparation for this series, I went onto Youtube and watched some ghost hunter type documentaries to have a fresh view on how paranormal investigations are being done as of late.


1987 Paranormal Investigator

2013 - Paranormal Investigators or Rock Band?
The first thing that I noticed was the difference between ghost documentaries now and what they were like about 10 years ago. The emphasis back then was filming and documenting paranormal activity. Obviously I am not referring to the intentional creation and spreading of falsified ‘paranormal phenomena’ on the internet, but simply stating that the difference between what was filmed and presented many years ago to what is presented now is that back in the day the emphasis was on the paranormal. Now the emphasis is very much about the ego of the paranormal investigators and the entertainment value. Let me walk you through an example. The first ghost hunting series that I attempted to watch, was filmed by a group of 4/5 young men, each one looked like he had spent allot of time at the gym and spent plenty of time before filming gelling and prepping their hairstyles.


Then they opened their mouths and this is where my jaw dropped, because it become like a scene from a rugby player’s locker room, all of them preparing their ego’s for some big attack that is about to take place between themselves and this disembodies soul. As they started walking through the haunted location, the presenters themselves appeared to go into more and more of a possessed state as they started shouting challenges to the ghost/demons who occupied the building and each one’s threat to the ghosts was out done by the next.

For example they would shout things like ‘common, move something dammit!, is this all you’ve got, I’m not scared of you, show me what you’ve got!’ Now the demon/ghosts probably took one look at these Johnny Bravo looking characters and either left of thoroughly would have enjoyed the egotistical male energy that was oozing off these lads. So by the end of their tour through this haunted location, the 'Johnny Bravos’ were thoroughly disappointed by the no-show of the ghosts after they shouted so many threats and promises. If demons and ghosts were to roam those halls, I bet you a million dollars that they were not as inactive as the ‘hunters’ thought they were and would have been sapping their energy and probably encouraging the ego’s to extremes.


So this left me with the distinct impression, that these lads had absolutely no interest in the fate of these ‘souls’ but instead were there to chase things, and show off their ‘fearlessness and skill’s. Even though I had reached my limit with all the ranting and spearing, I decided to carry on and watch another episode. Again these lads with their well gelled hair and matching ghost hunter t-shirts set forth through the next haunted location, where it did not take long for the lad in front to start yelling threats and obscenities as the ‘demon/ghost that they suspected haunted this location. He even went as far as saying to the ghost/demon ‘common we know you hurt the people who use to live here… you think you are so brave, why don't you attack one of us and show us how big and brave you really think you are.’ Obviously at this point I am wondering what performance these lads are going to produce, because obviously if they are pushing for the ghosts to perform, either one of them is going to be attacked or they will have to fake an attack to keep the viewers interested.

I continued watching to see what would transpire, and true as bob a few minutes later one of the strong body builder looking Johnny Bravo’s start screaming like a girl clutching his face. He claims that ‘something smacked him in the face’ which is obviously what they had been waiting for, however what got me giggling was ‘how he reacted’ – screaming and cussing and carrying on as if he was upset by what this demon had done. I am thinking, ‘but wait a minute you were threating and pleading with this ghost/demon just a  few minutes ago: ‘why don't you attack one of us and show us how big and brave you really think you are’ and now that the demon'/ghost has done exactly that you complain and act as if you were completely innocent in the whole thing?

So that is just one example of the strange logic of the ghost hunter. I mean getting back to my example in my previous blog, of us watching a room full of hungry, lost, distraught children and getting a kick out of watching them run around in circles crying; This example of the Johnny Bravo ghost hunters is taking that example to the next level where you would actually taunt the lost, frightened children and make them cry even more. I mean we see examples of animal abuse on the internet/television where people will for example catch wild animals like bears and tigers and then put them in cages and poke them with sticks while the hunters drink beers and film themselves – this is the exact same thing.

I continued to randomly pick ghost investigative videos on Youtube and continued to be perplexed at the obvious level of self interest and the tactics used by the investigators to ‘up’ the level of entertainment value. Each ghost hunting team had its own technique – because unfortunately even for those who were genuinely interesting in documenting paranormal activity – their ratings would be influenced by whether the viewers lost interest or not. For some this did not matter, as they posted their videos regardless of how many views they got and during the investigations very little if anything would ever happen. This to me was more accurate in terms of the real time discovery and documentation of paranormal activity. For some there was action every 10 minutes, which obviously reeked of fakery. Unfortunately as with our taste in movies and music, one thing that stands out the most about the entertainment industry is definitely not the story or the music talent or the lyrics, it has become about the viewer/user, wanting a specific experience and the music/film industry has to cater for the human experience. That is why the movies we are seeing for the last 7/8 years are all the exact same story lines and the focus is always on the same factors such as sex, relationship dynamics, love, money, deception, etc. Same with the music industry  - as Myley Cyrus said herself after being interviewed about her rather strange performance a while back  - she admits that she can make crap music and crap music videos because her fans will always be there.

Getting back to the point why I am doing this blog series, I realized that I was participating in the industry that traps animals in cages and pokes at them with sticks for entertainment. At Desteni, we have been researching the existence of ghosts and the paranormal and I suggest if you are interested in this subject matter – to please follow this link to our demonology website where you will find the video and transcriptions of our series done on Desteni and Demons. From this you will be able to get a better understanding of the approach that I will be taking with this blog series. I am not supporting the existence of ghosts, I will however be walking a series of self understanding and self forgiveness on how demons/ghosts use to exist and how myself and other ‘paranormal enthusiasts’ continue through the mind to create paranormal experiences.

Next I will be walking each of the interviews that we did on Eqafe where it is explained how ghosts use to exist and how people experience paranormal events now – thus I will be exploring my own ‘quantum mind mechanics of paranormal events.’

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