Day 151: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 4

Please read the previous parts:

Day 147: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 1
Day 148: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 2
Day 150: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 3

“If I truly felt anything towards abuse, towards the problems we faced – I had to start with me and stop yelling to the skies, or blaming the government, or blaming the obvious baddies etc. I mean if one uses a bit of common sense you will realize that even if we ended up like in those end of the word Apocalypse movies, where we get shipped to another planet because we have destroyed this one. What would change? Nothing – due to our inherent nature, we as who we have become would simply start all over again and destroy – in time the new planet; basic common sense. If we don't change, nothing will change. So therefore this principle of ‘doing what is best for all’ became my full understanding as the solution. If we want to stop the madness and have ‘what is best’ – how can we expect to still live the secret aspects of our minds as our fears and justifications for our self interest? How can we respect jesus as an example of a man who did and encourages living what is best – but we continue not living what is best?  Why must somebody else like a guru or deity or religious figure or politicians do what is best for us, but we don't want to live that within ourselves as a principle?”

Therefore ultimately what I realized was that I was not existing in my body  - but in my minds where I lived for energy experiences. Therefore I was blind to the harm caused to others because even when I looked at an image on the news or facebook of a person or animal being abused, I only reacted slightly – but in the end would continue to support the same Mind-Design patterns that resulted in that form of abuse be it within myself or an outflow of what happened to support my individual self interest. To give you an example – we see an image of a collapsed building such as from this blog:  ‘The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Capitalism Part 1: Death in the work place’. We see the suffering and pain caused to the victims and their families all because of the deceptions within the principles of the functioning of Capitalism. We for a moment react and maybe shed a tear – but in the end what happens in the mind – we think ‘well for this to end we have to put an end to many factors behind which Capitalism functions. For example I will have to stand by a principle of changing our money system – because this is one examples of billions of examples of what happens each day in our current money system. For the money system to change I will have to change my desire and hidden dishonesty towards other life forms, where I want to have more money than others and feel better about the class I am in, because I can compare myself within my self worth to others. I would have to stop accepting minimum wages and things like slave labour. I would have to see those people who died there as my equals, worthy of the same life requirements as me.’ There are many dimensions one can look at, when investigating what is behind why we as society accept these points of suffering. But what happens in the mind when faced with that point of change: “NAAAAHHH, Not going to do that, I like things just the way they are.’ And yet if our own families or ‘loves ones’ or fiends or our own lives are harmed, then you see people becoming hysterical and flooding facebook with messages of ‘please send your love and prayers to so and so…’ Where we yell how unfair it was and that the authorities must do something!’ As long as it is not me and my family. That is unfortunately the extent to which love exists in our society – love for me and my own. This is very obvious and I am not going to try and even explain the point further because this is absolutely evident in itself – if everyone loved life equally for and as ALL – then we would have by now changed the world systems that force abuse onto those who cannot protect themselves.

Moving on – I worked with the truth of how I saw myself and every other life form. The truth was that in my mind, in my hidden and not so hidden thoughts about myself and others – I actually didn't care about anybody and that was the truth of why I existed in the exact same mind set of ‘me, mine, what I WANT’. I realised that the world system is not caused by some invisible force of evil. It exists due to me allowing it to be an extension of the truth of who I really am inside. Not the picture I show to people of how ‘good I am’ or even ‘how dark and nonchalant I can be’ – the actual truth.

That means that I walked different forms of abuse that I saw in the world – such as the building collapsing in Bangladesh or a boy being beaten up for being Jewish or a girl being bullied at school for being fat. I looked at where do I in my thoughts justify the beauty industry and the existence of the class system as created within capitalism – for me to justify why it is ok for capitalism to continue to exist as it does, where it justified buildings collapsing on people. I looked at where do I either in my words, or thoughts or deeds bully another for not being like me, being of a different religion, believe or even for just liking different things than me. I looked at the girl being bullied for being fat –and I looked at the times I have gotten possessed over my own appearance and self image – where I insisted on having things my way at the expense of others, or where I would secretly judge a fat girl as I walked past her for being thinner than her. All of these base design thought patterns exist in all of us. The only difference comes into – ones personalised personality – which will utilise different thoughts processes. For example in all humans exist all forms of emotions and feelings – but we utilise them and go into the energy experience of that emotion/feeling differently – for example you might get someone who gets completely possessed with jealousy and the next person only feels a slight movement inside themselves – but the end of the day moving oneself as that emotion – where it directs ones decision – this is still exactly the same thing  all that is different is to what extent we make these decisions based on these emotions and the extent of the consequences to ourselves. It is still ‘the emotion of jealousy’ that directs me and therefore I am the same as every other person who I might have judged for being directed by their emotions. And it is these consequences that we in society have all labelled as either unacceptable because we see the direct consequence as being unacceptable or we label it as acceptable because it only caused some harm or harm we are not able to see directly.

For example lets say a ‘serial killer’ (see series: International Crime Research: Serial Killers, Mass Murderers and Sociopaths Part 1) was moved by the possession of sex and dominating woman through the sex-power experience as learnt through pornography (which is another example of parents seeing pornography as being a harmless developmental phase in their child's life and just giggle and roles their eyes at it instead of REALLY looking at what is pornography designing and influencing within the impressionable youngster). So within most humans we develop, especially of you look at the vast majority of people who watch pornography OR who at least grow up with a skewed view of sexuality – a view and practise on sex that is at best not in alignment with it being a healthy physical self expression point, but which became again a hidden, secretive practise based on a system within the mind body relationship that uses imagery and fear and morality and secretiveness which transpires into desire which generates energy. For most people though  - sex is a very big system, because of the addictive nature of it – and it is due to this that most humans will deny and fight tooth and nail to protect our sexual practices. It is seen as natural and ‘fun’ even to have secret sexual desires towards others and to get aroused by pornography and other graphic sexual images such as rape, bestiality, child pornography. So these are examples of what we really do behind closed doors and in our private spaces, most people do it to some extent and because of this and because the consequences of such addictions are not taught to children and obviously not seen by adults – because ‘I am having fun in my life screw the rest’ – this is the reason why hidden patterns of abuse are justified and participated in my most people. Monkey see monkey do is the principle – I see others doing it so I do it too – because it is acceptable.

So it is wrong for Ted Bundy or Jeffrey Dahmer for example to become possessed in a sex-power system and for it to result in the death and harm of people BUT if I tap into the same sex-power system energy through watching porn or the way I participate in sexual practices and masturbation and the way I act in relationships – then it is ok – as long as someone did not get ‘hurt’. But do we ever walk the time lines of the consequences of how we participate to see what have we created inside ourselves and as a societal acceptable practise? Do we look at who gets harmed behind the scenes of what I have allowed? No – if our consequences are not in our faces then we don't bother investigating this reality and how we are a part of. Easier just to say ‘someone else did it’ or ‘he/she is bad’ or to put blinkers on our eyes and not really investigate anything.

(See Ted ‘Bundy’s Final Interview’ where he speaks about the influences such as Pornography, that contributed to who he became.)

I quite enjoy watching crime related tv series like CSI, Criminal Minds and so forth. So as an example you will notice how if a crime happens, the CSI, or Police or behavioural analysists will come along and investigate the time line of events that moulded and shaped the final event/death/murder. However we don't do this for ourselves to see where and how our lives, our choices have consequences for yourselves, our children, the lives of others and this planet. Here is where I started investigating myself and what I do to myself as creator, and also what I do to the world as creator. The painful part at that stage was realising ‘self responsibility’ because on the one hand one wants to believe that this life is ‘so short’ and ‘why can I not have fun’ etc. But after a while as I worked through those reactions I realised that I could no longer ignore the reality of this world. I could not longer sit back and continue to participate in my secret world which had an indirect and direct outflow on my external world. If I truly felt anything towards abuse, towards the problems we faced – I had to start with me and stop yelling to the skies, or blaming the government, or blaming the obvious baddies etc. I mean if one uses a bit of common sense you will realize that even if we ended up like in those end of the word Apocalypse movies, where we get shipped to another planet because we have destroyed this one. What would change? Nothing – due to our inherent nature, we as who we have become would simply start all over again and destroy – in time the new planet; basic common sense. If we don't change, nothing will change. So therefore this principle of ‘doing what is best for all’ became my full understanding as the solution. If we want to stop the madness and have ‘what is best’ – how can we expect to still live the secret aspects of our minds as our fears and justifications for our self interest? How can we respect jesus as an example of a man who did and encourages living what is best – but we continue not living what is best?  Why must somebody else like a guru or deity or religious figure or politicians do what is best for us, but we don't want to live that within ourselves as a principle?

In the next part I will explore an example of Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all.

Day 72: International Crime Research: Serial Killers, Mass Murderers and Sociopaths Part 9: the Jeffrey Dahmer Character continued

This blog is a continuation from:

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/11/day-71-international-crime-research.html#

Background info: if you have not been walking the Crimes Journey to Life blogs since the beginning - please read the following blog where I explain the how and why I walk this series as 'Crime's Journey to Life':

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/05/day-8-international-crime-research-bi.html

The Serial Killer Mind:

The Case of Jeffrey Dahmer: Agressive Behavior

My Self-Forgiveness will be based on the main points taken from the following article:

The Case of Jeffrey Dahmer: Sexual Serial Homicide from a Neuropsychiatric Developmental

Perspective

http://library-resources.cqu.edu.au/JFS/PDF/vol_47/iss_6/JFS2002051_476.pdf

Throughout the article, they refer to Jeffrey Dahmer as having 'Asperger’s Disorder'.

Definition of Asperger’s Disorder:

"Asperger's syndrome is a developmental disorder that affects a person's ability to socialize and communicate effectively with others. Children with Asperger's syndrome typically exhibit social awkwardness and an all-absorbing interest in specific topics.
Doctors group Asperger's syndrome with other conditions that are called autistic spectrum disorders or pervasive developmental disorders. These disorders all involve problems with social skills and communication. Asperger's syndrome is generally thought to be at the milder end of this spectrum."

Jeffrey Dahmer and Aggressive Behavior Associated with Asperger’s Disorder

"Several psychiatric and developmental factors may be related to the origin of aggression in JD’s case, of which AD may arguably be the most important. Across the life span, significant violent be-havior has not been frequently observed among those with AD.
However, an association between aggression and AD does not appear to be uncommon during childhood. Often, aggression appears to be due to the frustration associated with low tolerance in AD children for environmental change, but has also been observed in affected individuals who have impairments in their ability to interpret nonverbal cues. Wolff also conducted a study whose profiles conform closely to AD and found that girls but not boys were more likely than controls to engage in antisocial behaviors including various forms of aggression. 

Beyond whether AD in general is statistically significantly associated with violent behavior, it is possible that specific subtypes of AD may have an increased risk for violence. Therefore, an analysis of AD cases available in the psychiatric literature may provide a clue regarding a possible association between AD and violence.
Baron-Cohen described the case of a 21-year-old man with AD who had been involved in numerous physical attacks toward others. The patient’s father had noted that the patient tended to become aggressive while concerned with the shape of his jaw, which objectively appeared normal. He also was at risk of violence as a result of social contacts and changes of routine. He tended to violently break inanimate objects. He was aggressive toward his brothers and once had to be forcibly removed from his brother because he had attempted to strangle him. Apparently this occurred due to the patient’s frustration and inability to correctly place batteries in a tape recorder. The patient was also hospitalized in a psychiatric hospital following 20 physical attacks toward his girlfriend in the preceding day. He had been hitting her about two to three times daily on a regular basis. He stated that he would slap her face because he was preoccupied and bitter about his jaw and because she was vulnerable and weak and it made him feel powerful. He was described as having little understanding of other people’s emotions.

Some cases of AD may be associated not only with non-sexualized aggression but also with formal sexual psychopathology, such as compulsive masturbation, fetishistic sexuality potentially resulting in illicit sexual behavior (66,108–110). Fetishistic sexuality may be the outgrowth of the tendency for AD individuals to engage in repetitive, ritualized, restricted, and intense interests, tension reducing in nature and established after the onset of puberty during adolescence. Mawson and his colleagues reported the case of a 44- year-old male with AD, who physically attacked women, girls, and infants. He was also reported to have sexually idiosyncratic thoughts. Cooper and colleagues described the case of a 38- year-old male heterosexual transvestite with AD and a history of having been “charged with assaulting the daughter of a neighbor, which was followed in 1988 with two charges of assault and one charge of indecent assault on women”. He had also been engaged in episodes with women unfamiliar to him that he had encountered in the street during which he touched their breasts or buttocks (108, 1993). Kohn and his colleagues reported the case of a 16-year-old male who had physically assaulted others on several occasions. At age 14, he had been involved in three sexual assaults. During one of the assaults, he had grabbed, attempted to undress, and touched the breasts and genitals of a girl (109). Cases of autistic-spectrum disorders involving sexual psychopathology without violent behavior have also been described.  

The origins of sexual psychopathology in autistic spectrum disorders may be due to a dearth of opportunity to learn socially adaptive sexuality available to affected individuals. It may also be that specific autistic characteristics directly lead to the development of less socialized, more pathologically aggressive forms of sexual behavior. In the case of JD, both pathways were synergistically involved in the development of his malignant sexual psychopathology."

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within separate personality mind frames, in which I am allowing myself to exist as 'addictions' to energy, which take on different forms, of which all of them have been accepted by most members of society, and if you participate in any or all of these addictions in the form of habits/hobbies/entertainment it is fine - because addictions are acceptable as long as it supports Capitalism and 'free choice/individuality'

for example:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use sport as an outlet for my suppressed agression, where humans allow themselves to watch or participate in sport from the starting point of addiction to the energy of agression, competitiveness and the manifestation of survival.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify the existence of sport - which no longer exists as a physical expression for the individual, but exists for the human to express ourselves within the addiction to competition and 'beating others' which is linked to self value through 'winning.'

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as a human to exist within the idea/concept that we are here to better ourselves, improve ourselves and evolve and therefore I use sport as an excuse and opportunity to evolve within my mind, which is the only place where evolution can truly exist where we are always finding ways of evolving consciousness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create rules, about what it means to be acceptable forms of agression and addiction to the energy of competing, where all human have agreed to not take self responsibility for the design of the energy addiction, but to rather find ways of expressing these energy addictions and to then call it hobbies, sports, religions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to integrate all my suppressed human emotions, feelings and energy addictions into acceptable forms of self expression - where as long as it is given a name, title or cause as to why we can express ourselves this way - all of society accepts each others titles for our addictions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to design hobbies, sports and religions around amplifying the suppressed 'human tendencies' instead of self honestly looking into the design of these energy addictions and whether participating in these addictions through accepted forms of hobbies, sports and religions is truly supportive of us in the physical or whether it supports the addiction to energy - which then allows us to not take responsibility but instead label the addiction according to something aceptable - like 'sports, hobbies and religions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to join a religion where I may judge, hate, fear and condem as the addiction to these energies, without considering what I have done in blatantly allowing myself to express myself within these addiction to these emotions and feelings - without consideration of the actual direct implications of what I participate in.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that as I judged what I read about sexual sadist and serial killers - I did not bother to look inside myself to see that all of those words, actions, deeds, and desires already exist within me, except that I have categorized my addictions/patterns/habits into acceptable forms of expression - whereby all of society have already agreed to these forms of expression - so that everybody can get to do what the serial killer does, but in a way that is seen as acceptable and 'under control'

for example

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to walk past a woman on the street and in my mind ripping her clothes of and having sex with her/groping her.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to then go onto the internet and find porn sites- which most humans have already agreed is acceptable as the brainwashing we have accepted through the starting point of capitalism - whereby we will justify the abuse of the physical - so that I may watch others rip of people's clothing and rape/abuse - which triggers and accesses my addiction to that image, which allows me in the safety of my home to masturbate to these fantasies - without reprise from society - because most in society are also doing this through the media forms available.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge the serial killer who goes out and combines sexual addiction with aggression - while all the time I have split this same addiction into 'acceptable forms of expression' by watching sport from the starting point of competition and the expression/outlet of my anger/competition/envy towards others, while also having sexual desires of all kinds of particular ways that I then masturbate to as I surf the internet - where my addictions are justified through what we accept and allow on the internet.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge the serial killer who abuses, abuses and kills people, while all the while humanity gets to split these actions/desires and real internal conversations/reactions into mind created energy realities in the form of television, movies, porn, websites, sports etc, where a long time ago it was agreed upon by humanity for us to find ways to express these 'urges' instead of taking responsibility for them - and the only time we will project blame for our own design patterns onto another as 'scapegoat' is in the form of a serial killer/criminal - whom we can say abused and murdered in a physical way - instead of keeping it just in an energy form as we do - and now we can condem this person to imprisonment or death - while the rest of humanity continue doing what the serial killer does, but under acceptable ways of expression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as I read the above statements to think - 'but it is not the same thing' - while not really first slowing down all the moments I decided to participate in the above mentioned actions - to really look at the moments I made the decisions to act on my addictions to these energies, where i 'decided' to go with the desires, and where I found acceptable ways of expressing my desires - where i now refuse to look back at the moment I made that decision and what the decision was based on.

Therefore if these scientists who write these papers on serial killers were to also use the same method of looking back and into the serial killer's mind at the moment he/she made the decision to act on an addiction/desire/driving force form within - and they were to slow down humanities patterns/addictions/habits and also look at the decision-factor - you would find the exact same thought process and energy addictive mind patterns - at the starting point of 'abusive behaviour'.