Day 151: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 4

Please read the previous parts:

Day 147: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 1
Day 148: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 2
Day 150: Living by the principle of what is best for all part 3

“If I truly felt anything towards abuse, towards the problems we faced – I had to start with me and stop yelling to the skies, or blaming the government, or blaming the obvious baddies etc. I mean if one uses a bit of common sense you will realize that even if we ended up like in those end of the word Apocalypse movies, where we get shipped to another planet because we have destroyed this one. What would change? Nothing – due to our inherent nature, we as who we have become would simply start all over again and destroy – in time the new planet; basic common sense. If we don't change, nothing will change. So therefore this principle of ‘doing what is best for all’ became my full understanding as the solution. If we want to stop the madness and have ‘what is best’ – how can we expect to still live the secret aspects of our minds as our fears and justifications for our self interest? How can we respect jesus as an example of a man who did and encourages living what is best – but we continue not living what is best?  Why must somebody else like a guru or deity or religious figure or politicians do what is best for us, but we don't want to live that within ourselves as a principle?”

Therefore ultimately what I realized was that I was not existing in my body  - but in my minds where I lived for energy experiences. Therefore I was blind to the harm caused to others because even when I looked at an image on the news or facebook of a person or animal being abused, I only reacted slightly – but in the end would continue to support the same Mind-Design patterns that resulted in that form of abuse be it within myself or an outflow of what happened to support my individual self interest. To give you an example – we see an image of a collapsed building such as from this blog:  ‘The Psychology of Crimes against Life: Capitalism Part 1: Death in the work place’. We see the suffering and pain caused to the victims and their families all because of the deceptions within the principles of the functioning of Capitalism. We for a moment react and maybe shed a tear – but in the end what happens in the mind – we think ‘well for this to end we have to put an end to many factors behind which Capitalism functions. For example I will have to stand by a principle of changing our money system – because this is one examples of billions of examples of what happens each day in our current money system. For the money system to change I will have to change my desire and hidden dishonesty towards other life forms, where I want to have more money than others and feel better about the class I am in, because I can compare myself within my self worth to others. I would have to stop accepting minimum wages and things like slave labour. I would have to see those people who died there as my equals, worthy of the same life requirements as me.’ There are many dimensions one can look at, when investigating what is behind why we as society accept these points of suffering. But what happens in the mind when faced with that point of change: “NAAAAHHH, Not going to do that, I like things just the way they are.’ And yet if our own families or ‘loves ones’ or fiends or our own lives are harmed, then you see people becoming hysterical and flooding facebook with messages of ‘please send your love and prayers to so and so…’ Where we yell how unfair it was and that the authorities must do something!’ As long as it is not me and my family. That is unfortunately the extent to which love exists in our society – love for me and my own. This is very obvious and I am not going to try and even explain the point further because this is absolutely evident in itself – if everyone loved life equally for and as ALL – then we would have by now changed the world systems that force abuse onto those who cannot protect themselves.

Moving on – I worked with the truth of how I saw myself and every other life form. The truth was that in my mind, in my hidden and not so hidden thoughts about myself and others – I actually didn't care about anybody and that was the truth of why I existed in the exact same mind set of ‘me, mine, what I WANT’. I realised that the world system is not caused by some invisible force of evil. It exists due to me allowing it to be an extension of the truth of who I really am inside. Not the picture I show to people of how ‘good I am’ or even ‘how dark and nonchalant I can be’ – the actual truth.

That means that I walked different forms of abuse that I saw in the world – such as the building collapsing in Bangladesh or a boy being beaten up for being Jewish or a girl being bullied at school for being fat. I looked at where do I in my thoughts justify the beauty industry and the existence of the class system as created within capitalism – for me to justify why it is ok for capitalism to continue to exist as it does, where it justified buildings collapsing on people. I looked at where do I either in my words, or thoughts or deeds bully another for not being like me, being of a different religion, believe or even for just liking different things than me. I looked at the girl being bullied for being fat –and I looked at the times I have gotten possessed over my own appearance and self image – where I insisted on having things my way at the expense of others, or where I would secretly judge a fat girl as I walked past her for being thinner than her. All of these base design thought patterns exist in all of us. The only difference comes into – ones personalised personality – which will utilise different thoughts processes. For example in all humans exist all forms of emotions and feelings – but we utilise them and go into the energy experience of that emotion/feeling differently – for example you might get someone who gets completely possessed with jealousy and the next person only feels a slight movement inside themselves – but the end of the day moving oneself as that emotion – where it directs ones decision – this is still exactly the same thing  all that is different is to what extent we make these decisions based on these emotions and the extent of the consequences to ourselves. It is still ‘the emotion of jealousy’ that directs me and therefore I am the same as every other person who I might have judged for being directed by their emotions. And it is these consequences that we in society have all labelled as either unacceptable because we see the direct consequence as being unacceptable or we label it as acceptable because it only caused some harm or harm we are not able to see directly.

For example lets say a ‘serial killer’ (see series: International Crime Research: Serial Killers, Mass Murderers and Sociopaths Part 1) was moved by the possession of sex and dominating woman through the sex-power experience as learnt through pornography (which is another example of parents seeing pornography as being a harmless developmental phase in their child's life and just giggle and roles their eyes at it instead of REALLY looking at what is pornography designing and influencing within the impressionable youngster). So within most humans we develop, especially of you look at the vast majority of people who watch pornography OR who at least grow up with a skewed view of sexuality – a view and practise on sex that is at best not in alignment with it being a healthy physical self expression point, but which became again a hidden, secretive practise based on a system within the mind body relationship that uses imagery and fear and morality and secretiveness which transpires into desire which generates energy. For most people though  - sex is a very big system, because of the addictive nature of it – and it is due to this that most humans will deny and fight tooth and nail to protect our sexual practices. It is seen as natural and ‘fun’ even to have secret sexual desires towards others and to get aroused by pornography and other graphic sexual images such as rape, bestiality, child pornography. So these are examples of what we really do behind closed doors and in our private spaces, most people do it to some extent and because of this and because the consequences of such addictions are not taught to children and obviously not seen by adults – because ‘I am having fun in my life screw the rest’ – this is the reason why hidden patterns of abuse are justified and participated in my most people. Monkey see monkey do is the principle – I see others doing it so I do it too – because it is acceptable.

So it is wrong for Ted Bundy or Jeffrey Dahmer for example to become possessed in a sex-power system and for it to result in the death and harm of people BUT if I tap into the same sex-power system energy through watching porn or the way I participate in sexual practices and masturbation and the way I act in relationships – then it is ok – as long as someone did not get ‘hurt’. But do we ever walk the time lines of the consequences of how we participate to see what have we created inside ourselves and as a societal acceptable practise? Do we look at who gets harmed behind the scenes of what I have allowed? No – if our consequences are not in our faces then we don't bother investigating this reality and how we are a part of. Easier just to say ‘someone else did it’ or ‘he/she is bad’ or to put blinkers on our eyes and not really investigate anything.

(See Ted ‘Bundy’s Final Interview’ where he speaks about the influences such as Pornography, that contributed to who he became.)

I quite enjoy watching crime related tv series like CSI, Criminal Minds and so forth. So as an example you will notice how if a crime happens, the CSI, or Police or behavioural analysists will come along and investigate the time line of events that moulded and shaped the final event/death/murder. However we don't do this for ourselves to see where and how our lives, our choices have consequences for yourselves, our children, the lives of others and this planet. Here is where I started investigating myself and what I do to myself as creator, and also what I do to the world as creator. The painful part at that stage was realising ‘self responsibility’ because on the one hand one wants to believe that this life is ‘so short’ and ‘why can I not have fun’ etc. But after a while as I worked through those reactions I realised that I could no longer ignore the reality of this world. I could not longer sit back and continue to participate in my secret world which had an indirect and direct outflow on my external world. If I truly felt anything towards abuse, towards the problems we faced – I had to start with me and stop yelling to the skies, or blaming the government, or blaming the obvious baddies etc. I mean if one uses a bit of common sense you will realize that even if we ended up like in those end of the word Apocalypse movies, where we get shipped to another planet because we have destroyed this one. What would change? Nothing – due to our inherent nature, we as who we have become would simply start all over again and destroy – in time the new planet; basic common sense. If we don't change, nothing will change. So therefore this principle of ‘doing what is best for all’ became my full understanding as the solution. If we want to stop the madness and have ‘what is best’ – how can we expect to still live the secret aspects of our minds as our fears and justifications for our self interest? How can we respect jesus as an example of a man who did and encourages living what is best – but we continue not living what is best?  Why must somebody else like a guru or deity or religious figure or politicians do what is best for us, but we don't want to live that within ourselves as a principle?

In the next part I will explore an example of Living by the principle of what is best for all – guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all.

Day 141: The Paranormal Series Part 11 - Demons in the Afterlife part 2

Day 131: The Paranormal Series - Ghosts and Demons Part 1
Day 132: The Paranormal Series – Ghosts and Demons Part 2
Day 133: The Paranormal Series – Ghosts and Demons Part 3
Day 134: The Paranormal Series Part 4 - A Psychic’s Gate Keeper (part 1)
Day 135: The Paranormal Series Part 5 - A Psychic’s Gate Keeper (part 2)
Day 136: The Paranormal Series Part 6 – The being that died as Fear (part 1)
Day 137: The Paranormal Series Part 7 – The being that died as Fear (part 2)
Day 138: The Paranormal Series Part 8 – The being that died as Fear (part 3)
Day 139: The Paranormal Series Part 9 – The Enlightenment Being
Day 140: The Paranormal Series Part 10 - Demons in the Afterlife part 1

This blog is a continuation from part 1 and is based on the following Interview:

Demons in the Afterlife - Part 1

“ what is fascinating is that if one look at the relationship with ones own mind, there are demons in your own mind. What is interesting is that even within the relationship to ones own mind, there is the same negative, damming, relationship to demons in your own mind in the sense that one keep them on the outskirts of your consciousness, your awareness. One do not even approach them, face them, look at them, understand them. Why do they exist within me? What is their reason, their purpose? How can you assist the demons of your own mind essentially. so within this all it has to be understood and questioned, in why it is why the demons in the heaven existence were never really in fact assisted and supported at all and that is both within the heaven context and within human beings within this world. Why on both sides, I mean the demon dimension were essentially in the middle of it all, that there was no assistance and support for the demons within the demon dimension. The same within the world system, within humanity – why is it really in fact, despite everyone knowing that the world system is the direct root cause and origin of poverty, of famine, of starvation, of violence, of wars within this physical existence – that there is no change to that very system. That there is no effort made in physically, practically having human beings that are facing poverty and starvation and famine and wars and violence and the consequences of that exalted into a physical life equality and oneness on this earth. The answer to all of this exists in how and what was the demons and the demons dimensions relationship to heaven. What was the benefit of them existing and to whom was that benefit afforded? Same within within world system, what benefit are those that are existing in poverty and starvation and famine and war and violence and who is benefiting from that? If we were in any way really genuine about this LOVE, about this absolute benevolence, shouldn't that love supersede or be stronger than the apparent evil or darkness that the demons presented?

                                                                                         - Demon communicating through the Interdimensional Portal

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to cling onto hope that all beings on earth who experience pain and suffering within this world system, will be assisted by some god or someone else or some force.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use a believe in a god or some supreme being  that they will change the world problems and therefore I do not have to take responsibility for the world system and the problems thereof – because there is something or someone out there and that this something is part of some grand divine plan, which I am not privy of and thus I can sit back in my comfortable life while beings suffer, knowing and using beLIEf so justify me not directly changing the world system, here in actuality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to continue demonise those who I perceive as being outcasts of life’ while not realising that it is my participation and creation of this world system that directly cause them within their life time line to become who they are and yet I act ignorant to my part and participation, in out casting beings into roles of victimisation and enslavement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use the world Love, so say that I Love all of humanity or I Love or living beings, however at the end of the day when it comes to putting Love into practical application by actually changing the lives for all of these beings that I love to have dignified lives, when action is required I sink back into apathy and justification.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that words like Love and Light are useless unless we can actually change this physical reality as the practical change and practical application of actions of Love
 
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to cling onto the feel good experience of words like Love, while at the same time ignoring that my mind demons still exist within me, and that I have not changed and that the truth of me exist as various demons, which I have not been able to wish away or ignore away through the use of words like love, light, jesus, god etc…

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that words and ideas like love and light has not changed or made a  difference to the demonic nature of man, due to my own fear of having to admit that the only way I will change me or this world is if I directly change myself and change the fear and emotional polarity systems that cause me to have to say ‘I Love you’ or ‘I send love and light to you.’

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that there are angels, guides and masters that apparently come from the heavenly existence to ‘assist’ mankind, when they have not even assisted their own kind which would be the demonic beings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing something like a ‘lower frequency band’ to influence my perception of another being and influence how I treat this being because he/she exists in and of ‘lower frequency bands’.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not step in and assist the demons, simply because they existed in the lower frequency bands – this limiting myself as a being whom I claim to be standing for what is best and standing in Love and Light.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to send beings that I do not understand or like away to be treated and punished and contained just like the demon exorcists did with demons, where the demons were cast from the body – instead of understanding the demon, communicating with the demon or being, getting to know them and mostly getting to the bottom of or understanding how this being or demon came to be who they are.

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Day 91: International Crime Research: Mass Murderers Part 5: Mass Murderers for Fame and Self-Interest

This blog is a continuation from:
Day 90: International Crime Research: Mass Murderers Part 4: The Physical Reaction of Mass Murderers



Taken from Wikipedia: (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mass_murder)

"A notable motivation for mass murder is revenge, but many other motivations are possible, including the need for attention or fame..."

If one observe the 'line' that has been drawn between the conventional classification of 'mass murderer,' and the killing of groups of individuals that are acceptable within our world system, you will notice as I have, the paralel that exists between all forms of 'mass murder', the only difference being - which forms of Mass Murder we as society have come to accept and agree to as being 'ok/acceptable'.

For example, if an individual or group murder other humans, within a context that has not been rationalised and accepted by society - then we label it 'mass murder' - and will hunt such people down with great vigour, using emotional turmoil done onto the families and friends of those who were killed - to fuel the criminalising of such actions. However if a group does it within the confines of labels that support the rest of society to survive - then it is not called mass murder - but is rather brushed, literally aside, as 'just one of those things', or 'an unfortunate consequence of living in this world.'

For example - where do we see masses/groups of humans being killed within this world system, to support the survival of other humans, be it for the advancement of self interest or for actual physical survival? Well we see it each day in the Money system, in our religions, world government, cultures and in the general 'beingness' of humanity - where we give permission to the existence of things like war and murder -without really deeply looking into how and why such people and systems exist and how to resolve the issues behind why it exists - for good. Instead we have institutions that place plasters over the harm and existing trends of abusive living, such as doctors, psychologists, social workers, new age healers, charities and politicians - all playing their role (knowingly or unknowingly) to merely keep the underlying systems responsible for the abuse in place - while appeasing the emotional reactions and pains caused to humanity, by teaching us how to 'cope' and 'get on with out lives'.

To me, as somebody who has been given an opportunity to live differently, to see how harm is caused, how to stop causing harm myself and the enjoyment for self of living in an an environment where all decisions work with and towards the best outcome that stops harm - has allowed me to see - that on a global scale it is absolutely possible for ALL of us to live in such harmony and 'heaven on earth'. What I have just discussed might appear to be 'too out there' - because initially as one hears the words like 'heaven on earth' and 'best for all' - the mind tends to say 'that is gibberish and far fetched' - what are you really telling me?

So lets slow down what I have just said and take a look: all of us will admit at some point that we 'wish' the violence and suffering we endure on earth could just stop. Most people who live middle to lower income lives, have at some point, wished they could have different opportunities in life and wish they could find a way to escape the hardship of having to survive not just monetarily but also socially -away from the constant personal struggled of having to fit in and find a way to balance ones own 'self-interest' amongst the rest of societies 'self-interest'. In the end we all end up in mental battles with each other in society, as we attempt to survive as personalities - instead of living equally as one. We live to compete socially and to be more of oneself in accordance with social standards of what it means to be 'intelligent', 'beautiful', 'successful', funny, 'popular', 'attractive', 'special' etc. This becomes life for the human - a constant comparison and competing with other humans to achieve goals based on 'being the best we can be' - which sounds 'innocent' - however it is and always has been, a never ending cycle of polarities between negatives and positives, where even in family and friendship we are pushing each other to be and live concepts of ourselves based on energy stimulated within the mind through thinking - with very little regard for physical practical living. All activity for the human currently exists in the mind - we live for and through our thoughts which generate energy, which allows us to feel a certain way. To feel good for example- we believe and think we should act a certain way - which means others will recognise that we now fit the picture they perceive as acceptable, and upon this recognition that ones personality is accepted by family and friends - one will though the act of thinking oneself into this acceptance - one will then generate the energetic experience of 'self fulfilment, enjoyment, happiness, bliss, contentment, part of the group, acceptable etc' -however what nobody has considered or even looked into is that every human lives for an in the Mind only - and that the Mind-Systems are in essence due to their 'systematic nature' - quite 'ruthless' meaning - we never consider how our life styles and choices and 'needs' affect the lives of others and this planet/nature. As Mind-Systems, we only follow the paths of the programming - meaning if I want to feel good -accepting myself as this energy - then i go to the mall and I spend money on nice items, which through the value system I have given these items, raises my energy experience to feel really good. The fact that very obviously for all to see - there is a Capitalistic System in the background, which manages 'human needs' through taking advantage of the lives of billions of other beings, so that the working class can achieve the energetic experience of 'feeling good' through buying 'stuff' - this is conveniently missed by ALL who live in the system. If one look in self-honesty- one will note as I have that only System runs automatically without any feelings or considerations for points outside its programming.

The Mind System will cry if its own child is abused/killed/harmed - as its child forms part of its own emotional-energy system - but this same system does not bat and eyelid that millions of children starve each day in a system where resources are witheld from beings until the point of starvation and death, because they do not have a piece of paper that gives them the right to Life. Millions of children are sold in the sex and slavery industry each day - so that the rest of the planet can 'buy stuff' and 'enjoy themselves in things like sex-addictions and consumerism' - but because it is not 'my' child it doesn't matter. If we were truly 'looking and experiencing the consequences of our living on this planet' we would probably become hysterical from regret and dread.

So now we see how a human can accept suffering and abuse to not only exist, but escalate yearly, where for example the behavioural pattern of the human becomes more obsessive as the energy possessions become more extreme and Capitalism finds more ways to exploit the physical reality for profit. If as humans we call ourselves 'humane' or even 'spiritual' or 'the image and likeness of some god'- what does this mean - does this mean we change ourselves to change what the world becomes and it supports the human's existence, or do we realize we only exist as Mind-Systems, that only function according to our programming, chasing only the energy systems that keep our Mind alive, while having no true regard for any other form of Life, unless it serves our emotional and mental needs...

More to follow on the Mass Murderer...

Day 84: Crimes against Life: Pope widens war on gays.

Newspaper article: 'Pope widens war on gays', December 2012. The article states that the pope and the Vatican are ready to forge alliances with other religions against gay marriage. The Vatican claims that gay marriage will 'threaten the foundation of the family' and that family exists as the 'blueprint' of human existence'. The pope goes on to say that the family is threatened by a 'false understanding of freedom and a repudiation of life long commitments in heterosexual marriage' - and by doing so the 'key figures' of the family wil disappear: the father, mother and child - thus losing the 'essential elements of family'.

Now, other than one seeing the Vatican and religion in general who support this fuzzy logic, grasping very clearly at straws, to continue being able to control humanity through religious doctrine and fear - what is also clear from this is the following:

You have a world currently which factually, (where one has to be locked in a deep dark celler to not be able to see and understand) is in disarray - with war, murder, famine, abuse, starvation, corruption, greed, hardship, poverty, fear of survival etc - which has become a common place within all societies. No devil or cosmic force is to blame for any of it, other than the human. Try as you might, to claim that we are not responsible for what is happening on this planet - because all you need to do is follow the consequential time lines of all decisions made every day by each human to get to the results in abuse.



Therefore in light of us obviously being faced with the intensifying and compounding of what we are accepting and allowing on this planet every day - where each day billions of beings are abused in the name of greed and human entertainment - we are able to see that if the Vatican want us to ignore the real problems and breed more humans, to continue allowing the world as it is - then the religions are in fact accountable firstly for not doing what they are supposed to do, which is apparently suppose to make a difference in the problems created and faced by humanity. Thus far, no religion has ever been able to make any difference in the world, if this were the case we would see a steady consistent decrease in things like war, poverty, abuse, etc and not an increase as the facts show. So religions are lying, by firstly using their base of power to convince people that they know how to assist humanity to become a better form of ourselves, one could say an image and likeness of god. They have in fact no practical insights into the problems that exist and instead multiply the problem as we see in this case, where they while ignoring the problem, condemn any marriage that will not result in the breeding of more defective humans. Why would a spiritual organisation, responsible as they have given themselves this title since the dark ages, clearly go for duplicating and cloning the problems, instead f solving the problems? Why would they worry about a few million humans who will be happy being in gay marriages, when there will still be billions of straight marriages producing dysfunctional human beings? What do they stand to loose? Is it a matter of power - that if they loose their grip on any point of authority - as he states 'the family is being threatened by a false understanding of freedom' - will mean that the church will no longer exist if humans become self responsible. In self-honesty one realizes and sees religion for what it is, if one dare to take a look inside one's own mind to understand the construction of your own fears and hopes and coping mechanisms, where the church similar to the example of a child first using training wheels on a bicycle to learn how to ride, the human requires a church to be a moral compass, as he human has never been self honest - this again is mathematically provable if - again one look at the consequential outflow of the decision, acceptances and allowances made by all humans throughout our lives that have resulted in us becoming what we are now.

The church will no longer exist if it gradually allows the human to start taking 'back the reigns' and becoming self responsible or by simply saying I make my own decisions. The church as one are able to see, from the state of the world, have no interest in the human developing into something more, or else they would support the education of the human to be that and support the human in self development into something effective by supporting a world system that allows for the human to live in dignity and self expression and enjoyment. Instead not only does the church support capitalism, by not saying one word against it - but it profits from it - as one can see by the wealth of money contained within and by the vatican and its members. Religion started out as a gaining of power and control, and has become one of the largest corporations, by controlling and manipulating to maintain the flow of money, in which it will fight just like any other corporation for it's survival.

We claim to have evolved as a species into a fairly intelligent capable being, however most 'intelligent humans' belong to some form of archaic religion, where no common sense exists and by its mere definitions, and rules the religion equal and one, reflects about the member, that the member is still trapped within an archaic survival mechanism that is guided by rules that serve only self interest and protection of the family and its members through actions that alleviate fear. Nothing is done about changing or removing the fears, such as fear of not being able to feed my family, which are faced currently by a majority of families in the world, but instead the religion uses this constant fear that the human is in, to maintain control through the hope that your family will not starve as long as you believe on some god.

So religions lie, they manipulate and doe so through the permission of all of humanity, because humanity who claim to be 'intelligent, evolved beings', have complete numbed minds when it comes to religion, where the most obscene ideas and archaic concepts are given value to over Life on this planet and over any sense of common sense or practicality.


Together, we as humanity have allowed the Vatican to make such religious statement such as 'the family is the blueprint of humanity' therefore we are allowed to completely annihilate any self-choice and happiness of millions of people such as in this case 'gay couples'- just so that we can make sure that everybody has children? Why do the Vatican's loove children so much? If I was a conspiracy theorist or a cult-expert like Rick Ross, I would probably now claim that the Vatican (in my expert opinion) are child molesters because they want and openly admit they want to make sure nobody steps out of line from being 'straight' -so that all humans follow through with maintaining the true family function of procreation.


But seriously, one has to start questioning how and why would religions take on and invent such ridiculous statements and causes - what is in it for them to simply refuse that some human will breed while other have gay relationships? Why do they insist that all humans must follow the structure of what it means to be a human, which is to breed? Do they, themselves sit in a little room and laugh at the ridiculousness of their own causes, knowing common-sensically how funny and outlandish it all sounds, but laughing even more because they know they will get away with it? It would be the equivalent (and this is incase you were going to leave a comment 'because it is written in the bible') of having a Harry Potter council, where we allow all the actors from Harry Potter to sit around a table and make decisions for and on behalf of humanity, simply because they were trained in acting school to pretend to be wizards who are 'special and magical'. We would also not allow a council of children to have the final say on how to deal with world problems, and yet here we are continuing to allow religious people, who make ridiculous claims such as 'wars against gay people' and 'foundations of humanity' and 'blueprints' - while we do not for a moment question what these people are saying, as we would see, realize and understand that they are up to no good and for whatever reason playing with the lives of human beings for their own self interest.

Investigate and participate in our discussion on the principles of an Equal Money System: www.equalmoney.org

Day 79: International Crime Research: Serial Killers, Mass Murderers and Sociopaths Part 13: Learning to Kill

My Self-Forgiveness will focus on the following Article:


The Qualitative Report Volume 9 Number 2 June 2004: Sipping Coffee with a Serial Killer: On Conducting Life History Interviews with a Criminal Genius

Author: J. C. Oleson


In each blog I will walk self-forgiveness on different parts of the Article, discussing the developmental aspects of somebody who 'learns to kill'.

This blog is a continuation from the previous blog in this series:

http://crimesjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/12/day-77-international-crime-research.html


To summarize - the next few blogs with focus on the final aspects of how 'X' learned how to use and be comfortable with violence/crime:

-At seventeen years old, while a junior in high school, X was invited to a club with a friend. While waiting for the friend a man in the club picked a fight with X. A stranger comes to his defense and beats up the bully. X spends the rest of the evening talking to this man (Vince) and befriending him. 

- Towards the end of the evening when it comes to paying the bill, vince offers to pay. Vincent tosses a $100.00 bill onto the table. X, accustomed to teenager’s wages, was overwhelmed by such extravagance. He didn’t know who Vincent was, but he was anxious to find out, as he was intrigued by this courageous, generous man. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to associate a positive experience to seeing people act with bravery and to associate positive belief systems around what I am seeing and understanding - due to how I grew up with the pre-programmed belief-system that good, strong, courageous actions are to be seen in a specific way.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to then define the individual as trustworthy and of strength, due to them acting in ways that resonante with me - meaning in ways that I have already associated values to - which allow me to automatically respond positively to the person or situation, without ever bothering to ask or check who this person is and whether their actions are in honor of Life and What is Best for All or only their own self-interest.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to through the development of friendship and closeness to the idea of who this person or event is -to completely disregard the rest of my world and the world in general as I will follow this good feeling, while never considering that there are billions of beings on this planet each day who suffer, while I follow the blissful energetic experience associated to this one person or event - placing myself in a mind-bubble of bliss, which indicates my own self interest and that my definition of strength or courage has therefore nothing to do with real courage.strength, but about who or what can I attain my own self-interest through.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to categorize courage and strength into 'who will serve my needs' and thus within this world we see that the real problems such as war, poverty, abuse never get sorted out - because war, poverty and abuse always serves somebody's self interest and therefore nobody wants to change it, because everybody knows they gain in life from permitting such atrocities.

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I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to remain permissive of war, poverty and abuse as I see, realize and understand that it serves me and my life on this planet - but at the same time my own conscious will bother me and therefore by creating diversions such as charities and causes -I get to apease my conscious by pretending to show an interest in the suffering of a particular group - while ignoring the actual problems underlying all forms of abuse within the world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself just like the 'serial-killer' in this story to project an image of bravery and strength onto one person or group, so that I may protect my self interest and my life and money - while obviously never stopping to consider that there is abuse in the world happening due to the world systems I give permission to - which I will not change as it serves me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to through this projection-effect, create and participate in causes and charities into which I wil, invest emotion and feeling energy such as empathy and strength - so that as the world together -we can all claim we do look out for the best interest of all because we support 'charities.''

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to follow ideologies around strength where I will deliberately misguide myself into believing that strength for example is in how agressive, dominant, protective, sneaky, or wealthy you are - not realizing that in fact I am only therefore protecting what protects my comfortable existence and therefore have never actually considered what strength and compassion would be as I do not consider the consequences of my existence here and the impact my existence has on Life as this Physical Reality.

I commit myself that when and as I find myself placing hope, fear or even desire within another person, object or event - to stop, breathe and remind myself to remain here within my principle of self first - meaning to not create personality constructs and characters that require energy through relationships to characters in the world - and that i walk in self-support of myself, but also what is required to bring about a change in the world

as I commit myself when and as I find myself justifying why our current world systems are acceptable, as I slip into the character of acceptance - to stop, and through my dedication to Life which is me, to remain stable and focussed and to never settle for justifications and excuses in a world where Abuse is still existent.

Day 3: International Crime Research - Why does immigration exist?

http://edition.cnn.com/2012/04/26/opinion/passel-cohn-mexican-immigration/index.html?hpt=wo_c2

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the other people and beings I share this planet with through borders, nations, countries.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate all the people living in this world through class, categories, cultures and standing in society.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to develop and design borders, countries and nations, through which I allow the separation of self.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to design border, countries and nations, through which I justify the separation of humanity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing borders and separation, through which I have allowed countless beings to be abused simply because they live in a different country than myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing greed to exist, based on me wanting to withhold resources from other beings, through creating and separating us through borders, nations and countries.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to deceive others and to be deceived through the entire concept and idea of ‘different countries.’

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing us as humanity to separate ourselves into different countries, not realizing we do so from the starting point of greed and fear of loss and fear of each other.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear other human beings and through this participated in creating different countries and borders as a means of keeping others away from me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to deceive other humans through greed and self-interest, causing others to fear and mistrust me, causing them to want to divide us through borders and countries.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that earth is not divided into borders and countries and openly provides land and resources regardless of your skin color or where on the planet you originate from.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize the harm that has been done in the form of separation and abuse of life on this planet, simply through separating beings into classes and groups and nations – which is a direct outflow of me wanting to control resources and to control my own self-interest to survive over others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make up the excuse ‘we have to have different countries so we can manage the people and the resources’ – as this has clearly been a justification used for me to not have to change myself to no longer abuse others and the resources, but to continue lying and deceiving others so that I may survive and have a comfortable life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the existence of the elite through separating people into areas and countries of class and power, instead of equally providing and sharing for all beings living on this planet.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the existence of ‘culture’ and nationality’ as an excuse to abuse people and resources from other countries because they are not ‘from my country’ whom I ‘serve and protect’.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe in and justify the existence of separate resources and management of people – instead of realizing this has only been used as a means of power and greed for the rich to get richer instead of equally supporting all life on this planet.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the excuse of ‘but how else will you manage everyone’ through the real reason of separation is hidden which is to protect the ego of the human in self-interest.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as a deceitful human, unable to be trusted in a group called humanity, unable to share all the resources between all humans and unable to care for all life.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing countries from the starting point of effective management and instead rather fear human nature and avoid directing this mess we have made by continually accepting our current governments and ways of living.

I commit myself to bring about an equality based world system where we change what is currently here as abusive practices to practices and principles that support all life.

I commit myself to standing for all life, working towards sustainable solutions for all based on what is best for all.

I commit myself to change the current world system designs such as politics and separation through borders into principles based on what is best for all life therefore…

I commit myself to changing the current design of countries and separate structural placements of humans based on the desire for power and greed to functionality and the effective use of resources for all people living in a country.

I commit myself to ensuring that countries no longer exist as places where we hide from each other, but simply manageable areas where equal people live.

I commit myself to changing the current world system, from separate countries fighting with other countries over resources to countries that all work together to make sure the inhabitants are all equally, globally taken care of.

I commit myself to ensure and implement a new world system that will remove the current value systems we have given ‘countries’ and ‘cultures’ to get to a point of establishing effective resource management globally, equally on all countries to take care of all the inhabitants.

I commit myself to stop any form of separation within myself between myself and another, which is the cause of separation in the world as ‘countries’ and cultures’ – to align myself at all times to equality and oneness with all beings on this planet.

I commit myself to stop any and all forms of separation as superior and inferior standards according to which we have labeled people and countries as an excuse to dominate and steal from each other.

I commit myself to ensure that all beings are treated equally starting within my own environment up to the global level through which I ensure that all who inhabit this planet are equally taken care of and that countries are equally developed and have equal standing  within the principle of what is best for all.