Day 154: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 5

Previous Blogs in this series:

Day 147: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 1

Day 148: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 2

Day 150: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 3

Day 151: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 4

"If I truly felt anything towards abuse, towards the problems we faced – I had to start with me and stop yelling to the skies, or blaming the government, or blaming the obvious baddies etc. I mean if one uses a bit of common sense you will realize that even if we ended up like in those end of the word Apocalypse movies, where we get shipped to another planet because we have destroyed this one. What would change? Nothing – due to our inherent nature, we as who we have become would simply start all over again and destroy – in time the new planet; basic common sense. If we don't change, nothing will change. So therefore this principle of ‘doing what is best for all’ became my full understanding as the solution. If we want to stop the madness and have ‘what is best’ – how can we expect to still live the secret aspects of our minds as our fears and justifications for our self interest? How can we respect jesus as an example of a man who did and encourages living what is best – but we continue not living what is best?  Why must somebody else like a guru or deity or religious figure or politicians do what is best for us, but we don't want to live that within ourselves as a principle?"

So with regards to realizing the Principle of doing what is best for all, I realizes firstly as mentioned in my previous blog, that this would directly imply that I would have to become the change that I expected from the world - because if I did not change my beingness, the starting point of who I was as the human living on this planet directly creating and participating and allowing abuse in all forms of its creation from minuscule to large - then obviously we don’t stand a chance. At first this was a bit of a shock, a revelation that at first allowed me to feel relief as I realised that I could finally stop waiting for some god or deity or 'powerful special person' to save me, but then a while later as I looked at the real steps that I will have to take to bring that about, it left me experiencing a slight bit of anxiety in my solar plexus, as it dawned on me that self change actually means changing who I am, how and what I think and what I allow to exist within me.

Therefore even thought at Desteni you will notice we use many big words or knowledge concepts such as 'self honesty, self forgiveness, self responsibility and self realization. But if you take a closer look at the people who apply these tools and principles - what we are directly saying by speaking these words is that for each it becomes a point of 'living' the words, not just merely speaking them. Obviously this in itself as I realized is the difficult part because and this ties in with the definition of the statement: Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all - what this means is to actually investigate, take responsibility for and change how I have conditioned myself into how I think and speak and express myself.

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As an example of : Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all; What does this practically mean? This means as stated above that I would like to live in a world where we stop deceiving and abusing and living only for self interest as the addiction to the Mind. This means that my principle becomes doing and living that which in all ways will always support us as humanity to be better people, functioning in all ways to create a society of people that are actually if one were to say 'the image and likeness of god' - and here I am not saying I belief in a god - here I am referring to what one would understand to be the best human possible. What would this imply - well for me this means stopping all actions, words and thoughts that are not in my best interest, because if it is not what is best for me, then it is obviously not what is best for others - and therefore one will say that to direct one in ones words, thoughts and deeds, is to in every moment asses 'me', meaning to purify my thoughts, words and deeds.

Next blog: walking an example of Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all

Day 77: International Crime Research: Serial Killers, Mass Murderers and Sociopaths Part 12: Learning to Kill

My Self-Forgiveness will focus on the following Article:


The Qualitative Report Volume 9 Number 2 June 2004: Sipping Coffee with a Serial Killer: On Conducting Life History Interviews with a Criminal Genius

Author: J. C. Oleson


In each blog I will walk self-forgiveness on different parts of the Article, discussing the developmental aspects of somebody who 'learns to kill'.

This blog is a continuation from the previous blog in this series:

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/11/day-75-international-crime-research.html

"As a child, X demonstrated precocious maturation. He spoke, read, and wrote earlier than most children. When he was six, a teacher placed a series of numbers on the classroom chalkboard. X intuitively substituted  letters for the digits, cracked the code, and raised his hand to read the message aloud.  

 Being such a bright boy had earned X the accolades of his teachers, but his precocity also came with a cost. When he was nine, X qualified for a gifted education program. The only boy in his class to qualify,  he clearly remembered the hardship of leaving his peers behind. At once, he was stigmatized for his differences, branded as an outsider (Becker, 1963; Wilson, 1956). His peers immediately began to tease him about his new status, and X began to realize that his prodigious intellectual gifts could also be alienating and isolating (Hollingworth, 1942; Towers, 1990). 

 Hirschi’s control theory provides additional support for the notion of the angelic gifted child: “The academically competent boy is more likely to do well in school and more likely as a result to like school. The boy who likes school is less likely to be delinquent” (1969, p. 115). But by the time he was ten, X had figured out that “being the smart guy was bad.”  Being smart wasn’t smart at all. It meant social isolation and persecution as a nerd or a geek (Richardson, 1993). Accordingly, X cultivated a taste for heavy metal music, began to dress in black t-shirts and blue jeans, and downplayed his intellectual abilities at every available opportunity. Although his parents worried that X might become involved with drugs or delinquency, they remained confident in his values suspecting that it was all merely a phase."

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge another, who is different from me and through this judgment, compound my backchat into nasty behavior towards that individual.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be jealous of the abilities of another, but instead of facing up to my experience of being 'less than that person', I make it about the other person, by creating rumors and spreading gossip, to the point that others convince themselves equally within the point of jealousy and comparison, to give into the point of bullying.

I commit myself to treat all beings with equality and equal respect as I respect myself, and when and as I find myself experiencing any backchat or thoughts, wants, needs desires towards another person or anything they have or are able to do, I stop, breathe and remind myself that it is not about the other person, and what they have or dont have - it is always about my own inner experience and how I am using the other as a mirror to actually reflect my own self-speak back to me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create a schooling system, where it has become common place for children to find each other intolerable, as if we have come to believe that we are different, even though we are all actually born equally into a physical body, within a physical reality - where it has only been within and through the Mind as Mind-Possession - where we have collectively as Society created this evil called thinking - where we have created ideas that we are apparently better than others, simply due to the secret nature of how addictive the human really is to energy - where we will allow addictions, in whatever form it may take - while all the time denying the abuse that we cause, and denying that we know that we cause such harm to one another.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to deny that I exist within a constant relationship to things and people and within this relationship forming am at all times doing so to appear better than others, whilst creating concept as CONS of better than or not better than - where everybody buys into these lies, because everybody wants to be able to do the same thing, no matter what the expense.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be an educator in a system where we allow things like bullying and comparison between children, where I stand as the developer of such a mind, and at no point do I speak up about the fact that the education system, allows for the development of the nasty backchat secret mind of the human, and the only morality that the education system will ever protect - as the real molarity that is protected is anything governed by and for the money system of the word - which if one look at it in absolute self-honesty has become 'god' within this world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as parent to at no point consider tae consequences of blissfully ignoring my role as the parent, and for projecting responsibility for the development of my child onto the schooling system, governments and religions, while they are doing the exact same thing - while we al in self honesty really actually realize that how we exist and the way our children develop into adults, is in no way what is best for man, and that man has in fact become demonic and de-manned - but because survival of the Ego and survival through money has become the one reason why man exists - we in fact not only allow any form of abuse such as childhood bullying, but will even go as far as supporting these actions through how we develop the Ego of the child which is the basis from which the child then functions.

I commit myself to always show that every action and word, is always based in self interest - and that one can always trace the origin and starting point of why we accept and allow abuse in our societies and why we will condemn any person or group, whom suggest self honesty - because as a society we are always faced with the choice to exist as the problem or to solve the problem.

Day 55: Education Fraud Part 16 – Medicalization of the Education System Part 4 - Parents abusing Ritalin Part 2

This blog is a continuation from:

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/09/day-52-international-crime-research.html

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/09/day-53-education-fraud-part-14.html

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/10/day-54-education-fraud-part-15.html#



Parents abusing Ritalin Part 2

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as parent to fear losing control of my child

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge my child for being active/overactive/hyperactive or expressive to the point that causes me embarrassment or concern for him/her, our environment or the actions of the child within other environments such as school/groups/outings/shopping malls/play dates etc.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear what other parents will say about me and my ability to parent my child, if they see my child behaving strangely/excessively and/or different to the other children.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the system as schools and other authoritative figures lashing out at me, if my child behaves strangely/excessively in public places/towards others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to trust the opinions of 'authoritative figures', not realizing or considering that their profession exists from research connected to the acceptance of the human as we currently exist, which ties in with the capitalistic/economic survival of man, where we medicalize and label problems, simply to drive the economy and give the economy a chance to survive at the expense of the human experience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe the authoritative opinions, whom I have not considered do what they do, simply because they got degrees from the universities that presented the material, which supports the global economy - therefore the principle of 'human care' is not one of 'funding solutions' but to profit from the problems - therefore everything that comes from the 'authoritative figures' supports the survival of profit and therefore their methods are designed specifically to keep the child and parent trapped within a system of knowledge and information that has no outcome as what is best for all humanity, but to accept the human as lost and broken. That is why we are seeing more and more human behaviors being labeled into 'conditions' - this exists due to the creations of jobs/professions/skills of all that we encounter or experience, so that money can be made from all that is here - as people struggle to survive in the current economic system. Therefore all that is here - means that as the human allows more and more energetic mind possessions, the more the 'authorities' will label the behaviors into conditions, which can then be sold and turned into/medicalized into therapies/methods/courses which have to be paid for and always are about maintaining the human as something out of control, instead of teaching/educating the organic robot about self responsibility, self honesty and self forgiveness.

The following article is an example of the above statements - which I will expand on in future blogs:

http://www.canberratimes.com.au/technology/technology-news/screenaddicted-children-may-have-newest-mental-illness-20120929-26s7q.html

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto a picture of what a child must be and do and look like, equivalent to the children of his/her age

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself once my child does not match this picture that represents the majority of children in our society - to develop backchat as internal conversations about my child being different, naughty and how I must correct this problem.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the internal, backchat conversations towards others and my child in relation to the fear of 'what do the other mothers think of me', or 'what will become of my child as he/she grows up, if he/she carries on behaving like this'

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the emotions/feelings of annoyance, anger, rejection, love, acceptance, jealousy etc - to be the energetic driving force between seeing my child's behavior and deciding to act by giving the child drugs - as I am directed by emotions and feelings linked to values I have placed in relation to my child and how others view me through my child.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to change my physical behavior around my child, based on fear of loss, fear of making mistakes and fear of death - where my child's future is being equated by me, through how I perceive my child will be treated within the system, through their behaviors.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to direct the outcome of placing my child on drugs for any other reason, but a last practical consideration, when all other factors/methods have been considered or walked, where me placing my child on drugs is based on an energetic reaction, based on pictures, fears and backchat conversations within myself towards how I perceive my child will or is being treated and what I project the future outcome of the child's survival within the system will be.