Day 113: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Capitalism Part 1: Death in the work place.

In the following series I will be exploring some common sense insights and considerations into the Psychology behind the crimes against Life, that occur within and due to the Capitalistic System -which has become the one system - we all have to live by, cannot avoid - but suffer the most within - through our lives from the moment of birth until we die. In the blogs I will explore various avenues/dimensions of ur Capitalistic System, to show and share the direct situations of Abuse that could be prevented if we as Humanity came together to change such a system - however - no matter how much Abuse and suffering happens every day - humanity will not and does not consider changing the Capitalistic System. Instead as I have noticed most support the system and wil even defend it vigorously as if we have been brainwashed into believing that no matter how bad it gets - we do not and will not question Capitalism - as if the Earth itself was created with Capitalism in place - and not simply a man made creation, created with so many flaws and inconsiderations, which are now allowed to run automatically on our behalf with the majority of beings on this planet, crying out in pain and suffering each second of each day - indicating that Capitalism itself has been the biggest Holocaust - the biggest form of Mass Murder known in the History of Mankind - and yet strangely enough - nobody cares?

Why is this allowed to happen, how did we get to a point where we decided that Hitlers Holocaust is absolutely unacceptable and to even speak of someone like Hitler without hate and content, will result in internet attacks and questions to your Humanity - and yet that which kills and maims and tortures the most individuals to date - Capitalism - is not only left to proceed with its destruction on Life - but is never questioned by the same Humans who claim to not agree with Murder, Mass Murder, Rape, Child Abuse, Suffering, Holocausts, Victimisation, Starvation, Animal Abuse etc... but if it is done in the name of a system that we could change if we wanted to - but seem to not want to change - then it remains 'ok'. How did we do the maths?

So in the blogs I will share crimes against life by Capitalism plus the Psychology (the psyche of the Human) behind why we say we do not support Harm - but continue to support Harm. The question is, why do we keep turning a blind eye?



I start this series with a recent event in the news:

Daughter’s agony as she discovers her mother is among 230 dead in Primark factory disaster while rescuers fight to save survivors screaming in the rubble

"Bangladeshi rescue workers are continuing their increasingly desperate for survivors in a collapsed clothes factory building where workers made cheap clothes for Primark.
Hundreds were killed when the eight-storey Rana Plaza in Savar on the outskirts of Dhakar collapsed yesterday, the day after cracks were seen in its walls. The death toll continues to rise and currently stands at more than 230. Forty people have been pulled alive from the rubble today.
There were agonising scenes of grief as relatives lined up to identify corpses laid outside a local school building. One woman screamed in anguish as she reached out to her mother, pulled dead from the heartbreaking scene of destruction."
-40 people pulled alive from the rubble today after building collapse which killed more than 230 people
-Police said factory owners appeared to have ignored a warning after crack was detected on Tuesday
-Workers tell how they were threatened with the sack if they refused to go work after seeing the cracks
- Charges of criminal negligence have been filed against the building's owner."

We tend to look at these pictures and feel a pang of fear, anxiety and it sickens us for a moment - the thought moves through our mind 'oh shame those poor people' and then we might consider our lives, our safety in the work place and the safety of our family and close friends when they leave for work in the mornings - And that is pretty much it. Have you noticed as I have, that no matter how many gut-wrenching pictures people show of horrible tragedies that happen each day, each second to people, animals and the planet - nothing happens, nothing stirs within the human other than shallow emotional reactions and further thoughts of fear around 'hoping this does not happen to me or my family. Other than that - have you noticed that other than developing all sorts of Fear thoughts and reactions within the Mind - and holding onto religion and Hope as a means of alleviating the Fear in our minds in relation to what 'could happen to us', to 'our families' when we leave our homes for the day - NOTHING -no action, no words, no changing of anything - why? Why have we detached ourselves from this reality and yet we have such an extensive Fear of this reality - as these events unfold each day? Firstly, we acknowledge that these events are very real and very painful and could cause the end of ones life. This drives us, as I mentioned previously to heightened fears about our world, ourselves, our children and others - as we live in constant worry and Fear about what 'others' could do to us. However - we do not stop to question why these things happened, and then when faced with the simplicity actually of why these things happened, most humans - as I have noted for myself turn tail and run in the opposite direction. Most will then deny that the underlying cause is in fact the underlying cause and will make up all kinds of excuses once faced with the reality of why the underlying system that was the direct result of such a tragedy is still ACCEPTABLE and OK - though the agreement of Mankind.

So here I draw a parallel between the two points I mentioned in the first section of my blog - we just dont care enough. How did we get to this point? Do we notice that something is off with our Empathy and our Humility -that we shed tears for Movie stars, but do nothing about real Suffering? Another example of our pre-selected system of 'caring and love': If a parent is faced with a child molesterer wanting to take their child - the pattern will do whatever they can, even threaten their own safety to ensure that the child remains safe, is never harmed and the child molesterer will be hunted down and prosecuted. However when it comes to Abuse to Life on this planet for the Self Interest of Man - then we choose and protect the Self Interest of the Individual with the biggest voice over the Rights of the Individuals that are harmed - such as in the case of Corporations and the fundamentals of Capitalism that we as Society - the Consumers and the ones that support those who implement and control the System. We are the ones allowing the Abuser not only to continue - but we will smile and agree and even reason - as to why this Abuser has all the right to do what he/she does. As long as it is not me and my family being harmed - as sad as it is this as we have come to see - has only resulted in ALL humans existing in FEAR ALL the time - because we actually know and understand - that if those people could die in a collapsed building - what prevents me from dying tomorrow on my way or at my workplace? God, aliens, hope, my lucky charms, some cosmic plan? Here I will not yet go into the Illusions and Delusions we use to Cope with these constant fears and understanding of what might happen to us - you know those coping mechanisms like religion, drugs, entertainment etc. If you look inside the Mind of ALL humans equally - you will see individual Fears around the what' if's - where each human smiles and puts on a brave smile as we leave our door. We all have the exact same fears of death, fear of survival, fear of being hurt - and yet we all Lie to each other and claim we are not in Fear - that we are protected because we are lucky or god loves us or we paid our way to our place in the world and therefore Greed and Deception cannot take our lives...

Myself for example - I ask myself the question - would I want to go to work tomorrow and Die in a horrible accident - willingly - knowing that cheap clothes can be sold to the public - which allows the Wealthy Elite to become richer - ABSOLUTELY NOT! - and I challenge any human to place ourselves in the shoes of the person who dies for someone else MONEY - for GREED - so that the minority may experience ABSOLUTE ABUNDANCE and WEALTH. Would you trade shoes with every being that is harmed in every most excruciating way each day on this planet in the name of the capitalistic system - the system that not only is the only way we have chosen to Live currently but hold each of us - by choice prisoner to this system of 'Life', 'Death' and 'Struggle'.



To be continued...


More recent News:

'There was a foot of dust... it was like 9/11': Shock as 100-year-old building collapses to ground in a pile of rubble

Day 98: The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Why does Separation and Inequality exist?

I was reading Day 4 of the Heaven's Journey to Life Blog, and decided to share my perspective - specifically in relation to the following section:

"What one will Find with the writing of self-forgiveness – is that realisations as solutions to self/this world open up within/during the writing of self-forgiveness.
We have as human beings always been waiting for solutions to the problems/consequence creations of the Mind and the World, when with writing self-forgiveness – one will realise that we’ve in fact been waiting for ourselves. As one write self-forgiveness, self-forgiveness is the action of the decision made by self to take responsibility for self, and in taking/giving/gifting self with that responsibility – one become equal-to and one with the “problem”/consequence creation, making the statement: “I am taking responsibility for this problem/consequence creation as me”. In being/becoming the “problem”/consequence creation one will as the “problem”/creation see/find/realise the Solution.
We’ve only created problems/consequences within ourselves and this world because we’ve separated ourselves from the responsibility and directive principle of what we create in our Minds and this world, and in that separation from our creation – we have not seen/realised/understood the solutions because all we’re seeing/have become is the “problems”/manifested consequence.
Therefore, self-forgiveness is the process of no more accepting and allowing separation from self’s creation as the Mind and this World, but walking the process of self-forgiveness as taking self-responsibility as self as the Mind and the World that has become the ‘self’ as ‘self’s creation’ self has accepted and allowed self to separate self from.
Realise you’re the solution – join us in the process of self-forgiveness, so that we can change/transform/stop the manifested consequence our creation as ourselves as the Mind and the World has manifested for self and this existence as a whole due to our accepted and allowed abdication of responsibility and the power of directive principle as we’ve accepted and allowed our self-separation, so that we walk/live the solution to/as all as equality and oneness..."

What I had found when investigating the current World Systems that create situations of Abuse for Life on this planet, was that no amount of looking outside of myself at those that I could blame - would really stand as a solution, a way forward - here, let me explain why. For a long time- many years in fact I had observed and pondered about why we as humanity are able to look at all of the abuse that exists due to profit and the survival of the human according to monetary survival - and how we are able to stand by and watch others being subjected to suffering and pain, so that we can have a system that provides 'scarcely', for the rest of us.

I then after allowing myself for a long time to simply be shocked and appalled by the images of abuse, realised over a few months of actual looking behind the veil of hope and hopelessness, who it is that is actually responsible for why we as humanity are able to allow immense suffering which escalated yearly, so that the rest of us may scrape by in fear of not being able to pay our bills. At which point did I as a human abdicate my self responsibility as the one that actually gives permission to this Abuse System and how did I do it?

Initially my reaction was one of 'No - I dont actually abuse anyone and besides how am I supposed to stop these large corporations from abusing people, animals and the planet?" - now most people are able to relate to this statement - we as humanity have all at some points faced the questions - where we ourselves ask ourselves 'how can I live in such a world?' and the answer we provided as justification and means of coping, is and always has been 'that it is beyond me', or 'was not my direct doing.'

I was encourages to look beyond the comfortable reasons why I am not responsible, to actually investigate deeply the reality of acceptance. Acceptance is a funny thing - it is clearly here for us all to see, and yet every single one of us, will make excuses for what we accept as humanity and will even create a division between what we really accept and give permission to and 'ourselves' - as if there is a magic button we all keep pushing each day to create a separation between 'we' and what 'we give permission to'.

So as a simple example - I looked at the Psychology of the human currently - what words and languages do we all use like a tribal understanding of giving things a value that takes away the reality of it and just makes it 'numb/null/not so". For example - and this is how I realised the truth of myself: If I continue to support - not just by remaining silent, but through vigorous debating, and defending - the existence of the capitalistic System - then I am directly saying - I am alright with:

• Child trafficking,
• animals abuse
• Spousal abuse due to monetary dependance
• death due to not having health insurance
• starvation
• wars
• famine
• corporate theft
• unemployment
• illegal trade
• greed
• abuse of the elderly due to disgruntled staff and mismanagement
• rape caused by sex industries pushing fantasies of rape for profit
• rape caused by the division between male and female due to females not being able to provide for themselves
• genocide
• terrorism due to political agendas over resources (greed)
• political agendas
• the destruction of the planet/rain-forests/oceans etc
• families without homes
• people dying from the cold because of excessive electricity bills
• drug abuse due to pushing drugs for greed
• drug abuse due to life stress over money/survival
• household abuse due to tension over money
• constant fear of survival/not being able to pay my bills.
• depression and suicide due to fear of not having money
• death rates linked to people becoming ill due to job losses and stress over not having money
• deception
• product redundancy
• overproduction of food which goes to waste which places more stress on production/farmers/profit
• abusive trades developing more and more due to greed and the need for people to survive
• oil running out
• pain and illness due to people not being able to seek medical attention
• Political mass murder and manipulation.
• Kidnappings
• extortion
• consumerism

etc...

This is obviously a VERY short list - of things I could type in two minutes. What I realised as I removed the veil, the separation I created between the me and what I accept as my world systems - was that if at any point I said 'yes I want Capitalism' - then I also have to realize I say yes to all of the above (and then some). There is no way to separate the two. And in relation to the above article excerpt - I realised that this was saying something rather sad about me - where did I change as a child for me to see images of rape, torture, war, fear, death, pain etc and make it ok? Then if given an alterative to the current capitalistic system or asked to help develop a sustainable solution, and I still said 'no I prefer capitalism' then I am still saying " I prefer those things to happen to those beings, then give up what capitalism does for me"

This fear came up within me a few times- of apparently loosing the benefits of for example being rich - which i traced again to the energetic addiction of for example 'feeing more important than other people'. Each justification and internal dialogue that came up turning me away from 'doing what is best for all' and stopping the Abuse - I could immediately identify the fear behind any excuse I had - the fear of not feeling special, the fear of not looking better than others, the fear of being normal, the fear of just being me, the fear of others also beings special, - god.... how ridiculous - that we will in the wink of an eye sell out our whole planet - just for those ridiculous, transparent, temporary experiences,...

jesus once said - 'Do to others as you would have them do to you' - but I see that in our world if Jesus was here, he would be subject to Capitalism just like the rest of us, and if he was in a situation of for example freezing to death because he could not pay the exorbitant electricity bills while Kate and William are globetrotting all over the world to be oogled for their apparent 'royalness' - and Jesus asked me 'my friend can you not help me - 'sorry dude I love you but I looove Capitalism more'... Life has become this cheap unfortunately.

Please join us in investigating the adjustment of the values and principles of Capitalism into a system that Supports and honours the expression of Life:


http://economistjourneytolife.blogspot.com/
http://equalmoney.org/

I suggest watch the following Documentary: 'Obey'

Day 92: International Crime Research: Mass Murderers Part 6: Mass Murderers for Fame and Self-Interest Continued

This blog is a continuation from:

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2013/01/day-91-international-crime-research.html#

Taken from Wikipedia: (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mass_murder)

"A notable motivation for mass murder is revenge, but many other motivations are possible, including the need for attention or fame..."

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing a picture to exist within me of a perfect life, a perfect world, without considering how this 'perfect world' is to be created.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing this picture as imagination to exist within me, where I will blissfully ignore how this physical reality functions and how the money system works for me to be able to live what I believe to be my idealised Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing a monetary system, which provides 'an idealised or comfortable life' - which functions according to exploitation of resources and life on this planet, to provide 'idealised lives' for those who have money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that it is justified for me to continue existing within a system that Abuses Life, for me to have my comfortable Life, as long as the expense is not experienced by myself or my family/friends.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing this system to continue existing even though at times I do experience the negative consequences of hardship within capitalism, indicating that I am use to a life on this planet of abuse and hardship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that for happiness to exist, it is alright for suffering to exist.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to follow fame and specialness of the individual, while ignoring the consequences - whereby we create a world of conflict and internal struggles as we allow ourselves to abuse each other through harsh words and abusive deeds/concepts/ideas  -as we abuse ourselves to fit into idealised concepts.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to chase fame and specialness so much that I will follow the energy of specialness to such an extent that I will watch as another's life is harmed/destroyed, while having a choice whether I am willing to stop this, but never doing so because the reward of the happiness energy wins every time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing this energy of wanting to be famous and special in the eyes of others, to be so overwhelming that even if in the media I read/hear about the consequences of how our choice of living and our value systems has on the planet and life thereon, I will always use the backchat/internal conversation of 'it is ok' to justify why I should continue following the energy experience that 'serves me' as 'individuals freedom' over the wellbeing of others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to only allow myself to experience the images of abuse through emotions and feelings, which is a temporary energetic reaction, that dissipates/stops ater a while, leaving me numb to the reality of what beings go through in the world systems,

for example:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing such things as minimum wages and slave labour, where people have to submit to living stressful, painful lives as they are forced into having to work for minimum or no wages, in a Capitalistic System that provides entertainment/lifestyles for the rest of us, at the expense of these individuals.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the abuse of animals, in the entertainment industry, clothing industry, cosmetic and food industries - all so that I may wear items and participate in 'concepts' - that have no practical consideration to the being suffering - as long as it makes me feel good and provides me with the energy experience of 'happiness'.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the porn industry where woman and children are forced into these abusive life styles either against their will (drugs/kidnapping/extorsion) or for minimum wages (in a capitalistic system where if you dont have money you starve) - while not changing or standing for the changing of such a system at all, because that would mean stopping corruption and changing the money system and the system of sex addiction - which I am not willing to do, as that would mean not living out the exact point of greed/addiction and personal-interest depicted through the reasons why we allow such atrocities.

I forgive myself within this, for 'separating' myself from these industries by saying 'nobody makes them do it' when in fact I am making them do it  - as the consumer of the products that are made in accordance with these systems that uses the lives of the innocent to provide a service in exchange for wealth - therefore the point of greed exists to create abundance no matter at what expense.

therefore as a mass murderer - I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to tacitly agree to abuse and suffering and the killing of beings on this planet, due to all the world systems, that at any given time function to bring me personal self-interest and happiness - while not once standing up to speak up or act in accordance with changing these systems, to not longer accept and allow such abuse.

because

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that in looking at why I have always and will always justify any form of abuse in order for me to live on this planet and have my happiness and personal-self-interest - I am no more than the things I accept and allow - therefore I have become a mass murderer and abuser of life, lying and deceiving to continue protecting the same systems that have always provided me with the addictions and needs I proclaim are my right to Life/freedom of choice.

I commit myself to show that if one really stand up for and 'against' any form of abuse - you will not settle just for emotional pictures and reactions to the abuse, but will always question why the problems have not been solved.

I commit myself to write out any and all forms of justification, to its origin- as to why abuse in my name still exists and why I believe that profiting and personal gain is in any form accepted and allowed by me, to write out what the excuse is and what this really shows about the person/individual group who writes/speaks it.

I commit myself to show that there is always a choice to be made about what we accept and allow, and that it might not 'seem' an easy choice to give up and change the world systems, due to our addictive nature, however the only choice if one says you do not support abuse, is the choice of changing it - and this always comes down to sustainable solutions as what is best for all - it has no 'grey area' to allow still for some to get away with self-interest/freedom of choice over the lives of other.

therefore I commit myself to show how if one claim to stand up 'against abuse' but in any form shortcut the steps or processes of how abuse is to be ended once and for all - that the self honesty within that is always still the choice for abuse to continue so that one has a comfortable life within ones true value systems,

I commit myself therefore to question my own value systems  and the value systems we as society have given to the world system such as money, to identify directly what are the real value systems, and how to change them to 'what is best for all'  - which will have the outcome of stopping abuse.

Please join us in our research into identifying how to change the value systems of Capitalism to that which supports Life:

Part 1 of the Equal Money Capitalism System: HARMONY AND EQUILIBRIUM WITHIN EQUAL MONEY CAPITALISM

Day 36: International Crime Research – Child Pornography Part 20

This is a continuation from:

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-35-international-crime-research.html



Please refer to: Day 24: International Crime Research – Child Pornography Part 8 for background information, on how and why I will be walking the characters of Criminals/Offenders.



To recap: the following blog is written from the perspective of familiarizing myself one and equal with the mind, character and personality of someone who watches/consumes child pornography. By walking equal to the mind of the user, I am able to draw from it, the contributing factors from the initial thought to the decision that is made to watch child pornography and how the mind is further fueled through backchat and behaviors, until in time, the characteristic is defined and directs the being into action, through an accumulation of memories, thoughts and experiences. What follows is specific self-forgiveness on the characteristics within the write-up.

“After another year Lucinda tells me one day out of the blue – that she has been seeing another man, whom she works with, and that she is pregnant. The shock hit me so hard that I simply sat there starring at her. Then the shock mutated into rage as I realized that yet again I was deceived by a woman into giving up my life and getting nothing for it."

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use the thoughts (backchat) around me ‘having to give up my life’ and ‘not getting anything for it’, as justification for fueling this pattern within me that I have been compounding – where I am allowing myself to become this character of rage.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the ‘mutation of shock into rage’ – as my mind produced a backup system of ‘pent up’ emotions/feelings, reactions and backchat towards this one point – so that in the end I ‘mutate’ from initial reaction into rage as I am now fully possessed into and as this character I have been participating in designing for months/years.



I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that by fueling this ‘rage character’ with backchat that was designed to make the other person look bad, and me look good – I was within dishonesty deliberately designing and premeditating my own possession into this ‘rage character’ – as the starting point of myself – in self honesty, was to become malicious and nasty towards the end of this relationship.

“I moved out of our apartment into a small one bedroom apartment on the other side of town – closer to my work. This is where I spent the rest of my time – from work I come home and I surfed the web, playing games until late at night. I used porn sites as I had done before, but now that I was living alone for the first time in years, combined with this seething rage – I started looking for specific porn. Rape porn and sadomasochism – were the only forms of pornography that gave me release. I enjoyed watching woman being abused and eventually only used hardcore porn sites.”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to deliberately go down the path of revenge towards my partner, by deciding that I will from now on watch porn directed at being harmful towards the individual/woman.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing pornography to exist in the first place, due to patterns like these where I as the human refuse to take self responsibility for my thoughts, emotions, feelings, reactions and addictions – and through that manifest the consequential outflow within myself of ‘becoming a mind-monster’ and then supporting an industry that provides tools for me within my possessed state to be able to express myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself from the original thought-moment of ‘seeing myself having revenge on woman’ to follow the backchat thought conversations with myself of ‘how I could hurt them or how nice it would be to see woman groveling’ to the reaction of rage into the physical reaction of sexual desire – which then directs me to the final decision where I step into the character of ‘surfing for porn’.



I commit myself to stop trusting the Mind as it takes me from a thought which represents my desired outcome in a specific situation – to the backchat patterns that one participates in to fuel ones own opinions, into a physical reaction which takes one into possession where you then lock down into that character and convince oneself you are making the right decision.



I commit myself to show how the outer reality we exist within, with its wars, politics, corruption, famine, pain, suffering and mind possessions –are all the end results or decisions made by people like myself, who followed an original thought and through thinking changed themselves until they physically acted on a history of backchat.



I commit myself to show how the physical reality does not require planning through the mind through pictures, backchat, feelings, emotions, and reactions – into a character that responds based on hidden agendas. The Physical Reality is here for all to Live, if we stop bringing the agenda of ourselves as the Mind into physical Living – which is how we have manifested all the fuck ups and human mind possessions – where we harm the physical while trying to please/protect what happens in the mind.



I commit myself to show that what ‘we’ as the mind wants as we have designed it – exist for all to see – openly in what is happening in the news, on the internet and in people’s lives – and that there is no separation between what we are seeing on the internet/news, the dramas in people’s lives and the reality of ourselves as how we exist in the mind and act out ‘the mind’.



I commit myself to show that what is happening ‘out there’ on the internet, or in other people’s lives – is not really ‘out there’ as ‘that’ individual who made ‘that’ decision to harm, kill, abuse, maim, lie, cheat etc. – is me and you in a character that has fully concluded its cycle – just like all mind patterns have a beginning and an end.



I commit myself to show that there are solutions to these Character Creations that we live as Patterns.



I commit myself to show that it is possible to remove or change the environmental factors involved in why a person makes the decisions he or she makes – but what is required of humanity to change these factors involved in parenting, the education system, the money system etc. – is a commitment and understanding of why and how we are changing, within the principle of what it means to do and Live what is best for all.

The DesteniIProcess Courses are Designed to take apart these Character Designs through various Stages. SRA 1 for example, is a simpler course which focuses on getting familiar with ‘what are characters’, how are they designed, what are feelings, emotions, thoughts and for one to start becoming aware of these ‘components' of the character through the tool of writing. In SRA 2, we focus on Mind Constructs – where we specifically go into the ‘how’ we created our Characters as they are Constructed within the Mind. For more information on SRA 1, SRA 2, SRA 3 and our Agreement course please visit: http://desteniiprocess.com/courses

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Day 34: International Crime Research – Child Pornography Part 18

This is a continuation from:

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-33-international-crime-research.html



Please refer to: Day 24: International Crime Research – Child Pornography Part 8 for background information, on how and why I will be walking the characters of Criminals/Offenders.



To recap: the following blog is written from the perspective of familiarizing myself one and equal with the mind, character and personality of someone who watches/consumes child pornography. By walking equal to the mind of the user, I am able to draw from it, the contributing factors from the initial thought to the decision that is made to watch child pornography and how the mind is further fueled through backchat and behaviors, until in time, the characteristic is defined and directs the being into action, through an accumulation of memories, thoughts and experiences. What follows is specific self-forgiveness on the characteristics within the write-up.

“By the age of 19 I fell in love with a girl, who after 6 months decided to sleep with one of the guys I worked with. I was furious – as I treated her like a queen and spent all my hard earned cash on her.”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use ‘I treated someone well therefore they should not have deceived me’ as an excuse and justification.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become infuriated due to my justification and excuse not working and the other person not doing what I was holding them responsible for.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that just because I was doing things ‘for another’ they would not leave me, thus allowing myself when the person left or acted different to how I wanted them to, to become so emotional, as I reflected this onto myself and allowed myself to experience rage towards self and others.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to in the end ignore how I had placed value onto pleasing others and how I believed people should behave around me.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself when the moment arrived where she tells me she had been seeing someone else, to bring up a picture thought of a memory of myself treated her well through money – thus using this memory as a benchmark of the kind of treatment I expected due to the monetary value I had placed into the relationship.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to then participate in the backchat of ‘how dare she, I spent all my money on her’ – therefore feeding my anger, which was based on a value system I had held the partner accountable for, which is how I value myself in relation to my partner.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react in fury when the money value was being disregarded therefore not considering myself or how I participated in creating the relationship construct based on money and attention and appreciation. Therefore when my relationship fell flat, I did not see, realize and understand that I played a part in the design of our experience towards each other as I too was responsible for the terms on which this relationship was built – which were dependent on how I really participated through money as one dominant factor.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to then create a physical response of hung shoulders, heaviness, shaking for days afterwards as I continued to think about what happened as I fueled my anger.

“After that relationship I met Lucinda, a girl who worked in the office next to me. We fell in love and got married when I was 23. We were married for 4 years during which time – we fell out of love, as we realized that our interests changed and she was too attached to her family.”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that one can fall in love with someone, on which one now energetically create beliefs, ideas and dependencies on the other person based on preconceived ideas of relationship.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I can also fall out of love with someone which I realize were all simply energetic possessions I allowed myself to become I as it is clear that one does not actually ‘fall’ anywhere, but instead allow pre-programmed experiences to overcome one, which we accept and allow as a statement of enjoying self punishment’ as we create and participate in experiences that are energy based and direct us through taking us over in forms of mind-energy-possession.


I commit myself to show that in order for us to Live and Breathe here in our Physical Bodies, we do not have to accept ourselves as these Mind Consciousness Systems which we have all come to accept through the generations as normal human responses – as we have made ourselves dependent on these emotion/feeling reactions and experiences that control us, where we lose directive principle as we give ourselves up into a system of the Mind.


The rest of the Self-Commitment statements for this blog is found at the end of the next blog.

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Day 7: South African Crime Research - The Voice of the Victim

The Victim Impact statement

The Victim Impact statement is used within South African law, as a written document by a victim, whom is the person who suffered personal harm (physical, psychological, social and financial) as a direct result of an offense (The South African Law Commission 2002:68). 

A victim impact statement differs from the general victim testimony in court, as it allows the victim to ‘personalize the crime’ and to ‘express their anguish, pain and devastation caused to them, so that the consequences of the crime may be understood by all involved in the law proceedings.

A criminologist compiles the victim impact statement to contribute towards a ‘more balanced view’ between the various components such as the seriousness of the offense, the physical harm, psychological harm, evidence provided, testimonies. Therefore the purpose of the victim impact statement is for those involved in the law proceedings to get a glimpse into the actual experience of the victim, as a means of grasping the seriousness of the crime on the life of a victim. (Criminology and Security Science 2012: 77 – 85) 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the existence of crime within my world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing no real solutions to be found for the existence of crime and to instead have to manipulate the jurors and judges through emotions and feelings to find it within them to relate to the victim and punish the perpetrator, without any clear understanding of how and why crime exists.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the existence of victim impact statements, instead of getting to the direct cause of why people commit crimes and to address the issue directly, equally for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the use of inner conflict within beings to fuel the current situation within the world based on anger and fear towards each other.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to stand firstly for the end of all crime, by ending all crimes against life, as that which I have already manifested as the world systems, which by definition abuses and separates and forces people into abusive lives, which then has the outflow and consequence of further abuse.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing ignorance to exist within me as an idea and opinion that bad people commit crime and should be punished.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that the real evil that exists in this world are those who stand by and enjoy the fruits of the abuse that is done towards the humans, animals and planet earth whom are in positions and whom have no say and have no choice but to survive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the capitalistic system, on which we have built this deceitful acceptance of abusing beings on this planet for the profit and greed of a minority while the rest of us as the elite who benefit from capitalist, sit back and pretend ignorance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing money to be the driving force behind everything I do on this planet, as the driving force of me as survival.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing money to be my life and that which motivates me, instead of me being motivated to live life and to see life equally being lived by all, with no fear and hatred and greed being the driving force of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing greed to exist in this world and to use that as an excuse for why we can force billions of beings into survival daily where most do not have sufficient needs met, forcing many into survival based abusive practices to feed themselves and their families.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the period of waiting to see what happens, where the end result is people having to write out emotional letters placing themselves as further victims within the system, instead of priority being given to the welfare of each.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ignore the effect that our current world system has on the beings that inhabit this planet, and instead of acting to solve the problems, to postpone the inevitable, waiting generation after generation for suffering to compound until it is too late.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as the victim, the one that waits for somebody else to change my world, to change me and to stand up for the life within me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be the victim, because growing up I believed I was nothing and that some god or man would come and take care of me, through which I abdicated my self-responsibility and my self-will – to stand before the system dependent and without a voice, accepting life without question.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as the perpetrator – the one that wants to take from others, without considering and applying myself here within practical self-responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the existence of the perpetrator within me, the hiding and sulking and blaming others for the decisions I have made in my life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become the judge and jury who judge others for their actions, without considering my part in this reality and that which I have directly and tacitly agreed to by accepting out current reality as it is.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as the perpetrator – the one that wants to take from others, without considering and applying myself here within practical self-responsibility.

I commit myself within equality to stop the abuse that I allow in my world in the name of greed and self-interest.

I commit myself through writing to reveal that within my world, within myself which does not serve life on this planet.

I commit myself to reveal to myself the practices and ideologies that are based on lies and deception.

I commit myself to stop emotionally feeding off the suffering of others in the name of self-entertainment.

I commit myself to re-write myself as the living word into a being that can be trusted and who will stand for all life, and to serve life as what is best for all.

I commit myself to stop the crimes against life that I have come to accept as myself – where I live in a world where starvation and abuse is acceptable because we make money from it.

I commit myself to find ways to stop any and all forms of abuse and to not ‘beat around the bush’ about why crime exist, but to directly see and communicate the lies we have come to accept as our society, for all to see and hear.

I commit myself to stop the genocide of life, before it is too late and there is nothing left of us but our ugly nasty entity minds that devour and consume everything round us.

I commit myself to stop participating in the rotten child syndrome, through which we feed of the spoils of the earth, watching countless beings suffer and crying for mercy once it is too late.

I commit myself to see, hear and understand what it is that I am required to do to bring about a dignified life for all.

I commit myself to not accept the existence of crime as normal and to not accept any justification for abuse and crime, as no reason could possibly exist for us to abuse each other, this planet and nature.

I commit myself to stop participating in the energy reactions of listing to someone’s crime story in which I allow my curiosity to have reactions direct me to maintain my world of abuse and torture where I will deliberately turn a blind eye to what is happening in my world because it stimulates my mind.

I commit myself to bring about a world system that is best for all, so that all may have their basics needs met and have equal opportunity to love and express here in dignity and in full expression of life as the physical.

I commit myself to bring about a new economic system that will benefit all who live on this planet and to transform my old ways of living and being as the crime against life into something new – which will be the living manifestation of what is best for all.