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Friday, August 1, 2014

Day 149: The Paranormal Series Part 14 – Demons vs. Angels part 1

Demons in the Afterlife – Part 5:

The Hypnotic Experience of Angels/Archangels/Guides Vs. the Darkness of the Demons

“…simply because we did not come in with higher frequency vibrations, and we really came through the Mind and the real Physical, we were seen as ‘bad’ and ‘evil’ and within that with being connected to all the religious systems within humanity, or this world, or society, on the ;dark side’ of the religious systems, in terms of being connected to the devil, Satan or Lucifer and being connected to all the superstitions and omens… I mean us poor demons didn't have a chance to come through and warn the humans about the world deception of the heaven existence, the angels and the masters and the guides and the channels that were coming through with all their powerful vibrations. Which was fascinating,because they could simply do these vibrations and heightened energy and that would make human beings feel powerful, when really us demons could do it as well, it was not that difficult; you just align yourself to a specific frequency or energy and then you vibrate and you frequencially move yourself until you are on that level of frequency or vibration and there you go. It doesn't make any difference to the nature of who you are as a being, it only made a difference to how you feel and experience yourself."

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that a being/spirit who presents themselves within a specific frequency/energy is unique and special.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that if I want to change who I am I must focus on changing my energy and my frequencies.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that my fears will go away if I trust and speak to dimensional beings/guides who have a specific frequency that makes me feel good.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think and believe that my thoughts and feelings and emotions will change or go away if I follow spirituality and follow specific teachings and through this;

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that if I follow the energy experience that I first felt when I met my guide – that my life would change and that some spiritual higher purpose will change my life
within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that if this higher purpose is involved in my life, that I wont experience hardship like other people and within this I am therefore ignoring the fact that a higher purpose cannot be what is best for all, if it means some suffer while others do not, repeatedly generation after generation without any sustainable difference happening over time that stops suffering

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wish and believe that if I have a guide that he/she will tell me what to do and will automatically connect me to some higher consciousness or higher frequency through which I will then be protected from the world problems such as lack of money

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that this supreme spiritual energy that is presented to me through my guide will save me, while not seeing and realizing that I am not considering the fact that nothing much changes after I meet my guide or start my spirituality path and if by chance there is some change in my life, why does change from suffering have to be conditional such as in the case of ‘starting a religion’ or ‘believing in a deity’?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become addicted to the energy that I experienced around my guide and angels etc

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that the reason why I became addicted to these frequencies and energies that I felt/experienced around my guide – was simplistically because of the inherent nature of my mind, which means that my mind is addicted to good feelings and energy and that spirituality is just yet again another form of addictions.

Also I did not realize that needing a guide or spiritual experience to feel and be different also showed me that I was not the change and the stability and self movement in my life therefore;

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ultimately only exist as an organic spiritualised robot – that gets switched on and off depending on the words and frequencies used my masters/guides/angels etc.

Monday, March 10, 2014

Day 132: The Paranormal Series – Ghosts and Demons Part 2

This blog is a follow up from:
http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2014/03/day-131-paranormal-series-ghosts-and.html

“My fascination started after my father’s death – where I realized that I could actually sense and at times see an outline of him in my home. This I initially connected to a simple fascination with my father and the questions that were left unanswered after he died. Therefore I was not really sure if I was really seeing/sensing him or if my underlying fears and desires were the cause of my experiences. I felt lost without him and I also felt guilty for him dying – because I connected his heart attack to him having to much stress which caused him to have the heart attack. This burden I carried with me for many years until I discovered Desteni and was supported to let go of the guilt, the fear, the dependency , the inherent desire to be with my father and to slowly learn to give myself back to me and live my life…”

What opened up for me though from about the age of 17 onwards was a peculiar ability to continue to sense and see spirits. Therefore from being able to sense and at times see my father – I developed an ability to also detect other ghosts and demonic beings. This peaked my interest in the paranormal even more and it was then that I started dabbling with Wiccanism and then Paganism and the Ouija Board – where I had an insatiable desire to communicate not only with my farther but with ‘dead people’ in general. Years later, I could explain that my fascination with ‘the dead’ largely had something to do with the fact that I really did not enjoy being around the living lol. I found conversations with the living to be very tiring and this I realized was due to the fact that I had depression due to how I was not dealing with my fathers death and the strained relationship I had with him before he died. So all in all – my 'fear of being without a father’, which is an inherent programmed design in all people and my guilt at my father dying drove me to wanting to in a way punish myself for my fathers depression that he had all of his adult life, which ended in him making a decision to provide for his family in spite of his painful childhood – after which he died from worrying about money to take care of his family.

All of this weighed so heavily on my shoulder and I delved deeper and deeper into adult depression – which caused me to have an uncanny/strange kind of character - where I would be the odd, gothic looking girl in the back – who would cringe at the sight of humans at a party – and look forward to the time that I could go home to talk on the ouija board with ghosts lol. So my fascination with the supernatural around the age of 17 led me to reading ample books – which of course when my grandmother found out, caused her to have a fit and confront my mother about these un-godly satanic books that she was allowing her daughter to bring into the house. Funnily enough, my mother was so sick of her mothers tyrannical rants that she stood up to her and said ‘man leave her alone, she can read what she wants’.

After this I met a Wiccan at a party and soon after that we not only became friends but I joined him in his religion which kind of transmuted from Wicca to Paganism as we explored more and more ‘the darker side of things’. Anyway, I speak about my Wicca/Paganism/Ouija board adventures enough in all of the articles and videos referred to above – so I will skip to the next part.

Around the age of 24 I started studying Kinesiology because my second passion became about alternative therapies and assisting people. In my spare time i decided to study parapsychology – because this was what i really wanted to do but obviously career wise, in South Africa this does not give one an option for a paying career, so I simply did it because it was my ‘passion’. I joined an online course which was based with a paranormal Research group in Manchester, England. I only studied the first year of Parapsychology after which I was invited to come and live with the people who I am currently working and living with. More information on Desteni and the Portal above.

So you might be asking ‘why are you doing a blog series on the paranormal if your blog is about ‘Crime’s Journey to Life’. You see an interesting point that I touched on in my blog, which I referred to above, called: Ghost hunting – is where I realized one day that I was essentially using the distress of another being, caught on this earthly plane due to whichever distressful situation they experienced during death – to entertain myself with. It was the same as having a room full of hungry, distraught, sick, frightened, disorientated children and watching their distress and lostness to experience a thrill. Therefore what I am doing to myself and in essence to another being, even if it is a ‘ghost’ is using their distress and fear and confusion and vulnerability for my entertainment and from my perspective this is saying about me that I abuse others vulnerabilities and obviously will allow the same to be done to me for the entertainment of others – and this is a Crime against Life. Just like people who justify that animal abuse is ok because they ‘beLIEve’ animals don't have ‘souls’ thus don't deserve equal life rights or that the animal kingdom is there to ‘serve man;’ – the same applies here – we are as ‘ghost hunters’ admitting that we believe or ‘know’ that ghosts exist as the disembodied essence or ‘soul’ (and the apparent value we give to a thing called a ‘soul’") of human beings –and yet at the drop of hat we will use their situation for our own entertainment value. Therefore you will note that as soon as a human or other life form on this plant is in a vulnerable position where it cannot defend itself – then within Capitalism as the ‘need for humans to survive’ or within the drive for human self-interest (as in this case for entertainment) we will find excuses to abuse/exploit that life form.

Now, this is where I know most ghost enthusiasts will kick up a stink and complain to me that many ghost hunters will actually attempt to assist the ‘ghost/demon’ to ‘go to the light’ so to speak. But you know what? This is like saying to the room full of children – ‘its ok, don't be scared, go through that door over there, I have read in an old book written and rewritten by humans who are known for fabricating stories and inventing ‘knowledge’ to control people or to drive/impulse/manipulate the human for profit - that what is behind that door is ‘nice’. The fact is many ghost hauntings and possession cases re-occur and that the exorcist and demon hunters don't ACTUALLY know ‘what is behind the door’ (the white light) but are trusting sources from books – where they themselves have never actually been able to look behind the door …. So would you do that to a child? So for example when I had my ‘aha’ moment where I experienced shock and shame at my antics – what I realized was that firstly ‘why would a God allow beings who at the moment of a traumatic/confusing/angry death clinging to their bodies or homes or objects –why would such a God punish them by saying ‘well you wanted to stay there so weh…’

In the next blog I will expand on this point with another example.

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Day 47: International Crime Research: Education Fraud Part 9 – the Recession and the Consumer Part 5

This Blog is a Continuation on: http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/09/day-46-international-crime-research.html

Please see the previous Blogs on the Education Fraud, to understand the Context of ‘The Recession and Consumer’ Blogs: http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/09/day-39-international-crime-research.html

I forgive myself as consumer for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the Capitalistic System and the system of Materialism according to emotions and feelings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to grow up believing that everything that is produced and sold in shops is there for my personal enjoyment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to develop a belief system around what I see in front of me on the shelf, in which I believe that ‘it is already here so I might as well buy it.’

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that ‘seeing as an industry already exists to produce all these products, I might as well buy them., why should I spite myself by being self responsible while others still get to consume as much as they want?’

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to generate an energy within me, from childhood where I became exited as a child waiting to receive my presents, in which I connected that excitement energy into a form of adult addiction, where I accepted myself to seek this energy for the rest of my life- and therefore grew up accepting the Capitalistic System as it exists, because no matter what I wanted to experience that high again.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see, realize and understand that the excitement-energy I experienced as a child, is not a valid reason for ignoring the facts behind why and how products are created and the global consequences that materialism and capitalism have on the world, nature and the resources.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto the same excuses I learned to use as a child around ‘wanting my presents’ – where as an adult I develop thoughts within my mind about why it does not concern me what the global consequences are of consumerism – because it makes me extremely exited and happy to have my orgasmic thrills and this is what life is apparently about.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be impulsed by media, religion and societal principles, that the highest form of happiness and human achievement is what human life is about.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to call anybody who questions this extreme human happiness obtained through the principle of money and greed and the consequences it has on the planet, a cult member and a Satanist.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to revert to name calling, simply because I reject any person who directly shows the relationship lines between abuse in the world and how it is created and all the groups/individuals within society who are responsible for the abuse.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect pictures within my mind of happiness, sexuality and success to the products in shops.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be brainwashed through the media, to connect pictures of naked people, successful happy people to what is sold in the shop, as the idea behind what that product represents which is deliberately created by the marketing companies and the media – to impulse me through my basic programming design and to trigger me, what makes me tick.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to attach values such as color, class, expensiveness, quality, popularity, shape, brand etc – to the products that I buy, not realizing that these images and ideas were deliberately created to play on my needs for self approval, to get me to buy products so that I ‘feel’ energetically as if I am now that quality I perceive buying the product will give me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that goodness exists in the intentions of those who sell products/goods, not seeing and realizing for myself that they are doing their best to manipulate the user into buying more, so that the corporations can make money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to proclaim to be the image and likeness of God, and yet claim that I am unable to direct this ‘human nature’, ‘god’ has apparently bestowed upon me, which is the driving force for a majority of people on the planet, that cause all of us to buy impulsively and energetically – directed by characters existent within the psyche, designed through memories from childhood – where the character’s purpose is to try and achieve self completion – which is the lie sold to parents through capitalism – and now the parents believe in the bulshit and train their children to become organic robots subject to the laws of Consumerism.

I commit myself to show that nothing will happen to humanity if we stop living as a system addicted to energy and actually learn to exist in our physical bodies that are equal and one to the physical reality.

I commit myself to show that it is only the needs of the mind, that require specific experiences for one to achieve the ‘feeling’ of happiness and self acceptance and accomplishments, whereby the mind believes that the human experience is about energy and energy experiences which have to be generated through how we participate in this world.

Therefore I commit myself t show that nothing will be ‘lost’ so to speak if we stop, breathe and consider what we are doing to ourselves, each other, nature and the resources by living in the mind of energy addictions – and that if we are to stop the future we are busy creating now – which is the destruction of mankind –we need to consider self responsibility and to forgive ourselves for believing in the energy trap which is fast consuming the planet.

I commit myself to show that nothing will happen to the human as the physical presence/body, if we stop existing as fast consuming energy, because by walking equal to the physical reality in self responsibility, consideration and common sense, we will still all be ale to express and live, however it wont be done from energy which runs in cycles of highs and lows and always has to be replenished – which is how we are slowly destroying ourselves and the resources of the physical.

Cool Quote for the Day

"I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the absolute certainty that the economic system will lead to the total destruction of all non renewable fuel sources and the extinction of many animals and other life forms and that in spite of this happening in a measurable way already, I refuse to stop what I allow and wash my hands like a Pontius Pilate claiming that there is nothing I can do and that it is the will of the people."

http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/04/day-8-absolute-certainty.html